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Remember

Remember no matter how desolate, how bleak this moment feels, YOU have survived every moment already passed.

Remember, you will survive this one too, and tomorrow it will be just a moment, just a memory.

Remember, tomorrow you can sparkle even if today you lost your shine.

#dead poets society #poets corner #inspiration #life quotes #hope #writers #poets on tumblr

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Lost Sometimes even when you are fully aware of where you are, of where you are exactly existing in time, the ability to feel lost in familiar surroundings is as real as the air we breathe. Yet how can we still feel lost when we know where we are going? and the destination is the place we chose to travel to? the journey is one we are taking voluntarily? Maybe we just lose a tiny piece of ourselves along the way, and while we replace that piece with another the lost feeling is just us grieving for the part that has gone, because we never meant to lose that piece in the first place, we lost it carelessly. Today, I feel lost, yet I know I wasn’t careless. The piece that is missing is an important piece, it is a piece I needed to hold on to. I tried so hard to hold on to it, I have held that exact piece for 22 years, such a long time, yet somehow without me being careless it fell from my grip. That piece was my strength, my fight, that piece ensured my very survival, my very existance, my ability to get to my destination. For 22 years I have been dying, that is a long time to be dying in which it almost makes it no longer real, yet it is, as real today as it was back then when the news was first relayed. I am not good at dying, I am good at surviving, at fighting. I am good at strength, yet today this is the piece I have lost. Today I am tired, tired of dying, tired of strength, tired of survival. Today I am lost and I am going to rest, take a break. Tomorrow, I will pick up a different piece for a while, tomorrow I will pick up determination and use that piece to relocate my piece of strength, and stop feeling lost.

#poets on tumblr #poets corner #new poets society #behcets #spoonie

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Lesson

This lesson that your teaching me I hope you realise Is a dangerous game to play Flip it for a second Put on my shoes And live my day Think my thoughts Feel my feelings Carry my pain

How does it feel To be me

I try to wear your shoes Look through your eyes I try to see what you see And feel what you feel But through your eyes The only colours are black and white There is no grey.

I have already learned many lessons More than you could teach I have worn many shoes Grasped for things out of reach But the distance you have put between us To teach me a lesson that I can’t learn Maybe several miles too far, this time For you to ever come back home.

#spilled ink #dead poets society

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Lesson

This lesson that your teaching me I hope you realise Is a dangerous game to play Flip it for a second Put on my shoes And live my day Think my thoughts Feel my feelings Carry my pain How does it feel To be me I try to wear your shoes Look through your eyes I try to see what you see And feel what you feel But through your eyes The only colours are black and white There is no grey. I have already learned many lessons More than you could teach I have worn many shoes Grasped for things out of reach But the distance you have put between us To teach me a lesson that I can't learn Maybe several miles too far, this time For you to ever come back home.

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See

I don’t think you see the real me, You just see what you want to see,

A girl that is smiling, Eyes shining bright, But what about the tears?, That fall in the night,

I pick you all up, And dust down your knees, Help you feel strong, Encourage your beliefs,

I hold you all close, I wrap you in love, Cover you in courage, When things become tough,

Make you believe in yourself, And see the beauty inside, Help you learn from mistakes, And hold your head with pride,

I give you my everything, Till there’s nothing to give, Would even give up my life, If it would help you to live,

And

In return you don’t see me, You just see what you need, You don’t understand, How it feels to be me,

In pain everyday, Body broken and used, Feeling invisible sometimes, Feeling lonely an confused,

I just want you to love me, To make me feel strong, To tell me it’s ok, When things go wrong,

I want you to notice, That I’m hurting too, Yet I still try to devote, My everything to you,

I want you to see me, Not just what you want to see, All I really will ever want, Is for you to love, the real me .

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Guilt

Why should I feel guilty? For what? Yet somehow I do, I feel guilty every day, I feel guilty because of you, Yet, you don’t even know me, you have no impact on my life, you are not part of any existence, that helps keep me alive. So why do I feel guilty? I feel guilty because of you,

I feel guilty because of your ignorance, Your lack of knowledge, your own greed. I feel guilty because your unable, Unable to distinguish, the truth underneath, On the Outside I look fine, I smile, I live, I love and I laugh, Even the crutch, That holds me up, Looks beautiful, Decorated in decoupage, So why do I feel guilty? I feel guilty because of you,

I feel guilty because my disease is invisible, Because it’s rare and misunderstood, Because you don’t feel my pain, Can’t see the bad, Just the good, Because on the outside, I look healthy, Like I’m living a total lie, And you can’t see the destruction, Deep inside, As, I, wait to die, So why do I feel guilty? I feel guilty because of you!

I pray one day, You feel guilty, You feel as guilty as hell, When you watch my family mourn, And finally realise, I really wasn’t well, I wasn’t in this for the money, I wasn’t trying to con, I really was dying, And you were really wrong, I hope one day you feel guilty, You feel guilty because of me, My one regret I have, Is I won’t be around you, to see!

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It took me a long time to realise that beauty, is a healthy mind is a healthy body and nothing more. I’m still working on it but one day one day, I’ll look back and wonder why I hated myself so much.

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Wish

I wish, Just for once, One tiny moment, One solitary second, You saw me, like I see you. I wish,

#poetry #love

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Beautiful

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Guilt

Why should I feel guilty? For what? Yet somehow I do, I feel guilty every day, I feel guilty because of you, Yet, you don't even know me, you have no impact on my life, you are not part of any existence, that helps keep me alive. So why do I feel guilty? I feel guilty because of you, I feel guilty because of your ignorance, Your lack of knowledge, your own greed. I feel guilty because your unable, Unable to distinguish, the truth underneath, On the Outside I look fine, I smile, I live, I love and I laugh, Even the crutch, That holds me up, Looks beautiful, Decorated in decoupage, So why do I feel guilty? I feel guilty because of you, I feel guilty because my disease is invisible, Because it's rare and misunderstood, Because you don't feel my pain, Can't see the bad, Just the good, Because on the outside, I look healthy, Like I'm living a total lie, And you can't see the destruction, Deep inside, As, I, wait to die, So why do I feel guilty? I feel guilty because of you! I pray one day, You feel guilty, You feel as guilty as hell, When you watch my family mourn, And finally realise, I really wasn't well, I wasn't in this for the money, I wasn't trying to con, I really was dying, And you were really wrong, I hope one day you feel guilty, You feel guilty because of me, My one regret I have, Is I won't be around you, to see!

#rejectscorner #life #chronic illness #invisable #poetry #behcets #spoonie

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See

I don't think you see the real me, You just see what you want to see, A girl that is smiling, Eyes shining bright, But what about the tears?, That fall in the night, I pick you all up, And dust down your knees, Help you feel strong, Encourage your beliefs, I hold you all close, I wrap you in love, Cover you in courage, When things become tough, Make you believe in yourself, And see the beauty inside, Help you learn from mistakes, And hold your head with pride, I give you my everything, Till there's nothing to give, Would even give up my life, If it would help you to live, And In return you don't see me, You just see what you need, You don't understand, How it feels to be me, In pain everyday, Body broken and used, Feeling invisible sometimes, Feeling lonely an confused, I just want you to love me, To make me feel strong, To tell me it's ok, When things go wrong, I want you to notice, That I'm hurting too, Yet I still try to devote, My everything to you, I want you to see me, Not just what you want to see, All I really will ever want, Is for you to love, the real me .

#poetry #rejectscorner #love #life #inspirational quote #life quotes #my life

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Birth

It’s killing me this, Not going to survive, Blood mixed with sweat, Can’t believe I’m alive,

Screams from my body, Why can’t you hear, They’re trying to kill me, They’re making that clear,

I try to escape, I’m pleading, no more, Begging for mercy, Eyes pinned on the door,

Can’t believe your just watching, I can see you smile, As my body is tortured, And my mind is defiled,

I slip into darkness, The end now near, The pain tremendous, a piercing cry I hear,

And then,

It’s all over, The pain is gone, My mind re-joins reality, My heart fills with song,

For no longer am I just, Friend, foe or wife, I am now your mother, I have just given you life.

#poets on tumblr #rejectscorner #life

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I am already the richest woman of history, for I already have four of the worlds most priceless possessions........my children x

#life quotes #love #inspiration #poetry #parenting

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Following Spree

I need more blogs to follow so please reblog if you post any of these things!

- Otherkin of any kind

- Poetry/Stories

- Pagan stuff

- Pretty landscapes

- Humour 

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Dear future lover, Please don’t walk into this Not knowing me, Because art can only be interpreted so much Before the interpretation is wrong Know me like a map Because some roads are blocked, Others are broken, And in need of bridges Make sure you wipe your feet And was your hands Before entering my heart For it is fragile and broken Remember you are not medicine And do not be mad When some days my world is crashing down And I want to be alone Don’t run When I am hard to deal with Because no matter what, I’ll chase after Door are hard to open Some keys I’ll give you, Some keys you’ll have to find, Some doors you may just need to break My fears surround me Learn to get around them Before you demolish them, Or they may eat you away too Take my iPod Listen to every playlist On every app, Each song says a different thing about me When I am sad Do not tell me to suck it up Because when I’m sad It means I sucked it up for too long No matter how strong I act I am so gentle, Broken in one blow, Please don’t be too rough I read a lot It’s my escape without suicide, Let me escape Because at least I’m breathing Read my poetry Again, And again Because you’re reading straight into my soul Kiss me like you are on fire Give my cold lips some ignite Warm my heart, Put a fire in my eyes Most of all, Know that through all of it I will love you endlessly Forever and always.

you have to be out there, i hope you read this // (h.d.m.)

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Calling all poetry/spilled ink/writing blogs...

If you post or reblog all or mostly writing, reblog this post and I’ll follow you! Looking for a bounty of good writing to fill my dashboard, and my queue :)

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I imagine waking up next to you when we are in our 70’s, the grandchildren will sleep over on the weekends, and Sunday mornings will be spent dancing to your favorite songs. If that isn’t a sign that maybe, maybe this is it, then I have yet to understand what it means to have walls crumble from simply glancing at perfection.

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