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Leg tattoos >>>>

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my mental state is: if you give me a long hug, i might start crying

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sorry for short answers i don’t necessarily want to be alive right now

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Cluster B culture is periodically wanting to burn down your current life, start over somewhere new, become a new person.

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I love your blog, but i dont think i can ever get over this. How did you learn to recover, and let yourself do what your body needs?

I'm glad you feel that way about my blog, and I'm very sorry that you see it that way.

Recovery isn't something that suddenly happens one day, it takes time to break a habit and the path is full of relapses that are very hard to avoid. However, that doesn't mean that it's impossible or unachievable. It never is. You're still recovering even if you relapsed.

Anon, you're so strong for being here with us, for asking, for looking for help. I hope you know that, and that you realize that there's a lot of hope for you. The future is bright. <3

The first thing is to ask yourself why you may be doing this.

For example, if you're recovering from a restrictive eating disorder, you may ask yourself:

When did this start? (Have I always had this disorder or disordered thoughts?)

Why did it start? (What motivated me to start harming myself this way?)

Why do I continue to do it? (Has it become an addiction/a necessity to starve/purge/over-exercise/etc. or am I doing it with the same objective I had from the beginning? Or both?)

How can I stop it? (Can I get proffesional help? Can I replace it with a healthier habit? Has anyone else found a way to recover that may work for me?)

These questions require a lot of thought put into them. Sometimes you're so deep in your personal rabbit hole of misery that you forget that your reality isn't just this, that there's more to you and that just because it has become a part of your daily life, it doesn't mean that you won't be able to change.

You've changed before. You've changed a lot of things about your habits, you can do it again and you will do it again, I believe you're 100% capable of it.

You can also do a list of pros of recovery. Here's an example from someone who deals with a self-harm addiction:

I won't have to hide my scars.

I won't panic about people seeing my arms/legs/etc.

I will be able to swim in the summer.

I won't have to constantly take care of my wounds and worry that they're infected.

I won't be in constant pain.

I won't spend as much money in medical care.

I won't spend as much money in tools to sh.

I will be able to go on walks and practice the sports I like.

I won't have infected wounds that may smell bad.

I will be in a better mood.

I will have more time to focus on things I actually like.

I will feel healthier mentally.

I will feel more comfortable when taking baths.

I will be able to wear nice clothes without being scared of showing old scars.

Talking to a loved one is also of great help. I have very nice friends that understand that I have an addiction and never blame me or shame me for my relapses, this may apply to your friends, family, psychologist/therapist, etc.

Sometimes you may feel like no one will understand, or you may feel so drained that you can't talk to anyone about it and you start self-isolating.

When that happens, you can:

Reassure yourself: write it down or think about it, just vent to an imaginary someone. Go over your own thoughts and try to give advice to yourself, either as if you were someone else, yourself as a little child, or just yourself.

Distract yourself: sometimes you just need to think about something else. Go watch your favorite show, listen to your favorite music or podcast, read a book or a comic/manga, clean, go for a walk, bake something, etc.

Let it out: just cry, it will be alright. Crying can make you less stressed. Do something nice for someone or yourself, and move on. Cry while cuddling with your pet, or cry while hugging a pillow and then go have your favorite drink or (safe) food. Do something calm. Take your time.

I'm very sorry that you feel like recovery won't work for you. Just now that you're not alone, that other people have these thoughts too and that they understand. I understand. Sometimes I feel like I won't get better, and when I think of my future I see myself with the same addiction because "it's now a part of me".

Hey, don't worry, it's not a part of you. You can detach yourself from it no matter how much time it takes, and whatever time it takes I'll be here for you in every step. You can always count on me with that, and I'm sure there's someone in your life that will do the same, even if you don't know them yet.

Is there a particular reason why you feel like you won't ever recover? Can you solve it or learn to cope with it? Can talking help?

My inbox is open if you need anything, please take care.

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What the fuck is wrong with my brain

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i deadass be chilling and then suddenly the thoughts happen and then im freaking out and on the verge of suicide and then i’m fine again

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sorry i can’t come over, im ill with the human experience

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