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I’m like 99% sure everyone I know actually finds me so fucking annoying

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i don't wanna die, i just wanna never have existed in the first place.

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i dont understand how i am so intensely lonely when every time i hang out with other people i feel like i am going to die from the anxiety of being perceived

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there’s so much loneliness and anger that’s built up inside me i don’t know what to do anymore

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I can’t wait to sleep 6 feet under, that will be peaceful

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it is getting harder for me to want to continue existing

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Sometimes I cry myself to sleep, and I want to die.

But I don't talk about it.

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fatima aamer bilal, from all that is damaging.

[text id: there’s always a home. the one you’re running to or the one you’re running from.]

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I have a distinct memory of laying in my bed as a kid and wishing with all my heart that I would get hurt. That I would get into a bad car crash or I'd disappear. So my parents would cry and realize they didn't cherish me enough.

I find it sad that younger me thought she had to get hurt to feel loved.

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why is everything so embarrassing

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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i feel so alone all the goddamn time.