buckyskorpion

[buckyskorpion]

😤 I’m in kind of a spot. I’ve never actually seen any of the the Avengers movies or the ones before them, but people have spoiled them enough for me to know the jist of every movie. Since I started reading Avengers fanfiction, I’ve had this constant flow of ideas and now I’m sitting here, starting at an outline for an Avengers firefighter AU, but I don’t know the characters well enough to write any of them, so I don’t know what to do. Do I just throw it all out?

i think of u wanna write it and it makes u happy then go for it!!! there are no rules to writing (well except for the like don’t be racist and bigoted ones) and if u want to and it brings u joy then i don’t see why you couldn’t. if u want to make the characters a bit more ‘canon’ then maybe read some more fics, research, or watch a few of the movies but honestly do u boo, it’s ur writing u can do what u wanna do

[buckyskorpion]

DESTINY!! coming back on here and reading ur lovey amazing beautiful comments on 11 hours has brought me to TEARS thank u so much!! i’m so happy you enjoy it it really means the world to me 🥺🥺 i love u!!

11 hours - part seven

Pairing: Biker!Bucky x Reader

Summary: bucky is the mystery you can’t wait to solve. if you can get out of his bed long enough, that is. a biker au.

Warnings: gang-typical violence, sex scenes, alcohol mentions, probably more to come so stay tuned

A/N: hello i apologise in advance. pls dont hurt me!!! i would appreciate your feedback and your theories about where this fic is going! i hope this part isn’t too….. upsetting lmao. i wont be taking tags for this so please dont ask.

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You believed, until now, that you walked the world seeking out dark corners and underbellies other people didn’t want to touch. That’s your job. The current case you’re supposed to be working on involves a man suspected of drugging his girlfriend to take nonconsensual nudes of her and sell them to his friends while she slept. You’re well aware the world is a dangerous place.

But things look different now, in a way you never could have imagined before the Lerna. Those men were dead before you could blink, and you know life is expendable and fragile and so easy to take but it’s another thing to see it taken before your eyes. It’s another thing to take it yourself. And you know, now, why Bucky would only show you parts of his life and himself because this whole truth feels like staring directly into the sun - painfully bright, to the point where it’s all you can see and all the good things are reduced to a spotty, hazy blur.

You’re sitting in your office, at your desk where you’re trying to work but you can’t get the sound of bullet casings hitting the floor and the thunk of a knife in skin out of your head. There, in the centre of your tiny office, was where you sat on Bucky’s lap and kissed him and demanded ‘no secrets.’ Too stubborn to know he was keeping them for a reason, that maybe there are things you don’t want to know after all. But you can feel his skin under your fingertips and the brush of his stubble as he kissed you, a memory you can touch, and you can’t help but think it still feels worth it. At the end of it all, if it was a choice of the Lerna happening or never having Bucky at all, you know what you’d chose.

As if he can hear you, your phone buzzes with a text from him. Joey’s at 7?

It’s already 6:30. You’re grabbing your keys and leaving the fear on your desk chair as you text him back. Sounds perfect.

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#comment reblog

[buckyskorpion]

good morning ladies and gaydies i have arisen from my depressive hole and am now sitting in the sun with my dog

what we up to today

[buckyskorpion]

hi tess! i know we’ve never talked but i saw your post and i just wanted to tell how truly sorry i am that that happened to you. i hope that you are doing better and taking care of yourself

thank you 💖 i’ll be fine eventually i’m sure

[buckyskorpion]

I am so sorry you went through that, Tess. You are definitely not being dramatic. It sounds absolutely terrifying, I hope you can talk to someone and feel more safe as soon as possible 💙💙💙💙 (i also hope he gets hit by a car)

thank you suz 💜 that means a lot, i’m tryna get the courage to tell my best friend but it’s not going well haha

[buckyskorpion]

hey tess, i saw what happened. i'm just here to add that you're not overreacting (!!!!!!) and that i'm very sorry for what happened. take some time to sort your feelings about what happened and know you'll have support if you decide to pursue something more... also, my day has overall sucked since i'm trying to work on my thesis and not advancing, tho. don't call ur dealer! :(

thank u my love 💖 imma just pretend it never happened i think lmaooo

i’m sorry boo!! theses are so difficult and i’m so impressed and proud you’re writing one! good luck, i’m rooting for you

[buckyskorpion]

omg i can’t verify my email so i can’t send a message but dude ur not overreacting!! your post feels like there’s not much of a reaction at all:( there is NOTHING ok about that and you have every right to feel any way you want towards it. i hope u feel better:( sending my love

thank u so much :( i just don’t know what to do ya know i wanna go back in tiiiiiime

[buckyskorpion]

I love you I love you. You’re not being dramatic at all I’m glad you’re safe and I’m always with you if you need anything friend

thank u bby that means a lot 💖

[buckyskorpion]

not me getting a snapchat from that guy........ hello 000

[buckyskorpion]

Sweetheart, you obviously did not consent and I am so sorry you went through that. It sounds like maybe you should report that to the police and tell someone you trust. You should not have to face that alone. What he did was definitely not okay and is against the law. I encourage you to report it (when you feel ready, of course). And don’t forget that you are strong and brave, and this will not break you. You will get through this and we will be here for you.

i don’t wanna go to the police but i appreciate the advice 💜 thank u so much ahhh y’all are too nice to me i can’t 🥺🥺 love you

[buckyskorpion]

Also! I know people have already said this, but I'd just like to reiterate: you are not being dramatic and this is in no way your fault. As someone who has had to fight those two same thoughts before, I know it's sometimes hard to convince yourself otherwise, but this isn't on you. At all. You deserve to feel safe and respected, and I'm just so so sorry this happened. You're such a wonderful person, and I just wish I could do something to help, honey. 😔🥺

ahhh omg i could cry thank u so much 💖 i really can’t help but feel so guilty lmao but i know it’s not on me rationally

[buckyskorpion]

1/3 English isn't my first language and it's very late so if anything in this isn't expressed in the best way, I apologize. - You are not 'just being dramatic'. Your feelings and your experience are vaild. They are yours and no one can tell you they aren't true or correct or something, that's not how feelings work. If what happened to you makes you feel bad or sad/confusd, or that it simply does not sit right with you - this may perhaps mostly likely be because what happend to you wasn't ok.

2/3 -That what happened was wrong and should not have happen to you or anyone else. I obviously do not know you or am in a position to judge, but going on what you wrote it really seems like this is the case. I really am not well versed, but if you blacked out from being drunk you may not have been able to give consent to what happend. You do not have any suspicion of having been drugged? Please try to talk to someone you trust about this or even go to the police?

3/3 If you have anyone you feel like you perhaps could talk about this with in real life, I'd really try and do that. I don't think keeping this to yourself at least is very good. And truly, know that this is not your fault, at all. The one whose in the wrong here is the guy, not you. I'm really sorry this happened to you. Sending you all the love and sorry for my bad English

first of all ur english is amazing so don’t even worry about that omg!! thank you so much for trusting and validating me it means so much 💖 i don’t think i was drugged but then again i have no idea, and i deffo don’t wanna go to the police :( thank you again so so much ily 💜💜

[buckyskorpion]

Honey, I'm so sorry about what happened. Your feelings are 100000% valid. If you need anything at all, if there's anything I can do, PLEASE don't hesitate to lemme know. My dms are always open, honey. Pls take care of yourself, ily.💕

thank u so much destiny 💜 i really appreciate u being there for me

[buckyskorpion]

anyway uh..... other than my apparently traumatic experience, hows everyones week going??

[buckyskorpion]

hi lovely! You’re not being dramatic about this at all and you cannot blame yourself for this. Even if you’ve hooked up before, he has no right to do it again without consent. The fact you can’t remember anything either is bound to make you feel more traumatised as theres a fear of the unknown. Regardless you deserve better and no one should touch you without consent. ever. He’s the only one to blame. We are all here for you

thank u bby this really does mean a lot. i’m too scared to tell anyone i know irl so it means a lot you guys have my back 💜

[buckyskorpion]

i would honestly be more worried if you weren't feeling like this. these are totally normal emotions. it's good you know that. that guilt is totally normal. you want to think there's some logical reason this happened. especially because it was a friend, you don't want to think they'd do something like that. but he did. he took advantage of you and nothing YOU DID had to do with that. he knew the score and he made a choice. HE DID THIS! he forced these feelings on you. none of this is your fault!

i just don’t wanna believe that i guess bc he was supposed to care about me....... but yeah you’re right i just don’t know what to do know lol like do i just live with this??? ughhhh

[buckyskorpion]

Babe I'm so sorry that happened. I don't think you're being dramatic at all.. you didn't consent. Please don't blame yourself - it is not your fault at all. None of this "well I shouldn't have-" shit. Bottom line no consent. If a store has something by the door and it gets stolen, it's still stolen. Doesn't matter it was close to the door, no one has a right to steal.

thank you guys honestly i could cry rn ive never felt this validated in my life lmao 💖💖 y’all are the best