23 OCTOBER 2020
The library is a classic example of an ancient building in the old town turnt into municipal offices turnt into temporary library where you can hear outside the window street vendors yelling in the typical Italian way how they have the best mushrooms on sale. I love it here :)
So, uh, a lot has happened since my last post… No, seriously. Let’s start off with this new course because I was not expecting that the content was this heavy. It kind of took me by surprise. Thankfully, I’m not behind on anything (yet). I would be lying if I say that it hasn’t been stressful to keep it that way. It’s taking me a lot of time to go through just one lecture (maybe like 4-6 hours depending on how dense it is). However, the method I’ve been trying now has been working well as the content is still fresh in my head. I’m still trying to work as efficiently as I can, but sometimes you just have to bury your face in a book for a few hours when you don’t understand something 😭 . Okay, on to the main point.
On top of my studies, I’m still recovering from a depressive episode. Whenever I get depressed, I tend to work myself to the ground because I see schoolwork as an escape from my thoughts.
Does it benefit me academically? Sure.
Is it healthy? Hell no.
I remember my post in January that said: “Who do you want to be?”. I said I wanted someone who overcame, so I went through my list of goals and checked out the ones that I achieved.
Okay on a more serious note: even if this year has 3 months left, it’s not too late to turn things around. I’ve decided to prioritise on working on myself in different aspects. Spiritually, mentally, emotionally, academically, and all the other words ending in -ally. These last 2 weeks or so has been a series of me just signing up to things (if it fits into my schedule of course haha). Doing this was not easy because anxious Dan has just been yelling doubts into my ear. And I had to ignore all that and tell it to shut up 🤗. This also means, no more relying on unhealthy coping mechanisms. AAAAAAAA. Soooo, yeah let me end it there.
Well hello there, long time no see hahah. I just wanted to start with saying a massive thank you to all my 1011 followers!!! That’s a fuck ton of people hahah! Honestly, when I made this blog I didn’t think I would even get 100 followers so THANK YOU!! I love all of you with my entire heart 🥺
Anyway! Life for the past month has been quite hectic, with school being stressful, miss Rona going to town here in Denmark and the winter depression slowly creeping up on me… but we’re powering through! I had an extra French midterm today, and I think that it went okay! And what more can you ask for 🤷🏼♀️
An exciting thing!! I’ve been accepted into my school’s masterclass in English movies and literature, so I’m really pumped about that! We had our first session yesterday where we watched and discussed The Shining (pls don’t kill me,,, but the book is so superior to the movie in my opinion omg). Now we’re reading To Kill a Mockingbird and are going to discuss that in November! And I’m really excited.
We had autumn break last week, and it was very much needed hahah. I did nothing except knit, read and watch movies. A perfect week! I have found that the only problem with knitting is that you can’t read while doing it :( (at least I can’t). I hope October is (trick!) and treating all of you well! We deserve it :)
🎧 - Free of Charge (The Band CAMINO)
21.10.20. it’s been a while :’) so many things happened since I last posted… I came back from my year abroad, started my last year of law school (all online, stuck in the countryside with no friends and no access to therapy), had so many meltdowns about what to do after I graduate… I’ve been comparing myself to other people in the studyblr community and feeling like such a failure but!! I celebrated a huge step (8 months!) in my recovery, had some online dates with my boyfriend, tried painting with acrylics for the first time (any tips?), got a new plant, and came across many dogs on my daily walks. I hope all of you are staying safe and looking after yourselves! 💕
I always find it peaceful when I get up early and do my homework. Don’t get me wrong I’m very tired and I have to consume several cups of coffee before I’m fully awake. But I always feel like I get so much accomplished this way. It’s quiet and I can focus on my tasks. Little things like this bring me much joy.
oct 22. 20 - well i’m almost done w week 3 of my uc santa cruz class! even though i’m still a community college student, i’m taking a ucsc class through cross enrollment. i hope doing well in this class will help w my admission into the university (my grade will be on my transcripts) | here are some notes from the first week of the quarter🌿
Day 21 || Tag someone you think works really hard and deserves appreciationOf course! None other than @divinity-study !!! Keep posting about your studies!!! I like reading your posts, you make me feel productive ☺️💕
Day 22 || Tag some who makes you smile@rosielearnsthings Bruuh 🥺🥺🥺 Thank youuu so much 😭 Really (
need that and) appreciate that 😖@serendistudy and Thank youuu for complimenting my handwriting 🥺🤍 and always tagging me in your posts 🥰 I LIKE SEEING THEM <3@a-poeticallychaotic-bee YOOOO!!! I also always check your blog but your commentaries always make me smile too! :D My fellow rain buddies and brown aes mutual~
Day 23 || Tag someone whose blog you always checkBRUH… Of course my fellow gradblrs @phdead @phd-students-diamond @becdoesbiomed It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one suffering the grad life, you know? Hahahaksjdh jk!!!Also don’t wanna miss a post from @a-poeticallychaotic-bee @museeofmoon @divinity-study @serendistudy @rylie-studies @philology-studies @mistymoon 💕❤️And the aesthetics of @/caeruleuz and @/sadcypher 🤎
23 October 2020
Pictured are my notes from Media and Communication Theory (love this subject!) and my agenda. Lots and lots do to this week, as well as next week. I have a presentation next week which I finally started preparing for. It’s still just some rough notes though.
Woke up with a stinging sensation in my heart today and muscle pain developed during the day - probably all because of stress for deadlines and exams (at least, I hope it’s nothing more serious)😅 But I still managed to do a lot today: I worked on my assignment, read for another subject and wrote a letter on Slowly. Things feel like a little too much at the moment, so I’m going to go to bed earlier. This sucks because it changes my daily routine and I have trouble handling changes but it needs to be done! :)