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i will never leave this house

#it's mental illness innit #trauma

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Lisa Swallows + Outfits

#lisa frankenstein #lisa swallows

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cd has a hole. record has a hole. casette has 2 holes. streaming? zero holes. i think i’ve made my point

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“Recently, my son said to me after seeing a ballet on television: ‘It’s beautiful, but I don’t like it.’ And I thought, Are many grown-ups capable of such a distinction? It’s beautiful, but I don’t like it. Usually, our grown-up thinking is more along the lines of: I don’t like it, so it’s not beautiful. What would it mean to separate those two impressions for art making and for art criticism?”

— “59. it’s beautiful, but I don’t like it” from 100 essays I don’t have time to write: on umbrellas and sword fights, parades and dogs, fire alarms, children, and theater, sarah ruhl 

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People think being self aware cancels out mental illness. That when you realise your thoughts or behaviours are irrational you just stop having/doing them

Instead what happens if you're extremely self aware and mentally ill is that you just think in a resigned kind of way "I'm being really fucking crazy right now" while being very loudly mentally ill

Sometimes you are able to tell the people around you "oh, you can ignore me rn. I'm just being extremely mentally ill rn. It will eventually pass" and then continue your erratic behaviour. But mostly it's just privately thinking: "well this is embarrassing but I can't turn it off so just gotta deal with it I guess."

It's infuriating honestly

#tbhh #it's mental illness innit

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In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction - Gabor Maté

#i need to read this #it's mental illness innit #trauma #addiction

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don’t ask me “wyd” u know i’m at home deteriorating

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People who think this planet was created for humans to be ours are so wild to me

#anthropocentrism

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Just a random thought I had of what it coulda been like if the creature maybe learned a little sign to communicate with Lisa. I know at the end of the film he’s using his voice but I really liked the idea of him being mute and finding other ways to communicate with Lisa.

#cute! #lisa frankenstein #creature #fanart

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You know what really fucking Annoys Me about internet censorship is stuff like swear words being heavily censored because that's entirely an American cultural hangup being forced on the rest of us. I don't know a single country where swearing is as taboo as it is in America. In fact most languages have swear words that would have the same effect on an American as giving a Victorian chimney sweep a pepsi max cherry.

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Living the life he deserves

#animals #cats #for rainy days

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my psychiatrist finally diagnosed me with complex ptsd yesterday, which has brought together a lot of disparate but interconnected things for me and made sense of why it's been so much harder than anyone expected for be to get 'better' than when i first started having difficulties in my early teenagehood.

i know formal diagnosis isn't the be-all and end-all and not necessarily something everyone can have, but for me it feels so good to have been listened to when i said something more might be going on that makes my depression keep coming back over and over again, that makes me feel like an alien and defective in ways i can't fully explain.

it feels good to be seen and understood, and to be able to point to something that makes it easier to communicate my experiences to other people. i feel kind of relieved, in a way.

#it's mental illness innit #blah.txt #i also got some medication that could help with nightmares finally

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saw a poll about dry/humid heat and like OBVIOUSLY everyone preferred dry heat but. would love to know what everyone considers to be “too hot”

me personally it’s a hard cutoff at 75°F. don’t need anything more than that thank you 🫶🫶🫶

#early to mid thirties celsius is too much #especially living on the coast and getting a lot of humidity. disgusting #i've experienced 40+ though some summers

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all of this, yes! it's so frustrating how many versions of sab's themes are almost there in the text - how lb touches on so many things that could be interesting and layered but refuses them every time.

i think the moment in seige and storm when baghra asks alina “is the world so very fine that you think it worth saving?” might be one of my top five moments in the series, because it asks a question that’s so often taken for granted in the fantasy, scifi, and superhero genres.

rather than framing alina’s quest as a journey to restore the world to its pre-existing normalcy, with the implicit assumption that this normalcy is the most desirable outcome, the question lets us wonder if a world in which suffering and subjugation are so embedded into its fabric isn’t a lost cause.

how long has baghra been subjected to hatred and distrust from otkazat’sya, and greed and jealousy from other grisha, for her unique powers? how many wars has she seen? how many massacres? how long has she watched ravkan nobility ignore the poverty of the masses? her son is over four hundred years old. she has had half a century to watch a little boy who just wanted to stay in one place for a season and play with other children turn into someone she believes is an irredeemable monster.

but she does not believe in his mission, largely because his high-minded belief that the world can be put to rights has no basis in her reality. what has his fight done for him yet? sure, the second army is a blessing for the grisha - but if the best that can be imagined for her kind is to be conscripted as children to labour for the powers that oppress grisha and non-grisha alike, it’s a mixed one. being considered useful is hardly the same as being valued or respected.

i wonder, as she taught young grisha to harness their powers, if she ever wondered whether any of it was worthwhile. if she watched the successions of generations of grisha live and die as she and her son stayed the same and wished they could be like them. if she thought that maybe giving her son a life like hers, long and lonely, was a mistake. lb never seems to consider this, but it must have crossed her mind at some point.

then along comes alina, the mythical sun-summoner with the power needed to conquer the fold and, just maybe, bring respect to the grisha. principled, hard-working, and determined she may be, but also a child, naive and hopeful and completely unprepared for what’s coming for her. and baghra doesn’t tell her to fight; she tells her to run. she doesn’t hold out the hope her son has in a brave new world, no matter how promising this girl might appear to be. the best thing for her is simply to disappear.

but then bardugo does no justice to this idea by having the death of the darkling be the supposed solution while the world that created him barely changes. he’s only a symptom of this broken world, but the brokenness in him is treated as evil. what might have happened if alina had been broken in the same way and we’d been forced to asks the same question baghra does?

#rip :// #sab #sab meta #baghra morozova

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Just something about the intimacy of tending to your lover’s grave does things to me I can’t explain

I know that Lisa didn’t love him at the time she was visiting his grave, but just the fact that she was drawn to his grave out of all of them because they were truly soulmates brings me to tears.

They were made for each other :((((

#lisa frankenstein #otp: i'll love you forever

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horror sub-genres: comedy

#love these op! #horror #movies #for later