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Hecklin11 commented on “Would You Be My Little Quarantine?”, “Please just take down all your works with Armie in them since you believe he did those things he was accused of. If you really stand up for the victims of abuse, be in solidarity with them and take down all your works here featuring Armie. P.S. Just stop writing fics with Armie in them.” Along with a few other things that I do not care to repeat because it would be insulting to the people who have actually looked at the countless evidence. This happened alongside a group of other people insulting us on our fics. This is thanks to you all.

@lookingforatardis​ and I decided they are right. We do not want any of you using this material to draw people into a lie and convince them with a false depiction of this man. So. They are all gone now. We wouldn’t delete our respective 25 or 53 works in this fandom? Sweetie, watch us.

Additionally, we haven’t written a single sentence with him as a character since we learned the truth. Frankly, I would feel disgusting getting into that headspace or changing it to be “harmless”. There are countless unfinished fics, countless ideas, a whole fucking collab I wrote with linds that is 250k+ and that we stopped writing about 10k away from the ending because neither of us could stand continuing it. That is just going to die. Losing that is hard but it's the only way. Not even because of a conscious moral decision but because if I were to get into his headspace right now? I would write him as I saw him. I always have.

Okay, let me reiterate: I no longer support Armie Hammer. I will no longer write fic that includes him or share the works that I have worked on in the past. I do not want people to read them. So I deleted them.

I would do a post justifying my decision to support victims of abuse but frankly, I am not sure that it’s going to help. I am going to try, one last time though.

The evidence is there. Yes, you can fake DMs. Easily. I am aware. But you cannot fake those pictures, you cannot fake the countless voice messages, you cannot fake the reaction he had to it which was "this is BS" which is frankly not the reaction you should have if you're innocent and branded yourself as a feminist in the past. So yeah, the evidence is there.

They're unverified? Okay, here's the thing. You need the rapist to tell you that he really raped someone? You need a man to tell you that what he did to a woman was wrong? Great, you just created a world without sexual assault and rape.

Say he would come out and say confirm those claims. Would you believe him then? Probably not. He was coerced by the media, right? Because his agency dropped him and he's losing custody. Because these evil witches ruined your shiny hero.

Intro to science and real life. There are certain things you believe. Like Armie Hammer is a good person. I believed that, too. For 5 years of my life. Now there's enough evidence to disprove this statement. Hard evidence. Do I feel great that this happened? No, but it DOESN'T matter how I feel about it. Let me compare that. You are under the assumption that there is no climate change. Right now it's snowing outside where I live. Doesn't feel like the earth warmed up, huh? Well, there's enough evidence that it did so people changed their opinion. Same goes for the earth going around the sun or it being round.

Alright what you believe? That's a hypothesis. And I want you to sit yourself down and think about how you would disprove the statement, "Armie Hammer is a good man". What would he need to do that you would stop believing that? There's nothing? Well, you are idolising an abuser, congrats. You think if he really did what he is accused of would disprove that? Well, there you go. That's what I thought, too. If that's true, he's not a good man after all.

The next step is going to objectively listen to both sides. Hear what the women have to say. What kind of evidence they are presenting. And frankly, if you have been paying attention in the past few years? You will realise not only are those pieces of evidence hard/impossible to fake but they also fit. The man who says he despises pap walks? Who said that if he does one it's because his PR team called them? Why go on pap walks in quick succession with several women? Why show off that they are his now? This is just one of the many things that suddenly makes a lot of sense.

And then you listen to the lack of sensible responses and arguments from people defending him. And you make a decision, no matter how hard it is, no matter how hard it feels.

And I don't wanna hear you explain this one example away. Frankly, I don't care. I am explaining my thought process to you in the hopes that you understand where I am coming from. I will not be arguing with anyone in the comments or DMs or asks. I haven't since this started. If no argument is able to disprove your hypothesis then I will not waste my energy on making one. I have better things to do, frankly.

This is the last I will say on the matter. The works are gone. I may delete this blog soon but I want to leave these statements up for now.

It's been a ride, y'all. See you on the other side.

#i want you to know that I am in a great place #and this was the push I needed to delete these things #that have been making me uncomfortable for awhile now #it was very cathartic #and actually kinda fun #linds #collabs #and you guys sending anons is kinda 2014 don't you think #I hope that all the people that ended up on the right side of this #and supported me throughout the years

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look what you made me do

#linds #collabs #quarantine #we see you group chat that is talking about our fics #this is for you :*

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look what you made me do

#linds #home series #the end

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[about the Me Too movement] "People go, "Don't you think there's gonna be backlash on this?" What do you mean, "going to be"? Yeah, of course there's a backlash. Yeah, there's definitely a backlash. "Don't you think maybe this woman is lying?" And my feeling basically about this is I believe every single woman. Prove to me she's lying. I'm sure some people are lying. I'm positive, of course. But you have to prove that to me, because I was a young woman. Okay? Anyone who was a girl, who was a young, knows what this is about."

- Fran Lebowitz in "Pretend it's a City"

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I thought I had to be quiet, I thought there is absolutely nothing to say about this. At first because I didn’t think there was anything to these claims because I have been here for awhile and fandom tends to take things too far. 

But this isn’t about that at all. I don’t want to even add to the conversation just like I wouldn’t argue with someone that climate change doesn’t exist. If you aren’t convinced by now then there’s nothing that I can say that would make it better.

The reason I am making this post at all is because I am going through this and if you ask any of my friends, I am sure they would agree on being worried about my reaction.

Because I have been here for almost five and a half years. I watched a 60s spy movie in 2015 and I fell in love with this stupid tall guy with the kind eyes and rumbly laugh. I’m 20 now and realising that a stable like that isn’t what you made it out to be, is hard. It doesn’t matter that he doesn’t know of our existence. I know that there are people out there who have to wrangle with the fact of losing someone close to them through a fucking daily mail article.

It feels like you just got broken up with over email, in a shitty side sentence while he tells you about his new woman. And that’s the point right. This isn’t about those women, it is about him and how he made you feel and those women and how he made them feel.

I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs and I had to wrangle with the fact that he is smoking at all. But that’s something a lot of people do. Drinking is something a lot of people do. And I suppose there’s a way to do so responsibly. However because I have no part in that community I know what it’s like when people that are close to you offer you to drink. And tell you to drink. And question why and how you don’t drink. Again and again and again. I didn’t say yes but I know tons of people would and do every day. They’re your friends, after all. You don’t want to lose them.

And he is Armie Hammer. I wouldn’t say no to him. I know that. And that’s how I know that they can be right, that sometimes you say yes but it’s not a yes. Society has issues understanding that no means no. That a drunk yes is a no. But a community that is largely female should look at themselves and do a fact check. A coerced yes is also a no. And that makes this abuse.

I am speaking up because this is one of the hardest things I have to do. Because if I can look at the 5 years that I spent following this man’s career, rooting for him and having my life changed because of him and still admit that there are things you can’t forgive or forget then so can you. 

Did you know that my first fic that I wrote in English was in The Man from UNCLE fandom? That I learned to speak this language like a native because of someone that I connected to through our love for tmfu and then because of our love for the actors in it. That’s tarnished.

Did you know that the first time that I ever travelled without my parents was to go to Crema? To meet friends I had made because of CMBYN and our shared love for it? That’s tarnished.

Did you know that I regarded Feb, 29th the happiest the day of my life? That after following this man for 4 and a half years I finally got to see him in person because I had been stuck in Europe where you don’t just see actors parading around all day. Not the kind that I wanted to see so badly anyway? That’s tarnished. 

And that when it all started coming together, I looked at my life where he’s in so many nooks and crannies, in the posters on my wall, on the lockscreen of my phone, in the messages to my friends, on every single social media on every single platform that I have used in the past 5 years. And that’s incredibly hard to just let go. I sat there and was like “I don’t know how to hate him.” But I learned to be disgusted by him and the absolute lack of remorse that he has shown. 

It’s hard because we all have our coping mechanisms and these days we rely on them more than anything else. I have lost my sport and I have lost someone very close to me that used to make me smile. And this was always, always something that I could count on. When I felt like absolute shit yesterday I wanted to watch tmfu because it’s the movie that always makes me laugh. And I wanted to read the stories that I had written that I am so incredibly proud of. But I couldn’t because he broke those things. The way I dealt with loss was always turning to those characters and knowing that not only I can’t do that right now but that I never can again, that life is gonna continue to shit on me and I have to do it without him sucks. 

He had a responsibility. He had a responsibility to be a decent human being, just like everybody else.

I am angry, I am devastated. I don’t know how to proceed with those shambles and I know that he hasn’t touched me, that I don’t have to look at myself in the mirror with the knowledge that I let him do what he did to those women to me. But I know I would’ve that still feels fucking shitty.

I don’t know if anybody will read this. I don’t know if anybody will care about this. This isn’t for you or for them and definitely not for him. I still feel nauseous, because I know that he would fucking get off on knowing the kind of control he has over my life. Has had for many years. I am still picking up the pieces of what I went through yesterday. It will take time and I have friends because of him that helped and will continue to help me through this. I am going to be okay, eventually. For me it’s going to be a lesson, getting away with a black eye so to speak. But there are real people who have really been hurt by this.

So I am asking you, if I can go through this because I know it’s the right thing to do then so can you.

#trigger warning #armie hammer #in defence of my own feelings

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VERY excited for @lookingforatardis and my new collaboration to come out as soon as quarantine is finished!

#Linds #collabs #werewolf AU #I have some dope art for you guys…

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oh hi

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yall aren’t ready for the quarantine update tomorrow 

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AO3 link, as always

a big thank you from @charmie-inspiration and i for those still reading!!

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When you make a continuity error

#yup #no one is perfect #we really played ourselves by breaking someone’s arm so they have to wear a cast #linds #collabs #werewolf au

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@lookingforatardis and I started a new fic last night. 😌

PS. we are not taking about his regular eye colour. I think we are all v aware that that’s blue

#🐺 #linds #collabs

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[UNCLE/塗鴉]

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just edited the next ch of quarantine and oh boy so many good little moments coming your way with this update

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I pray nobody involved ever read that because they might have some questions for us and the only thing we can say in our defence is... “we thought of what would be realistic.” WE DIDNT WANT TO PREDICT SO MUCH SHIT OMG

in case you ever doubt what kind of angsty bitches we are, nici and i have been rereading coming home and have been yelling at each other about all the sad things we accidentally predicted and just generally how much more it hurts in 2020

#home series #coming home #arriving home #linds

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Rebecca (2020), dir. Ben Wheatley

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Will You Be My Little Quarantine?

By @lookingforatardis and @charmie-inspiration​

When you can capitalise on having a hot roommate and get some free cuddle sessions in the process, it seems like the best you can achieve with lockdown shutting down your industry. However, as 2020 goes, it only gets messier from there.

#charmie #charmie fanfic #charmie aesthetic #quarantine #collabs #linds