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A very accurate statement.

Severus sank a little lower into the lower still armchair.  His shoulders felt curved and his chest felt slightly tight, and he wanted to look up but his eyes felt weary and unfocused.  He felt strangely still, almost as if whatever energy normally infused his muscles with movement was draining away, or had drained away.  It was not cold in the room, but he felt cold, emanating from within, and causing the occasional tremble to shiver his skin against his robes.

“Severus…”

He did not even glance toward the voice; could not, even.  “This is stupid.”  His words were unrefined, chosen poorly, childish even, and yet, maybe childish was the most effective term.  He wanted to be childish, childlike, because the alternative, that he had to take control and command here, was too much to contemplate now.

“It is not, and you know that.”

His hair was irritating him, but he chose to do nothing about it as it brushed against eyelashes with every slow blink.  He thought it was strange how he could feel the corners of his mouth, downturned.  He was never one for smiling, always hidden behind a mask, and yet here, tonight, the…grey…was tangible.  “Prove it,” he spat, the most amount of life and spark he felt he could demonstrate.  The last amount.

“How?  This is all in your control, Severus.  You have to find the way through, and you will.  I know you will.  I believe in you.”

“Really?  You abandoned me.”  Petulance, perhaps.  

“I did not.”  The voice replied, even and sharp in equal measure; offended, obviously, yet protective, still, worn with affection and determination.

“Prove it.”  He demanded again, and the hesitant pause that followed told him all he needed, before he heard the damning response of, “I can’t.  You are not alone, Severus.”

“Reassure me and comfort me like you used to.”  He turned his head to face the portrait.  “Oh, wait.  You can’t.”

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Well, well, well.

If it isn’t….you.

I have been expecting you.

In exactly 35 minutes, it is the time of NaNoWriMo and Minervember.

Or as I like to call it…..

Until tomorrow………..

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Trying out some new brushes. :P

Severus cosplaying as Jack Skellington.

Happy Halloween.

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Snapetober - Day 31 - Why Didn’t You Tell Me?

Thank you to @snapetober for such a wonderful challenge, and thank you to all my readers for enduring my long gaps, and commenting on my work, or sharing my work, or liking my work.  You have made October 2020 such a wonderful, wonderful month, and I am very much looking forward to NaNoWriMo and Minervember in November!

A very, very special shout out to: @alwyssnpe, @mizzadamz, @bialol2, @koymitter,  @slytherinmagic38 and @hayalee8 for being so supportive throughout - and anyone else I have missed because tired forgetful brain. 

And of course to @snapeaddict, @ching18697 and @mmad-lover for being my greatest sources of inspiration!  

Why Didn’t You Tell Me?

And here they stood now, the moment after the end of all things.  They stood together, looking upon rather than looking in, looking over rathe than looking at.  They stood, side by side, man and man, mentor and student, father and son, and above all things, friend and friend.

“There you are.”  The older spoke softly, gently.  “What took you so long?”  The slightest twist of amusement, delivered with a small smile.

“It was never going to be as quick and as painless as yours.”  The response is equally wry.

“Ah yes, but then mine was for a different reason, my dear boy.”  Concern now, as they turn to face each other.  “Was it painful?”

“For a short time.  But it was worth it.”

“Was it?”

“Yes.”  Such determination.  “He won.”

“We won.”  The wisdom of age corrected.  “He could not have done this without you.”

“And I could not have, without you.”

“I think you might have figured it out.”

“I doubt that, Headmaster. You were always the one I turned to when I needed direction.”

“As you were for me, Severus. Always.”

They smile, because, there is no reason not to smile, now.  Everything they wanted to come pass, is coming to pass, before their eyes.

Except there is one last thing, that requires a decision, but it is a while before they speak again.

“Now a decision must be made.”

“Quite true.”

“This could be the parting of the ways.”

“Also quite true.”

“Our ways.”

“There is no further mission for us.  No further quest.”

“Except…”

“Except?”

“It does not have to be.”

“Why would … oh.  I…I see.”

A very long pause, even longer than any before, ever.

And then.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

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Trying out some new brushes. :P

Severus cosplaying as Jack Skellington.

Happy Halloween.

#halloween #jack skellington #pumpkin #happy halloween #pumpkincrafts #disney #nightmare before christmas #severus art #severus #severus snape

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For @ching18697 - from one of your prompts, and because you are wonderful.

Wind buffeted and hammered them as they made their way along the treacherous coastal path toward their destination.  Even their palpable levels of magic could not protect them from the potential drop over the cliffs.  Driving rain pooled in creases in their robes, only to slosh and splash most unceremoniously to the sodden ground where their boots left barely distinguishable marks in the smooth mud.  Finally, a wand was drawn, and enough light appeared to illuminate both their faces, and very little else.

Glances, around.

“I do not think we were followed.”

“They would have to be extremely determined, my boy.”

“Indeed.”

The weather should have made them hasty.  The situation should have made them hasty.  The threat should have made them hasty.  And yet, it did not.  They stood, both on the verge of speaking, both on the verge of sealing secrets to potential eternity.  

“You have to go, Severus.”

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مقرف و أحب ذلك

27.10.2020 , ko-fi

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Snapetober Day 25: Headache
(It’s probably Potter’s fault)

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A punishment indeed...

Snapetober 2020 - Punishment

“You wished to see me, my Lord?”  He was aware that he sounded tired, and in fairness, he was.  Tiredness was constant, as he lived two different roles, or perhaps not two different roles now in the public eye.  Arguably, last year had been harder when he had been the noble Order of the Phoenix spy and the treacherous Death Eater spy -

Then of course, he had murdered Albus Dumbledore, and there was no hope for him being regarded as a member of the Order now.  He was just the Death Eater, and he could pretend quite easily that this was all he was, and yet he was even more tired.  He did not remember the last time sleep had not evaded him, and he did not remember the last time his mind had been even vaguely kind to him, reminding him critically of every failure he had made, every mistake he had caused, every sin he had committed, not least that one, that night, on that tower, that crime.  The greatest crime a man could commit, and although yes it was in aid of the greater good, and the greater cause, not even the portrait on the wall of his office could remind him of that, in truth, enough times for him to believe it.  He kept his eyes lowered, focusing on the floor just before the Dark Lord’s chair, counting his heartbeats to keep his emotions most precisely covered and veiled.

“I did, Severus.  Approach.”

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I miss doing it so much... My hands shaked from the excitement and fear... Or maybe I was hungry. I can't tell.

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“I did not mean potentially die together, Severus.”

Love this.

Snapetober - Collapsed

“……Headmaster…..”

“Yes, my boy.”

“Did you hear the ominous cracking sound too?”

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Oooh...Grindelwald...interesting...More! I want to read more!!

Look what you made me do...

“There you are - “  Words to announce presence before the chair was pulled out beside him, and the ever charismatic figure of Albus Dumbledore sat beside him.  “Thought it was my trait to be studying in the library.”

“It is not reserved for Ravenclaws only.”  Severus glanced at his friend, “Are you working on the essay for Hiddlemarsh?”

“Finished it, of course.”  There was such smugness that had defined their five years of companionship, “I am sure it will be perfection, as always.  Some of us are just naturally gifted in Transfiguration.”  An arm wrapped around Severus’ thin shoulders, “However.  Potions, on the other hand…”

“No, I always help - just learn to have more precision - “

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For @professorss19

“You did great, my boy... You did great”

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My friend just sent me a gif of her using a hand puppet waving and said nothing. lol

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How exciting~

The Author: [glaring into the middle distance]

Albus: Severus, what is wrong with SS19?

Severus: Probably best not to ask, Headmaster. I am keeping a low profile.

Albus: ....Why....?

Severus: Well, because she has six Snapetober prompts to write today, and she has *that* expression.

Albus: .... Fancy a day at the beach, my boy?

Severus: It’s October....?

Albus: [meaningful look]

Severus: Definitely.

[at the beach]

Albus: You know she didn’t sleep for about two hours last night as she was creating some time travel story, because, magic, where you and I went to Hogwarts together.

Severus: How utterly terrifying.

Albus: And we went from friends to enemies to friends to....

Severus: STOP! The angsty Snapetober plots are just fine, thank you!

[long pause]

Severus: She wouldn’t have the courage to post it anyway.

Albus: ...........

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thank you...

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