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[cachien]

Do you ever forget that you have a gender to most people….. meaning that random people at the grocery store see me as a woman and not just a little internet guy

#the genderless anonymity i experienced in a discord made me more deeply understand myself than any article of clothing

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full offense but none of you would have ever survived fanfiction.net in 2009

#miss it sometimes<3 #i remember i knew things had changed when i got a review abt characters being 'toxic' #my hp fanfic i wrote at 14 had toxic characters #and this commenter went 'god i HATE her friends they're all toxic' #like bestie... the interpersonal conflict is part of the storyyyy #and i knew an era had ended

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#me rn (i have a hernia)

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i noticed there's an 'explicit' warning on every other song on the album for the first nine, and it feels like a reflection of the conflicting love stories, like the refined, deep love, six-year relationship vs the chaos and illusions of the rebound, and i feel like that fits neatly with this theory!

my initial interpretation of the album is that there are two parallel storylines: one is about her insanity (her rebound) and the other is about what got her there (the demise of her relationship). the album tries to prove that the former was not real love. he simply gave her the attention she craved while also being just as blue and self-sabotaging as her ex. the storylines converge halfway through the album, and the rest of the songs discuss her grief, rage, perseverance, and ultimate acceptance through gritted teeth.

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this is gonna be my weirdest take yet but "down bad" from ttpd is musically similar to "horses" by PnB Rock, Kodak Black, and A Boogie Wit da Hoodie

#ttpd #taylor swift #horses song #kodak black #pnb rock #a boogie wit da hoodie #can't explain it they're just similar

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how am i just supposed to go to sleep now wtf

down bad being an alien love story???

can we acknowledge "the alchemy" as a sequel to the alien thing bc the whole thing about coming back down sounds like the alien's response to me

football love song

there's SO many references to westerns in this??? holy shit (to be fair when *i* dated a guy from MO i wrote a whole western so fair enough queen but holy shit wHAT)

"i don't know how the west was won" is a reference to a louis l'amour book again with the wESTERNS-

"i can fix him" WESTERN

"florida!!!" is a mURDER BALLAD???

"you're not dylan thomas, i'm not patty smith, this ain't the chelsea hotel," and then does she say "we're modern idiots"???

nobodyyy, no-fuckin'-body, + buried/married rhymes in several songs- girlie went through a black parade phase and you can't convince me otherwise, the MCR vibes in this album are ??? unquestionable, immaculate, healing, traumatizing, i-

the way i had to pause after "i can do it with a broken heart" tore me to shreds and then listen to "the smallest man who ever lived" like that "1-2-3-4!" didn't just split me into a billion pieces like-

new southern romeo & juliet bc "love story" couldn't include the line "i'm having his baby! no i'm not but you should see your faces!" or "i'll tell you something about my good name: it's mine to disgrace"

it's a western it's all a western it's-

like how HOW do i just go to sleep??? what in the hell did i just listen to????? i need to listen to it a billion more times until it makes a fragment of sense or until i've written 20 full-length novels based on the stories told in these songs holy shit-

#ttpd #the tortured poets department #taylor swift #ttpd spoilers

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my fiance and i have been talking home decor all day as we move in to a new place in a month and while laying down tonight i told him "i just want you to know... i'm gonna have a weird little guy in a tank somewhere in the house." and he went "what??" and i said "like a tarantula or a gecko or some little creature like that. maybe an isopod colony." and he's now fully on board with an isopod colony and started brainstorming ways we could feed them with leftover produce. not the outcome i expected but a win for the little guys tonight

#isopods #personal #if you've ever had an isopod colony #talk to me pls

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I'm doing it gang, I've spent stupider gardening money before like when I dropped $300 on shade loving perennial bulbs only to learn they were also plants that rotted with wet feet and all immediately died in my swampy gumbo soil

I'm buying two firefly petunias. I've never grown petunias much because where I live they're a winter annual but fuck it I'll grow them as an indoor plant I certainly have the sun to do it.

They're supposed to ship to me in April, I'll report back on if they immidiately die or this is the coolest thing I own. My biochemical engineering design project was using a similar chemical pathway to modify bacteria to glow in the presence of specific toxins so I absolutely need glowing petunias in my window box

#want want want want want

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when the whole house got the autism

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Throwback thursday to when I was like 12 and I was putting out new writing DAILY...... Like entire Chapters of my then-current wips just, over an afternoon. What the fuck was I on

#the most affirming thing i've ever read

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Casting a spell on you that makes you happy, by the way. Your day tomorrow will be pretty good. Something nice will happen, maybe.

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car just drove past my house blasting ranchera so loudly i clearly heard the words with an ambulance style doppler effect

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#duolingo guy with backwards hat #man is gaslighting the whole court room for sure

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Mom. Get out. I'm doing spells.

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It's cause you're always balduring that damn gate...three

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ITS APRIL 13 YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

FETCH ME NEIL