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Adventures in flirting.

Step 1. EYE CONTACT

So I have been trying to push myself to actually attempt at flirting after being single my entire life. Today's mission was eye contact.

I am incredibly good at presenting a friendly, smiley, sensible person to the world, as long as no-one gets too close.

I therefore have this fear of any guy looking at me in the eye, and seeing my imperfections, or reading my true emotions.

So today, I am proud to say I stood firm and hel the eye contact! And it actually resulted in me feeling like I was more engaged with the person, and built a stronger connection.

I will continue to practice holding eye contact, as I think I could get used to it!

#anxiety recovery #body acceptance #hypothalmic amenorrhea recovery #bad flirting #flirting help #adventures in flirting

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tiramisu am i right

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A guy asked me the dreaded question today.

"Wait...have you ever actually been in a relationship?"

How do I tell people that the emotional centre of my brain went into a coma at 18, and so for the next ten years my analytical brain went into overdrive trying to get me through life with logic and therapy and research.

Only for me now to have my emotional centre suddenly turn on again 11 years later... resulting in my understanding of relationships to be simultaneously wise beyond my years, and also clueless??

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people are saying everything is a love language nowadays. and they right. love is in everything u fucking geniuses

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from @caramia on ig . “@odylynetheceremony”

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from @caramia on ig . “@odylynetheceremony”

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Fall in love with the process of leveling yourself up.

Try new things

Hiking

Piano lessons

Painting

Pottery class

Solo dates

Museums

Yoga

Vlogs/youtube

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Fun fact. When I was at the HEIGHT of a full blown *d1sorderdmindsetaroundfood"* I was eating what many would consider a very very healthy diet. and I couldn't understand why everyone didn't just eat this way. I was convinced It was the best way to eat for health, and for the planet. And despite my arguably unhealthy mental state, there were still things I said about food and nutrition that were technically correct.

That is to say, I wasn't completely wrong about nutrition. But that is not to say that I was right either.

Eating my perfect diet was isolating. It was hard to navigate and put me in a state of stress as doing many things I enjoyed weren't as easy with strict food rules. There was also an "othering" that occurred as I distanced myself from social groups when I couldn't partake in the same food as them.

So I ask myself. Was this healthy? Was this wonderful diet of mine really the key to wellbeing when it caused everything else in my life to suffer?

Food and nutrition is so SO complex. People need different foods depending on geographical location, income, epigenetics, social obligations, preferences abd more. Naturally as humans we seek out the right and wrong, black and white rules to find a one size gits all diet, but this just isn't possible.

Those who think they have the perfect diet figured out, or try to aggressively push their lifestyle on others, either don't know enough about reality, or have highly inflated egos.

#nutrition #recovery #hypothalamic amenorrhea #body acceptance #hypothalmic amenorrhea recovery #hypothalmicamenorrhea recovery

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Huh.

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Does anyone else get really nostalgic for 80s/90s "suburban" America, even though they aren't from the US, nor did actually they live through that time

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5 years ago, I hung up my running shoes, realising that my obsrssive running routine was holding me back from full recovery.

And in those 5 years, I got my period back, found new ways to love my body.... and thought I may never return to running.

But today, I had a longing to move in a way that was strong and powerful. I went on a 15 minute run and LOVED IT. This time I i was running for the joy, and celebration of being alive in my body.

What a moment.

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I'm a romantic and I am ready to start living like it.

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This is absolutely a reflection of my future home.