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I don’t like to engage in those “paternity test” posts about which song is about who but can someone explain to me why most people assumed the smallest man who ever lived is about matty??? bc to me that song screams joe

not only because of the contents of the song but also bc in so long london she’s says “two graves / one gun” and in tsmwel she says “did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed” and to me that solidified it as a song about him, seeing as she uses the same metaphor

#also tbh I think she purposefully made it difficult to know who it is about bc she’s tired of it #and I think she made songs for both of them at the same time #anyways #taylor swift #ts ttpd #the tortured poets department #the smallest man who ever lived

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do u guys ever think about this anymore. kids these days don’t think about “they were always walking away from him. but he never seemed able to walk away from them.”

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#I’ve watched three episodes and I love him already #WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME ABOUT HIM #started for seth stayed for Ryan #the oc

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annabeth pickpocketing the god of thieves and percy defeating the god of war in battle… no one does it like them

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Sigh. It's all worth it for this I guess

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Gansey holding Blue inside his jacket reblog if you agree

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so i'm rereading trc with my friend and we're currently on bllb and i just read chapter 30 and in it blue's asking malory what gansey used to be like before he moved to henrietta and the gansey that malory describes to blue is so different from the gansey she currently knows and i just cant stop thinking about it.

first off, malory describes gansey as "small" as in not just his height but as in gansey was young and it makes sense because at the time gansey was 15 but it just kind of does something to my heart when i think about young, small gansey trying to figure out why he's still alive.

malory then goes on to say, "He was still trying to prove that he hadn't just hallucinated. He was still quite obsessed with the event [his death] itself." gansey first died when he was 10 and to be obsessing over your death for FIVE years trying to convince others but mostly yourself that you didn't make it up that you actually died and not some part of a childs imagination it must've fucked with him so bad???

then malory tells blue exactly how obsessed gansey was with his death and was to the extent that he was always drawing bees and hornets and "Got screaming nightmares over it- he had to get his own place since I couldn't sleep with it [...] Sometimes these fits would happen in the day, too. We'd just be toddling through some riding path in Leicestershire and next thing I knew he'd be on the ground clawing his face like a mental patient." the gansey that blue currently knows doesnt act like that but this was only two years prior its fucking INSANE and it's here blue starts to think about the facade gansey had learned to throw up since he was a kid.

AND IT GETS WORSE SOMEHOW?? earlier in bllb in chapter 3, gansey talks about how he felt like running and how it had been a long time since he had felt that way. at the time it didn't make sense like wdym by that gansey but then back in chapter 30 malory tells blue how gansey just disappeared one day. left most of his bags and left without a word to anyone not even his family who then called malory to ask for gasneys whereabouts. "He picked himself up and moved on so easily, so quickly. He had done it so many times before England, Jane, and it was old hat to him."

it makes blue rethink every conversation she had with gansey previously, similarly to when adam heard gansey's voice of fear in the cave in chapter one where gansey had the panic attack because its around this book where the gangsey start to figure, as blue puts it, "It was more like the Gansey she'd seen was a partial truth."

it's so very easy to pass off ganseys insecurities and his feelings about how he should comfort other people but they shouldn't do the same for him because he's had it the easiest (his words not mine) because he himself skips over it so fast. like he'll mention something and then act like he's never thought or said it, like its something normal which really isnt and then it slowly makes sense that gansey throughout the series, starts to lose that mask (there's multiple masks but thats a conversation for another time) and the readers and the gangsey get to see what the real gansey is like instead of the bulletproof, untouchable gansey they're used to seeing.

the idea of gansey running is insane in a good way because its nothing like the gansey we know, plus paired with the fact about how young gansey has me clawing at the walls because he's just this kid desperate to prove he wasn't hallucinating, trying to find some purpose to his life before he finds it in henrietta. a kid who was still terrified of his death who relived it, screaming every night who still had panic attacks anywhere and everywhere and would end up clawing at himself because there's hornets everywhere. a kid who doesn't stay in one place too long who learns to put on an easy smile to convince everyone okay and gets so good at it that it works and people think that hes normal and okay when he's anything but.

idk pre canon gansey is something that i need to inject into my bloodstream and analyse in a lab.

#I’m so so normal about him #gansey #trc

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gansey posts ! yeehaw !

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some posts for blue sargent, aka our queen :)

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'Cause I know that it's delicate Taylor Swift: The Eras Tour (2023) dir. Sam Wrench

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is he even your boyfriend if he doesn't deny immortality and godhood just for you?

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when he says “you're pretty” but percy jackson looked at the literal greek goddess of love and beauty in the eye and said ‘she looks like annabeth’.

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me trying to be an active listener: YES no exactly right right right FOR REALLL yeah totally no literally! yeah for sure

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by Levy

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bluesey is so amazing because from ganseys pov it’s like she makes me quiet, i can sleep after i talk to her, i would die for her. and from blue’s pov it’s like oh my fucking god i am coming to the realization that i like gansey DESPITE the fact that he wears boat shoes and is a massive nerd (don’t get me wrong i HATE the boat shoes, but i love him just a tiny bit more)

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dawson’s creek girls + favorite hairstyles 

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Taylor Swift for The Eras Tour, 2023. What is your favorite costume from The eras tour ?