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So much of my anxiety is just my energetic makeup and that existing in a human body.

I’m at the brink of decomposing all the time. Deconstructing, dissolving..

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I think much of being psychic is being able to hold multiple realities

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drug addiction is a deal with the devil

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Everything is always disintegrating around me. Half of my anxiety comes from the constant disappearance of the source of my decisions and behaviour. My mind is constantly in a philosophical space because I'm constantly trying to decipher, how do I know what I know? How do I know that this was the right choice for me? On what basis did I make this decision? Where was I/How did I feel when I made this decision? But I can't remember. I can hardly ever remember because that version of me has dissolved. I can barely perceive her.

It's so hard to orient yourself as a 12th house stellium. It's like my center of gravity is constantly changing. I don't have a rigid sense of self and understanding of the world. I don't have attachments - density and calcifications in my aura that ground me in a specific path or set of choices. It's hard to feel secure in your decisions when you based them off of nothing. When you're pulling from Nothing. Around what do I orient myself? God? Divinity? Nothing? Okay yeah, that's great and that makes sense. That feels right. But then where do I find that source in the known world? How do I see where I'm coming from when what I'm coming from, is nothing?

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as a 12th houser I'm so familiar with the feeling of feeling crazy. I always feel crazy. Anytime I'm in contact with or experiencing other people, I feel crazy. No one is ever seeing things from my point of view. Ever. Not even my boyfriend, not even my family who I live with. Not even the people closest to me.

I've had to make peace with the feeling of feeling crazy because it's all I know. And time has shown me that just because I feel crazy, doesn't mean that I'm not completely accurate. The rewards I've gotten from sticking to my authentic self and moving according to my Truth-aligned values have shown me that. Just because I may look and feel crazy, doesn't mean I don't know exactly what I'm doing.

People can pontificate false truths about me all they want.

In my world, I'm perfectly sane.

#12th house stellium #12th house sun #12th house moon #12th house mercury #12th house saturn #12th house pluto #psychic

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When you don't accept death is when you actually die. When you do accept death, you hold space for life to live on. Crazy

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#pluto #pluto aspects #venus-pluto #sun-pluto

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Having 10H and 12H placements is having pressure from both sides of life - pressure from the ego and pressure from the spirit. It's exhausting. I really really wish I didn't have 10H placements. I wish I didn't care how "well" I'm doing in life; how "successful" I am. I wish I could be satisfied achieving nothing with my life. Cause it sure would make my 12H experience easier if I could just comfortably be nobody. But no, I want to be a nobody and a somebody. Or be somebody by being nobody. Idk. It's just hard. Having both of the pressures at the same time is intense

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Hi followers 🖤

Do any of you do something for work that genuinely fulfills you? If so, what do you do?

I’m currently grappling with the anxiety of trying to find a paid job in the “real” world as the psychic that I am.

I’m interested to hear from you guys.

Why is fitting in to mainstream structures so hard! I’m just a girl trying to live an authentic life and make money to support my agency.

Why does that have to feel like I’m asking for the world? 😔

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hello, as a pisces 12H stellium, how do i tune into my psychic gifts?

Hi,

Meditation meditation meditation. That is the first step. A lot of psychic work happens in meditation because it's the closest you can get to being pure energy, to being pure ether.

I would say, set the intention to develop your psychic gifts. Be sure that it's something you really want. Let it be a pure and genuine intention. Then get disciplined about meditating everyday. I don't know if that's already part of your practice but if it's not, start with committing to meditating for 5 minutes, 5 days straight. If that's too much, try 3 days. Then as you get more consistent, increase the amount of time and keep doing it everyday. Personally, I meditate twice a day every day, morning and night for anywhere between 15 minutes to 1hr 30, and that has helped phenomenally in my psychic development.

Regular, daily, meditation is essential for feeling confident in your psychic abilities. Meditation and psychic vision/psychic sensing go hand in hand. That's how you tap into and experience your 6th sense.

The cultivation of silence is also essential. A genuine psychic knows there are entire worlds in silence. Meditation also helps with this greatly. Because what meditation is, is the cultivation of internal silence.

Hope this helps 🖤

#psychic development #psychiclessons

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it's a no from me

Lesson #3 of psychicness: Watch who you let get close to you

Watch who you let enter your field. Your energetic field. Everyone has one. As psychics, we're just way more tuned into ours and everyone's else's. watch who you let get in. because it will affect you, deeply. I used to do this a lot with astrology. I would wanna look up everyone's charts and know everyone's signs. and it wasn't good for me. it wasn't good for me. I was way too close to people. knew too much about people. and more importantly, I was close to the wrong people. people who weren't good for my psyche. who didn't work with my system. I got into a situationship with a guy that only ended once I started puking every time I saw him. yeah. my body would physically reject him every time I tried to get close to him. the NO was enormous.

You are not for everyone. and everyone is not for you. don't feel bad about distancing yourself from people and not letting certain people be close to you. about not letting them access your energy. there are certain people that will do horrors to you in your field. and in your field doesn't just mean that they're with you physically. it also includes phone calls/texts/having to hear about them from other people/following them on socials. they're in your field. and your field spreads far and wide. that's what it means to be a psychic, I think. remember that psychic energy is not bound by space and time. like you can be anywhere really.

So yeah. this is a lesson I've had to learn. Don't just let anyone in your field. Even if on the surface they seem harmless. Pay attention to energy. how do they make you feel?

#psychiclessons #psychic #12th house stellium #12th house moon #12h moon

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pluto talking

I feel like, as a 12th house person, I don't get to sit comfortably in the illusions of life. I don't get to create a narrative for myself that allows me to live comfortably and avoid everything even remotely difficult. I don't get to just live like that. I don't get to live a lie.

And that's not to say that I haven't. I have definitely fallen victim to my own illusions. I have definitely had to fall from "grace" - from the (false) glory of my delusions. But that's just it - I have had to. I have had to come face to face with Truth. I have had to learn to own the uncomfortable and the difficult and the ugly when it is the Truth.

This is why I'm completely intolerant of people who comfortably sit in delusions at my expense. I won't channel my life force in the support of a delusion. I won't hold up your delusion, keep it sturdy and strong, so that you can feel comfortable. People can have their delusions, but they better have them FAR away from me.

You will not hide from Truth in my presence.

#12th house #12th house stellium #12th house sun #12th house moon #12th house mercury #12th house person #12th house saturn #12th house pluto

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the most powerful work is inner work. & with saturn in the 12th YOU WILL DO IT

Saturn has its joy in the 12th house because the energy of Saturn in the 12th is everything that both Saturn and the 12th house want from us.

Saturn wants you to work hard. And where do you have to work harder than in the 12th house? What harder work is there than inner work? Than meeting yourself honestly even when it feels awful? Saturn wants you to get honest and real. She wants you to get in touch with reality. And where is, without a doubt, the most beneficial place to do that? Well, in the 12th house of course.

Getting real with yourself is the most powerful thing you will ever do. The ability to see yourself clearly? To not bullshit yourself? And to commit to the real work that it takes to achieve your desires? To commit to letting go, to holding yourself accountable? To being uncomfortable? That is what makes someone powerful. That is what makes someone meet their highest potential. That is what makes a life that, on your deathbed, you can be proud of.

And funny...don't Saturn and the 12th house both share themes of death, time being up, endings, limitations and letting go...?

#saturn #12th house #saturn in 12th house #12h saturn

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Hi. How are you?

I went through your rant posts and omg, I love the way you express your feelings and put them into words. I hope things get easier and better for you. 12th house stellium low key sucks. Take care.

Sincerely,

A gemini mercury :)

I'm so sorry for responding to this so late!

Thank you so much for this message. I'm glad you got something out of me crying into the void.

I guess things have gotten a little easier since you sent me this. I'm in a healthy, loving and present relationship that has really helped me ground my truth into this world. Now that I've figured out who I am (hint: nothing), I'm working on grounding that into this 3D collective reality we're all living in. I'm no longer ascending into the Divine. I know God intimately. Now I'm trying to be the expression of God that I Am in the "real" world.

I hope you'll stick around for this part of the journey too 🖤.

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are you a 12th house sun? and if so what sign? i have aries 12 house sun. i’ve been reading a lot of 12 house stuff lately and your blog is what i’ve been looking for in terms of writing/journaling the meaning and experiences of 12 house placements. i don’t have a stellium though

Hi, yes I am a 12th house virgo sun, moon & mercury.

I’m so glad you’ve found what you’ve been looking for in my blog. I needed this space too, which is why I created it.

All the best with your 12H journey. Feel free to ask any other questions you may have (that goes for anyone else reading this too). 🖤

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I feel like, as a 12th house person, you really have to turn down the volume on everyone else most of the time. Turn down the volume of their opinions, their thoughts, their beliefs.

Living for myself was the best thing I could ever have done for myself. Choosing and committing to my own world, to my own dreams, to my own visions. Yes it's lonely, and yes it feels isolating. But it's worth being able to live for myself, and I'm saying this as someone who never did. I grew up always living for other people to the point where my life didn't feel like my own (another very 12th house trait).

We're meant to be solitary. We're meant to be isolated. We're meant to be distanced from people. Because the truth is people are not well. They are not sane. And they are not powerful. And we are meant to be powerful. We are powerful, always have been. We just forgot, spending all our time living for everyone else. For everyone else's idea of what Life is. Of what Purpose is.

Don't forget. Be yourself and remember. Even if that isolates you to the end of the world and beyond. Because actually, you're never really alone *whispers* but that's a post for another day

#12th house #12th house sun #12th house moon #12th house mercury #12th house venus #12th house mars #12th house stellium #12th house person #12th house saturn #12th house jupiter #12th house pluto

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There is a never ending boredom that I can't shake.

I hate how easily bored I am. I hate it. I want to be happy here. I want to feel comfortable here, to feel at home here. On Earth I mean. In this world, I mean. In my life, I mean. It unnerves me how frequently bored I feel. Especially because I've put in a lot of inner and outer work to materialize my heart in my life. To "see myself" before me. Or so I thought.

I hate how as a 12th house stellium my home and my comfort is somewhere else. It's not something I can ever fully touch or feel or access. I feel most at home in meditation. Headphones on, lying down, eyes shut. When all I see is black. Like I'm trying, Gods! I'm trying. I'm trying to show up for myself and choose myself and choose my heart. I'm trying to do what you're supposed to be doing on this Earth. I'm trying. But it seems like I just can't achieve it. I just can't feel right. Feel good. Feel like this is my place and this is for me. Feel at home.

I'm sorry for the sadpost but I'm in that space right now. Why is it so hard to feel good as a 12th houser?

#12th house #12th house stellium #12th house moon #12th house sun #12th house mercury #12th house person

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I had my first conversation ever with a fellow mystic and wise woman. Check it out!

I'm proud of myself for leaving my 12th house comfort zone and expanding into more. I know you can too <3

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