capriciouswriter

[capriciouswriter]

                      In the beginning there was me…

                                 Indie highly selective & private God rp blog                                               biblical lore + spn based                                             extremely canon divergent

#self promo #remember i moved #uvu

[capriciouswriter]

                      In the beginning there was me…

                                 Indie highly selective & private God rp blog                                               biblical lore + spn based                                             extremely canon divergent

#self promo #FIND ME HERE NOW

[capriciouswriter]

“Might have to do with you doing more good than bad, have you thought about that??”

            ❛  that feeling when you actually are the bloody devil and               yet nobody ever believes you.  ❜

#lightbringer #owo #;lead by blind faith (mainverse)

[capriciouswriter]

i think i might move my chuck blog to a new one again, this one has become....... overwhelming. also i don’t like my tags anymore

#outofgod

[capriciouswriter]

stop glorifying people who aren’t me

#;in the beginning there was me (about)

[capriciouswriter]

“Ah, those two. In a fight, they’re lethal. Around each other, they melt.”

—

RICHELLE MEAD, THE GOLDEN LILY

Sydney talking about Rose and Dimitri.

(via booksnthat)

#;when i'm down on my knees you're how i pray (adonai - biigbcss)

[capriciouswriter]

me a few days ago: i should quit rping

me right now: i can’t, someone has to carry the weight of loving on Chuck and Lucifer

#outofgod #someone has to #and that someone is oli and me

[capriciouswriter]

A long feelsy analysis of My tears ricochet solely focused on my favorite ship (Chuck x Lucifer w/Hellruins)

Starting with the obvious part: "Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me?" like, in relative terms of creation, Lucifer was, at the very least, very much young. He was just a boy having a tantrum, did he really deserve the penitence he was given??

"'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you 'Til my dying day" I mean, we been knowing how much Lucifer loved God to do what he did, how highly he thought of Him, and that was his demise. His dying day being his fall.

a lil before the first line i talked about: "And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes too" because we been knowing it's as much Chuck's fault as it was Lucifer's how high his ego was. Imagine being called the most beautiful angel on creation, His favorite, His most precious creation. Chuck's spoiling spoiled Lucifer, he didn't do it alone.

"And you're the hero flying around, saving face. And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake?" God making Himself the good guy, the hero that locked up the Devil, the most evil creature that wanted to destroy humanity, He made Himself the hero of humanity by 'killing' Lucifer. And yet through history, He continues to mingle with the devil, plotting, situations that end up with Him as the savior, as the good guy.

"'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave" Lucifer was brave and strong and a powerful asset in Chuck's eyes during their fight against the Darkness. But the moment Lucifer rose up against Him, he was no longer brave. He was spoiled and a brat and childish. The irony.

"And I can go anywhere I want. Anywhere I want, just not home" The pain of Lucifer obtaining "free will" at what cost?? at the cost of losing his only home, his siblings, his Father, the life he had known. He can do and go anywhere he wants, just not home. Never home.

"And I still talk to you (When I'm screaming at the sky)" imagine all the times Lucifer cried out from the cage, begging Him to let him free, to save him, to forgive him maybe even?? And even after everything, after 'resigning' he'd still scream at the sky, cursing His name in the way He cursed him.

"You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same. Cursing my name, wishing I stayed" The pain Lucifer felt during his fall wasn't only felt by him, it affected Him as well and it still hurts to have lost the one being He trusted most. And He curses him for breaking his trust, for leaving Him alone, for betraying Him and taking advantage of the fact that He loved him. the things Chuck would give to have Lucifer by His side again, but never at the cost of His own pride.

"You turned into your worst fears, And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain" Chuck turned into a wrathful, sinful God. Into violence and pride, and blames everyone else but Himself. Because if he takes blame then it means it was His fault Lucifer is gone, and He can't have that. He can't admit His mistakes, because He's perfect and He doesn't make mistakes. It's the devil's fault, and will always be.

"Crossing out the good years, And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed, Look at how my tears ricochet" Chuck forgets about everything and everyone after Lucifer's fall. He abandons heaven, He abandons humanity and curses them to deal with a guilt that isn't theirs to bear. Ignoring He's not the only one in pain...

#outofgod #;even if it's a false god we'd still worship this love (lucifer - hellruins) #hellruins #:piosad: #i have too many feels

[capriciouswriter]

HELLO I CAN’T STOP LISTENING TO My tears ricochet IT’S THE MOST GOD X LU SONG EVER I’M CRYING

#outofgod #I CAN'T STOP SCREAMING AT OLI

[capriciouswriter]

We gather here, we line up, weepin' in a sunlit room And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes, too Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me? 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you 'Til my dying day

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And you're the hero flying around, saving face And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

We gather stones, never knowing what they'll mean Some to throw, some to make a diamond ring You know I didn't want to have to haunt you But what a ghostly scene You wear the same jewels that I gave you As you bury me

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace 'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

And I can go anywhere I want Anywhere I want, just not home And you can aim for my heart, go for blood But you would still miss me in your bones And I still talk to you (When I'm screaming at the sky) And when you can't sleep at night (You hear my stolen lullabies)

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same Cursing my name, wishing I stayed You turned into your worst fears And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain Crossing out the good years And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet

#;even if it's a false god we'd still worship this love (lucifer - hellruins) #literally chuck's relationship with lucifer #like #every single lyric fits

[capriciouswriter]

And I still talk to you (When I'm screaming at the sky)

#;even if it's a false god we'd still worship this love (lucifer - hellruins)

[capriciouswriter]

and you can aim for my heart, go for blood; but you would still miss me in your bones

#THE MOST LUCIFER CORE #;even if it's a false god we'd still worship this love (lucifer - hellruins)

[capriciouswriter]

“I didn’t have it in myself to go with grace cause when I’d fight you used to tell me I was brave” is an insanely good lyric he encouraged her fire and energy as long as it benefitted him he didn’t realize that spark would hit him too when he wronged her

#BITCH #;even if it's a false god we'd still worship this love (lucifer - hellruins)

[capriciouswriter]

#;even if it's a false god we'd still worship this love (lucifer - hellruins)

[capriciouswriter]

“Gabriel...” He sighs, knowing he’d soon have two angry archangels on His back once He’s done with Gabriel. “Do you feel better now, at least?”

“  michael  and  lucifer  wouldn’t  let  me  come  with  them  to  visit  earth ,    so  i  annihilated  a  few  of  their  planets.   ”       

@capriciouswriter​

#wingslut #;oh take me back to the start (pre fall) #*sweats* #this is the only fc i had in this computer #my laptop is off >:0

[capriciouswriter]

Tenderly watching on His youngest seraphim

#;Dash Commentary #asher and davian are so cute #proud dad

[capriciouswriter]

I just learned how to make emojis guys watch out for this cowboy

#yeehaaw #crack post