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hi world

#literally have not posted in a year are all of u dead #pls love me #missing my lovely followers and anime men lately... big sigh!

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Ok. I need more dominant Shinya NOW

#poking my nose out my cave to reblog this < #look at my man #isn't he just so dreamy

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missing kae’s active era :(( hope you’re doing well!

quit lying 2 me right neow

#this years goal is to post literally anything #signor vespa… build us one of THESE!

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aki hayakawa • chainsaw man

#he's such a stinker i just want to beat him with a stick #heart eye emoji fire emoji

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i love diet coke

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“please don’t leave me” - n. kento

warnings: husband!nanami. hurt/comfort(ish???)

you don’t know when the shouting started. you were supposed to have a discussion, a talk, nothing more. and yet here you stood, hours after the sun has set, facing your husband.

in hindsight, maybe you shouldn’t have brought it up today. after all, you had seen the tired look on nanami’s face. you had noticed his already loosened tie hanging from his neck and you had heard his slurred steps and deep sigh when he entered the home.

and yet you decided to speak up. you just couldn’t bear it anymore, you felt alone, left out, abandoned.

you felt everything that he promised you you wouldn’t feel anymore.

your relationship has been rocky for the past weeks. late nights that separated the two of you, nothing more then meaningless small talk during those rare times that you did see each other during the day, kisses and pecks that seemed to feel more like chores than displays of the affection and love that you felt for each other.

it wasn’t supposed to be this way.

you promised each other genuine love and care, time and respect.

you loved each other. you promised yourselves to each other. you wanted to spend the rest of your lives together.

and get here you stood now, facing each other with heavy hearts and icy glares. the room was silent, your heart beating so loudly in your chest that you feared nanami could hear it. it was like you could still hear the last words that you had thrown at him, just like his yelled words were still dancing in your ear.

the silence was so loud, almost deafening you.

until nanami decided to break it.

the blonde man took a deep breath, his fingers pinching the bridge of his nose. “i cant do this now,” he said, you didn’t know if it was more to himself than to you.

with wide eyes you watched as he turned around, grabbing his coat that he had lazily thrown on the couch.

“where are you going?” you asked as nanami turned around, putting on the clothing item as he took his first steps.

“out,” nanami curtly replied, throwing a short glance at you before turning around again. “i need some air”

“don’t—“

“please don’t leave,” you interrupted, staring at your husband with wide eyes; afraid, terrified of the situation that was currently unfolding in front of you. “don’t— don’t leave me”

he couldn’t leave you, he couldn’t just walk out, he wouldn’t, would he?

“what?” nana it turned around, his hand falling off the doorknob in shock.

leave you?

“please,” you begged again, tears slowly filling your eyes and blurring your vision. sinking your teeth into your bottom lip you clenched your hands on your sides. you went too far, didn’t you? you should’ve waited, you should’ve sucked it up, you should’ve done it any other day. “i don’t want to lose you”

nanami on the other hand was confused, looking at your shaking form in shock as he took careful steps towards you. he was uncomfortable, he hated yelling at you. he didn’t want to, he didn’t mean to raise his voice. the blonde simply wanted to get out, distance himself from that fight with you and talk it over with you in the morning. he hated the thought of being angry at each other and not being able to have a calm conversation. and yet here you were now, exhausted after yelling at each other for god knows how long, and his partner in front of him, shaking, crying. “what are you—“

“i love you, please,” you continued, sinking your gaze to the floor. he promised to stay, he couldn’t just leave you behind.

“baby—“

you don’t know if he said anything else, your ears feeling like they had been stuffed with cotton. you would be damned if you just let him leave, damned if the last thing he heard from you were words that you angrily shouted at him.

“i’m sorry” it wasn’t until you felt nanami’s hands grabbing yours, thumbs rubbing over your skin that you allowed yourself to lift your head, directly looking into his eyes. “i didn’t mean to shout at you, i just got so frustrated, i’m sorry,” you whispered. “please, don’t leave me. i can’t lose you.”

soon after you couldn’t suppress the sobs stuck in your throat, allowing them to break free. nanami immediately pulled you into his embrace, carefully pressing you closer to him and letting you cry into him.

“i’m sorry too” your husband only spoke after your sobs had long died down, however he didn’t let go of you, his arms still snug around you. “i shouldn’t have said those things. i don’t know what came over me”

you enjoyed being embraced by him after so long, soaking up his warmth. being in his arms felt so familiar, so warm, so safe. you had almost forgot what it felt like. “i don’t want to leave you, i would never. i love you”

he loved you.

“we’ll be okay,” he whispered, pressing a kiss to your temple.

a promise.

you were far from okay. far from what the two of you used to be — a couple that had once been so full of love and utter devotion, a love that everyone could see and feel when the two of you were together. it was in those small kisses that you exchanged when you thought that nobody was looking, in the fleeting, yet comforting touches whenever you would pass each other, in the tender way you spoke to each other and chose your words with such care and it was in the way your eyes would light up whenever you’d see each other.

a fairytale kind of love.

and you weren’t there right now and the both of you knew that.

yet these few words were what you needed to hear from your husband to feel reassured. he loved you no less than he did before, no matter what — even if it was tough between the both of you.

you’ll be okay.

“let’s go to bed,” nanami suggested, keeping you tight against his chest. you kept silent, your eyes closed as you did nothing more but enjoy your husband’s embrace. “we can talk about this tomorrow, okay?”

“yeah”

“i love you,” the blonde whispered after pressing a kiss to your forehead.

you leaned your forehead against his, a small smile in your teary cheeks. “i love you too”

reblogs are appreciated

#crying in the mf club #he is just so heart eye cat emoji #so beautifully written

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#HAHA #denial is a river in Egypt y'all

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Do You have any song recs?

summer’s over interlude

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WHAT YOU DONT REMEMBER ME WTF IM FUCKIJG SAD NIW

ofc I remember you silly rat baby

#do you remember me is the real question here 🤨

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WHEN ARE REQ’S GOING TO BE OPEN AGAIN I LOVE UR WRITING I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PLEASE PLEASE AHHHHHHHH 🥺🥺🥺

never

#jk maybe soon i am so ghost on this acct #i also hate meeting expectations like ew lower ur standards

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if u want to support my new acct: @qksxzo i will be posting more on there and will probably eventually move there.

this acct will still remain active for reblogs and mutual interactions.

#the end of an era aw #jk it’s not the end #seeing how my page is laid out rn legitimately mind fucks me #so we are starting new #ciao bithes

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oh my fuck are yoy alive kae? ves again.. if uou remember ☹️

1: unfortunately yes. 2: what is ves

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It's Trans Day of Visibility 🥳 Being seen is a wonderful thing in lots of ways, and it's good to celebrate that!

But it's not always safe to put yourself out there, and sometimes you'd just rather keep your head down. So, for anyone who needs to hear this:

You don't owe it to anyone to be out about your transness

"Out" is not a binary - you can be be out in some circumstances and closeted in others and that's OK

However "out" you are, you're still trans

However "out" you are, you're no less a member of our community

You don't need a better reason to wait than, "I don't want to come out yet"

I love you

#happy happy tdov #i luv u all #important

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— HQ BOYS + SUBTLE AFFECTION

feat. iwaizumi hajime, kuroo tetsurō, bokuto kōtarō, miya atsumu, miya osamu, sakusa kiyoomi, matsukawa issei, sawamura daichi

note. hi <3 idk how i feel abt these but here they are <33 love u all <33

IWAIZUMI loves you through touches that can almost feel forbidden. in the dim lights of a bar, mattsun’s voice floating through the air and makki’s laughter quick to follow it, iwaizumi’s hands trace up your spine. his thumbs dip beneath the hem of your shirt, just to feel a bit of your skin. no one else could see it, no one else would dare look close enough, but he’s letting his fingers slide over your skin like you’re made of silken waters and his hands are only meant to know the tide. it’s secret, only for you, and only from him.

KUROO loves you through the bow of your head, the gentle, silent knowledge that when he places a hand on your cheek in just the right way, he’s going to kiss the crown of your head. big hands on sweet, warm cheeks, the chill of the outdoors leaking from his flesh into yours. it’s the way you both just know, the way your eyes flutter shut and the way he smiles into your hair. it’s the routine, and the sweet wisdom that comes with it.

BOKUTO loves you through the hum of old songs. your first date, your first kiss, that one night where you both dissolved into laughter before you could even try to slow dance in the kitchen. he has every song committed to memory, letting the notes slip out in mindless harmony with whatever you’re both doing. and slowly, the humming may turn to a muttering of the lyrics, but it’s quiet in a way that bokuto isn’t, shy in a way you wouldn’t expect from him.

ATSUMU loves you through bitten-back smiles and the sound of half-snorted laughter. it’s the way he holds back the prick of his lips when you flick his forehead and tell him please, babe, just think for once. it’s in the way he pulls you back into him when you roll your eyes at his antics, the bite of his cheek to hide the smile that pokes into it. it’s lilted affection, laughter and teasing and feigned offense at rolled eyes—all in the name of kissing you for just a moment longer.

OSAMU loves you through the warmth of a stove. he knows what you like without even asking. so it’s the spiced sauté of vegetables, the kind you love and spread warmth through your torso on especially cold nights—the kind of spices that creep from your tongue and into your nose, just the right amount of heat, all because he knows it’s you. and when you hum, the melt of flavor on your tongue, he smiles, a teasing good to know you like it following the prick of his lips.

SAKUSA loves you through whispers. he’ll dip his head to your ear as he passes, a quiet stretch of adoration slipping over his tongue and working past your ears. at whatever formal function may beckon you, he’ll meet you with a duck of his head, bending down until you hear the way a soft chuckle rumbles through his chest and rings in the air—the mention of your name and suggestion of let’s get out of here falling past his lips.

MATSUKAWA loves you through how he listens. it’s the tilt of his head, his tongue poking out to pull his lip between his teeth, the narrowing of his eyes until you lean forward, swatting his chest with the back of your hand. it’s then that he laughs, the crinkle in the corners of his eyes following the curve of his lips, and he leans forward, elbows resting on his knees, fingers laced together, and listens. and god, he swears he could do just that for hours.

DAICHI loves you through the tuck of your hair behind your ear. he’s delicate with it, a soft twirl of the strands between his fingers, and then he’s brushing it out your face—knuckles gliding across the apples of your cheeks, the vibrato of hushed whispers or ardor starting in his chest and fanning across your lips.

#yes bitch

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oh my god??????

me to @chqrryvelvet

#the way u log into my acct and don't even do my comms #die #I LOVE YOU LIZBOTW #kisses and kisses

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happy birthday i’m your biggest fan please notice me also i love you my baby baby baby

thank u corny

#I adore you I guess #spell icup #muah I love lizzy

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