callmemeg

[callmemeg]

Somewhere, somewhen, a woman sang "labour" to her husband and now I sing "devil's backbone" for her son

#dark academia #dark thoughts #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #literature #labour #labour paris paloma #paris paloma #devil's backbone #song aesthetic #song lyrics #sorry for being depressing #depressing shit #dark fantasy #dark humor #emotional lyrics #black and white #red and black #heart #in love with the villain #lovecore #heartcore #love aesthetic #abuse mention #trauma lyrics #queue #i'm still alive #thanks for asking

[callmemeg]

Ohhhhhhh this is new?! I like me a challenge tho!! I'll send them back 👊🏑💨

Prompt #2

The author stumbled backwards, frantic eyes stuck on the approaching figure, “You-You’re supposed to be dead.”

Character grinned, white pearls sharper than their knife, “Supposed to be. You see, I’m not exactly happy with the way my story ended.”

[callmemeg]

~ Keris Veliant, The Inadequate Heir

Lose the "I would die for you" — you need to live for the people you love

#y'all I'm screaming #to have one of my favorite characters say smth that I posted about so long ago #I FEEL SEEN #😭😭😭 #Keris Veliant #the inadequate heir #danielle l jensen #book quotes #books #fantasy books #quotes #queue #I'm also not dead #just taking a loooooong break #everything is too much lately #see you when I see you #aesthetic #dark thoughts #literature #depressing quotes #motivation #flowers #neon lights #streetart #fields #photography #happy new year

[callmemeg]

You and I are as different as the words "worst" and "baddest". Respectively.

#again ignore the low quality of my shitty camera #queue #aes #chaotic academia #quotes #lovecore #photography #moon photography #moon #🌙 #aesthetic #moon aesthetic #quote aesthetic #grunge #cottagecore #dark photography #dark academia #light academia #light aesthetic #dark aesthetic #it was probably 2am when I came up with that lol #anyway #late night thoughts #one meltdown a day to keep people away #shower thoughts #self love

[callmemeg]

And I can be all the things you told me not to be When you try to come for me, I keep on flourishing And he see the universe when I'm the company It's all in me

god is a woman — Ariana Grande

#chaotic academia #dark academia #dark thoughts #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #nature #nature aesthetic #woman in nature #song lyrics #god is a woman #ariana grande #green aesthetic #lovecore #photography #nature photography #song aesthetic #mother nature #soft academia #cottage core #cottagecore #dark fantasy #dark aesthetic #queue #green moodboard

[callmemeg]

I am thinking of you In my sleepless solitude tonight If it's wrong to love you Then my heart just won't let me be right

My All — Mariah Carey

#chaotic academia #dark academia #dark thoughts #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #one meltdown a day to keep people away #aesthetic #light academia #classic literature #lovecore #love songs #song lyrics #my all #mariah carey #okay but the larissa lambert slowed and reverb version of this song #i just 😩 #romance #dark fantasy #romantic academia #dark romance #romantic #queue #dark poetry #dark photography #dark academism #dark cottagecore #darkness #don't mind me I just finished reading the shadow and bone trilogy

[callmemeg]

'Cause I can hear the thunder from afar A lightning in the dark I can feel the fire come alive So calm before the storm So dark before the dawn

In Your Eyes — Robin Schulz

#chaotic academia #dark academia #dark thoughts #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #song lyrics #in your eyes #robin schulz #love songs #lovecore #romantic academia #dark romance #romantic aesthetic #romance #dark fantasy #dark cottagecore #dark photography #photography #grunge aesthetic #light acadamia aesthetic #light aesthetic #queue #thinking out loud #music aesthetic

[callmemeg]

Now I'm replaying our goodbye But it wasn't a good bye

Know Me Too Well — New Hope Club

#dark thoughts #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #dark photography #darkness #dark fantasy #love songs #lovecore #song aesthetic #song lyrics #know me too well #new hope club #chaotic academia #photography #grunge aesthetic #lyrics #soft academia #romantic academia #dark romance #romance #queue #light acadamia aesthetic #light aesthetic

[callmemeg]

You're on top, I put you on top I claimed you so proud and openly, babe And when times were rough, when times were rough I made sure I held you close to me

Call Out My Name — The Weeknd

#chaotic academia #dark academia #dark thoughts #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #song lyrics #call out my name #the weeknd #weird that I haven't posted any of his lyrics before #abel is one of my favorite singers #dawn fm #green aesthetic #love songs #lovecore #love quotes #dark photography #photography #nature pics #nature aesthetic #darkness #dark aesthetic #dark fantasy #dark cottagecore #queue

[callmemeg]

You said you wanted me, no strings attached I guess I have the Fates to thank for that Call me Icarus 'Cause baby, you're my sun

Achilles Heel — J. Maya

#dark thoughts #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #greek mythology #ancient greek #golden aesthetic #song lyrics #love songs #j maya #achilles heel #someone said achilles achilles heel was patrocles I'm dead- #that's spot on #lovecore #romantic academia #dark fantasy #darkness #romance #dark romance #queue #chaotic academia #grunge aesthetic #light aesthetic #light acadamia aesthetic

[callmemeg]

My shallow pride Aging like whisky You know I try But I lose myself when you're gone I know in time I'll find it easy But till then won't you promise I'm yours?

Sleepless — Dutch Melrose

#dark thoughts #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #song lyrics #dutch melrose #sleepless #romantic academia #romance #lovecore #crushcore #dark fantasy #dark photography #dark poetry #darkness #thinking out loud #queue #lyrics #love songs #grunge aesthetic #black and white #black aesthetic #photography #chaotic academia

[callmemeg]

TO YOUNGER ME

Listen closely, inner child of mine,

Know that all is going to be fine.

The whole world may let you down,

But I'm never gonna let you drown.

Remember, and each time you cry,

Learn to let those cold tears dry.

When you feel that you are broken,

Don't ever think that you're forgotten.

Gather the pieces, always try,

Fill the cracks with hope and fly.

Dream, cause dreams are never bad,

Think of me when you feel sad.

Whenever you look at the blue sky,

Always remember this lullaby.

I am so very proud of you

Hope you'll be proud of me too...

#i wrote this almost 4 years ago and just found it #I don't know if I wrote it for my inner child or if my inner child wrote it for me #I've been going through a lot so this helped immensely #keep diaries and journals everyone #they're worth your time #dark thoughts #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #dark aesthetic #dark photography #darkness #dark fantasy #chaotic academia #dark acadamia aesthetic #inner child #self awareness #trauma healing #healing #poetry #sad poetry #not very good poetry lol #late night thoughts #queue

[callmemeg]

Quite literally and consciously slowly ruining my whole life (tw)

Letting my teeth rot because nothing in my existence is worth taking care of.

Picking at acne or wounds, secretly hoping it will scar because I don't care how I look anymore.

Developing bad coping mechanisms because they're simpler than dealing with shit.

Wasting time on social media instead of working on my personal projects because I just feel burnt out 25/7.

Procrastinating coursework so I have a few more days of doing absolutely nothing.

Spending weeks doing absolutely nothing but dissolving away in a brain-meltingly boring routine.

Not putting a single effort on my major, knowing full well I'm going to fail this way and that I'm wasting my parents money for nothing, but not doing anything about it

Keeping those few friends at a safe distance because a) don't want them to sink with me and b) what can they do? Already used to being let down and betrayed, I'm prepared for the next time it happens.

Needing to constantly have a "crush" on someone (despite being demiromantic) to keep my head busy from overthinking things I shouldn't, but also to give me a sense of belonging, of being "normal".

Oversharing on the internet and making myself sound like the victim for attention and validation, but once I get it I'm like, ew don't talk to me, no I don't want help.

Going through headaches and cramps without medicine because it's nice to feel something that isn't numbness.

Already knowing that the fun I'm having is going to bite me in the behind very soon, and that the laughter will turn to crying eventually.

Promising myself that I'll change, that I'll be better, that I'll get to everything that I need to do and be happy, but never actually doing it.

So? Now what?

#I don't intend this to be one of those posts that scream #this is her cry for help #I'm just sharing stuff #stuff that probably need a therapist #anyway #if you ask me whether I want to talk I swear I'll block you #tw depressing stuff #triggering content #dark thoughts #one meltdown a day to keep people away #depressed #depressing post #this is depressing #depressing shit #sad boi hours #sad thoughts #sadcore #late night thoughts #thinking out loud #overthinking #overwhelmed #burnout #anxiety #stressed #exhausted #procrastination #unhealthy coping mechanisms #coping #mental illness #mental health

[callmemeg]

Essay: Why do you love life?

I don't.

#out of context #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #dark thoughts #one meltdown a day to keep people away #darkness #dark grunge #eerie #dark academia #late night thoughts #thinking out loud #random thoughts #sad thoughts #depression #sad boi hours #queue #depressing quotes #life quotes #deep quotes #anxiety #mental health issues #coping #dead inside #numb #exhausted #aesthetic #mentally tired #overwhelmed #overthinking #sleepless

[callmemeg]

I'm so old-fashioned with my crushes. One-night stands and FWBs? No thank you. Lay your head on my lap while I sing off-key the poem I wrote about you as we admire the sunset

#my crappy camera did the view no justice #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark thoughts #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #dark photography #photography #dark romance #sunset #clouds #sundown #sky #romantic academia #romantic quotes #romance #romantic aesthetic #cottage academia #sunset aesthetic #orange aesthetic #golden hour #lovecore #old fashioned #queue #dark fantasy

[callmemeg]

These burning flames, these crashing waves Wash over me like a hurricane I'll captivate, you're hypnotized Feel powerful but it's me again

Middle of the Night — Elley Duhé

#chaotic academia #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark thoughts #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #romantic academia #romantic poetry #romantic aesthetic #romance #dark romance #dark photography #darkness #dark fantasy #dark aesthetic #pink aesthetic #rose gold aesthetic #lovecore #song lyrics #elley duhe #middle of the night #soft academia #love songs #thinking out loud #light acadamia aesthetic

[callmemeg]

And if I may just take your breath away I don't mind if there's not much to say Sometimes the silence guides a mind To move to a place so far away

Sweater Weather — The Neighborhood

#dark thoughts #dark academia #academia aesthetic #dark romanticism #dark academia aesthetic #classic academia #classic literature #light academia #aesthetic #one meltdown a day to keep people away #lovecore #dark romance #romance #song aesthetic #song lyrics #the neighbourhood #sweater weather #grunge #grunge aesthetic #romantic academia #chaotic academia #love songs #love quotes #thinking out loud #yellow aesthetic #orange aesthetic #queue #photography #dark fantasy #dark photography