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ONLY ONES WHO KNOWS.
— ALEX TURNER
pairing: alex turner x fem! reader
summary: she faces the emotional turmoil of loving someone she can’t have. alex brings her home one night, putting their entire relationship in jeopardy.
warning: vulgar language, unrequited love, sickeningly—gut wrenching angst because i love to torture myself, some descriptions of sa (briefly), mentions of drug and alcohol abuse and slight violence, traumatized alex and reader. don’t read if it makes you uncomfortable!
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….  ALEX HAD [Y/N] IN HIS ARMS AS HE ENTERED INSIDE HER APARTMENT, HIS HANDSOME FACE PAINTED WITH CONCERN AS HE LED THEM TOWARD HER BEDROOM. The lead vocalist quietly cursed, bumping into a counter with her by his side. He heard her quiet whimpers while she was glued into his chest, mumbling incoherent words as she halted with her steps. The one thing he hated the most was to see her in a drunk state. He remembered their early days when they were young and experiencing [Y/N] being taken advantage of, especially when she was intoxicated. There was one incident where Alex saved her from a guy, ending up being scarred in the process. She couldn’t remember the incident, only bits of it, but Alex remembered everything.
The memory of her lying down in the dirty mud scared and vulnerable kept replaying inside his head and he made sure that something like this would never happen again. After that incident, he always looked after her whenever they were out drinking. He always felt bad for lying when she asked about what happened that night, not wanting to burden her with more pain. He has received some questions and looks from his friends, especially his former girlfriends who always wondered why he took extra notice and care for the woman.
     Tonight was just like all the previous times, with [Y/N] being so easily susceptible to alcohol and Alex watching her from afar, already noticing her change of demeanor as he was seated beside his girlfriend, who looked rather concerned for the woman Alex was looking at. She knew how close they were and she considered [Y/N] a good acquainted of hers. She did however question why he always waited for everyone to leave so that he could take her home. 
     His girlfriend frowned, her eyes looking back and forth from the intoxicated woman and to Alex, who aggressively bounced his leg. She watched him gripping his drink tightly, his knuckles turning white as he looked at [Y/N] laughing hysterically as she was on the dancefloor with an unknown man. 
     Alex’s mind wandered back to that night, the sound of her cries haunting his mind. His heart started to palpitate and he could feel his chest prickling. He subconsciously rubbed his chest to cease some of the discomfort, his eyes averting away from her toward his drink that was untouched. Flashes of his bloody hand engulfed his mind and he clenched his jaw. He felt a gentle hand touch his stubbed jaw, making him snap out of his state.
     “Are you alright, babe?” His girlfriend asked, eyes tinted with concern. She grabbed a small tissue to wipe some sweat from his forehead, her fingers brushing a few hair strands away from his handsome features. 
     Alex’s smile curved upwards, covering his hands with hers before planting a chaste kiss on her knuckles. He nodded, inching closer to his lover to pull her into a gentle kiss. “I’m perfect,” he mumbled against her lips, completely oblivious of [Y/N] watching the couple with a pained expression as she was in the arms of a man she didn’t know. 
     [Y/N] tiredly sighed, her lips forming into a downward pout as she sat down on her bed. She furrowed her eyebrows, lips pressed into a thin line as she contemplated how many times Alex drove her home, and even going so far that she remembered him removing her makeup and taking her to bed. She hated him for that, in fact, she despised every single thing he did for her. From offering her a glass of water, pulling up her hair when she threw up into the toilet, to respectively helping her put on her pajamas. [Y/N] remembered telling Matt about why he always was the one who drove her home. She received the same halting response when she asked Alex.
     “He just…doesn’t trust leaving you alone with the others. He worries a lot, you know, even with us.” 
     As their friendship evolved, she considered him a very close friend of hers, but as they grew older she became conflicted with her relationship with Alex. She remembered when all the times they had fun and partied, she woke up confused in the morning, watching her bare face freshly cleaned in the mirror, and noticing her dress from the previous night being neatly tucked and placed on her chair beside the nightstand. It wasn’t after three years that she realized that he was always the one who made sure that she got home safely. She felt ashamed for developing feelings for him when he was taken. She sometimes went so far to the point that she faked being drunk, just to be sober enough to feel his calloused hands gently removing her makeup and getting picked up into his arms to feel his warmth. 
     [Y/N] felt horrible and guilt ate her alive whenever she thought of his former girlfriends. They had to watch him leave with her and she wondered if she was the cause for some of his breakups. That thought always left a punch in the gut. She hated herself and grew more distant and reserved as the years went by to show respect. She was still supportive and went to their concerts, but the afterparties and late nights became fewer as the band grew more successful. However, the last few months had taken a toll on her when Alex asked her to come to one of their album release parties. 
     The work life had become hectic, which meant that she had almost no time for any social activities and family visits. Her apartment was getting refurnished, which meant bad quality sleep after six in the morning when the workers entered inside her house. And, what better way than to use alcohol as a coping mechanism to cease some of her life problems? And watching Alex in the arms of his lover increased the desire to drown in her misery with alcohol. She didn’t wanna come to the party at first, but after getting persuaded by Katie she couldn’t fight it against her. The rest was a blur and the only thing she remembered was being carried to the car, and leading her to where she currently was—ashamed, dirty, and tired of this endless loop.
     “You still with me, love?” she snapped out of her melancholy, eyes slowly averting away from the floor toward Alex, who came out of the bathroom with a few cotton pads and her makeup remover. She felt like a fist was slowly closing over her heart, watching his expression softening as he kneeled down to her level. She lightly nodded, feeling the cotton on her skin.
     She closed her eyes, feeling the cold liquid pressing over her eyelids as he removed bits of her eyeshadow. She opened her eyes, immediately locking eyes with his doe-eyes staring softly into hers. Alex gave her a small smile, causing the burning ache in her chest to claw all the way up to her throat. She avoided eye contact, feeling her eyes getting blurry with her tears. His finger traced over her jaw, his gentle and warm fingertips removing a small hair away from her skin and that was enough for her body to betray her. 
     [Y/N]’s body shook vigorously, along with her shoulders as she broke down. Hot tears trickled down her chin, her lips trembling like a child as she cried. She cried for everything. She cried for the love she could never have. She cried for the guilt and the shame that was etched into her heart, for being a burden to him and everyone else. She felt his hand on her cheek to tuck away some hair away from her glistening face, wiping away her tears, but she shook her head at him. She removed his hands, making him frown.
     Alex’s stomach churned, watching her standing up from the bed with wobbly steps. His mind wandered back to the party, worry prickling inside his chest as he thought of the man she was with. He stood up and watched her pacing back and forth as soft cries emitted from her lips. His face scrunched into a deep frown, the sound of her cries leaving a scar inside his heart. “Did something happen? Did he do something to you?” he asked, his voice turning rigid and stoic. 
     She stopped pacing, her teary eyes looking at him. She hugged herself, her hands subconsciously rubbing her wrists as a way to comfort herself. She scoffed, shaking her head as she looked at him with a look he couldn’t quite decipher. “You know, I always longed to have songs written about me the way you write about them.”
     Alex paused at her changing the subject, his frown deepening as he looked at her with a confused look. He opened his mouth, but closed it, not knowing what to say. He watched her face turning into a look of discomfort and he noticed her eyes glistening from the lights above her as she sniffled. “I was always confused the morning after we all hung out and I thought maybe it was my roommate who helped me change and remove my makeup, but it wasn’t her. I didn’t get it at first, and I was mostly too drunk to realize who it was. So, I wanted to test that theory. We were all out in a bar one night and I drank only a little to loosen up. I acted drunk and to my success, it worked. I noticed that you were always seated at a table and staring at me, watching my every move, like I was a bomb that was about to explode if you looked away. I was confused at first before I realized that it was you. You were the one who drove me home and helped me get to bed.” she voiced her thoughts, eyes staring into nothing. 
     “You were so gentle. You helped me get out of my dress and you were so respective about it,” she said, her voice hoarse as her mind wandered back to the memory. A lone tear fell down her chin, which she quickly wiped away. “You made sure that I drank up all the water from the cup and held my hair up when I threw up. I’ve never had someone taking care of me the way you do, Alex. I felt so safe with you and sometimes used that as an advantage just to have you all by myself.” she admitted, chin trembling as she sniffled, feeling her throat burn.
     [Y/N] cried, putting her hands on her face to hide her shame. “It pains me to admit it because I’m so ashamed, Alex. I’m so fucking ashamed and feel so guilty when you here taking care of me when you were with someone else. But I couldn’t help it. It was the only way I could feel…loved. And that is so selfish of me, but….” she said, her voice barely above a whisper, but he heard her regardless. 
     Alex stood in front of her, unblinking as he tried to process what was coming out of her mouth. His lips parted in a silent surprise, brows shot up as a range of emotions hit him like a tidal wave. His face contorted into a deep scowl, feeling an inferno of anger slowly developing inside his chest. He pointed a finger at her, jaw clenched as his face turned stoic. “So, you’re telling me that all this time, you were faking it to get with me?” he said in a calming manner, tears welled inside his eyes.
     She gave him a confused look, shaking her head as she folded her arms in front of her chest. “What? No, that’s not what I meant when I told you I faked it. I didn’t even know that it was you after a long time,” she defended with a deep frown, feeling her chest rise as her breaths became more quicker and shallow.
     Alex dryly chuckled, his tears glistening from the lights above him. “But you did fake it, didn’t you? God, I can’t believe this, [Y/N].” he chided, his voice staggering with venom as he felt the dark cloud inside his chest squeezing his lungs. His breathing quickened and he rubbed his chest, clutching his shirt tightly. His jaw was tightly clutched and she wondered if his jaw would break by how clenched it was.
     [Y/N] watched him slowly crumble, watching how his lips twitched as tears slowly traced down his cheeks. Her heart bled and she wanted nothing more than to wipe away his sadness, but she couldn’t. Not when it was her being the cause of his pain. She let out a shaky sigh, her glossy eyes looking anywhere but him. “You could’ve just left me alone, you know? You don’t always need to clean up my mess and be all up in my business,” she interjected, her tone rigid and cold. 
     Alex’s head snapped toward her, the look on his face sending chills down her spine. His gaze hardened as he inched closer to the woman, making her take a step backward. “I’m in your fucking business? Have you looked at yourself when you’re drunk, you don’t even know what half of the time is happening. You can’t even take care of yourself!” he mirrored her anger as he jabbed his finger into her neck, making her aggressively swat his hand away.
     She scoffed, “Like you’re the one to talk. Have you looked in the mirror lately? Yeah, are you having relationship problems too? You’re no better than me, and you have no fucking right to tell me how I can’t take care of myself when you’re worse than me. I know you.” she chastised, her voice echoing across the room.
     “Fuck you!” Alex shouted, the veins in his neck standing out. Scorn danced in his eyes and his lips formed into a thin line as he restrained himself from saying something he would regret. His lips emitted enraged breaths, chest heaving as they looked at each other. Silence engulfed the pair and the only sound they could hear was their heavy breathing, eyes pierced into each other like two swords. 
     “Why?” Alex broke the ice, his voice slightly cracking as he looked at her. His gaze softened, the fire in his eyes ceasing as he watched her tear away from his gaze. He watched her let out a teary laugh, noticing the whites in her eyes turning red. “God, don’t make me say it, Alex. I thought it was obvious.”
     Alex’s face turned into a confused look, “I-I don’t understand, love. Why did you do it? Why did you fake everything–” he voiced his frustrations, but he got interrupted by [Y/N], sending him in a state of shock—like a deer was stuck in headlights.
     “Because I love you, Alexander.” her voice wavered, lips trembling like a child as she let her guard down. She started to cry and her shoulders started to shake as she sauntered closer to him. “I love you.” she breathed out, gasping between her cries and inching closer. Her face contorted into a pained expression. “I love you. I love you, God, I love you so much that it hurts. I know I’m not supposed to, but god damn it, I can’t help it.” 
     Alex’s eyes were red and glassy from crying, and the rapid of his chest stuttered as his face crumpled. Her cries haunted his ears, making him cover his trembling hands over his face. I love you, kept repeating inside his brain like a mantra, “Fuck.” he croaked out, rubbing his glistening face. A tremor of guilt slowly started to gnaw inside of him, eating him alive.
     [Y/N] squeezed her eyes shut, trying to stop the tears from flowing, but it was of no use. Her eyes were bruised and sore, and she hadn’t cried that much in a long while. The skin around her eyes was raw and deep shadows were forming under her eyes. She hiccuped, her lips pulled into a downward pout, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for everything. For everything that I’ve done to cause you pain, and getting involved in your relationships.” she wept, grimacing at her swollen face. “I’m the reason why they all left you, and I–god, I’m so stupid. I’m so fucking stupid.” 
     She sobbed uncontrollably, repetitively hitting her chest as she distanced herself away from him. She whimpered and smacked her head, “You fucking idiot.” she rasped, her throat sore and dry from crying. She felt him inching closer, taking her hands away from her face to stop her from hurting herself. “Stop doing that.” she heard him say, his voice soft and she looked at him.
     Alex sniffled, bringing his hand to wipe away her tears with his thumb. He gave her a small smile, his hand lingering longer on her cheek. “You didn’t do anything, [Y/N]. You’re not the reason why I ended things with them. And you’re not causing me pain, love. Please, don’t say that. I’m sorry.” he reassured, making her frown at his apology, eyes narrowed and confused.  “I’m sorry that I made it seem like I was leading you on and made you think like that. I really do, and fuck—I feel horrible, because I haven’t been quite honest with you after what happened that night.” he admitted, letting out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. 
     “What do you mean?”
     Alex nibbed on his bottom lip as his mind replayed the night. Memories seared through his brain, sending a prickling sensation up his spine. His heart started beating straight of his ribcage, the stammering inside his chest making him let out a strangled gasp. He squeezed his eyes shut, as in a way to protect himself.
     [Y/N]’s cries and whimpers echoed across the forest, her body smeared with mud and dirt. She felt blood pooling underneath her dress, making her cry harder. Her blurry vision blended with her tears making her potentially blind. She hissed as her hand touched her bruised knee, trying to shift her body to the side but it was to no vail. Her eyes danced with confusion as she regained back some of her vision. “What?” she asked herself, eyes darting across the dark greenery, eyes locking with a wide-eyed Alex.
     Alex looked back at his hands, the scabs and bruises etched onto his delicate skin. Crimson flew down his knuckles like waterfall, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. He looked back at the guy who jumped on her, eyes rigid and cold as he felt a fire engulf inside his chest. But that fire soon ceased once he heard her cries, snapping him away from his slumped body toward his best friend. The way she was crumbled to the ground, looking disoriented and vulnerable, took a great toll on him. The young man started to cry, his body uncontrollably shaking as he sprinted toward her with wobbly steps. 
     “Fuck, [Y/N], you’re bleeding. What the fuck did he do to you?!” he cried, eyes wide as his trembling hands went to his jacket to cover her cold body. Guilt punched his gut, cursing at himself for not watching over her properly. He made a promise to her parents that he would watch over her, but he completely blew it.
     Alex sniffled, rubbing his eyes. He looked at her with a pained expression, tears welling inside his eyes. He noticed having her drink tightly clasped into her trembling hand, making some of the water spill. He watched her clenching her jaw at the mention of that night. “You don’t remember, but I do.” he started off with, voice cracking at the end, making her give him an angsty look, lips pressed into a thin line.
     “It was so weird, because you were just right beside me, and when I turned around you were gone. I remembered you smoked something with a guy early on the party and I figured you were with him, and I didn’t want to interrupt or disturb you, you know? You seemed to like him. But I couldn’t shake away the thought that something was wrong. I saw you a few meters away from where I was standing and I saw you were completely out of it, and that’s when I knew.” he explained, tears slowly sliding down his chin which he quickly wiped away. 
     “He started to touch you, and I-I remember you using all of your strength to push him away, but he wouldn’t budge. That seemed to anger him more because the next thing he did was to push you to the ground. I don’t remember what happened after that. I blacked out and I could only remember that my hands were bleeding. He–uh..he was on the ground and you were crying hysterically and telling me that you didn’t know what happened.” he continued with his story, fiddling with his hands as he nibbed on his skin, staring at nothing in particular.
     [Y/N] blinked away her tears, the hand on her glass tightening. She closed her eyes, eyebrows furrowed as a deep scorn etched onto her face. Images and flashes of repressed memories bubbled up through the surface, causing a tremor of emotions searing through her. 
     “I-I don’t know, Al. I don’t know what happened. I can’t feel my body. God, I can’t feel my legs, and I can’t see a goddamn thing!” she panicked, tears falling like waterfall as she clutched onto Alex like he was her safety net. She hid her face into his chest as she sobbed, her shoulders vigorously shaking. 
     Alex watched her pace back and forth with a distressed look on her face. He took a step closer, making her whirl her head toward him, eyes wide in circles as she tried to process the information. “I kept thinking of what would happen if I wasn’t there. It kept me up at night and the worst part of it all was that I promised your parents that you were gonna get home in one piece. Bu—”
     “Shut up, Alex!” she snapped, trying to block out the memories. But the more she resisted, the worse it got. Images of her lying down the ground bleeding sent her reeling, and she held the counter for support, placing her drink on the table in the process and turning her body to him. “Please, just stop.” she pleaded, eyes begging for him to stop bringing up the past.
     “Look, I-I need to go back to the others. I don’t wanna do this, man.” she slurred, eyes squinting as she looked at him through her blurry vision. She felt her stomach churn with uneasiness, making her swatting his hands away from her body.
     [Y/N] gained some sobriety, and she felt panic wash over her as she felt his hands going lower, down to her pants. She tried to push him away, but he was stronger. “Stop moving,” she heard him say, making her let out strangled cry, moving backwards to get away from him as far as possible. 
     Her body was leaning against the counter, eyes staring into Alex’s as the pair shared a look. She scoffed, rubbing a hand over her face with a confused expression. “Is that the reason? You wanted to protect me from guys? What are you, my fucking bodyguard?” She thought out loud, her voice turning louder.
     Alex looked at her like she’ve grown two heads, eyes painted with bewilderment. “You could’ve fucking died, that’s why! You didn’t see the look on your dad’s face when he stood at the door, watching me carrying you bruised and injured. He did more than pushing you to the ground. [Y/N], you broke your rib and almost cracked your skull. In fact, you should thank me that you’re even alive.” he raged, looking at her with wide eyes.
     “Get out.” Alex heard her say with no emotion, making him look at her. Something dark lingered behind her eyes as she looked at him with a blank expression, making his heart drop. He shook his head, “No, please. Let’s talk about this.” he begged, inching closer to her, but stopped once he saw her bringing up her hand.
     Angry tears welled inside her eyes, the veins in her neck ridged out in living edges as she looked at him with her teeth gritted. She felt anger coursing through her veins, but she swallowed her fire and exhaled before speaking. “There’s nothing to talk about, Alex. It’s very simple. I love you, but you don’t, at least not the way that I want.” she simply addressed, shrugging her shoulders as she gave him a tired look. “You lead me on, thinking that maybe you reciprocated these feelings, but no. You were only doing all of this out of pity, and for what? A broken promise you made with my dad? Now, get out.” she finished, taking the last sip of her drink.
     Alex’s jaw slacked, her words piercing into his skin, voice hot like a knife was being held over a fire. Alex shook his head, feet glued to the floor as he looked at her with teary eyes. He wept, walking toward her. “No, that’s not why I did it. [Y/N], I’ve never pited you, and I do love you—” He expressed between his cries, chin shaking and he felt like a child begging for his mother’s attention as he tried to change her mind. 
     Before his brain could register the sound of breaking glass, his body was on the floor as he covered himself. He flinched at her blood-curdling scream, hands covering his ears at the painful sound of glass smashed into a wall. “Get the fuck out of my house, Alex, please.” She sobbed, sauntering toward him and grabbing his arm to drag him out of her bedroom.
     His body stayed on the wooden floor, shoulders shaking as he quietly wept. He profusely apologized, vigorously shaking his head, making her loosen the tight grip on his arm. She sniffled, wiping her runny nose and walking toward her bedroom door. She stood beside the door frame, body turned to him as she looked at him, eyes drained and losing all its spark.
     “I don’t wanna see you anymore, Alex. I don’t wanna be near you. I don’t wanna hear you, and God, I don’t even wanna look at you.” she spat out, using the last remaining of fire and energy inside of her. 
     Alex’s heart was bleeding with pain, and the buzzing inside his head filled every crevice of his brain, rattling every bone making him let out small whimper. Her words stung him and it replayed over and over again inside his head. He slowly nodded as he ran a hand over his hair, his hand carding through his hair, his nails lighty scraping at his scalp. He cleared his throat and stood up from his feet, walking toward the door with a look of shame.
     The pair looked at each other, eyes dull and drained. Alex bit the insides of his cheeks, his eyes lingering longer to study every features of her face. “As you wish, [Y/N].” he rasped, his voice dry and sore from crying. He gave her a tip-lipped smile, feet leading him out of her bedroom and disappearing from her sight.
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captainwans · 3 days
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she looks absolutely gorgeous…and he’s there! (smau)
arabella series!
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pairing: alex turner x fem! actress reader
summary: the media and fans are taking a liking to y/n being apart of alex’s life, but there’s also a downside when your relationship gets public and having to deal with haters and nasty comments.
timeline: 2014
note: this format / layout is heavily inspired by my love @ithinkimokeei 🩶
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iamcindy yourinstagram you cheater
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yourinstagram about last night 🖤 🚬#leedsfestival2014 arcticmonkeys
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username NOT MARVEL COMMENTING
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yourinstagram i already did when he saw me in the crowd 😘
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yourinstagram breanahelders katiee_cook_ iamcindy my girls 💕💘💖
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yourinstagram fashion week never disappoints ✨
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username username right they looked like they didn’t wanna sit beside each other did you see y/n’s face
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username (2) and second of all mind you that they were grouped together and shared their interest with the designer which is why they took pictures. they looked pretty happy and smiley to me!
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OH MY GOD IM BEGGING FOR THAT ANGSTY DRAFT YOUVE GOT IN THE WORKS 🙏🙏🙏
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ONLY ONES WHO KNOWS
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ONLY ONES WHO KNOWS.
— ALEX TURNER
pairing: alex turner x fem! reader
summary: she faces the emotional turmoil of loving someone she can’t have. alex brings her home one night, putting their entire relationship in jeopardy.
warning: vulgar language, unrequited love, sickeningly—gut wrenching angst because i love to torture myself, some descriptions of sa (briefly), mentions of drug and alcohol abuse and slight violence, traumatized alex and reader. don’t read if it makes you uncomfortable!
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….  ALEX HAD [Y/N] IN HIS ARMS AS HE ENTERED INSIDE HER APARTMENT, HIS HANDSOME FACE PAINTED WITH CONCERN AS HE LED THEM TOWARD HER BEDROOM. The lead vocalist quietly cursed, bumping into a counter with her by his side. He heard her quiet whimpers while she was glued into his chest, mumbling incoherent words as she halted with her steps. The one thing he hated the most was to see her in a drunk state. He remembered their early days when they were young and experiencing [Y/N] being taken advantage of, especially when she was intoxicated. There was one incident where Alex saved her from a guy, ending up being scarred in the process. She couldn’t remember the incident, only bits of it, but Alex remembered everything.
The memory of her lying down in the dirty mud scared and vulnerable kept replaying inside his head and he made sure that something like this would never happen again. After that incident, he always looked after her whenever they were out drinking. He always felt bad for lying when she asked about what happened that night, not wanting to burden her with more pain. He has received some questions and looks from his friends, especially his former girlfriends who always wondered why he took extra notice and care for the woman.
     Tonight was just like all the previous times, with [Y/N] being so easily susceptible to alcohol and Alex watching her from afar, already noticing her change of demeanor as he was seated beside his girlfriend, who looked rather concerned for the woman Alex was looking at. She knew how close they were and she considered [Y/N] a good acquainted of hers. She did however question why he always waited for everyone to leave so that he could take her home. 
     His girlfriend frowned, her eyes looking back and forth from the intoxicated woman and to Alex, who aggressively bounced his leg. She watched him gripping his drink tightly, his knuckles turning white as he looked at [Y/N] laughing hysterically as she was on the dancefloor with an unknown man. 
     Alex’s mind wandered back to that night, the sound of her cries haunting his mind. His heart started to palpitate and he could feel his chest prickling. He subconsciously rubbed his chest to cease some of the discomfort, his eyes averting away from her toward his drink that was untouched. Flashes of his bloody hand engulfed his mind and he clenched his jaw. He felt a gentle hand touch his stubbed jaw, making him snap out of his state.
     “Are you alright, babe?” His girlfriend asked, eyes tinted with concern. She grabbed a small tissue to wipe some sweat from his forehead, her fingers brushing a few hair strands away from his handsome features. 
     Alex’s smile curved upwards, covering his hands with hers before planting a chaste kiss on her knuckles. He nodded, inching closer to his lover to pull her into a gentle kiss. “I’m perfect,” he mumbled against her lips, completely oblivious of [Y/N] watching the couple with a pained expression as she was in the arms of a man she didn’t know. 
     [Y/N] tiredly sighed, her lips forming into a downward pout as she sat down on her bed. She furrowed her eyebrows, lips pressed into a thin line as she contemplated how many times Alex drove her home, and even going so far that she remembered him removing her makeup and taking her to bed. She hated him for that, in fact, she despised every single thing he did for her. From offering her a glass of water, pulling up her hair when she threw up into the toilet, to respectively helping her put on her pajamas. [Y/N] remembered telling Matt about why he always was the one who drove her home. She received the same halting response when she asked Alex.
     “He just…doesn’t trust leaving you alone with the others. He worries a lot, you know, even with us.” 
     As their friendship evolved, she considered him a very close friend of hers, but as they grew older she became conflicted with her relationship with Alex. She remembered when all the times they had fun and partied, she woke up confused in the morning, watching her bare face freshly cleaned in the mirror, and noticing her dress from the previous night being neatly tucked and placed on her chair beside the nightstand. It wasn’t after three years that she realized that he was always the one who made sure that she got home safely. She felt ashamed for developing feelings for him when he was taken. She sometimes went so far to the point that she faked being drunk, just to be sober enough to feel his calloused hands gently removing her makeup and getting picked up into his arms to feel his warmth. 
     [Y/N] felt horrible and guilt ate her alive whenever she thought of his former girlfriends. They had to watch him leave with her and she wondered if she was the cause for some of his breakups. That thought always left a punch in the gut. She hated herself and grew more distant and reserved as the years went by to show respect. She was still supportive and went to their concerts, but the afterparties and late nights became fewer as the band grew more successful. However, the last few months had taken a toll on her when Alex asked her to come to one of their album release parties. 
     The work life had become hectic, which meant that she had almost no time for any social activities and family visits. Her apartment was getting refurnished, which meant bad quality sleep after six in the morning when the workers entered inside her house. And, what better way than to use alcohol as a coping mechanism to cease some of her life problems? And watching Alex in the arms of his lover increased the desire to drown in her misery with alcohol. She didn’t wanna come to the party at first, but after getting persuaded by Katie she couldn’t fight it against her. The rest was a blur and the only thing she remembered was being carried to the car, and leading her to where she currently was—ashamed, dirty, and tired of this endless loop.
     “You still with me, love?” she snapped out of her melancholy, eyes slowly averting away from the floor toward Alex, who came out of the bathroom with a few cotton pads and her makeup remover. She felt like a fist was slowly closing over her heart, watching his expression softening as he kneeled down to her level. She lightly nodded, feeling the cotton on her skin.
     She closed her eyes, feeling the cold liquid pressing over her eyelids as he removed bits of her eyeshadow. She opened her eyes, immediately locking eyes with his doe-eyes staring softly into hers. Alex gave her a small smile, causing the burning ache in her chest to claw all the way up to her throat. She avoided eye contact, feeling her eyes getting blurry with her tears. His finger traced over her jaw, his gentle and warm fingertips removing a small hair away from her skin and that was enough for her body to betray her. 
     [Y/N]’s body shook vigorously, along with her shoulders as she broke down. Hot tears trickled down her chin, her lips trembling like a child as she cried. She cried for everything. She cried for the love she could never have. She cried for the guilt and the shame that was etched into her heart, for being a burden to him and everyone else. She felt his hand on her cheek to tuck away some hair away from her glistening face, wiping away her tears, but she shook her head at him. She removed his hands, making him frown.
     Alex’s stomach churned, watching her standing up from the bed with wobbly steps. His mind wandered back to the party, worry prickling inside his chest as he thought of the man she was with. He stood up and watched her pacing back and forth as soft cries emitted from her lips. His face scrunched into a deep frown, the sound of her cries leaving a scar inside his heart. “Did something happen? Did he do something to you?” he asked, his voice turning rigid and stoic. 
     She stopped pacing, her teary eyes looking at him. She hugged herself, her hands subconsciously rubbing her wrists as a way to comfort herself. She scoffed, shaking her head as she looked at him with a look he couldn’t quite decipher. “You know, I always longed to have songs written about me the way you write about them.”
     Alex paused at her changing the subject, his frown deepening as he looked at her with a confused look. He opened his mouth, but closed it, not knowing what to say. He watched her face turning into a look of discomfort and he noticed her eyes glistening from the lights above her as she sniffled. “I was always confused the morning after we all hung out and I thought maybe it was my roommate who helped me change and remove my makeup, but it wasn’t her. I didn’t get it at first, and I was mostly too drunk to realize who it was. So, I wanted to test that theory. We were all out in a bar one night and I drank only a little to loosen up. I acted drunk and to my success, it worked. I noticed that you were always seated at a table and staring at me, watching my every move, like I was a bomb that was about to explode if you looked away. I was confused at first before I realized that it was you. You were the one who drove me home and helped me get to bed.” she voiced her thoughts, eyes staring into nothing. 
     “You were so gentle. You helped me get out of my dress and you were so respective about it,” she said, her voice hoarse as her mind wandered back to the memory. A lone tear fell down her chin, which she quickly wiped away. “You made sure that I drank up all the water from the cup and held my hair up when I threw up. I’ve never had someone taking care of me the way you do, Alex. I felt so safe with you and sometimes used that as an advantage just to have you all by myself.” she admitted, chin trembling as she sniffled, feeling her throat burn.
     [Y/N] cried, putting her hands on her face to hide her shame. “It pains me to admit it because I’m so ashamed, Alex. I’m so fucking ashamed and feel so guilty when you here taking care of me when you were with someone else. But I couldn’t help it. It was the only way I could feel…loved. And that is so selfish of me, but….” she said, her voice barely above a whisper, but he heard her regardless. 
     Alex stood in front of her, unblinking as he tried to process what was coming out of her mouth. His lips parted in a silent surprise, brows shot up as a range of emotions hit him like a tidal wave. His face contorted into a deep scowl, feeling an inferno of anger slowly developing inside his chest. He pointed a finger at her, jaw clenched as his face turned stoic. “So, you’re telling me that all this time, you were faking it to get with me?” he said in a calming manner, tears welled inside his eyes.
     She gave him a confused look, shaking her head as she folded her arms in front of her chest. “What? No, that’s not what I meant when I told you I faked it. I didn’t even know that it was you after a long time,” she defended with a deep frown, feeling her chest rise as her breaths became more quicker and shallow.
     Alex dryly chuckled, his tears glistening from the lights above him. “But you did fake it, didn’t you? God, I can’t believe this, [Y/N].” he chided, his voice staggering with venom as he felt the dark cloud inside his chest squeezing his lungs. His breathing quickened and he rubbed his chest, clutching his shirt tightly. His jaw was tightly clutched and she wondered if his jaw would break by how clenched it was.
     [Y/N] watched him slowly crumble, watching how his lips twitched as tears slowly traced down his cheeks. Her heart bled and she wanted nothing more than to wipe away his sadness, but she couldn’t. Not when it was her being the cause of his pain. She let out a shaky sigh, her glossy eyes looking anywhere but him. “You could’ve just left me alone, you know? You don’t always need to clean up my mess and be all up in my business,” she interjected, her tone rigid and cold. 
     Alex’s head snapped toward her, the look on his face sending chills down her spine. His gaze hardened as he inched closer to the woman, making her take a step backward. “I’m in your fucking business? Have you looked at yourself when you’re drunk, you don’t even know what half of the time is happening. You can’t even take care of yourself!” he mirrored her anger as he jabbed his finger into her neck, making her aggressively swat his hand away.
     She scoffed, “Like you’re the one to talk. Have you looked in the mirror lately? Yeah, are you having relationship problems too? You’re no better than me, and you have no fucking right to tell me how I can’t take care of myself when you’re worse than me. I know you.” she chastised, her voice echoing across the room.
     “Fuck you!” Alex shouted, the veins in his neck standing out. Scorn danced in his eyes and his lips formed into a thin line as he restrained himself from saying something he would regret. His lips emitted enraged breaths, chest heaving as they looked at each other. Silence engulfed the pair and the only sound they could hear was their heavy breathing, eyes pierced into each other like two swords. 
     “Why?” Alex broke the ice, his voice slightly cracking as he looked at her. His gaze softened, the fire in his eyes ceasing as he watched her tear away from his gaze. He watched her let out a teary laugh, noticing the whites in her eyes turning red. “God, don’t make me say it, Alex. I thought it was obvious.”
     Alex’s face turned into a confused look, “I-I don’t understand, love. Why did you do it? Why did you fake everything–” he voiced his frustrations, but he got interrupted by [Y/N], sending him in a state of shock—like a deer was stuck in headlights.
     “Because I love you, Alexander.” her voice wavered, lips trembling like a child as she let her guard down. She started to cry and her shoulders started to shake as she sauntered closer to him. “I love you.” she breathed out, gasping between her cries and inching closer. Her face contorted into a pained expression. “I love you. I love you, God, I love you so much that it hurts. I know I’m not supposed to, but god damn it, I can’t help it.” 
     Alex’s eyes were red and glassy from crying, and the rapid of his chest stuttered as his face crumpled. Her cries haunted his ears, making him cover his trembling hands over his face. I love you, kept repeating inside his brain like a mantra, “Fuck.” he croaked out, rubbing his glistening face. A tremor of guilt slowly started to gnaw inside of him, eating him alive.
     [Y/N] squeezed her eyes shut, trying to stop the tears from flowing, but it was of no use. Her eyes were bruised and sore, and she hadn’t cried that much in a long while. The skin around her eyes was raw and deep shadows were forming under her eyes. She hiccuped, her lips pulled into a downward pout, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for everything. For everything that I’ve done to cause you pain, and getting involved in your relationships.” she wept, grimacing at her swollen face. “I’m the reason why they all left you, and I–god, I’m so stupid. I’m so fucking stupid.” 
     She sobbed uncontrollably, repetitively hitting her chest as she distanced herself away from him. She whimpered and smacked her head, “You fucking idiot.” she rasped, her throat sore and dry from crying. She felt him inching closer, taking her hands away from her face to stop her from hurting herself. “Stop doing that.” she heard him say, his voice soft and she looked at him.
     Alex sniffled, bringing his hand to wipe away her tears with his thumb. He gave her a small smile, his hand lingering longer on her cheek. “You didn’t do anything, [Y/N]. You’re not the reason why I ended things with them. And you’re not causing me pain, love. Please, don’t say that. I’m sorry.” he reassured, making her frown at his apology, eyes narrowed and confused.  “I’m sorry that I made it seem like I was leading you on and made you think like that. I really do, and fuck—I feel horrible, because I haven’t been quite honest with you after what happened that night.” he admitted, letting out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. 
     “What do you mean?”
     Alex nibbed on his bottom lip as his mind replayed the night. Memories seared through his brain, sending a prickling sensation up his spine. His heart started beating straight of his ribcage, the stammering inside his chest making him let out a strangled gasp. He squeezed his eyes shut, as in a way to protect himself.
     [Y/N]’s cries and whimpers echoed across the forest, her body smeared with mud and dirt. She felt blood pooling underneath her dress, making her cry harder. Her blurry vision blended with her tears making her potentially blind. She hissed as her hand touched her bruised knee, trying to shift her body to the side but it was to no vail. Her eyes danced with confusion as she regained back some of her vision. “What?” she asked herself, eyes darting across the dark greenery, eyes locking with a wide-eyed Alex.
     Alex looked back at his hands, the scabs and bruises etched onto his delicate skin. Crimson flew down his knuckles like waterfall, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. He looked back at the guy who jumped on her, eyes rigid and cold as he felt a fire engulf inside his chest. But that fire soon ceased once he heard her cries, snapping him away from his slumped body toward his best friend. The way she was crumbled to the ground, looking disoriented and vulnerable, took a great toll on him. The young man started to cry, his body uncontrollably shaking as he sprinted toward her with wobbly steps. 
     “Fuck, [Y/N], you’re bleeding. What the fuck did he do to you?!” he cried, eyes wide as his trembling hands went to his jacket to cover her cold body. Guilt punched his gut, cursing at himself for not watching over her properly. He made a promise to her parents that he would watch over her, but he completely blew it.
     Alex sniffled, rubbing his eyes. He looked at her with a pained expression, tears welling inside his eyes. He noticed having her drink tightly clasped into her trembling hand, making some of the water spill. He watched her clenching her jaw at the mention of that night. “You don’t remember, but I do.” he started off with, voice cracking at the end, making her give him an angsty look, lips pressed into a thin line.
     “It was so weird, because you were just right beside me, and when I turned around you were gone. I remembered you smoked something with a guy early on the party and I figured you were with him, and I didn’t want to interrupt or disturb you, you know? You seemed to like him. But I couldn’t shake away the thought that something was wrong. I saw you a few meters away from where I was standing and I saw you were completely out of it, and that’s when I knew.” he explained, tears slowly sliding down his chin which he quickly wiped away. 
     “He started to touch you, and I-I remember you using all of your strength to push him away, but he wouldn’t budge. That seemed to anger him more because the next thing he did was to push you to the ground. I don’t remember what happened after that. I blacked out and I could only remember that my hands were bleeding. He–uh..he was on the ground and you were crying hysterically and telling me that you didn’t know what happened.” he continued with his story, fiddling with his hands as he nibbed on his skin, staring at nothing in particular.
     [Y/N] blinked away her tears, the hand on her glass tightening. She closed her eyes, eyebrows furrowed as a deep scorn etched onto her face. Images and flashes of repressed memories bubbled up through the surface, causing a tremor of emotions searing through her. 
     “I-I don’t know, Al. I don’t know what happened. I can’t feel my body. God, I can’t feel my legs, and I can’t see a goddamn thing!” she panicked, tears falling like waterfall as she clutched onto Alex like he was her safety net. She hid her face into his chest as she sobbed, her shoulders vigorously shaking. 
     Alex watched her pace back and forth with a distressed look on her face. He took a step closer, making her whirl her head toward him, eyes wide in circles as she tried to process the information. “I kept thinking of what would happen if I wasn’t there. It kept me up at night and the worst part of it all was that I promised your parents that you were gonna get home in one piece. Bu—”
     “Shut up, Alex!” she snapped, trying to block out the memories. But the more she resisted, the worse it got. Images of her lying down the ground bleeding sent her reeling, and she held the counter for support, placing her drink on the table in the process and turning her body to him. “Please, just stop.” she pleaded, eyes begging for him to stop bringing up the past.
     “Look, I-I need to go back to the others. I don’t wanna do this, man.” she slurred, eyes squinting as she looked at him through her blurry vision. She felt her stomach churn with uneasiness, making her swatting his hands away from her body.
     [Y/N] gained some sobriety, and she felt panic wash over her as she felt his hands going lower, down to her pants. She tried to push him away, but he was stronger. “Stop moving,” she heard him say, making her let out strangled cry, moving backwards to get away from him as far as possible. 
     Her body was leaning against the counter, eyes staring into Alex’s as the pair shared a look. She scoffed, rubbing a hand over her face with a confused expression. “Is that the reason? You wanted to protect me from guys? What are you, my fucking bodyguard?” She thought out loud, her voice turning louder.
     Alex looked at her like she’ve grown two heads, eyes painted with bewilderment. “You could’ve fucking died, that’s why! You didn’t see the look on your dad’s face when he stood at the door, watching me carrying you bruised and injured. He did more than pushing you to the ground. [Y/N], you broke your rib and almost cracked your skull. In fact, you should thank me that you’re even alive.” he raged, looking at her with wide eyes.
     “Get out.” Alex heard her say with no emotion, making him look at her. Something dark lingered behind her eyes as she looked at him with a blank expression, making his heart drop. He shook his head, “No, please. Let’s talk about this.” he begged, inching closer to her, but stopped once he saw her bringing up her hand.
     Angry tears welled inside her eyes, the veins in her neck ridged out in living edges as she looked at him with her teeth gritted. She felt anger coursing through her veins, but she swallowed her fire and exhaled before speaking. “There’s nothing to talk about, Alex. It’s very simple. I love you, but you don’t, at least not the way that I want.” she simply addressed, shrugging her shoulders as she gave him a tired look. “You lead me on, thinking that maybe you reciprocated these feelings, but no. You were only doing all of this out of pity, and for what? A broken promise you made with my dad? Now, get out.” she finished, taking the last sip of her drink.
     Alex’s jaw slacked, her words piercing into his skin, voice hot like a knife was being held over a fire. Alex shook his head, feet glued to the floor as he looked at her with teary eyes. He wept, walking toward her. “No, that’s not why I did it. [Y/N], I’ve never pited you, and I do love you—” He expressed between his cries, chin shaking and he felt like a child begging for his mother’s attention as he tried to change her mind. 
     Before his brain could register the sound of breaking glass, his body was on the floor as he covered himself. He flinched at her blood-curdling scream, hands covering his ears at the painful sound of glass smashed into a wall. “Get the fuck out of my house, Alex, please.” She sobbed, sauntering toward him and grabbing his arm to drag him out of her bedroom.
     His body stayed on the wooden floor, shoulders shaking as he quietly wept. He profusely apologized, vigorously shaking his head, making her loosen the tight grip on his arm. She sniffled, wiping her runny nose and walking toward her bedroom door. She stood beside the door frame, body turned to him as she looked at him, eyes drained and losing all its spark.
     “I don’t wanna see you anymore, Alex. I don’t wanna be near you. I don’t wanna hear you, and God, I don’t even wanna look at you.” she spat out, using the last remaining of fire and energy inside of her. 
     Alex’s heart was bleeding with pain, and the buzzing inside his head filled every crevice of his brain, rattling every bone making him let out small whimper. Her words stung him and it replayed over and over again inside his head. He slowly nodded as he ran a hand over his hair, his hand carding through his hair, his nails lighty scraping at his scalp. He cleared his throat and stood up from his feet, walking toward the door with a look of shame.
     The pair looked at each other, eyes dull and drained. Alex bit the insides of his cheeks, his eyes lingering longer to study every features of her face. “As you wish, [Y/N].” he rasped, his voice dry and sore from crying. He gave her a tip-lipped smile, feet leading him out of her bedroom and disappearing from her sight.
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captainwans · 8 days
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▋  ──  ⨾ ﹙PAIRING: alex turner x fem! actress! reader
▋  ──  ⨾ ﹙SUMMARY: the arabella series presents [y/n] [y/l/n], a phenomenal a-list actress who became known as the inspiration behind the song ‘arabella’. watch how their relationship evolve over the years—from briefly aquatinted, friends and to lovers.
▋  ──  ⨾ ﹙WARNING: vulgar language, mature scenes, teeth-rotting fluff, angst, mentions of alcohol and drug use. if any themes, opinions, or content upsets you or makes you uncomfortable, feel free to messages me or, simply do not read it.
▋  ──  ⨾ ﹙NOTE: i do take requests / asks for this series. if there’s a specific moment or scene, or even just a question about the duo, feel free to send them into my inbox!
▋  ──  ⨾ ﹙ALEX TURNER MASTERLIST!
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TIMELINE
▋ 2005
old pubs and cigarettes
i bet you look good on the dance floor
▋ 2013
▋ 2014
from where you are
▋ 2016
▋ 2018
▋ 2019
it’s mtv, you just got slimed!
▋ 2022
▋ 2023
SOCIAL MEDIA
▋ 2013
new era!
▋ 2014
am era! pt. i
am era! pt. ii
▋ 2016
▋ 2017
▋ 2019
▋ 2023
MISCELLANEOUS
▋ google!
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captainwans · 9 days
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to my alex lovers!!! here is something to get you babes excited for i know i am!! 🎀
y’all is not ready for this gut-wrenching, soul wrecking and damaging one shot 😩😩 raise your hands if you love angst bc i love to suffer
reminding you that requests are open 🥰
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captainwans · 14 days
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I BET YOU LOOK GOOD ON THE DANCEFLOOR.
— ALEX TURNER
pairing: fetus! alex turner x fem! actress! reader
summary: following a brief and hurried exchange between the pair, she returned to the old pub in hopes of seeing him once more.
warning: vulgar language, sickeningly teeth-rotting fluff, ryan being an ass, and paparazzi being the paparazzi.
note: this is part two from old pubs and cigarettes, and i suggest you to read the first part before reading this! ryan is a fictional character that’s apart of the story if anyone is confused.
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arabella series!
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….  [Y/N] WATCHED THE EMPTY STAGE WITH ANTICIPATION, EXCITEMENT FILLING INSIDE HER BODY AS SHE EAGERLY WAITED FOR THE CUTE, LONG-HAIRED MUSICIAN TO ENTER THE STAGE. It was such a shame that she never got to know his name, and she was still fuming over how her best friend interrupted their moment. She could still feel how his hot breath fanned her face, the smell of cigarettes and mint lingering in the air as she looked into his sweet brown eyes gazing into hers. She couldn’t stop thinking of him. The look on his face, when they had to leave the pub from the paparazzi, left a deep scar on her heart. His kind smile and his understanding nature made her guilty for leaving him on the spot. She remembered throwing a fit in the car that night as they were heading back to their trailers, angry and flustered at how their interaction went.
     [Y/N] slapped her best friend’s arm, which earned a small yelp from the strawberry blonde. She watched her hiss in pain before she mirrored her actions by slapping her shoulders, looking at her with a look of confusion. “What the fuck was that for?” Cindy chided with furrowed eyebrows, rubbing small circles on her arm to cease some of the pain.
     [Y/N] rolled her eyes, rubbing her shoulder as she looked at her with a glare. “You know why,” she growled at the burning pain on her shoulder, grimacing as she clenched her jaw.
     “Oh, thank you so much, Cindy, for saving us from the paps. Thank you for looking out for me. I’m so lucky to have a friend like you. You’re welcome by the way.” Cindy said in a dramatic tone, returning the same glare she was receiving before throwing her magazine at her. “Bitch, please. You’re over here moping over a guy that you just met. The paps almost knocked Vera outside while you were playing hide the zucchini with your rockstar boyfriend.” 
     [Y/N] scoffed, folding her arms in front of her chest, and shaking her head. “Thank you….” she ended up saying in a sweet tone, earning a satisfied grin on Cindy’s face. “For ruining my chance with him.” she finished her sentence, watching her friend’s face falter and morphing into a scowl. 
     “So, what are you gonna do? Go back to him and confess your undying love for him.” Cindy asked with a giggle, earning another slap on her thigh making her laugh even harder. “He was very cute by the way, I’ll give you that, babe.” 
     [Y/N]’s cheeks flushed, feeling blood rushing through her ears at the mention of the musician. “I heard they were having another gig at the same pub. They’re performing next weekend and we’re not filming on Saturday, so..” she answered with a pleading look, making Cindy let out a sigh before nodding her head. 
     As the days passed, with [Y/N] counting the days for the weekend, the day finally arrived and here she was,  seated at a table near the front stage alongside Cindy and her other two co-stars. Another band was performing earlier, which got everyone talking, especially the girls. Two of [Y/N]’s friends left their table to interact with two of the members, leaving her and the strawberry blonde alone, not impressed by their performance and their attitude at all. 
     [Y/N] cringed at one of their attempts to flirt with her friend and scoffed with a deep scowl, before moving her gaze to her best friend. “Let’s hope they stay away from us,” she said in a small voice, but Cindy heard her regardless, earning a small snicker. 
     “I think we’re too late for that,” Cindy answered with an amused look on her face, her eyes looking at one of the members nearing their table. She grimaced, watching him eying up and down at her friend, making her narrow her eyes at him as he introduced himself to them.
     “Ladies.” One of the vocalists greeted the duo with a smirk plastered onto his face, causing [Y/N] to stifle back a laugh bubbling inside her throat. He presented himself as Ryan and she watched him inching closer to her, placing himself in the middle of the girls, causing Cindy to scoff under her breath. He gave her a charming smile, completely ignoring her friend. “Did you enjoy the concert, love?” he asked cockily, head tilted to the side as he looked at her, his eyes trailing down her figure. 
     “We did in fact, not enjoy the concert, Ryan. I mean, I’ve seen better.” her best friend interjected, eyes glaring daggers at his back with a scowl.
     Ryan rolled his eyes, shifting in his feet to turn to Cindy. “I wasn’t talking to you.” he shot, giving her a look before turning his attention back to [Y/N], who was looking at him with a deep frown. 
     She narrowed her eyes at him, crossing her arms before her chest. “Just like my friend said, I’ve seen better.” she simply replied with a fake smile, causing him to scoff under his breath, his smirk turning wider.
     “God, with you Americans, it’s so hard to please.” 
     [Y/N] gave him a dirty look, her face faltering as she watched him utter last his words. Just as she was about to put him in his place, the sound of a microphone dropping down the floor caused her attention to quickly avert away from the guy toward the stage. A soft smile crept upon her face, watching the musician she longed for all week, standing a few feet away from the stage. This left the perfect opportunity for Cindy to drag Ryan by his shirt and push him to the side. “This asshole, who does he think he is?”
     She hummed, not paying attention to what her friend said as she was too busy gazing at the cute guy who had been haunting her mind all week. Her eyes sparked, noticing that he cut his hair, but his hair locks were still slightly covering his face and she thought he couldn’t look any more handsome. Crimson danced across her cheeks and she could feel her heart fluttering, watching him fiddling with the microphone before he placed his guitar around his shoulders.
     “Pretty boy cut his hair!” She heard Cindy yell, gushing at his new hairstyle with a beam, nudging her friend’s side. [Y/N] giggled and covered her mouth with her hand. “Shut up, Cindy. I think he heard you!” she laughed, watching his head snap toward the comment, his eyes darting across the crowd before his eyes finally landed on the pair, cheeks reddening as he noticed their presence, his eyes lingering longer on [Y/N]. 
     [Y/N] gave him a sweet smile, bringing her hand up to give him a wave, to which he responded with a shy nod, his smile turning wider. She gave him a thumbs up, mouthing good luck before taking a seat at their table. He gave her a grateful look, gripping his guitar tightly before moving his eyes away from the actress toward the crowd, which was rather dead and not interacting, being too busy interacting with the other band who dominated the pub, leaving the second group dumbfounded. 
     Alex had a tight grip on his microphone, bringing his lips closer to the mic. He turned to quickly glance at Matt and Andy before clearing his throat, causing the crowd to quiet down as everyone acknowledged the second band. “Hi….so, uh–we’re the Arctic–” the musician introduced themselves, but were abruptly interrupted by Ryan, who seemed to find himself standing close to the girls. 
     “Losers!” Ryan shouted with a laugh and threw his empty cup on the stage, hitting Alex on the chest. This caused some of the people in the crowd to join his banter. Jamie cursed under his breath, feeling his nostrils flare with anger as he looked at him with a glare. “Oh, fuck off, Ryan!”
     [Y/N] felt her blood boil, anger coursing through her veins as she, along with Cindy, whirled their head toward him with a glower. “Shut up, Ryan!” they both said in unison, and Cindy stood up from her seat to grab the empty cup away from the stage. She threw the cup toward Ryan, the cup hitting his face making [Y/N] stifle back a laugh. “Go and fool around elsewhere, asshole. Some of us are trying to enjoy a concert.” 
     Ryan balled his fists, nostrils flaring as he looked at Cindy. He felt everyone’s eyes looking at him, waiting in anticipation of what he was about to do next. He clenched his jaw and turned around, meeting [Y/N]’s face. She gave him a sweet smile. “You heard her,” she said with a knowing look, earning a few cheers from her girlfriends as they watched him leave the pub.
     The crowd started to quiet down, everyone watching Ryan’s body disappear in the crowd, completely forgetting about the second band that was supposed to perform. Cindy and [Y/N] high-fived each other, sauntering over to their table. The actress made eye contact with Alex, who mouthed a thank you, gently smiling at the woman making her mirror his smile as she brushed it off with a hand gesture. 
     [Y/N] looked at the crowd, sharing a look with Cindy before clapping her hands to earn everyone’s attention. Some of them softly gasped, recognizing the woman while the others looked at her with a curious look. She smiled brightly at everyone before turning her gaze toward the band. “By all means, please continue boys!” She beamed with a cheer, earning a few whistles and claps. “Who are you guys?”
     Alex grinned at her question, licking his lips before speaking into the microphone. “We’re the Arctic Monkeys, everyone!” he finally introduced themselves, making the girls loudly cheer, warming up the crowd. She could feel them stiff during the first part of the song but got quickly used to it, making her clap her hands as she cheered. She and her friend moved in their seat, bumping their shoulders together while bopping their head to the sound.
     The strawberry blonde puffed her cheeks, face scowling as she looked around her. “Oh, c’mon, why isn’t anyone on the dancefloor? This song is so good, compared to the other band,” she said, saying her last sentence loudly on purpose to the other member, who so happened to sit beside them, making him scoff and roll his eyes. He was about to say something, but Cindy butted in, “Oh, shut up, you don’t get to say anything.” making [Y/N] laugh. She watched back to the stage, her eyes instantly locking with his. He gave her a wink, leaving her cheeks flushed with a beating heart. 
     An idea popped into [Y/N] head, a smirk curving her lips. She turned to her friend. “We’ll be our own dancefloor. C’mon, let’s show them how it’s done.” she beamed, making the strawberry blonde laugh loudly as they moved their body, linking their hands together as they found their spot in the middle of the bar. Loud cheers and holler emitted from their throat as they danced together, their hands around each other as they vibed to the music. 
     The duo danced the night away like no one was watching, causing a group of people to look their way, curiously watching them owning the dance floor. Before they knew it, two of their friends joined them as the four moved closer to the stage, flipping their hair, and moving their bodies to the music. It was like a flash mob, and more people vibed to the music, cheering and completely forgetting about the first group. 
      Her best friend twirled her around, making both of them laugh. Cindy whistled at her, “Damn, girl! The moves. I’m not blaming him for the looks he’s giving you, you’re one lucky girl, babe!” she told her wiggling her eyebrows at her, making her grin before moving her head toward him, watching him looking at her with a smile as he sang, making her shake her hips. She shot him a glance, eyes filled with a playful tease.
     Before they knew it, the song was over. They all clapped, even some of the remaining members from the first group, cheering and shouting at the band, watching their eyes beaming and glinting with happiness at the crowd’s response. Alex nodded to the crowd, eyes finding hers again, giving her a grateful smile as he brought both of his hands together to show his gratitude. She smiled brightly at him, clapping her hands.
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     “That was amazing!” Cindy sang, wrapping her arms around [Y/N]’s shoulders, and giving her a little squeeze. Two of their co-stars agreed, eyes glistening from the lights above them as they gushed over how talented they were. [Y/N] hummed with a simper, her smile widening as she listened to her friends talking about them. Her eyes shamelessly darted across the pub, eyes searching for the talented musician. She found him sitting in a booth with the rest of his members, shielding them from the others. She rested her chin with her palm, looking at him with a fond look. 
     Alex took a sip from his drink and wiped his mouth with his hand, listening to Andy talking about their performance. He watched a smile curve his lips, making him mirror his smile with a hum. As he was about to join in the conversation, he started to pause, feeling someone was staring at him. His eyes subconsciously found hers, who looked at him with a soft expression. He watched her lightly waving at him, causing his heart to stutter against his chest and he looked behind him before turning back to her with an unsure look.
     [Y/N] giggled, watching him pointing a finger at himself to confirm if she was waving at him and not some other guy. She bit her lip with a nod, pointing her finger at him with a playful look. She watched a smile forming his handsome features, averting his gaze away from her toward his friends. This went on back and forth, with both of them stealing a few glances at each other. 
     “Okay, you two just need to talk. This is not working.” Cindy snapped her out of her state, making her whirl her head toward her with a confused expression. “What?”
     Two of her co-stars giggled, leaning against each other as they teased the actress. “You’re so cute when you’re in love.” One of them gushed, making kissing sounds as she tickled her waist.
 
     [Y/N] felt a dust of crimson dance across her cheeks. She swatted her friend’s hand away from her waist as small giggles emitted from her lips. “I-I’m not in love…He’s just…very cute.” she managed to reply in between her giggles, mumbling the last word, but Cindy heard her regardless. 
     “Why don’t you say that to his face?” Cindy teased, poking her shoulder as she looked at her best friend with a cheeky grin, making [Y/N] shake her head with a laugh. “God, no!”
     One of their co-stars stood up from her seat and walked over to her, pulling her up from her seat. [Y/N] looked at her friend like she’s grown two heads and she turned her head toward the others, who gave her thumbs up with wide grins on their faces. “Go get your man!”
     “You got this, babe! You’re so hot, he’s already head over heels!” Cindy cheered, earning a few disapproving looks from the people sitting beside them. She slapped her friend’s butt, earning a small gasp from the actress as she received a nasty look.
     “Am I blind or was that [Y/N] [Y/L/N], waving at you?” Alex heard Jamie say, making him roll his eyes before turning in his seat to face his best friend. He gave him a look and crossed his arms in front of his chest. “And what is that supposed to mean?” 
     “It’s just…She’s [Y/N] [Y/L/N] and you’re….you.” Jamie replied with a shrug. His eyes looked back and forth between his bandmate and to the actress, who curiously watched them, which made Jamie give her a polite smile. 
     Alex gave him a look, eyebrows scrunched as he downed the rest of his drink. “Right,” he mumbled, shifting in his seat. His head turned to their table once again and his eyes widened, watching her walking toward them with a soft smile. He panicked, feeling his heart palpating loudly against his chest. He cleared his throat and fixed his posture so that he was comfortably leaning against his seat.
     “Oh God, she’s walking toward us,” Jamie stressed, taking a sip from his beer and looking at Alex, who looked back at him with a confused look. Jamie brought his hand over to his shirt, wiping away some invisible dust and fixing his hair. 
     Alex made a sound of disdain, slapping his hands away from his face whilst giving him a glowering look. “Jamie, stop!” he whined, adjusting his shirt before scooting a few seats away from his best friend, who gave him a scoff and shook his head. “I’m just trying to help you, mate.”
     [Y/N] watched the small banter between Alex and Jamie, her lips forming into a thin line, stifling back a laugh as she walked toward their table. She tightly gripped the strap of her purse, eyes looking straight ahead whilst ignoring a few men glancing her way. She ignored the burning gazes at the back of her head, fastening her pace as he neared their table, making the boys snap their attention toward the actress. 
     Some of them were star-struck and were left speechless, including Jamie, who had his eyebrows raised with a look she couldn’t quite decipher. He awkwardly slurped his drink making her giggle. Matt was the first to break the ice, his eyes sparking as he acknowledged her presence. “There she is! The one who saved our necks out there!” he beamed, standing up from his seat to greet her in a warm hug, which she shyly returned. 
     “That was nothing, really. Me and the girls enjoyed it very much. You guys are very good.” She complemented with a flustered smile, causing Alex’s lips to curve upwards. His eyes lingered longer on her face, studying every detail.
     “Means a lot coming from you, love!” Jamie interjected into the conversation, sauntering beside her to introduce himself, which she happily returned as they shook hands. Andy soon joined, politely introducing himself and complimenting her work.
     [Y/N] felt blood rush through her cheeks, feeling her heart stutter against her chest. She introduced herself to a few of their friends before moving her attention to Alex, who patiently watched her interact with his friends. She hummed with a smile, slowly sauntering toward him. She pulled the sleeves of her dress, a habit she did when she was nervous and stood beside him. “Hi.” she softly greeted.
     Her voice left a trail of goosebumps, along with a fluttering heart at her gentle voice. His lips curved upwards and he stood up from his seat to stand in front of her. He opened his mouth, eyes gazing into hers. “Hey.” he breathed, rapidly blinking to check if he wasn’t dreaming. 
     [Y/N] bit her lip, eyes trailing over his lips as her mind wandered back to their last encounter where they almost shared a kiss. She cleared her throat and moved her eyes away from his lips, feeling another gush of crimson heating her cheeks. “You were amazing out there.” she internally cringed at how her voice cracked at the end and gave him a tip-lipped smile. 
     Alex chuckled at her flustered nature, his smile widening. “So where you…on the dancefloor.” he said, a small smirk curving his features, making her softly giggle as she looked anywhere but him.
     [Y/N] turned her head to him, who was already looking at her with a fond look. She hummed, placing her hands behind her back. “Did I look good on the dancefloor?” she cheekily asked, making Alex laugh with a nod.
     “You did look good on the dancefloor. In fact, you outshined the crowd with your dancing,” he admitted, biting his lip as he looked into her eyes, making her let out a sound of satisfaction. 
     The pair continued to converse, realizing that they had a lot in common. Alex finally got the courage to compliment her recent works, telling her how a talented actress she is and praising her. She became a flustered mess, hiding her hot cheeks as she profusely said her thanks and mirrored the gesture back by gushing about his guitar skills, which she stated that he should teach her to play one day. As they talked, she realized that she still never got his name and it irked her brain.
     [Y/N] furrowed her eyebrows with an apologetic look as she interrupted him mid-sentence. “I’m sorry…but, I don’t think I actually got your name.” she sheepishly said, folding her arms in front of her chest. 
     Alex’s eyes lit up and he nodded his head, muttering a small apology for not introducing himself sooner. Just as he was about to tell her his name flashes of lights and the sounds of snapping cameras made them squint their eyes, whirling their head around to where the flashes came from.
     [Y/N]’s face faltered, her face slowly morphing into a deep scowl as she noticed one of the paparazzi from the other day getting inside the pub. Much to her dismay, she locked eyes with one of them and they fastened their pace toward her with the camera tightly gripped into their hand. “There she is!” 
     [Y/N]’s expression stretched into a look of discomfort and she could feel her heart stammering against her chest, feeling panic wash over her. Her body became stiff and she stepped backward, ending up hitting a hard chest. She let out a rasping gasp, feeling their hand gently placed on her waist, and just by his touch she knew it was him. Butterflies swarmed inside her stomach even by the slightest touch, but it quickly vanished as it rapidly appeared. “[Y/L/N], we just want a picture. Is this your boyfriend?”
     Alex cursed at them, his eyes bulging from their sockets. “Fuck off!” he chided, pulling her behind him protectively. He and Matt shared a look before he led both of them out of the scene, their hands intertwined as they tried to escape from the photographers. 
     The more they tried to escape, it seemed as more photographers engulfed around the old pub, and Alex scoffed. “Where did they all come from?” he mainly asked to himself, but [Y/N] heard him regardless. “I don’t know,” she said in a small voice, face hiding into his back while trying to avoid getting snapshots on her face.
     [Y/N] heard Alex grunt and she pulled her face away from his back to see him getting grabbed by one of the photographers. The actress grew hot, her cheeks flamed with anger as she stepped in front of him, slapping their hand, which resulted in their camera falling down the hard floor. “Don’t touch him!” she sputtered, her voice laced with venom. 
     “We just want a picture, ma’am! You didn’t need to do that.” the man scolded, his face painted with frustration at his broken camera and [Y/N] wanted nothing more than to smack his face and remove that stupid look on his face. 
     [Y/N] shook her head and went to check on Alex, but when she turned around he wasn’t there. A downward pout etched onto her face and she felt worry prickling inside her chest, squeezing her lungs and making her let out a breath she didn’t know she was holding. She cursed internally and she wanted to cry out for his name, but she remembered that just as he was about to tell her his name, the paparazzi came and snatched that opportunity away from her. 
     Alex’s eyes frantically darted across the heavy mass of paparazzi taking over the area, his stomach clenching at the thought of her being alone with them. “Fuck,” he mumbled, hands rubbing his face as he squeezed his way through the mass. “[Y/N]!”
     The actress squinted her eyes as small groans emitted from her lips. The flashes of lights increased with every second and she just stood there, frozen and unable to move. She clenched her jaw as her breath grew thin and ragged. She had her head face down with some of her hair covering her angry expression. Her shoulders rose until they were under her ears and she closed her eyes, letting out an exhale. Two of the cameramen noticed her state and shared a look before lowering their camera. They made room for her to walk away, and she took that opportunity and made a run for it.
     She managed to squeeze her way through some of them by using her elbows to push them out of her way. She hissed at their nails digging into her skin and her lips pressed into a thin line to prevent herself from screaming at the top of her lungs. Her lips emitted a small prayer, and just like that her prayers were answered when her body slammed into Cindy’s. “Oh my God, I’ve been looking everywhere for you.” her best friend sighed in relief before taking her into her arms. 
     [Y/N] melted into her arms, using her big oversized jacket to hide her face inside. “Thank God,” she muffled into her chest and she felt her hands rubbing her back comfortably as she yelled at the paparazzi. 
     “Shit, is that blood?” Cindy worried, her voice wavering at the end as she had her hands on her arms. She pulled her friend away from her chest and removed a few hair strands away from her damp face. She cupped her face, looking for other injuries on her delicate features. “They’re gonna fucking pay.”
     Cindy stepped in front of her, pulling her phone out and waving it in the air, earning the photographers’ attention. “You guys have five seconds before I call the cops on you,” she said with a stoic look, eyes cold and rigid as she looked at them with a look of disdain. 
     [Y/N] touched the scabs on her left arm and gritted her teeth together as she felt a burning pain searing through her. She quietly cursed, not noticing two of her friends dashing towards her with concerned looks. “[Y/N], are you okay?” they asked in unison, their hands touching her shoulders and she flinched with a small whimper.
 
     She nodded sarcastically, “Yeah. Never been better,” she answered in a bitter tone, making the pair share a look. She sighed in frustration and rubbed her glistening face, listening to her co-star. “Well, the good thing is that the paps are gone. Thanks to Cindy.” 
     [Y/N] sniffled, moving her gaze away from her friends toward Alex and his friends, her eyes tinted with hope as her eyes darted across the almost empty bar. She found them sitting and hunched at the corner and she frowned when she detected no signs of Alex. She locked eyes with Jamie, who gave her a worried look, to which she replied with a nod. She breathed out in relief when she noticed none of them were injured, but the ache in her stomach punched her gut as her mind wandered back to how the paparazzi treated Alex, making her heart stumble over its own rhythm. 
     Her lips twitched and she subconsciously hid her bare arms inside her long sleeves, hiding her bruises as she gave Jamie a look, mouthing Alex’s whereabouts. Just as he was about to answer, a gentle hand took hold of her right arm, where she thankfully didn’t have any bruises, and pulled her attention away from Jamie. [Y/N] slowly moved her head, meeting Cindy’s concerned look. “There’s a cab waiting for us outside.” 
     [Y/N]’s eyes burned with exhaustion and she nodded. She scrubbed her eyes with her knuckles before taking one last glance at them, in hopes of seeing him, but much to her disappointment they were nowhere to be found. Her hand slowly drifted over her mouth to hide her growing frown, and she let Cindy guide them out of the old pub. “I never got his name.” 
     Cindy looked back at her, her lips curving upwards but faltering when she noticed her frown. Her eyes softened and she pulled her closer, rubbing her shoulder as they headed to the exit. Goosebumps broke into her skin as she felt the cold wind hit her skin, making her shiver. The duo went inside the car with [Y/N] quietly mumbling that she wanted the window seat. The car drove off and she watched the old pub slowly disappear, leaving an empty feeling clouding inside her chest.
     “What was the name of their band again?” [Y/N] asked her best friend, her eyes tinted with hopefulness. Her shoulders dropped when she watched Cindy halt with her response, displaying an unsure expression. She cursed under her breath as disappointment etched onto her features.
 
     “I’m not sure…It was something about Arctic–or was it Atlantic?” Cindy replied with furrowed eyebrows, giving the actress a shrug. The strawberry blonde’s eyes softened and she wrapped an arm around her shoulder, pulling her closer to her side. “Oh, don’t worry, babe, you’ll reunite one day.”
     “I doubt that.”
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captainwans · 23 days
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NEW ERA! (smau)
— ALEX TURNER
arabella series!
masterlist!
pairing: alex turner x fem! actress! reader
summary: after the release of arctic monkeys new album, y/n’s comment section attracts new followers and attention.
timeline: 2013
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WRITE SOMETHING ABOUT ALEXS HANDS PLEASSSEEEER🧎🏼‍♀️
YESSSHHSH
side note: i really hope they go on tour again i wanna see them so bad. to anyone who was able to go to a concert im jealous and how was it😭‼️
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“and this is g.” alex moved his fingers to the cord looking up to show you. “see that?” he said tapping his fingers. “yeah i see.” i mumbled watching as the veins on the back of hand slightly pulsed as he tapped on the string. “y/n love?” you didn’t care about the g cord, you cared about what he could do to that g spot. you stared at his hands the whole time, not even paying attention to what he was teaching you. “are you paying attention doll?” he chuckled looking at you.
i shook my head. “what’s on your mind hm?” he asked raising an eyebrow. “you just have really nice hands.” i spoke looking up at him. he smirked setting his guitar aside “oh? is that why you were so distracted this whole time? you were staring at my hands.” he said tilting his head slightly brushing some strands of hair away from his face. i nodded watching him as he did that. “come here.” he said motioning to me with one finger. i moved closer to him sitting in front of him. “open.” he said rubbing his thumb over my bottom lip. i parted my lips still holding my gaze. “get them nice and wet sweetheart.”
my cheeks began to burn, i nodded and watched as he stuck two fingers out. i brought my face closer to his fingers, taking them in my mouth. i began sucking on his fingers while looking at him holding his wrist taking him more in my mouth. he let out a satisfied sigh tilting his head as he watched me suck on his fingers. “good girl.”
after sucking on his fingers for a while he pulled them out. “you want me to touch you now hm?” he smirked looking at his now wet fingers. he grabbed my cheeks looking at me “answer me.” he squeezed my cheeks harder “yes, yes. i do, please touch me al.” he smirked “good.” he began pulling my pants down along with my underwear. he looked down, with a smirk on his face. “wow you’re soaked angel. all from sucking on my fingers?” i blushed at looked away embarrassed.
“look at me.” he ordered gripping my face again. i nodded looking at him. “get them wet again for me doll.” he said holding his fingers out again, i took them in my mouth again and sucked on them. he then pulled them out, placing his wet fingers against my clit rubbing it slowly. i gasped looking down as he rubbed until he plunged his fingers into me without warning. he began pumping into me curling his fingers. i whined as he sped up making my thighs shake around his hand. his fingers hitting every spot slightly grazing my g spot.
“is this what you wanted?” he asked, i gripped the carpet and nodding my head unable to say anything. i watched how his hand flexed making his veins pop out, his hands looked too fucking hot. “you gonna come sweetheart?” he whispered getting close to my face placing a kiss on my lips.
“good ahead come over my fingers babe.” he grinned still pumping into me until i came over on his pretty fingers. he stopped his movements and slowly removed them, bringing the up to his mouth. he sucked them clean before unbuckling his belt “spread your legs. im not done with you yet.”
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captainwans · 25 days
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Dance In My Underpants
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Humbug!Al x Reader fluff
Summary: You and Alex dance late at night, after a long day
A/N: humbug al, my princess, please come back with your long hair and big brown eyes. We miss you. I just had to sneak in a little of the devil’s lettuce cause there was no way he wasn't on something writing those lyrics for humbug. Enjoy my lovelies<3
His hair fell and cast drapes over his doe eyes. You run your hand through it as he looks up, they are slightly bloodshot from the joint that you had shared to 'get the creative juices flowing'. The writing hadn't been as easy as he'd hoped, but something to ease his mind always helped. Not as much as being around the one he loved, but he wasn't going to turn one down if she offered. And offer you did. 
The day had been especially stressful for you as well. Work had been a bitch and your manager felt like the devil incarnate. So, seeing your lover scribbling relentlessly in his small songwriting journal with a frustrated look, you knew the perfect solution. 
The pen and paper had been replaced with a record that spun out 'Rain In My Heart' softly from the speaker. Slowly, you stood from where you laid on the settee with your legs over Alex's lap and his hands drawing shapes on the side of your thigh. You stood over him as those puppy eyes graced your sight and your hand cupped his cheek. Your thumb brushed over his chapped bottom lip and you leaned down to place a kiss on his lips, his long lashes fall over his eyes. With your other arm, you pull him up from the seat. 
Your hand moves from his cheek to his waist as Sinatra continues blessing your ears. His wrap around your neck and his forehead knocks gently into yours. His lips crash into yours once more as you start swaying both your hips to rhythm of the song. You breathe in the scent of his earlier cigarette and rich cologne that followed him everywhere and you had become so accustomed to waking up to each morning. 
It was what you had grown to love so much about living with Alex, always having a reminder of the person you would see come home each day. He too, had begun loving the scent that lingered around him and on his clothes because of you. The one that brought the amazing memories and thoughts of you, that calm him and bring joy to every moment. He could only wish to bottle it up and be able to spray it whenever he believed he was going to lose it, simply because it wouldn’t even a take a second for you to come rushing back and any worries to dissipate into smoke. 
Your feet trade steps on the carpet-covered floor that felt light beneath your feet and the socks you wore that were heavenly and kept you warm in the cold flat. Alex’s sweater bunched up around your arms where they held him snuggly, as to not let him escape the bubble of comfort and love you had conjured. His button-up, with a few undone at the top, rode up his front from the closeness that he would usually find bothered him, but with you it wasn’t more than a passing thought. It was thin and you could feel the small shivers that ran through him, that happened to contradict the heat he radiated, acting as your personal heater you’d love to bring with you everywhere. 
His breaths were soft and as beautiful as the notes he would sing, occasionally he would hum along to the music into your ear from how little space there was between you two. When he started to sing along you thought you’d melt. His voice was mellow, but sweeter than honey and you thought you’d drown in it. You had always been able to listen to him for ages, talking or singing, he never fell short of perfection in that area, or really any other in your eyes. 
“D’you wear this to work?” 
He was referring to the black, knitted sweater that fit you, as you tended to balance each other in your builds. You let out a silent chuckle at his cluelessness but nodded anyways, it becoming clear as to what exactly he paid attention to while you dressed that morning. Despite watching you from bed as you scanned the closet in your underwear, he couldn’t remember you stealing it. 
You’d admit your amusement at the fact that Alex didn’t bother putting on any sort of pants after showering that morning, instead opting to where his just his boxers all day. Though it gave you a good view, you feared him freezing in the flat, even under the thick quilt that hung on the back of your settee. He couldn’t seem bothered on the other hand, any coldness gone the moment he saw your face or heard the key turning in the door. The sound, he knew, meant your arrival when he would rush to the door to greet you, just as you would whenever he came home after you. 
One of his hands reached down to yours at his waist, locking them together, he brought it up to beside you both. You lifted your arm even more and he pulled from you to do a small spin. Immediately he crashed into you again, not willing to spend any longer apart if he could help it. You fell into a small fit of laughter at how adorable he was spinning in a circle, to which he joined in despite being unaware why you were laughing. To him, it didn’t matter because the sound of yours was too contagious and any happiness you felt, he did as well. 
He damned the hair that grew to long on his head as it obstructed the otherwise flawless scene of your breath-taking smile. And your eyes that squinted from how bright it was, making gorgeous lines form in the corners, that he hoped to grow permanently along with you. Your hair, that he pulled back when put his arms around your neck, now laid to frame your face and accentuate every stunning feature that you effortlessly wore. 
You merely wished he could see through your eyes for even a second. His hair, too, framed those brown eyes that could convince you to do anything. It brought out that perfect nose you could only compliment to shove away any insecurities that rose from it. His perfect smile that brought out the apples of his cheeks with their pink tint. That was really the only word you could think of to describe him—perfect. At least, it was the only one of the current time. You hoped one would come along in the future to describe the other-worldly beauty the man you called yours held dearly. Because none written in any dictionary could do even a modicum of justice to the love of your life. 
As the song closed and your laughs died out, you pulled him into a hug, clinging to almost reassure him of your love. To tell him how much you needed him, how much you were devoted to him. Your love that extended beyond just words into every factor of your lives, that you tried as best as you could, to share as eloquently as he did in the poetry he wrote. However much he denied it, his words were nothing less and you would keep telling him that until your last days. 
The way he relaxed, and all tension he had felt since you left that morning was gone, you felt satisfied in that he understood. You walked him back until you both crashed onto the settee, tangled together in your own, beautifully unaware, world.
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captainwans · 27 days
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IT’S MTV, YOU JUST GOT SLIMED!
— ALEX TURNER
pairing: alex turner x fem! actress! reader
summary: y/n y/l/n graciously accepted her well deserved award from mtv, but little did she know that she was going to get slimed in the process.
warning: nothing but teeth-rotting fluff, humor, laughter and prankster!alex. this is chapter is based and inspired from scarlett johansson’s generation award at the mtv in 2021.
word count: 1,4k | ( gif not mine! )
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... [Y/N] HELD THE MTV AWARD WITH BOTH OF HER HANDS, EYES LOOKING AT HERSELF FROM THE COMPUTER THAT WAS PLACED IN FRONT OF HER. She held a graceful smile on her delicate features as she sat crossed legged, waiting for the screen to load. She quietly mumbled what she was gonna say, completely oblivious of Alex standing at the end of room with a devilish smile plastered onto his face.
Since she couldn’t attend the awards and be there physically, she was given the opportunity to make a video due to filming overseas. She was currently joining Alex on tour, having a few weeks off before she was going back to filming her new movie. She was sat beside Matt’s daughter, Amelia, who had all of her art supplies sprawled onto the table.
“Auntie, is that real popcorn?” Amelia asked her, turning her head toward [Y/N] with a curious look.
Her question earned a lot of laughs, including the actress who softly laughed at the little girl. She ruffled her hair before squeezing her cheeks. “No, but I wish it was. Golden popcorn sounds delicious, doesn’t it, bug?” She replied back with a grin, making the little girl giggle as she went back to her drawing.
[Y/N]’s gaze averted away from the little girl toward her computer screen. Her heart fluttered, along with a swarm of butterflies erupting inside her stomach as the screen showed the live broadcast of the MTV Awards. She cleared her throat and fixed her hair, watching the countdown on the screen.
“While [Y/N] [Y/L/N] couldn’t be here with us physically, she’s here live with us right now to receive the award! Everyone, give it up for our favorite Marvel superhero, [Y/N]!” The host announced, and the actress smiled as she heard the crowd cheer from the computer screen.
[Y/N]’s smile widened, using her other hand to wave at the screen. “Thank you all so so much for voting! It marks almost 10 years of being apart of the MCU franchise, and having your love and support means the world to me!” She said with another bright smile as she held the heavy award tightly into her hands.
“Winning Best Actress two years in a row is something that I’m very honored and proud of, and I will continue to work hard and aiming for the best!” She continued as her eyes were glued to the screen, not being aware of Alex almost tip toeing behind her with a bowl of green slime placed into his calloused hands.
[Y/N] continued with her speech, being too focused to not notice everyone around her holding their breath as they watched Alex sauntering toward her with a grin.
Amelia noticed him and was about to say something, but stopped once she saw him placing a finger to his lips. She glued her mouth shut by placing her hands on her mouth. Her muffled giggles earned [Y/N]’s attention for a brief second, but she didn’t let that disturb her and went back with her speech.
Katie grimaced, sitting beside Jamie as the couple watched the spectacle in front of them. “He’s not gonna do it, right?” She whispered, looking at her husband with a look.
Jamie pressed his lips together to stifle back a laugh. He quietly snickered and nodded his head. “Oh, yes. Just watch.”
[Y/N] felt a presence standing beside her, but she ignored it as she was about to finish with her heartfelt speech to her fans. “Lastly, I wanna thank my wonderful cast members, and—“ she managed to say before her speech was interrupted by her audible gasp.
Nick and Miles doubled with laughter as they watched Alex pouring green slime on her. Amelia shrieked with laughter and grimaced, watching the ooze smearing down her face.
[Y/N] felt a sticky, cold and thick matter being poured on her head. She let the award hit her lap with a small yelp, feeling the heavy liquid trickling down her neck and she whirled her head to her husband.
“Alex, what the heck?!” She loudly chided. Her mouth bit back a curse word, noticing Amelia being in the room with them. She closed her mouth and furiously wiped off the slime from her face.
Alex, who was grinning like a child, inched closer to the screen, waving at the live broadcast before turning his attention to his wife. “It’s MTV, you just got slimed!”
Jamie face-palmed with a laugh, leaning his body against Katie, who was a mess from laughing. “Oh, Alex.”
The actress gagged and spit out the slime from her mouth before looking at him with an annoyed look. “That’s Nickelodeon!” She growled, trying to brush off the sticky texture out from her shirt but failing.
Alex looked back and forth from his wife and to the bowl that was placed into his hands. His face faltered for a moment and hummed as he realized. “Oh.”
His response earned another loud session of laughter. Matt and Breana captured the scene with their phones. Jamie and Katie were almost falling off the couch from laughing. Nick and Miles pointed their finger to the lead vocalist with a loud cackle, dying at his response.
[Y/N] was fuming and she mumbled incoherent things as she used her sleeve to remove the slime. She looked at the camera, giving them a tip-lipped smile. She heard the crowd going crazy at Alex’s appearance and she chuckled. Crimson danced across her cheeks and she felt blood rush through her ears, forgetting that they were live. “Well, this is gonna be all they’re gonna talk about on Twitter.” She told her viewers, waving to the camera before closing her computer.
[Y/N] felt him inch closer and she swatted his hands away at his attempt to remove the slime from her hair. “Don’t—Don’t touch me, Alexander.” She said in a stern voice, taking the towel away from his hands.
Amelia stood up from her seat and rushed over to her and grabbed the towel to clean her face. “Let me, Auntie!”
[Y/N]’s face softened at the little girl, closing her eyes as she let her do the work. She gently squeezed her hand, “Thank you, bug.”
Alex stifled back a laugh and nodded his head. He was trying so hard not to crack, and as much as he tried to hold it in he couldn’t. His chest vibrated from laughter and he slapped his knees before collapsing on the couch beside her.
[Y/N] rolled her eyes, her lips curving upwards unknowingly at the sound of his laughter. She opened her eyes, meeting Amelia’s doe-eyes staring right back at her with a toothy grin, which she returned. Her gaze averted way from her toward the others, a small scowl etched onto her face watching her friends still crying and dying from laughter.
“Are you guys done?”
Miles wiped his eyes with his hand and cleared his throat, giving her an apologetic look. “Sorry, love, but you should’ve seen Alex’s face—it was memorable!” He said, his voice cracking at the end making everyone double with laughter.
Amelia was in [Y/N]’s arms and she shifted her body so that she was facing her. “You should give uncle Al a hug.” The little girl said, eyes tinted with slight playfulness and wiggling her eyebrows making the actress chuckle.
Alex’s head shot up toward Amelia, giving her a pout before quickly standing up from the couch. He let out another breathy laugh as he slowly backed away. “Oh, c’mon, Mia. Don’t give her any ideas.” He pleaded, grimacing as he watched her standing up from the couch.
“What a great idea, Amelia. Alex, honey, I forgive you. Now come here you deserve a hug.” She said with a sweet smile as she sauntered toward him with her arms wide open.
Alex cocked his head to the side, shaking his head with a deep scowl. “You know what, I think I’m good.” He brushed her off as he walked backwards and nearly tripping on his feet.
“You don’t want my hugs?” She asked with furrowed eyebrows, her lips turning into a downwards pout. She wanted to laugh at his horrified expression, watching as he used Miles as his shield.
“My hair is freshly gelled, I don’t want to ruin it. Darling, we have a show in a few—“ he excused behind Miles, who was still cackling, and bolted away mid sentence and ran to the door.
[Y/N] scoffed and sprinted toward the door. “Oh, so you’re worried about your hair?! I spend three hours on mine! You’re lucky I’m not divorcing your ass for this!” She yelled at him as she chased him.
“And I got all of this on camera!”
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Hey! (late sias)
You have a tinder match with Alex. You both know you want something that lasts just one night for pure physical pleasure without attached feelings.
After your date, you get really close, and before doing anything sexual, he discovers that you're still a virgin, so his idea of the night changes completely.
He can't be your first. The first time is something important that you should do with someone you have feelings for.
But you have other plans for the night and make him change his mind.
tread softly, stranger
warnings: smut, loss of virginity, fingering, blowjob, teasing, praises, pet names
You have never used tinder much, not because you weren't interested in finding someone, but the guys you found on this app were creeps.
Until Alex.
Alex was the type of guy you were looking for, but since you two started talking, you understood he was interested in something physical. So you were, after you got that there wouldn't have been anything between the two of you.
You didn't need emotions in this. You just wanted it to get out of this pure physical pleasure.
Beforehand you had to made sure he wasn't one of those creeps you met already, he was actually sweet, a little bit too much flirty for your liking, but the little praises he says to you sometimes— your stomach does the thing.
Now, on a Friday night, you managed a meeting. You hoped for something more, even because you want to kind of get rid of your virginity. You were tired of being a virgin and your 'exes' weren't even able to kiss properly and satisfy you.
You hoped for something tonight.
YYou weren't usually like this, with having physical already on the first appointment, but you felt Alex was the right one for this. By the few pictures he had on his profile, you could tell he was very fit and good looking, and even well—.
No dirty thoughts, you still have to make sure he's not catfishing you.
You sat at the counter of the bar, waiting for him, tapping your long red nails on it, while sipping a glass of wine. You needed something a little bit stronger, but you wanted to have it with Alex, if you know what I mean.
Anyway, in a few minutes he found himself walking towards you, with a cocky smile, tight jeans, black t-shirt and leather jacket, his gelled hair in quiff.
Oh. He was really him. And he was really handsome.
"Hi, darling" he smirked, taking the hand of yours that you extended before, moving it to his mouth and kissing the back of it delicately.
"Hi" you let out a shy chuckle, certainly a more embarrassed one, even because your cheeks were red, not just rosé, but red, you looked like a tomato. "Alex, right?" you asked, sitting again.
He did so. Your eyes fell on his figure, dirty thoughts filled your mind, but you quickly managed to look at his dark and deep brown eyes again, smiling.
"Yes" he chuckled, probably noticing you, but too good to tease you on this. "You're even more beautiful in person." he smiled.
You felt flustered, if someone else would have said that, you wouldn't have reacted like that, but he was different. It felt different from him.
The night went particularly well. You two talked about your hobbies, if you were working or studying, personal things that you talk about on the first date.
He was certainly a teaser, with his filthy and dirty jokes, but that you didn't mind at all. You just weren't able to reply, but he seemed to like that — you have never met someone like him.
He offered everything you drank, because he was a gentleman, and you didn't mind, you appreciated that.
Oh and he was touchy. As the two of you went out the bar, his hand travelled on your waist, gripping it slightly. He had his usual cocky smile printed on his face because he certainly knew what he was doing.
You two walked for a little while with a comfortable silence, he accompanied you to your flat, that was the nearest. There was sexual tension.
Once at the door, you looked at him and so he did. His hand moved a strand of your hair behind your ear, making you shiver as his rough fingertips touched you.
He was a singer and guitarist, he knew how to use his hands.
"So..?" he asked, tapping your chin with his thumb, holding it between his fingers. "Yeah?" you let out a soft breath, a little shaky, you didn't know exactly what you were feeling, but you were certainly sure you have never felt like this.
He leaned in, moving his hand and cupping your face, and a kiss. You could say it's the best you have ever had.
His hands tugging in your hair, holding you in position as he pushed his tongue in your mouth. You tasted the alcol, cigarette, mint as you two continued to make out on your door.
You pulled away to catch your breath, with a shy smile, he was satisfied, he looked so proud of himself. He knew what he was doing.
Your hand went in your keys, in a quick motion you opened the door and led him inside, he didn't even give you time to close it properly so he cupped the back of your neck and kissed you again.
Kissing, walking to your room, you removed his leather jacket and then his shirt, finally touching his toned chest.
His hand travelled to your dress, playing with the edge of it to ask your consent, you moaned in his mouth in response. His hands removed completely your dress, leaving you in your black lingerie.
You delicate fingers touched caressed his chest, pushing him on your bed, he sat down with a smirk. You knelt, and you started to undo his belt slowly, as to tease him, he didn't appreciate it though.
"No teasing." he said firmly, tapping your cheek softly with his hand. "Alright" you rolled your eyes, lowering his tight jeans with his help.
And then you saw it through his boxer. Your mouth was opened in a 'O'. His cock was huge, it wasn't certainly a normal size, your previous dates didn't have something like that. You wondered how Alex managed to keep it in those tight jeans.
"Scared, love?" he chuckled, playing with your hair. You shook your head, palming it with your hand, feeling the fabric wet by the precum.
You then lowered his boxer, his dick resting flat on his stomach as he exhaled a soft sigh. You looked up at Alex, he still had that satisfied expression on his face.
You caressed it as if to test the waters, then you wrapped your hand around his cock. "Oh" he sighed, his hands were on his side, supporting himself, his head a bit leaned but he still managed to watch your angelic face.
You took more confidence and you bowed your head to take him in your mouth, your lips touched his tip then you dragged them along his length, still looking at him.
His hand moved in your hair, making a messy ponytail to hold it better and direct you where he wanted. You took him finally, but you couldn't do it without gag and you weren't still good at controlling your reflexes.
"Easy, honey" he reminded you with a soft sigh and a slight tone of reproach. He wasn't for the rough type and he didn't want you to choke on his cock... well, not yet at least.
You nodded your head, swallowing and taking him again. He was helping you through it, he could see that you weren't that experienced with it, but still good.
"Good girl, eyes on me love" he groaned quietly, pushing you a little bit more, he knew you could have taken it.
Your eyes were a bit watery, but you kept looking at him, bowing your head up and down, until your nose touched his pubes and in a groan, his warm cum filled your throat.
And you liked it, because you're a slut.
You pulled out, swallowing his cum, coughing a bit, you weren't going to say a thing until he did.
His mouth slightly opened and his eyes closed were something that you couldn't even describe. He didn't look real.
"I think you deserve a reward, don't you?" he chuckled, pulling you on your feet, moving you and laying your body down the bed.
He crawled between your legs, spreading them, your arms on each side of your head and your hands intertwined.
His fingertips traced the shape of your smooth body, your breasts, waist, thighs, gripping them tightly and then moving them on your breasts. He searched in your eyes your approval, so you nodded, exhaling a shaky breath.
He unclipped your bra and slowly removed it, with a smirk he moved his thumb and began to toy with your right nipple, while he lowered his head to take the others in his warm mouth.
"Oh.." you sighed. He was playing with you, biting your turgid nipples, grabbing your breasts, licking and sucking. He was doing what he wanted.
"So perfect, so fucking perfect" he smiled. He kissed the valley between them, dragging his wet kisses on your body, until touching your skin at the edge of your panties.
"Can I?" he asked softly, playing with the little black bow on the line. You nodded again, now begging. "Please.." you said, sighing, closing your eyes and preparing yourself.
"As you wish, princess" he said, chuckling, enjoying your sweet begging. He lowered your panties, then left them on the floor with your other clothes.
"What a sight" he groaned, leaning to kiss your inner thigh, soft and wet kisses that made you shiver. "Alex... Just, I need you to touch me." you whined, you were feeling the urge for him to touch you.
"Someone's needy? Well, I'm taking my time with you." he mocked, biting then your skin, moving his lips nearer your cunt.
He moved forward, his index and middle finger touched your lips. "Do you think you can get them nice and wet, uh?" he asked, "or the little princess is too needy to accomplish a simple request?" he mocked you again.
You clit throbbed and your walls clenched around nothing. Your lips were wrapped around his fingers, doing what he said.
Filthy slut.
He withdrew, moving them on your sensitiveness. "Fuck" you moaned softly, as he pressed his thumb against your needy clit.
"So wet, just by sucking my dick uh?" he chuckled, pushing his middle finger inside you. You whimpered, your hips raising and your mouth opening. But he quickly puts a hand on your stomach to make you stay in place.
His index in. He was way too experienced compared to your ex dates. You couldn't stop comparing him because he was simply the best. You felt like you would have never met someone like him again.
"Like it, yeah?" he smiled at the noise of your soft whimpers, he managed to find your sweet spot in a few moments. He was too good.
"It's.. Fuck.." you moaned, as he moved his fingers inside you, your walks clenching around his fingers as he curled them, touching your g-spot.
"I... I'm gonna cum" you managed to say, your hands gripping the sheets, trying to ease some tension. Your thighs were shaking and you tried to press them together, but Alex was quicker to maintain them wide open.
"No-uh" he chuckled. He watched you as you reached your highest, in a moan, breathing out his name in a plea and of course he enjoyed it.
You looked at him with your shy smile, breathing in and out heavily. "It was good" you mumbled softly.
"Oh? Up to your standards, sweetheart?" he said, tasting you on his fingers, then he crawled on the top of you to give you another kiss and so you got the chance to taste yourself on his wet lips.
"So sweet, aren't you?" he whispered, just to make you more flattered than what you already were. You couldn't even reply properly, still shaken off by your orgasm.
He smirked, then he got up and reached his jeans on the floor, taking a condom from its pocket. He put it on himself and crawled again between your legs.
Now it was the moment. You should have had to tell him, even because you wanted him to be careful with you, you didn't want your first time to be too much painful.
"Alex" you sighed, as he aligned himself with your entrance. "Uh... I should probably tell you—" you murmured all embarrassed, you certainly didn't want to ruin the moment.
"Yes, love?" he asked softly, noticing your nervous biting your lip, he moved a strand of your hair behind your ear.
"I'm virgin" you mumbled, quickly. And that's how you kind of regretted to say it: his face went blank.
"Oh?" he sighed confused, moving back from you, not to go away, just to think for a moment. "I thought... You told me that you had few relationships before" he mumbled.
"I did but... They were never enough, they weren't as capable as you are." she admitted. "I really wanna have this Alex" she sighed softly, looking at him.
"But— You should have it with someone that you love, not with a one-night stand!" he replied, looking at you. He was a romantic guy, but he didn't want you to get attached to him, he wasn't searching for a relationship at the moment.
"I wanna have it with you. Please." you begged softly, moving next to him, gripping his hair, kissing the side of his neck and the back of it.
"Are you sure, pretty girl?" he murmured, sighing softly, enjoying your kisses. "I wanna be yours for one night." you smiled against his neck.
He nodded and pushed you delicately on the bed, spreading your legs again, and making sure you were still wet enough.
"Tell me if it hurts. I'll be careful with you" he whispered with a warm and soft voice, kissing your forehead, still noticing a glimpse of nervousness in your eyes.
"Deep breaths, love" he sighed softly, moving his tip along your wet core, then pushing it in, but slowly and carefully, studying your expressions.
You winced for the slight pain you felt, but his soft kisses were relaxing you enough to not feel much. You knew you could have trusted him.
"Such a good girl, taking me so well" he murmured softly, stroking your hair, while with one hand he was supporting his body. "Tell me when you're ready for me to move, take your time." he whispered.
You nodded slowly, adjusting to his large size, it wasn't exactly the best idea, but you felt good with Alex enough for it. "Move" you breathed, nodding again, giving him a shy smile.
He started to move slowly, his head in the crook of your neck, leaving wet kisses and hickeys. "Fuck" he groaned against your skin, "You're so tight. It looks like you were made for me, princess." he murmured.
His thrusts were at the right pace, slowly, you liked it. He knew it would have hurt if he didn't go slowly. You wrapped your legs around his low back, pushing him to go deeper, making you moan his name.
The pain was still there, but he was there to calm you down, leaving soft kisses on your forehead, while holding his hand tightly. He knew exactly how to handle you, he knew you were feeling pain, so he wanted to be the best for you, not a simple one-night stand.
He moved his thumb on your clit again, pressing it, drawing circular and imaginary circles on the bundle of nerves. You were enjoying this too much. "Alex" you whimpered, feeling yourself more near at reaching your climax again.
Your walls clenching around him were enough for him to come, so you did a while later. You moaned his name, digging your long nails in his back, while few tears were flowing down your cheeks.
Alex caressed your face and kissed your forehead as he slowly pulled out of you, very carefully to not hurt you in any way. He then got up and threw the condom in the bathroom, finding a cloth to clean you up.
He wet it with warm water then came back to you. "Just wanna clean you up, pretty girl." he asked softly, spreading your legs gently. He cleaned your inner thighs and your core, then crawled next to you, taking your body in his arms.
You rested your head on his chest, breathing in and out slowly and deeply. "You've been such a good girl." he teased softly, as he watched your exhausted face resting on his chest.
You chuckled tiredly, and he leaned to give a kiss on your forehead. "It will be difficult for me to have no feelings towards you, princess." he sighed, pulling you closer and covering your body with the warm blanket.
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2005
“is it on?” alex asked as he stood in front of the camera. i chuckled and nodded as i adjusted the focus. “move back a bit!” alex only got closer, his face filling the frame. “alex!” i laughed gently pushing him. he stumbled backwards dramatically falling onto the grass pretending to be injured. “this is the end for me.” he said dramatically still lying on the ground, his limbs sprawled out.
i knelt down beside him zooming in on his face as he closed his eyes sticking his tongue out. “come on, get up you baby.” i laughed, he chuckled and got up. “okay let’s go.”
“here’s y/n and i’s favorite bakery, and here’s our favorite pub.” alex said as he moved the camera around to show the buildings. “usually ends up with alex being the most drunk and i have to carry him home.” i said beside him “that was once...”
as we continued walking through the streets we documented more of our favorite spots and grabbed a quick bite to eat before preparing to head home. “we’re back homeee.” i sang running to the living room, alex closing the door quickly catching up to me. “alex has been working on a song and it sounds amazing.” i said sitting on the couch criss cross applesauce. “it’s called ‘no buses.’ he said behind the camera “hey al, why don’t you play a little snippet of it.” i said going to grab his guitar “okay.”
he walked over to me handing me the camera, taking his place next to me on the couch. i watched as he began tuning his guitar. “you look so handsome.” he looked up scrunching his nose, he opened his mouth to say something, only turning into a stuttering mess. once he finished tuning the guitar he strummed it to see how it sounded. “okay, ready?” he asked looking up, i nodded zooming out to show him. he took a deep breath and began “lady where has your love gone…” his fingers moving effortlessly over the strings. i zoomed in on his face as he sang, the sunset shining through the room creating a cozy atmosphere.
he finished singing and looked up. i cheered and clapped my hands accidentally dropping the camera. “oops.” alex chuckled catching it handing it back to me. “nice catch.”
“isn’t my boyfriend so talented.” i said turning the camera towards me. “y/nnn.” he mumbled, i turned turning the camera towards him, an evident blush on his cheeks as he covered his face.
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★ ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ──  ㅤ  ㅤ  ㅤ AND FOR MY HUSBAND.
 ㅤ  ㅤ  ㅤ ㅤ SIAS!ALEX TURNER ٠ FEM! READER
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“I think I’m gonna get number two,” [Y/N] told her order to the cashier before moving her head to her boyfriend. “What do you want, honey?” She asked, giving in a soft smile, which he returned by placing his hand on her thigh.
Alex leaned closer to the window to see the menu, his eyebrows furrowed as studied the options through his glasses. He gently rubbed small circles on her skin. “Number four sounds pretty good.” He said, inching closer to plant a chaste kiss on her cheek.
“Alright, and my husband wants the number four.” She said, smiling as she felt his lips prepping soft kisses on her skin. She bit back a giggle, watching Alex’s burning gaze on her at the corner of her eyes.
A swarm of butterflies erupted into his stomach, the word husband repeating inside his head like a mantra. His eyebrows were raised and he took off his glasses, a grin forming into his handsome features as his eyes sparked.
She turned her head to him, an innocent expression etched into her features as she watched his lips curl into a big smile.
“Is that all? Do you want drinks?” The cashier interrupted their staring contest. Alex’s lips curved into a smirk and he leaned his head closer to the window as both of his hands caressed her thighs lovingly.
“The husband wants a coke, please,” he beamed, eyes glistening before lovingly looking at his girlfriend. “And my beautiful wife wants the strawberry milkshake!” He finished his order with a stupid grin on his face, and [Y/N] wanted to gush at his love sick attitude.
The cashier laughed, their eyes filled with amusement as they watched the pair acting all giddy and flustered. They tapped in their order into the system before turning to them with a grin. “Alrighty! Number two and four for the married couple. Thank you for your order!”
Alex couldn’t hide his excitement and burst into a hearty laugh, feeling happiness course through his veins by just a small word. His heart soared against his chest, his love for her increasing with every second.
He thanked the kind cashier and grabbed the receipt and gently tapped her thigh to drive off, which she obliged with a soft giggle. She bid her goodbyes with the cashier, smiling at the compliment they received.
“What a lovely couple!”
The moment [Y/N] hit the breaks and parked into a parking lot, Alex didn’t hesitate to pull her into a passionate kiss, his hand drifting to hold the side of her neck as he pulled her closer.
She gasped into his mouth, her stomach fluttering as she quickly melted into the kiss, feeling his rough calloused hands caressing cheek as they deepened the kiss.
[Y/N] pulled away with a giggle, her eyes crinkling from smiling. “What’s gotten into you, Al.” She simpered, smiling wide as she watched his grinning face.
Alex mirrored her look, eyes studying every features of hers. He gave her a fond look, doe-eyes slightly wide before voicing his thoughts. “Husband, huh?” He nudged her with his elbows making her chuckle.
Pink dust danced across her cheeks, mouth open but closed it as she was too flustered to speak. Her shoulders vibrated from soft chuckles and she looked at him, watching him having the same flushed expression at the mention of the word.
“It just slipped, I guess? And by the look on your face it seems that you liked hearing that.” She answered with a cheeky smile, earning another breathy laugh from the latter.
“You keep saying that, darling, and it will come true one day.” Alex told her with a wink, leaning to lock his lips into hers once again. “My beautiful wife.” He murmured against his lips, a smile curving upwards on his handsome features.
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captainwans · 1 month
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NEW ERA! (smau)
— ALEX TURNER
arabella series!
masterlist!
pairing: alex turner x fem! actress! reader
summary: after the release of arctic monkeys new album, y/n’s comment section attracts new followers and attention.
layout inspo: @ithinkimokeei 🩶
timeline: 2013
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yourinstagram italy has been treating me well! ✨🍃🌤️ 🇮🇹
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username y/n is so HOT 😩
username the album is out you know what that means 😏
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username i'm lesbian 
username the most beautiful woman on the planet 🌎
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officialelizabetholson: my WIFE 💕💍
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username username apparently the whole comment section
username 😍😍😍😍
username y/n have you listened to arctic monkeys new album?
katehudson how do you always manage to look so freaking good 😩 spare some beauty, mama!
yourinstagram katehudson you're the most prettiest woman i've ever laid eyes on ✋🏼💖
yourbestfriend you're such a cheater 😭😭
username yourbestfriend 😭😂
username pls i want their friendship
username what did you think about the song arabella?
username i’m so glad the arabella movie is getting the recognition it deserves!!! the song is sooo good too! 💗
username what’s your favorite arctic monkeys song? ❤️
yourinstagram it’s impossible for me to choose, but if i had to it’s definitely fluorescent adolescent or teddy picker 🧸
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username and we are OBSESSED with her
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username the movie wrecked me so hard i’ve been crying for days
username username same i still haven’t recovered from arabella she’s such a talented actress!! 💗
username manifesting that she’s gonna be in the arabella mv 🪄🧙🏻‍♀️
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username username but so iconic tho right?
marvel real people listen to arctic monkeys 😌✨
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yourinstagram avengers….ASSEMBLE 🦸🏻‍♀️🤺
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username hemsworth is a BEAST god damn 😩
username the reason why i’m alive
markruffalo miss you on set ❤️
yourinstagram coming back soon marko 😙
jeremyrenner yourinstagram how long is soon? yourbestfriend is having an episode again 🙄
yourbestfriend you're being very dramatic today renner
robertdowneyjr that was an episode? thought she was just being herself …
yourinstagram 😳
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yourbestfriend you know what robertdowneyjr
tobertdowneyjr no i don’t know what
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mileskane you were KILLING it on the avengers love!! ❤️❤️
yourinstagram thank you!! 💕💕 mileskane
username miles my beloved <3
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username that cake looks sooo goood omg
username queen just posted 😩😩
breanahelders cutie!! 💗
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katiee_cook_ that cardigan is so gorg! where did you buy it? 🙈💕
yourinstagram i actually knit this myself! 🧶😆 i can send you the recipe in dms! 💕☺️
katiee_cook_ thank you, lovely! 😍
username why is she so cute 🥹
username now i want that cardigan
username katie and breana interaction- does this mean that y/n and alex are dating rn??
username username how? they haven’t even met..
username how do you know tho? 👀
username are we just gonna ignore 2005?
username username wdym?
username girl why are you clueless 😭
username if they’re dating then my life would be complete
yourbestfriend i baked that cake!! 🥰
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username can someone please explain 2005?
username somebody tag me on this i’m so invested
username same glad i’m not the only one who’s confused
username username username y’all must be new to the fandom lmao
username username y/n and alex go way back in 2005 and some people are saying that they first met in a pub in sheffield during that time she was filming (1)
username and some fans claim that y/n was the inspiration behind i bet you look good on the dance floor (2)
username ^^!! that is true he confirmed it during an interview
officialelizabetholsen yourbestfriend and it was so delicious!!! 😋🎂
yourbestfriend thank you lizzie!! 😙
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thank you for the tag, my lovely! 🎀 @ithinkimokeei
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AM / ARCTIC MONKEYS
MY EVERYTHING / ARIANA GRANDE
T R A P S O U L / BRYSON TILLER
STARBOY / THE WEEKEND
CIGARETTES AFTER SEX / CIGARETTES AFTER SEX
FLEUR FROIDE / TAYC
ASTROWORLD / TRAVIS SCOTT
WIPED OUT / THE NEIGHBORHOOD
FAVORITE WORST NIGHTMARE / ARTIC MONKEYS
TAGGING: @ikissvernon @stardustloserdoll @lalisabae @louvrepool @huldrabitch @meeeeeezoooooooo @peeled-tangerine
post your nine favourite albums
thank you for the tag @lukevangelista <3
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in utero- nirvana
the wall- pink floyd
led zeppelin IV- led zeppelin
am- arctic monkeys
use your illusion I - guns n' roses
korn- korn
the bends- radiohead
trench- twenty one pilots
white pony- deftones
tagging (no pressure as always)- @brokenanxiety @kelseys-version @kwinhyuse @ithinkimokeei @mathewbaldzal & anyone else that wants to do it :) you can say i tagged you, i’d love to see!
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