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who could’ve thought i’d be able to pull off the party of my dreams for my 30th? 🌞

#i’m so obssessed with the flowers though #the colors #ugh #i love it sm 😮‍💨 #life lately #30 • flirty • thriving #30’s club!

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things i feel a lowkey upset, stressed and sad recently:

been overly stressed in planning and organizing a party for my post birthday celebration! not to mention the money i’m spilling out just so i can somehow achieve the party that i want??? i just hope it’s really worth it but just like what my mom said, “pera lang yan, kikitain mo ulit yan” hahahaha and i agree naman, galing lang rin mang-gaslight ng mommy ko no? but wala, sometimes i can’t help but think bakit ko ba ito pinush?

work has been overwhelming lately, i guess i’m back in that state of hating it again, i survived this state late last year but eventually i started pushing for limits again and i’m just not feeling it again, i’m inconsistent and it’s already reflecting on the job i’m doing, idk how am i supposed to get out of this state again? when this year started i had my mind on a possible promotion but now ayoko na ulit? i love the company but i hate what i’m doing and this is not doing me good in terms of my mental health

i already know this but sometimes i still can’t help but mourn on the friendships that i have lost, it’s just really a sad realization when you lost people you have been really close to before, but i guess they’re just part of one of your eras, and that’s how it is

there will always be things that won’t work out how you planned, and that’s okay, you shouldn’t dwell on that, pero syempre as reklamador, let me rant and reklamo for a hot minute, i know things won’t change if i do but gusto ko lang magreklamo and maging sad okay

i ordered clothes for my party and i’m lowkey panicking and stressed because nakalagay sa app the estimate arrival is either friday to monday, and my party’s on saturday so i’m like?????? where do i get good clothes with the exact vibe i want? it notified me earlier today that it’s enroute to my city but i just hope that aabot sya ng friday please

last but definitely not the least and something that i would really hate to admit but i’m kinda sad? dissapointed? upset? ano ba? idk, but ayun, he officially can’t come to my party, he just confirmed it to me now because his parents are flying from isabela to manila sakto on saturday— which is the same day of my party so he can’t come, hahaha! tapos he kept on saying sorry ganon tapos lalo lang ako nasasad hahaha! eh at the first place, i wasn’t even 1000% sure that i want him there!!! like he just keeps on asking me and asking if he’s invited tapos ako yung non-chalant and keep on saying, “let’s see” tapos now that i WANT him to come, he can’t naman! hahaha! kaya siguro at the back of my mind parang i’m indenial and shit kasi ayoko masad about this pero here i am kinda feeling bummed about it! hahaha! wala naiinis lang ako?? kasi magtatampo na naman ako!!! kahit wala naman sa lugar???

#it’s almost 3am and this is how i feel ok #i need to post it #i’m so upset hahaha #or baka full on different emotions na nafeel ko #and i’m overwhelmed #life lately #🧿🧿🧿 #so there’s this guy #dating 101’s

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i had a v sponty night with my constants last night, nagkataon na biglang nagkayayaan and given that it’s a long weekend everyone was g, we met in paranaque and tried that ramyeon bar then our ush which is coffee run after, then our friend drove all the way to makati para ihatid yung isa namin friend near their condo and then kami naman near taguig and i asked rin pala if which country ba peg for our barkada trip this year tapos sabi ba naman either vietnam, thailand or bali hahaha then nashook ako slight sa bali hahahaha but then ayun it was such a fun night, it’s like a mini reunion bc the last time we’re all complete was nung kasal pa ni giezl last november!! imagine!! anyway i missed us! ✨

#college bestiez #life lately

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so last sat i was in bgc with my brother, he was returning the scooter he rented via moovr while ako i was looking fot a seat in mbakery, so palakad lakad ako slightly, when i exited the mall entrance which is near the mbakery may nakasabay ako na black guy going outside, i didn’t bother at first but then i heard him say something which i ignored because i wasn’t sure if he was talking to me

but then while i was walking i can feel him following and i heard him say, “hi” but i ignored it again and then i heard him say something and pagkakaintindi ko is “are you free tonight?” or maybe i’m wrong kasi medj bingi ako and then i stood somewhere kasi nga i was waiting for seats to be free sa outside part of mbakery, but then he was standing in the entrance part of the mall and napatingin ako sa kanya and he was staring at me and then with that eye contact i saw him walk towards me and to my panic i walked rin palayo sa kanya, and i heard him say “hey” behind me but i continued walking and pretended to be on the phone then ayun after a while i saw him gone

i mean, i dated black guys before pero kasi he’s not the kind i want to date…alam nyo na??? plus i am kinda in the middle of dating someone so i’m not interested??? but i am thankful for the validation but that’s it 😮‍💨

#latest chismis lang #life lately #target market talaga e 🥸

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Could I just say something real quick? 

It’s all coming. Whatever you’re starving for, whatever that ache is that stings your bones, it’s coming. The love, the happiness, the adventures, and the creativity that you are seeking, it is all coming for you. Here’s the thing, don’t let your right now get away. The things you find mundane, keep them. Store them in the pocket of your favorite coat like found pennies. They aren’t futile. Do not let them cause you to feel empty and hollow. They are going to be worthwhile. Keep the hunger for what is coming, but please, keep a tight grip on these little ordinary moments that are happening right now, because they – these tiny pieces of this ordinary affair you find yourself in – are the foundation to your extraordinary. And I promise you, if you begin to recognize your right now, you’ll see your extraordinary coming.  

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the amount of pictures and love I have for these two is sobra HAHAHHAHA nawalan ako ng vocabulary mid sentence naka off day kasi english ko. ty for bringing so much love & happiness into my life.

#forever grateful #🩷🩷🩷 #cgl

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Happy Birthdayyy Chescaaaaa, enjoy the best things in lifeee godblesss ü

i appreciate this and u ofc!! tysm!! keep safe too and stay inlove! 💘

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well, hi there 2017 chesca

i just want to say that you’ll be fine

i mean of course, it wasn’t easy, it wasn’t a walk in the park, it wasn’t all smiles and laughter, you had your heart broken a couple of times, you get betrayed by people you trusted, you hated yourself and your own body, you tried to strip your own skin just so you could fit in the mold the world is trying to put you in—i guess it’s always gonna get worse before it gets better, right?

because here you are now, working in a mental health company that takes care of you and acknowledges every single thing you do, you managed to find ways to enjoy what you do and you still get to learn new things every single time

and yes, you may have lost a couple of people along the way but atleast you managed to keep the people that mattered

you are able to travel and explore other places and heal your inner child and still be able to provide good things to your family

and the best of it all, you learned to love yourself again, to the point that when someone points out your flaws, it doesn’t hurt you anymore, you learned to know what you deserve and you started focusing on things (and people) that only matches your energy

you started discovering that you love being on your own, you enjoy your own company, you loved going out on your own and dating yourself, you just enjoy your solitude and you were able to find your own peace

i mean sure, the future is still bleak and unsure but then you learned that that’s just how it is and it is still scary but you’re not that scared anymore

you still worry, i mean, you are after all an overthinker but it’s not as much anymore and that’s still a progress

our 20’s sure is fucking crazy, but it was what made us who we are right now, and i can’t wait for what our 30’s will bring us

happy birthday to us 🥂

💌 cheers and love— from your 2024 self

i know i am still young, i mean for fuck sake i am just at my early 20′s but somehow i always end up panicking and worrying about how bleak my future seems to be as of now, and it just scares the hell out of me

#welcome to the 30’s club self! 🥂✨ #life lately #thoughts #happy birthday self

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miss q kaü. huhu @chescarriffic @ginniemouse

#always missing u both #see u soon pls #cgl

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sg dump ii.

this is our first whole day in sg and we had to move to another hotel which is the hotel included in the klook package with the taylor swift ticket, we arrived around 12nn, taking a chance if we could check in earlier since the usual check in there is 3pm but when we checked in the receptionist who happened to be a filipina offered us an upgrade which is a club room located in their club area

she kept on telling us the inclusions of the room, it has bath tub, breakfast included, drinks and such hahaha tapos eh she said it’s the last room to be offered raw sooo syempre we ended up getting the room for such a price hahaha kasi the goal is to check in earlier so we can prep earlier for the concert hahahahaha ano ba naman yung dagdagan pa namin gastos namin diba??? hahahaha!

so we were able to check in early, then we went out to eat since we need to be full for the concert, paikot ikot kami kung saan kami kakain bc we can't find a place where we want to eat and a place that's not tooooo expensive + tbh di kami good in navigation, so talagang panay lakad kami, then we found this place and i got this friend hainanese chicken chops and bestie got nasi lemak, and both are so good, after that, we walked back to our hotel and started to prep!

and is it just me ba or doing your make up, hair and dressing up with your bestie/friends just perks me up??? ewan ko ba, it’s such a girlhood thing AND we were preparing to see taylor swift??? ultimate girlhood, it is!

hay, i live for these kind of experiences in life, i love it 💘

#dumpy dump #photo sets #life lately #sg ‘24! #era’s tour #sg #🇸🇬

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sg dump i.

we had a late night flight so we arrived in sg around 1am? and i also got kinda weird io experience before flying to sg??? the guy asked for my mom’s maiden name and where she lives and her province? so i’m like? why??? hahaha! medj cute pa naman sana kaso he’s soo yabang alam mo yun vibe palang is giving entitled? superior? hahaha! gusto mo pala mameet mom ko eh halika pakilala sana kita hahaha char

#dumpy dump #photo sets #im back at it while i deal with my pcd and sadness #vain #life lately #sg ‘24! #🇸🇬 #era’s tour

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teka lang????? sana sinaksak mo nalang ako taylor swift???? the mash up songs today are so fucking good????? lahat bias ko??? and you’re telling me??? that i missed it by one fucking night????? during my show 2/4 lang pinakagusto ko sa mash up nya then tonight???? death by a thousand cuts????? and babe????? and fifteeen???? and youre on your own kid???? gago ka ba???? we’ve been waiting for dbatc pero sa night 4 mo binigay 😭😭😭😭

#naiiyak ako hahahaha #sama ng loob ko sobra #oo na oa na idc #hahahahaha

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gusto ko na magdabog kasi my eras tour and my sg trip is already fucking done???? what to look forward now??? hahaha ewan ko pero sure ako once i land in manila later it’s either galit or lungkot lang feelings ko and that’s gonna last a long time because i looked forward to this trip for sooo long and now it’s done???? *cue right where you left me* help!!!

#naiiyak na ako #ayoko umuwi pero di naman tayo mayaman hahahaba

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hulaan niyo anong topic namin 🤭 (clue, napa palo nalang si ginnie sa noo niya hehe) ✨🤍 @chescarriffic @ginniemouse

#secret hahahaha basta alam ko lang stress na stress si gin #cgl #people for keeps 🌟

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having new set of lashes and newly waxed brows really hits diff no? hahahaha sama mo na rin getting new nails hahaha they call it kaartehan and gastos but i call it girl therapy 😝

#inuuna ko pa magtumblr kesa mag pack hahaha #cramming na naman ako mamaya 😮‍💨 #selfie #vain #image

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just casually dumping my cam roll lately??? tinatamad ako to go into detail but long story short, this is my month of february— just in case you guys miss my life lately-slash-camroll dump posts hahaha! 💘

#life lately #cam roll dump #dumpy dump #selfie #image #vain #photo sets #february dump

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excuse me, emotional excited ass coming thru!

so i just want to share how emotional and (really) excited i have been lately because within less than a week i’ll be seeing taylor swift??? i’d be flying on another country just to watch her??? and if you tell that to my 14 year old self girlie, she’d be like, “are you for real?” because who would have thought?

but then here i am, double checking my to-do’s and my check list and about to start packing for my trip!!

ewan ko ba, but it just hits me hard knowing i’m gonna see her and watch her live with my own money??? kasi dati when she toured here in manila i wanted to watch and i remember how jealous i am kasi i had a classmate who got to watch her and then when 1989 album came out, i remember wanting that 1989 keds so bad but of course it’s not a priority and at that time around 3K is already too expensive for me and my parents, parang they would rather use that money for my tuition and allowance lalo na it was just my mom who was working to provide for us by then

kaya siguro oa na kung oa, but i’m so emotional talaga hahahaha and i get to watch it with my bestfriend???? is this girlhood or what?? hahaha! i mean, imagine??? dati ultimong buy one take one burger pinaghahatian namin just so we can save, and we would buy that 1 litter of mountain dew and pour half and half in plastic para paghatian then eto na kami, about to have our international trip together

i mean, i’ve been really grateful naman sa mga narating namin before this pero hahaha, we’re going to the era’s tour in less than 3 days 🤧

but i guess this my best entry in healing my inner child series

#if sawa ka na eras tour posts ko hahaha go ahead and unf me! bc there’s gonna be more and more #life lately #thoughts #eras tour #taylor swift