If you feel like you are short-circuiting as we approach the one year mark, know that this is allowed, not weakness in any way. You were not built to sustain all of this and though you can and will, part of that will be experiencing waves of deep sadness, anger, and hopelessness.
There is an end in sight, almost.
Keep doing the things that keep you sane. Keep taking care of your people. Let yourself feel grief, there is a lot to grieve. If you are used to being a cheerleader but can’t bring the energy, it’s okay to just be here.