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What now? - Epilogue

Cameron Dallas fanfic - Sequel to I’m not that kind of girl

Word count: 3'190

Previous Chapter

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7 years later

„Auntie!“ She yelled running towards me. „Aww look at you, Angel. You grew up so fast! You are so tall! What did they give you to eat?“ I embraced her in a hug. She giggled in response. „I missed you, Auntie.“ She mumbled into my neck. I picked her up and carried her over to Sam and Ethan. „I missed you too my little Angel. And of course, I’ve missed my two best friends.“ I put Angel down and hugged Sam and Ethan.

„You look good!“ Sam squealed. „Does that mean any other time I didn’t?“ I playfully glared at her. „Meh…“ Was her response. „So before we do anything. I want to bring my bags back to your place and tomorrow I got to go visit my parents, alright?“ They all nodded and we headed to their car. I was holding Angel by the hand as she told me all about what has been going on in her kindergarten. I was glad that she was enjoying herself. I was glad that I had this little bundle of joy in my life.

„So tell us Y/N, how was Singapore?“ Ethan prompted. „It was so much fun. The job was great. I think the agency might prolong my contract.“ I grinned. „That’s great! Where’s your next job?“ Sam asked excited. „Actually here, well in LA but you get the picture. I’ll be here for half a year!“ I explained. „That’s even better maybe you’ll be here when-“ Sam started exchanging a moment with Ethan who nodded smiling. „When I give birth to our second baby!“ She exclaimed.

I shrieked out of surprise and awkwardly tried to hug Sam from my seat behind hers. „That’s amazing! How far along are you? Three months? Oh my god is it gonna be a boy? Or do you want another girl?“ I blabbed on. „We don’t know the gender yet. But we’re having a party tonight with everyone. But it’s no gender reveal we’re not that bad, you know.“ We laughed and I turned to see Angel pouting.

„Aren’t you excited Angel? You’re gonna be a big sister.“ I lightly pinched her cheek. She shrugged and I let her be, she was probably tired. So I turned back to Sam and Ethan. „So a party huh?“ I chirped. „Yeah, bunch of people are gonna be there and don’t worry, your bedroom is all ready so when you feel like you’ve had enough just head upstairs to the guest room reserved all for you.“ Sam smiled at me while I nodded.

It’s been a while since I’ve been in California. I’ve been busy but the main reason being.. well, I tried to stay away as much as possible. Of course I regularly visited my family and occasionally Sam and Ethan but I’ve missed out on a lot of stuff. I couldn’t attend Kian and Greg’s wedding which was a shame, who would want to miss the gay ex-boyfriend’s wedding. But I did get to go to Will and Sarah’s wedding, that was years ago though. Everyone seemed to be getting serious about life while I felt stuck. I was as content as I could be, with my job, with my situation. But sometimes… you just feel like everyone is passing by you in life.

I came to terms with everything that has happened and accepted things the way they were. In the beginning Sam often told me that he was asking for me. Telling her, that my number was disconnected, that he had tried to reach me. But she hasn’t mentioned him in a while now. I hope his career was successful or still is. I hope he has found someone. Someone he was happy with. Maybe even started a family. He deserved that.

I haven’t been looking into his life. I tried to forget about him. Tried to block him out of my life and I did successfully. I was preoccupied with my job anyway. Working for a small but successful photography agency had its perks. I travelled a lot in the past years. But now I would be here until New Years. My thoughts were interrupted when the car came to halt in front of Sam and Ethan’s house. They had this perfect little life going on and I felt proud of them. They got their shit together. I got out of the car and got my luggage out of the trunk, carrying it upstairs to the guest room. When I got downstairs Ethan and Sam were discussing something in a hushed tone. „Am I interrupting something?“ I timidly asked. „No! No, of course not. Are you hungry? The party starts in an hour or so. If you can’t wait until then feel free to get something from the fridge.“ Ethan immediately rambled. I laughed a little. „It’s alright. Thank you guys again. You know… for letting me stay.“ I smiled.

I smiled a lot when I was around them. I laughed a lot when I was with them. It was different from when I was alone. I used to cry, a lot, especially after their wedding. It was hard back then. It was and still is difficult. I learnt to deal with it. It wasn’t a biggie. I suppressed every emotion after a while, until it just felt normal.

„Y/N can I talk to you for a second?“ Sam said pulling me out of my thoughts. I nodded waiting for her to continue. „Let’s go to the kitchen.* She pulled me by my hand and I felt slightly taken aback. I sat down on one of those bar stools leaning against the counter top. „Sooo…“ She started. „So?“ I questioned back. „Have you been on any dates lately?“ She grinned from ear to ear with a curious twinkle in her eyes. I immediately shook my head. „I told you I don’t have time for such things.“ I exaggeratedly breathed out.

„Oh come on! You’re turning like 29 next year. And you always wanted to get married and have kids, right? So why aren’t you putting in any effort?“ She frowned at me but something about the speech didn’t sound genuine enough. Something about her told me that she was glad. Something told me she knew what was coming for me before I knew. „I never believed in marriage anyway.“ I shrugged it off hoping she’d let it go. „And kids-wise we already know that’s not happening.“

Just as she was about to speak, loud knocking and Ethan’s steps interrupted her. „I’ll go see who it is.“ I nodded lightly and quietly chewed on my lips. She had a point. I did want kids at one point. I did want the perfect little family with a beach house because I loved the beach. But that never happened and probably won’t because of my circumstances.

„I’m glad to see you too!“ I heard Sam talk at the entrance. I had yet to hear the newcomer. „Where is my little Angel?“ And that’s when I was just about ready to fume. She’s my little Angel! I huffed. Of course she would do this. It wouldn’t be Sam’s party if she wouldn’t at least try to fuck me over, right? I slowly got up from the bar stool and moved over to the door way to get a good view of the scenery before me.

Angel hopped down the stairs and right into his arms. She was like a feather in his hands. It looked like no effort at all when he picked her up and threw her up in the air making her giggle. „I missed you Cammy.“ She snuggled into his neck. „I missed you too, my little Angel.“ He lightly kissed her forehead. „Mommy this day is amazing!“ She suddenly exclaimed. Sam and Ethan raised their eyebrows looking at her with gentle smiles.

„How so, Angie?“ Ethan asked hair as he pulled Sam into his side. „First Auntie came! And now Cammy!“ She threw her arms up and Cameron finally let her go. He frowned confused with which Auntie she was talking about. „I didn’t know your sister would be here. I thought she was on a business trip, right?“ I furrowed my eyebrows. Why was he so invested into the whereabouts of Ethan’s sister?

„Oh she doesn’t mean her actual Aunt, you know.“ This made Cameron frown even deeper. „Who else would she talk about?“ He tried to play it off by a light chuckle. That’s when I suddenly felt a small hand tugging at my leg trying to pull me towards the group. „Auntie!! Look who’s here!“ Wide eyed looks greeted me. I waved slightly. „Hi, nice to see you again.“ I brought out.

„Oh god, I totally forgot that I had to - uhh - I…“ Sam began to stammer while she picked up Angel. „The thing! Of course how could we ever forget about that! Let’s - uhh - take care of that right now.“ Ethan continued and pushed Sam towards the kitchen closing the sliding door behind them.

„Wow, that didn’t seem planned at all.“ I said after quite the awkward silence. With a chuckle he said his first words to me. „Yeah, sure didn’t.“ He observed me. His eyes bore into every little detail about me. He inspected my clothes, my hair, my face. As did I with him. He looked older, more mature. A casual two-day beard and some tiny wrinkles slowly forming. Time was taking its toll on him as well. His hair was short on the sides, just how he always liked it. He kept his hands in his pockets as if he didn’t know any better use for them. He was sporting a casual look, slightly ripped, washed-out jeans and a dark grey t-shirt.

„You look good.“ He commented. I nodded. „Thank you, you don’t look bad yourself.“ He chuckled lightly. There was this slight shimmer in his eyes, it had something nostalgic. „Haven’t seen you since…“ He started. „Yeah.“ I simply finished. I didn’t want to go back on that, I didn’t want to bring up old pain that I have so well suppressed. „Wow.“ He sighed.

„So how’s everything?“ I tried to be casual act as if things were normal. We broke up seven years ago for fuck’s sake, well, I broke up. „Good, good. Could be better though.“ There, the twinkle intensified. „How are things for you? Did you finish your studies?“ I nodded quite proudly. „I did. I work here now. Well I will.“ I couldn’t help but smile a little as did he. „I see.“ He nodded in response.

„You seem close with Angel.“ I commented mindlessly. I didn’t really know what to talk about. „Yeah, I try to be here as often as possible, with Ethan and Sam, you know. Somehow Angel got me wrapped around her little finger. I wish I had a kid like her.“ I chuckled. „Yeah, her name may be Angel but the way she wraps everyone around her tiny little fingers reminds me of the devil.“ We both quietly laughed at that.

„I heard you are her favorite auntie?“ He chuckled. I nodded yet again. „As I said, she got everyone wrapped around her finger. I don’t even know why she takes on me. I’m barely ever here.“ I look over to the still closed kitchen doors. „Should we, like, go sit in the living room? I’m kind of getting tired of standing here.“ I point towards the living room. „Yeah sure.“ He held out his arm as if to say ‚go ahead‘ and I did.

We sat down at opposite ends of the couch quietly observing each other again. We didn’t say much because there simply was nothing to say anymore. „I see you kept it.“ Cameron quietly whispered, finally breaking the silence between us again. He pointed to my necklace. „Oh, uhh - I…“ I trailed off. I didn’t know how to answer. It was the only thing that I had left that reminded me of him. „I’m glad that you still have it.“ He smiled gently. „It looks too expensive to be thrown away, you know.“ I lightly chuckled as did he.

„So.“ He started. „So?“ I questioned. „You came here for the party?“ I nodded slowly. „Yeah. I guess you did too, huh?“ He shrugged. „I’m kind of surprised you didn’t bring a date or anything.“ I chuckled trying to cover up my weird rambling/ questioning. „I don’t really bring dates to important stuff…“ He trailed off. „It makes no sense. Gives them a feeling of belonging in my life and we don’t want that, do we?“ He sarcastically laughed at his own comment. When did he become so cynic?

„I suppose that you haven’t met someone worth while then. I’m sorry.“ I meant it. I was sorry. I wanted to make that clear. „Who said I haven’t yet?“ He accusingly frowned. „You know nothing about me Y/N.“ He shook his head. „Absolutely nothing.“

I frowned. „What is that supposed to mean?“ He shook his head and I could tell by the way he bit the inside of his cheek and didn’t look my way the slightest that he was pissed off. „Nothing… let’s just forget it, alright?“ He mumbled and I left it at that.

When people finally started to gather around the house the awkwardness between Cameron and I was covered up by the laughter and chattering. I didn’t talk to him anymore. I didn’t even look his way… or at least I tried my hardest not to. It was difficult. I couldn’t stand the way we stood in the same room on opposite sides. It felt like the tension between us never really vanished. The spark never dimmed.

At one point I slipped out into the backyard to catch some fresh air. Okay… not fresh air. I needed a cigarette and I was not proud of it. Just as I was about to light it, two fingers removed the cigarette from my mouth and broke them in half. „Didn’t know you smoked. New habit?“ He didn’t look at me as I just stood there and gawked at him. „I don’t think it’s any of your business anymore, is it?“ Now I was just being a prick. „You made sure of it, didn’t you?“ He spat back at me. We were like a bickering old couple and at this point there was no denying that I missed him. „I did it for your own good.“ I quietly whispered in hopes of him not picking up on it. „What good was it to leave me at that moment? Do you even understand how deeply in love I am with you Y/N? DO YOU?“ He began to shout which I was not expecting. My eyes widened. „Do you even understand what you put me through?“

„I thought it was best that way. I knew you wanted a family and—“ He interrupted me abruptly. „And what? Just because you are not able to birth a child doesn’t mean there’s no other way we could have had children! I thought you were smart, Y/N! What happened?!“ He was angry and after all these years, he finally could lash it all out on the person who caused his distress. „I wanted you. Nothing else mattered. We were barely legal age back then, we didn’t even consider having kids.“ Although he was furious he kept his tone low, maybe he was afraid he’d upset me.

„I’m sorry. I just thought I was a burden for the long run.“ I didn’t even look at him. I stared at my feet aching to smoke a cigarette just to calm down for a minute, to relief this stress. „I’m sorry too. I never wanted you to feel like a burden.“ His tone was now less furious, calmer. He pulled me into a hug and I instinctively buried my head in his chest. The strong muscles not going unnoticed, he felt different but yet he still felt like home. „I just wanted the best for you.“ I mumbled into his shirt as he stroke up and down my back. He sighed.

„You were the best for me. Nothing and nobody would ever be able to replace you.“ He kissed the top of my head. As much as I wanted to suppress it and ignore my feelings I couldn’t deny that I miss him, that I miss this.

We were so young and we still are. I just thought that maybe I would be able to stop the pain before it would get to me; the realization that there wouldn’t be any little Cam Cam’s of our own. Maybe it was my own insecurity of never being good enough for him, that I didn’t deserve him. But now that we were back in this embrace the world stopped spinning for a second again and it finally felt like all of this weight I’ve been carrying for years was lifted. This aching finally stopped and the day seemed brighter than before.

I think this time we’re here to stay. And if you would’ve asked me a year ago what my thirties were going to look like, I probably would’ve given a very different answer than right now, when I was in his arms. I saw a future, together, for the first time again. Life made sense again.

3 years later

As I was looking out into the yard I was amazed that we have gotten this far. Our wedding. When we were just 18, I wouldn’t have dreamed of this. But when I saw Cameron swinging Angel around, laughing like a maniac, the distinctive image I once saw years ago came back to me.

A little baby girl in Cameron’s arms. They stood in a spacious garden. She was all dressed up and he smiled at her as if she was everything he needed in life. He looked content.

Cameron came up to me grinning from ear to ear, kissing my cheek before pressing one on my lips. „I love you“ he whispered against them after they parted, and I returned the gesture, „I love you too“. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into the make-shift dance floor and we twirled around for a bit. Pure serenity. And that’s how our wedding went, I kept pulling myself out and watching from the sidelines in disbelief that this actually and finally happened. I enjoyed every second of it. I watched as he hugged his bros for the thousandth time today, as he picked up Angel and swung her around in the air, as his eyes always found a way to me.

Sam came up behind me, hugging me from the side. „I haven’t seen you grin so bright in years. I am so happy for you.“ She smiled at me and I couldn’t even put into words how right she was. I was finally and eternally happy again. And if all else fails, trust that what is meant for you will always find you. One way or another.

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A/N: there you go... I finally did it... only took me like what? 5 years? lol either way... if anyone is actually reading this I hope this ending fulfills you more than the last... even though it is a bit rushy at the end but I didn't want to draw it out any longer than it already was.

So that's it... the very last about this guy I once used to stan in order to finish this very weird story.

#cameron dallas fanfic #cameron dallas #magcon #fanfiction #epilogue #what now

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camdallasfanfics · 3 years

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Suuup gurl long time no see. What is up with you? How r u? Tell me everything 😘

Omg hi!!

First of all thank you for asking lol

I'm doing good. I have actually finished my BA studies, which sounds crazy to say. I also started my MA studies which is also crazy. Like I haven't really been active ever since I finished the fanfic and I have basically lost all interest in who I was actually writing about but not my passion for writing and reading.

God I can't even remember how long it's been since I finished the fanfic. But it's definitely been a crazy time while I was gone and I think I have also changed in a lot of ways mostly for the better (I hope?). I'm also thinking about renaming and rebranding this blog, so I can write some new stuff (but that's just a random idea).

Either way, I hope you are doing good as well and feel free to hit me up in the DMs if you wanna talk :)

Much Love xoxo

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camdallasfanfics · 3 years

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any update on the epilogue??

Hi!!

Glad to see someone around here actually interested in the epilogue lol

Actually I haven't had time to finish it due to uni stuff. However, I was about to work on it again, so maybe I'll be able to finish it in the next few weeks

Although I was actually thinking about revising the entire story but that would take a looot of time o-o

Much love xoxo

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camdallasfanfics · 3 years

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Hello?

I haven’t posted anything in years.... literally.

Is anyone still here lmao?

Tbh I just found the document where i started to write an epilogue for my fanfic and I got inspired, so I started writing and editing it again (huh???)

Lowkey miss writing (not so much the dude I was writing about oop)

Anyway chile if anyone would still be up to read the epilogue I’ll gladly finish it!

Yours truly.

#imback?

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camdallasfanfics · 6 years

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on that note I have an epilogue coming soon. I have not forgotten about it. Don‘t worry.

A post for fanfic readers

Imagine checking your favorite fic writer’s blog after not having been able to in a while. They haven’t posted anything. You’re disappointed, but understand that they have a life outside of the internet. You move on.

You check it again about a week later, hoping for some new content to wash away the troubles of the week. No new fic. This time you feel a little annoyed. You’re used to always being able to turn to their fics when things become too much. You decide to reread some fics, but it’s not the same as diving into a whole new piece of work. But seeing as you have no other choice you’re content for now.

You check it again after a few days, because you’re certain that they will update any day now. When you find nothing you start getting worried. They’re okay, right? Nothing’s happened to them, has it? You shoot them a message asking these things. They reply almost immediately. They’re fine.

Weeks go by and they keep answering asks, but haven’t posted a new fic in ages. They’re fine, but busy. You can understand them, but you’re used to them being able to pump out fics anyway, despite how many other things are going on. You know they’re able to do it. But they don’t.

The blog might be deserted eventually, or they might keep posting things that aren’t fics on it. You’re confused, impatient, longing for things that you’re sure they’re working on.

No new fic ever shows up. You feel like they’ve let you down.

The truth is you probably let them down first.

Writers need feedback from their readers, otherwise they might feel like it’s not worth it anymore and will start posting less and less, until one day they won’t post again. I can’t tell you how often I’ve had this argument with myself, about whether I should keep it up or not. My own enjoyment can’t always be enough.

But this post isn’t about me. I have some great readers who do send me feedback occasionally. This post is for readers who never send their favorite writers any feedback because they think the writers already know that their stuff is appreciated. I’m here to tell you that it’s not always true. Put yourself in the writer’s place. Wouldn’t you want to know if people liked your stuff, and what it was that they liked?

I urge you to show your appreciation before it’s too late. You can never know when a writer has had enough.

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camdallasfanfics · 6 years

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS...

though I‘m late af I still wish you a great time and a Happy New Year.

Also I‘m sorry about bot posting the epilogue yet I simply did not have any time to write it yet. It‘s still oming thoug just be patient.

love you all.

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camdallasfanfics · 6 years

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Why would you leave “what now?” like that,I mean c’mon I was hoping for a better ending to it,something more romantic and sweet,and not something that broke all of the purpose of the story (true love) and for what I got so into reading it.I am not mad even though I may sound like it,I’m just upset and disappointed because all I wanted was for the story to end as the having a normal,caring and loving relationship at the end.I am also very sorry you feel that way about writing,I love your writing

Hi dear

I am sorry you feel that way about the ending and I completely understand why you’re upset - but to me the story is not entirely about true love, it’s also about how life sometimes isn’t fair and how it sometimes doesn’t give you exactly what you want. I’m not a big fan of happy endings either because life doesn’t work that way.

I won’t leave the story like that either. There will be an epilogue, as already announced. Maybe that will still your hunger for a ‘happier’ ending. Until I finish writing that though, the only thing I can do, is tell you I’m sorry how you feel about the ending.

Also, me writing the story though I hated it, was completely my decision to keep it going nonetheless. I promised I’d do a sequel for everyone who requested it. So no worries there and no need to feel sorry about it either.

Thank you for sharing your opinion, I really appreciate it.

Have a great day! Love you lots :)

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camdallasfanfics · 6 years

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I won‘t be making a trilogy!!

honestly i hated writing the sequel. it was getting harder and harder for me to progress throughout the story and to keep it going. i liked how the first part ended and should‘ve never made a sequel. i also didn‘t get an active responds (in comparison to the first part) from you guys either which was discouraging me even more..

however i am writing an epilogue. i don‘t know how long it‘s gonna be but i‘ll try and finish it before christmas... lol

thanks to everyone supporting the story and for being patient with me through my massive writersblock.

have a great day. love you guys

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camdallasfanfics · 6 years

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here we go fully updated. epilogue might come soon idk yet

MASTERLIST: What now?

Cameron Dallas fanfic: What now? - Sequel to I’m not that kind of girl.

* = smut

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3*

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8*

Chapter 9

Chapter 10*

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20 - Finale

The list will be updated as soon as there is a new chapter.

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camdallasfanfics · 6 years

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What now? - Chapter 20 - Finale

Cameron Dallas fanfic - Sequel to I’m not that kind of girl

Word count: 1′941

Previous Chapter

She looked like the most stunning person I’ve ever seen. Her long dress fell to the floor just a tad too much, slowly gliding across the floor with every step she took. The smile on her face was practically engraved. Her hair and makeup was done beautifully. She looked simply stunning.

I watched her walk from the window to the door and back yet again. „Sit down. You’re gonna sweat. Do you want to sweat before you even hit the dance floor?“ I tried to calm her down but she was just so nervous. Although it was obvious that there was nothing to be nervous about.

When she didn’t listen I got up from my seat, making sure I don’t step on my own dress. I grabbed her by the shoulders and pushed her to the nearest chair. „Calm the fuck down.“ I chuckled. She playfully glared at me before she started to ramble about how she wasn’t sure about some flowers that have been delivered. What was she even talking about?

„Y/N. Talk to me. Tell me about something.“ She wanted - no - needed distraction, obviously. „What do you wanna hear about?“ I asked her shooting my eyebrows up. „How are things with Cam?“ She smirked lightly. „I don’t know. We didn’t talk that much last night and I haven’t seen him this morning sooo…“ I trailed off. „What about Greg finding you two in that room down the hall?“ Her smirk grew wider. Damn Greg and his big mouth.

„We were just talking.“ I shrugged. „But you just said you didn’t talk to him this morning.“ I didn’t answer. „Why were you talking to him with you against the desk exactly?“ She started laughing. „SAM! COME ON!“ I shouted at her. „It’s funny! It’s not the first time someone walked in on you on my big day, you know.“ Her laughter slowly died down as her smirk remained.

She had a point though. Cam and I apparently had a thing for busting big moments with our own „moments“. I didn’t say anything because there was no point anyway. She was right, though I would never admit to it.

„You know I’m just not sure if this is it.“ My shoulders slumped down. „What do you mean, hun?“ She frowned a little. „I love him. I love him so much. But I can’t do this to him, you know?“ I sighed. „Okay, first of all he loves you. He doesn’t care about you not being able to have kids! This guy is crazy for you, do you get that?“ She smiled sadly while I nodded lightly.

„He told everyone to contact you, because he knew you wouldn’t pick up to his calls. He was worried sick. I was chilling, honestly. You know why? Because you always do the right thing! And you wouldn’t let me down for anything, I knew that.“ I chuckled a little. „But he? He doesn’t know anymore, because you don’t let him in anymore. So you either close the door or you open it, but stop peeking. If you are not serious about this, then let that poor boy go.“ She knew me too well.

That was when the door opened slightly and Cameron’s head popped in „Speaking of the devil.“ Sam snickered. I glared at her before averting my eyes to his, which in that moment were just about done roaming my body in this, I have to say it, stunningly beautiful dress. „Cameron?“ I asked and his eyes immediately shot up to mine and a tiny smirk formed on his lips.

„We’re starting in about five.“ He looked at Sam. „You look stunning Sam! Ethan’s a lucky guy.“ He smiled at her. She slightly blushed. I’d never heard Cameron compliment her. This was a first. „Thank you. That’s sweet of you to say.“ Her voice was timid and my heart just melted away. „Also. My god Y/N. I for sure am a lucky guy. Sexy as hell.“ With a low whistle and before even waiting to see my reaction he slipped out of the room.

„Does that mean you’re going for round to after the ceremony?“ Sam’s eyes were wide and with that we both bursted out in laughter.

The moment was there. I kissed Sam good luck and hooked my arm to Cameron’s. We walked down the aisle in a slow tempo. „I can’t wait to be in Ethan’s position:“ He whispered into my ear. I got an uneasy feeling. „And who exactly are you gonna wait for to walk down the aisle?“ I mumbled more to myself than him.

„You know there’s this beautiful girl. She makes me go nuts ever since high school. She just has that effect on me.“ We looked at each other and only parted to stand to our assigned spots.

I couldn’t really focus on the ceremony. My only focus was Cameron. What he said while we walked down the aisle. I imagined me in Sam’s position. Immediately my dress started to feel way too tight, only at the thought of it. While I kept staring at him his gaze met mine and he winked with a smirk plastered on his face before reverting his eyes to the couple before us.

After the ceremony I tried getting as far as possible from Cameron. I just didn’t want to face whatever was coming. I was really just aimlessly walking around talking to people, slowly but surely getting drunk. The whole evening, whenever I saw Cameron glancing towards me I turned and walked farther away.

I was just talking to Sam and Ethan, congratulating them yet again when the music slowed down and I heard his voice over the speakers. „Guys! I hope you are all enjoying yourself!“ Everyone cheered in response. Sam put her arm around my shoulder with a smirk on her face. „I want to congratulated the happy couple!“ He raised his glass looking towards us with a grin on his face.

„I never would have really got to know these people if it wasn’t for Josh but primarily because of my beautiful girlfriend. No honestly, she looks stunning! Like, have you seen the maid of honor?“ The crowd laughed lightly. „Of course nothing compared to the beautiful bride!“ He grimaced and pulled his collar. „Wow... this speech is going downhill fast, isn’t it? I mean I’m supposed to be good at this given that I’m the best man, right?“ I smiled at him with the mic in his hand goofing around.

„I guess I’m gonna cut this short! Ladies and gentleman a toast to the freshly wedded couple!“ Everyone applauded him and than he announced the Sam and Ethan’s first dance. It was nice watching them. Really romantic. I was in awe. After a while other couples started to join in. That’s when I felt his arm around my waist and he surely pulled me to the dance floor.

„You know, half the fun is watching, the other half is experiencing it yourself.“ He sweetly whispered into my ear. He faced me and pulled me closer. My hands locked behind his neck. „I don’t think I have emphasized how good you look today.“ He grinned at me. „I think it’s simply because of the lack of seeing each other. But you don’t look bad yourself.“ I smirked.

„Believe it or not, it was not up to me. I wanted to see you every second of every day, ever since you left LA.“ He mumbled into my neck leaving a soft kiss here and there. We slowly swayed around not minding anyone around us. This is probably the most affectionate that we’ve ever been in public.

„Maybe it was a good thing. Maybe we shouldn’t be seeing each other.“ I hesitantly said. Was I really going through with this? His head shot up. „What?“ He frowned, he was not happy I could tell you that much. „I think this isn’t going anywhere.“ I looked down no able to look at him. „Hold up. We are not doing this here, like this.“ He stepped back a little and got a grasp of my hand pulling me outside the ballroom.

When we got outside we found a park bench and sat down. „So. What is this about?“ He asked, unsure of what to expect. „I think that we shouldn’t see each other anymore.“ I confessed, well as much of a confession as it could be. „What? Why? We haven’t even really been together!“ He furrowed his eyebrows, clearly pissed of. Good, be mad at me hate me! „We are just not good for one another Cameron.“

That’s when he lost it. „Not good for one another? Are you kidding me?“ His voice got louder and he was about to burst out of anger, I could tell. „This, what we have, makes me happy! I haven’t been this happy since high school! We are great for one another! We get each other! We love each other! Are you losing your mind?“ He started to shout. I didn’t even dare to look up from my lap. I simply shrugged.

„Are you gonna explain yourself?“ He huffed in disbelieve at my reaction. „Maybe you’re the happiest you’ve ever been, as for me-“ He cut me off. „No. You’re lying. I know you Y/N. I know that this, us, makes you just as happy as me. I see it in your eyes. I hear it in your laugh. I know it. I know you like the back of my hand! Don’t dare tell me you don’t want this! You were the one who wanted this more than I did! You told me!“ Yet again I didn’t bare to answer.

„Please, tell me this is some sick joke you and Sam, thought out because I was being a dick.“ He chuckled lightly not convinced of himself. I didn’t say anything. „So you just want to leave me like this? Without any explanation as to why?“ He rambled. He didn’t know what else to do. I understand. I would do the same. The silence would be the death of me. „Tell me.“ He demanded.

„I-I…“ I choked on air. It’s official I was going to die. „I don’t love you Cameron.“ I stared at my fingers which were clutching one another. „Look me in the eyes and tell me. I know you’re not telling the truth.“ He grabbed my hands. „Tell me. Destroy me here and now.“ I looked into his eyes. It hurt. Maybe more than it hurt him. „I don’t love you Cameron.“ I looked coldly into his eyes.

„Why are you doing this?“ His grasp on my hands loosened. „Because you have a life to live. You have things to accomplish. Places to go. Love to give to someone who really loves you.“ I squeezed his hand reassuringly. „I’m already doing that. You’re making a mistake.“ I shook my head. „I should go.“ I stood up. He did too. „I’m asking you one last time not to do this.“ He stroke my cheek leaning closer.

„Please.“ His lips were millimeters away from mine. „I’m doing the right thing, believe me.“ It was barely a whisper before our lips crashed together one last time.

„So, what now?“ He asked when we pulled away. „I’m going to walk out of your life and you are going to shoot for the stars as you always did.“ I sadly smiled at him. Before he could say anything I walked away. The last thing I heard him say was: „You were the only star I was ever shooting for and now you’re just… gone.“

A/N: don’t hate me. I just had to ruin it. have a great day! love you guys :)))

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Do you ever feel like dying? cuz saaaame.

#lol #kill me

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Happy Halloween everyone.

So a little update: At the moment I‘m writing the epilogue of „What now?“ so be prepared for those last chapters

also i‘ve been doing good. my life‘s on a little high right now. so that‘s new.

if you want slide into my dm‘s i have some time at the moment to chat, feel free to talk about whatever. (i just really need some distraction lol)

Have a nice evening. Love you guys. thanks for being patient!

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What now? - Chapter 19

Cameron Dallas fanfic - Sequel to I’m not that kind of girl

Word count: 1′983

Previous Chapter

1st of July

I sat in my apartment in New York. She’s gonna hate me. She’s so gonna hate me. I was supposed to be in LA right now. Being next to the bride to be and try and calm her. But I wasn’t. I just wasn’t. I should have been on my flight last night. But I got scared. I couldn’t do it. She already texted and called but I didn’t answer.

Ethan tried to reach out to me. But I ignored him as well. Basically everyone tried to get a hold of me. For fuck’s sake I was the maid of honor. I had to be there. I was supposed to be calling bridesmaid that didn’t show up on time and kick ass. I was supposed to be there for my best friend when she got cold feet.

I was wrapped in my blanket on my bed. One lonely tear rolling down my cheek as my phone started to ring again.I expected it to be Josh or Will. Or anyone else from our friend group but It wasn’t just anyone else form our friend group. It was him. We hadn’t talked in months.

Flashback

„I’m sorry to inform you, that you are not pregnant.“ The doctor said in a monotone way. I nodded and Cameron’s grip tightened around my hand. „It happens that the pregnancy test is positive though you are not pregnant. It is rare though. Maybe you are just late on your period and your hormones aren’t balanced at the moment which could be an explanation for the positive test.“ He explains matter of factly.

I didn’t know how to feel. I simply nodded and after the talk we bid our goodbyes and went back to Cameron’s apartment. We didn’t say a word. Neither of us. Not even as much as a glance was shared. Just a comforting touch of his hand. His grip tight reassuring me. Reassuring us.

Flashback over

I picked up the phone and stared at the screen for a few seconds before accepting the call. „Y/N?“ His voice soft. „Where are you Y/N?“ He used my name. He didn’t call me marshmallow. „Are you there?“ I nodded as I tried to hold in my tears. I hummed a simple „mhm“ because I didn’t trust myself to say anything else.

„Listen. Sam needs you here, okay?“ I sighed. „And you know it. For a matter of fact I know that you’re beating yourself up this very moment because you are not here for her.“ He spoke fast his voice remains soft and low. „She hates me.“ I couldn’t speak more than a bare whisper. „She doesn’t.“ He sighed. He was frustrated and stressed. I could sense it.

„You hate me.“ I mumbled. I squeezed my eyes shut as if it would help me prepare for his answer. „I don’t. You know that. Just hop on the first plane and get your ass to Sam. She’s losing it without you.“ He paused. „And I am too.“ His voice even lower when he said that. I sighed. „I’m going to be there. But only for Sam.“ I finally said.

Flashback

„Text me when you get home.“ He said while he hugged me. My face nuzzled in the crook of his neck. I inhaled his sent. „I love you.“ I whispered as low as possible and left a small kiss on his neck. He pulled me in tighter one last time. „I love you too.“ He kissed the top of my head.

We let go of one another and I didn’t look back. He was going to go to Europe. I was going to be in NYC. I wouldn’t see him in a long time. As I sat at the gate waiting for boarding I received a text.

Cam: love you. and miss you.

A faint smile tugged at my lips.

Y/N: love you too. miss you more.

Flashback over

I slowly opened the door to Sam’s apartment. I took a big breath. „Sam?“ I called out. No answer. „Hun? I’m hooome.“ I closed the door behind me. It was dark. Well it was night time, of course it was dark. I put my small carry on bag on the couch. „I know you’re mad at me but you have to hear me out first. You know that right?“ I sighed as I walked towards her bedroom.

I slowly opened the door revealing the dark room. „Sam?“ I hesitated before turning the lights on. „Y/N?“ I heard his hoarse voice. He turned the lamp on his nightstand on. „What are you doing here?“ He rubbed his eyes slowly getting up. „Ethan, why didn’t you lock the front door?“ I sighed leaning against the door frame.

„Because Cameron is still out and staying here tonight?“ When I didn’t say anything he continued. „So, I guess Cameron convinced you to come?“ He just sat there and yawned. I nodded slightly. „So where is my best friend? Or does she call me a useless stupid fake friend now?“ I sighed yet again. Yeah just sigh a little more that’ll make everything better. „She’s at the hotel where the wedding’s taking place.“ I nodded.

„Alright sorry than. I’ll go over there.“ I was about to leave the room when he stopped me. „How’re you gonna get there?“ I shrugged. „I’ll get an uber. No worries. Sleep tight.“ With that I left his bedroom and closed the door. I slowly grabbed my stuff and was about to open the front door when Cameron opened it from the other side. His eyes widened when he saw me.

„You’re here.“ He states. Thanks, captain obvious, I know already. I simply nodded. „Where are you going?“ He all of a sudden frowned. „To the hotel. Didn’t know she was gonna spend the night there. And not the other way around.“ I avoided his gaze and just wanted to get out of there. „I’ll drive you. Come on.“ A ghost of a smile appeared on his lips.

Flashback

one month before the wedding

„Y/N you have to tell him. Considering you wanna spend the rest of your lives together.“ I sighed. „That is one of many possibilities and you know that. He could dump me any day now.“ Sam didn’t answer. „Okay. I’m gonna tell him as soon as he tells me he landed in LA.“

„Yeah keep telling yourself that hun.“ I rolled my eyes at her. „I’m hanging up now. You’re the worst best friend right now. I don’t blame you but I’m sure telling you.“ She chuckled. „Boohoo bitch.“ With that she hung up. Wow, the wedding is really getting to her, my god.

Not long after Cameron texted me informing me he landed safely in LA. I immediately called him so I wouldn’t procrastinate any longer. „Y/N.“ He said with some sort of relief. „Cameron.“ I mocked him a little. „How are you?“ He started some small talk. For sure there are fans around. „Can you talk right now?“ I knew he knew what I meant. He wasn’t oblivious.

„Give me a sec.“ I waited patiently for a good minute until he spoke again. „Alright marshmallow what’s up?“ He called me marshmallow. „I was at my lady’s doctor.“ I started as I sat down on my couch. „Weren’t you there like when I just started tour?“ He sounded confused. I could imagine his face scrunching up and his cute look. „Yeah, that was that appointment. Just before you left for tour I had these horrible cramps, right?“ I really didn’t know how to do this.

„Yeah I wanted to skip the first few dates to be with you.“ Nice that he remembered that conversation. „Well I didn’t really know how to tell you the news a month ago and I still don’t but I can’t just not tell you.“ I started to tear up. Damn hormones. „Please don’t tell me that you’re pregnant.“ He sighed. His voice was barely audible. „What is that supposed to mean?“ I suddenly got angry.

„Listen. I don’t want to ar-“ „Oh buddy it’s too late for that. What would you do if I was pregnant? What happened to ‘we are in this together’ , huh?“ I let out a huff in disbelieve. He’s got to be kidding me. „Y/N. What I meant was that I personally think that we are too young to have kids. We are not responsible enough to raise a child. And no one knows I’m in a relationship either. The first thing they’ll know about us would be that we are getting a baby. I wouldn’t be able to handle that.“

He sighed. „Don’t worry Cameron. I’m not able to have kids anyway.“ Great way to break the news Y/N. Well done. „What?“ It sounded like he was about to choke on air for a second. „Yeah, you don’t have to worry about breaking any news to any fans ever.“ I brushed away a small tear. „Why didn’t you tell me right away?“ He sounded angry. He was mad at me? Are you fucking serious right now?

„Because you were in Europe. Would’ve told you earlier if I had known.“ He scoffed. „Don’t do this Y/N. Don’t push me away like that.“ I shook my head. „Go worry about your little fans Cameron.“ Before I hung up I heard him muffle an „I love you.“ and with that the conversation ended.

Flashback over

I hadn’t talked to him since. I was being an asshole. I ignored him whenever he tried to reach out. But he shouldn’t have said what he said the way he did either. So we sat in silence as he drove me to Sam. I absentmindedly looked out the window as we cruised through the mostly empty streets of LA.

„You know, I wanted to apologize, right?“ He began. When I didn’t say anything he continued. „I was just stressed out because of Magcon and than we hadn’t really been talking.“ He sighed. „Why didn’t you tell me right away?“ He sounded defeated. Right about done with this bullshit.

„You were in Europe.“ I mumbled quietly and shrugged. „That’s not a valid reason.“ My gaze was still fixed to the buildings that were rushing past. „I was scared,okay?“ I sighed. „I didn’t know how you would react. I know that you want kids and I can’t give that to you. Why in gods name would you still want to be with me?“ I started to tear up still not looking at him.

Instead of saying anything he simply grabbed my hand that rested on my lap, soothingly stroking over it with his thumb. „I felt like I disappointed you.“ I closed my eyes waiting for his response. „It’s fine we’ll find a way. But it’s nothing we have to worry about now.“ His voice was soothing as always.

After that we didn’t talk much, he left me in front of the hotel leaving a kiss on my cheek. I was dreading Sam’s reaction. But when I knocked on the door to her hotel room she welcomed me with open arms. „I knew you’d come. I knew it.“ She mumbled into my shoulder as she pulled me closer.

„I’m so sorry I’m late. Did I miss your freak out yet?“ I tried to lighten the mood. She chuckled. „You missed about three of them. One of them concerning the fact that you weren’t here yet. I thought you’ve been murdered, up until Cameron told me you were on your way.“ She sighed looking at me with this knowing look.

„So… Are you ready for tomorrow?“ A grin slowly formed on my face. She frantically nodded and that was the point where we started squealing and laughing. My best friend was getting married and life was kind of okay at the moment.

A/N: Sorry for the long wait. University is more stressful than anticipated. Story is coming to an end though. Last chapter coming soon! Hope you like it. Always appreciate feedback!! Love you guys.

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What now? - Chapter 19

Cameron Dallas fanfic - Sequel to I’m not that kind of girl

Word count: 1′983

Previous Chapter

1st of July

Flashback

Flashback over

Flashback

Cam: love you. and miss you.

A faint smile tugged at my lips.

Y/N: love you too. miss you more.

Flashback over

Flashback

one month before the wedding

Flashback over

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A/N: Sorry for the long wait. University is more stressful than anticipated. Story is coming to an end though. Last chapter coming soon! Hope you like it. Always appreciate feedback!! Love you guys.

#what now #chapter 19 #camdallasfanfics #cameron #dallas #cameron dallas #cameron dallas fanfic #cameron dallas fanfiction #cameron dallas fan fiction #fanfiction #fan #fan fiction #fanfic #writing #story

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