gansey: adam is TIRED we are DONE for the day everyone pack up your things and go home RONAN take adam to his place MAKE SURE he goes to bed ronan ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?? everyone stop YELLING no wonder adam is tired you people are EXHAUSTING
I have never been concretely sure of who I am, and who I want to be seems to change every month or so. When I find something that I consider important to my identity, I cling to it like a lifeline. I regard it as a part of myself - it is a way of learning about myself. I feel proud of it because it is something I can confidently present to the world. “Look! This is consistently part of my identity! Nice to meet you.” I get overprotective of it. I am terrified that if someone were to love it more, or to somehow prove it was more important to them, it won’t be part of my identity anymore. And that I’ll fade away again.