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i’m sitting here and i’m just thinking like has anyone actually ever liked me? i feel like all people I’ve dated just use me as a second choice for a period of time to get over someone they couldn’t have or until they find someone way better and then i just get cheated on or left in the background until I walk away on my own, guess I’m not even worth hoensty or an explanation.i don’t think I was ever anyone’s first choice or anyone was excited or happy to just talk to me and be with me. i’m just a background character in everyone’s life . I feel so bad for letting someone hurt my heart again silly girl what where you thinking

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When someone asks me why do I harm myself I always respond:

My heart is broken in so many pieces, I try to fix it; gave it to someone who I thought would heal it, but he ended up pulverizing it. What’s left are deep wounds that I’m unable to see. When I cut myself, I can clearly see all of the scars inside me, all of the demage, the irreparable.

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Right. You want things that my disease doesn’t let me give. And I’m sorry. She’s better for you....

Dedicated to someone (#4)

I just want to be good enough for you!

-via broken-and-depressed-soul//Tumblr

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Story of my life

Therapist: you should try talking to your friends. Letting things build up inside is not good for you.

Friend: you can always talk to me if you need

Me: *talks to a friend*

Friend to another friend: she's so annoying with stupid problems. They're not even problems.

-via broken-broken-and-depressed-soul//Tumblr

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I have so much building up within me that I wanna tell my friends, family and the world about but I can't without them getting annoyed or thinking I'm a weak sad soul...it honestly hurts.

-via broken-and-depressed-soul //Tumblr

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Mexican culture is toxic asf

#mexican culture #toxic #chihuahua #Mexico

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Y si quieres pero la depresión y ansiedad no te deja?

#notas en espa?ol #depression #anxiety #mentally unhealthy

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“Because I don’t want to" should be a good enough reason.

For example👇

I don’t want to go to Mexico. I wish I could walk and be independent so I could stay and not have to worry about keeping my mom from visiting her mom in Mexico.

#traveling #Mexico #disabled babe #helpless

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When someone clearly doesn’t understand how bad they hurt you

#frustation #ugh horrible #heavy #heartbroken

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Do you think my heart cares how long ago you hurt it?

#heartbroken

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Being hurt by someone you thought greatly of (twice), forces you to change towards them.

#spilled heart #fuck #ugh i hate this #heartbroken

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Justice for Vanessa Guillén

#justice for vanessa guillen #say her name #shutdown forthood base #tiktok users #blm #military #vanessa guillen

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To the person who killed themselves, after authorities found Vanessa’s remains, I hope all torments of hell are ripping you apart for the rest of eternity.

As for Vanessa, babygirl I hope you enjoying heaven. You deserve no suffering.

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expectations hurt

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Say you went to the doctor and you were diagnosed with a muscle condition that gets worse over time. You are going to have it for the rest of your life. You are also told that you will require a walking device or wheelchair in a matter of 5 to 7 years after your diagnosis. Then you were told there is no cure or set treatment, just the ability to manage the symptoms that may come along with it. You were also told that the only thing that can help slow progression is physical activity. The repetitive phrase between you and your main neurologist is, “if you don’t use it you lose it.” Meaning, if you don’t use a certain muscle for a while, your body will most likely forget how to use it in a matter of months or any long period of time without any practice. Same for walking and most other major movements.

What would be your reaction? How would you cope? Would you stay positive? Would you feel envious, seeing people enjoy what you can’t? Would you want to go out? Would you be anxiety and depression free? What could other people do to help you emotionally? (Btw I have already been told "I would of killed myself so)

#friedreichs ataxia #curefa #chronicdisease #muscle condition #chronic illness

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I’m too complicated for people emotionally plus I’m disabled

#singles #lgbtq #lesbians #disabled babe