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Re:  It was always gonna end like this for me | Dean Winchester [&15x20]

alveolar-trill said:

oh wow, this made me cry. He deserved so much better <3 Thank you for making this, it's beautiful

You are very welcome and thank you for watching. I literally cried the entire time I was making this. I thought I’d never finish it, it was really painful to put it together </3 :’(

#alveolar-trill #elena answers #dean winchester #supernatural #15x20 #carry on

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It’s been a while since I posted anything... I’ve obviously watched the Supernatural finale and I ain’t doing so hot rn. My heart is utterly broken. This video I made pretty much sums up how I feel about Dean’s ending... And why I feel he deserved to find happiness in life and not in death. If you are out there and you’re struggling, please remember that you CAN find happiness, you CAN find peace in this life and you shouldn’t need to wait for it all to end. You are a survivor and you can keep going no matter what life pits you against. Dean deserved so much better. I am grateful to have followed the journey of such a beautiful character and I wish he’d escaped this fate.

Goodbye, Dean. I will love and remember you forever.

#spnedit #deanedit #dean winchester #supernatural #jensen ackles #15x20 #carry on #spn #spnedits #mystuff

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13 Reasons Why Season 4 (final season)  

 ﹄Justin Foley

“It feels like no one believes in me, like no one trusts me. I’m trying ... I don’t  really feel like I can ... I’ve got all this on me and I don’t ever know how to get out from under.”

#13rwedit #13reasonswhyedit #13 reasons why #justin foley #brandon flynn #13 reasons why spoilers #I cried the entire time I was making this #;_; #mystuff

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13 Reasons Why Season 4 (Final Season)

﹄Justin with Jess & Clay in the finale/ Brandon with Dylan & Alisha in the last table read

#13rwedit #13reasonswhyedit #13 reasons why #justin foley #clay jensen #jessica davis #dylan minnette #brandon flynn #alisha boe #mystuff #13 reasons why spoilers

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cupiditiee said:

fully agree. just feel like they fucked up all the characters dramatically this season which reflected when they decided to leave justin as he was. i hate losing

I feel like the only characters that didn’t change and remained true to who they were are Justin, Toni and Tyler. The rest disappointed me so much with their behavor towards Justin. It’s like, he suddenly stopped existing for them and I would have understood that for a couple of characters but NOT Clay, Jess & Zack. They all started caring when it was already too damn late. Justin could have been saved if they all cared when it mattered. Instead, he saw nobody trusted him or listened to him and he internalized everything and kept his illness a secret. He was slowly dying and didn’t say a word so that he wouldn’t be a burden. He basically shared Hannah’s fate. Remember what she said before she killed herself? 

“Some of you cared, none of you cared enough. I didn’t either and I’m sorry.” 

If you apply these words to Justin, they are completely true for him as well. I still can’t believe this happened. It’s so fucking unfair. I’m so SO sad. 

#elena answers #cupiditiee #Justin Foley #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #why is it always my favorite characters who suffer and meet a horrible end

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smokesforharris said:

I was so happy because I had been shipping Alex and Charlie since the camping trip

These 2 are the couple I never knew I wanted! I never even considered this a possibility before S4, it caught me totally by surprise.

#elena answers #smokesforharris #13 Reasons Why Spoilers

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I didn't really grow up with much positivity in my life. And if I had influences around me, they were definitely bad. My mother was a drug addict. Her revolving door of boyfriends, mostly drug addicts too. I had a best friend I used to look up to, but then he hurt people close to me, and now he's dead. There was a time in my life I truly had nothing but the clothes on my back and the regret for the people I'd hurt.

#................ #will I ever stop crying #probably not #Clay Jensen #Justin Foley #ghost!Justin #13 Reasons Why #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #brotp: I'd do anything for you ANYTHING

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Are you afraid? Yeah. I am.

#I'm fucking destroyed #I can't deal with this :'(((((( #MY BABY DESERVED THE WORLD NOT THIS SHIT #I TRUST FANFIC WRITERS TO FIX THE ENDING PLEASE #Justin Foley #Clay Jensen #brotp: I'd do anything for you ANYTHING #13 Reasons Why #13 Reasons Why Spoilers

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#JUSTINDESERVEDBETTER talk & 13 Reasons Why S4E10 thoughts

So ... I’ve already watched the series finale, did it right after episode 9 but it was hard for me to watch and write my thoughts simultaneously because I was ugly crying the whole freakin time. Thus, I’m posting this now. Haven’t cried this much in a LONG while. My heart is fucking broken. I’m gonna start by talking about my favorite character whom the show did SO. FUCKING. DIRTY. JUSTIN FOLEY DESERVED BETTER. (obviously, OBVIOUSLY, it was gonna be MY favorite character who gets screwed over and dies a horrible death, just my luck, why did I expect a happy ending, I don’t even know).

Justin was the most tragic figure of the show. Raised by a junkie mother who never gave a damn about him, sexually molested as a little kid by one of her many drug addict & violent boyfriends, he often went to school dirty and hungry because of the neglect. He never had a positive influence in his life. He only managed to do better with Bryce’s help (Bryce was a bastard but he did care about Justin in his own way, that’s for sure). 

After the events of S1 with Hannah’s suicide and the tapes and everything that happened with Jessica and Bryce, he left his abusive home and lived in the streets where he barely ever found food and what money he got from charity or the men who paid (and hurt him) to use his body, he gave to drugs. 

In S2, Clay and Toni, found him and saved his life, helped him get back on his feet and he tried his best to set things straight with everyone. He even saved Clay’s life who came so close to killing Bryce and even worse himself. He didn’t hesistate to face the legal consequences if it meant helping the girl he loved. And Clay eventually became his brother as his parents decided to adopt him. 

In S3, he started going to school and doing well, got a job, tried to start his life over, this time in a safe environment with a real family and friends who supported him. He was doing exceptionally well, he looked much happier, he finally felt what it’s like to be loved by a mother and father and a brother and he got some sense of normalcy in his life. He was there for Clay when things got bad, believed in him and he had his back ALWAYS. (still emo about their scenes together where they told each other “I love you” & “I’d do ANYTHING for you”), Plus, he was one of Tyler’s biggest supporters stating Tyler deserved a second chance to be better.

Come S4 ... he’s fresh out of rehab, looking better than ever. His friends welcome him when he gets back but everything is different. EVERYTHING. And everyone has changed. THE ENTIRE SEASON, NOBODY, NOT A SINGLE PERSON gave a fuck about him except for the coach and to a point his adoptive parents. He had done so much progress, he wanted to make his new family proud so bad, he was clean, he was doing great at school, he even got accepted into college!!! And what did he get in return???? NOT ONE OF HIS FRIENDS HUNG OUT WITH HIM ONCE, NOT EVEN ONCE. Every time he tried to approach someone or help THEM deal with their problems, he was turned away and even insulted. They would tell him he shouldn’t be giving advice and that he would never change who he used to be. He confessed to the coach that he felt like nobody believed in him and frankly?? NOBODY SHOWED THEY DID!!!!!!!! Jessica brushed him off all the time because she was MAD he broke up with her so he could FOCUS ON HIS HEALTH!!!!!!!!!! WHAT??????!!!!!!!!! She kept parading everywhere with Diego when she knew this was hurting him deeply. Clay was so fucking MEAN to him and I didn’t understand WHY after their great bonding their previous two seasons. Sure, he had his own problems, but there was NO reason for this, absolutely none. He was jealous of the moments Justin shared with his parents and how he was doing well at school and sports and got accepted in college. He even told in his FACE that Matt and Lainie are his parents ALONE, not Justin’s when he knew Justin’s biggest need was to feel the love and warmth of a family. Justin wanted to go to a free college so that Clay could have the money go to the BEST one and so the Jensens didn’t have to spend any on him. And I’m 100% sure he never told them how sick he was until it was too late because he didn’t want to be a burden so he decided to die quietly and slowly without upsetting them. Clay had the NERVE to pin the positive drug test on Justin when Justin was fucking CLEAN and then went on to smoke POT at that party. It broke my heart in 1000000 pieces when Justin asked him why he hated him so much. Zack wasn’t better either, basically telling Justin that he’d be a junkie his entire life and he could never change. The others mostly didn’t give a flying fuck, focused on nobody else but themselves and stayed far away from him the entire season. His mom died of OD and he didn’t tell anyone but the Jensens and Jess and he had to deal with everything all on his own again. He only had the coach to listen and there was a limit to what help he could give. So, he finally broke. He stopped caring since nobody was giving him a chance, he started using again, he lost his job, he didn’t care about anything. Jess and Clay knew he was using again and did NOTHING to help except tell him “Hey, I thought you quit! I thought you were getting better!”. Wow, BIG HELP, ASSHOLES. They all left him alone on prom night, and Clay SAW how sick he looked but he preferred to go to prom rather than stay with his brother who needed him.

Justin, with what little strength he had left, got dressed and went to the prom towards its end, he looked so beautiful in his suit, like Prince Charming. He lived one last carefree moment with the girl he loved and then he collapsed. And THAT’S when everyone said “OH, NO! Let’s go see our sick friend!”. Well done, now he IS DYING, YOU IGNORANT IDIOTS. Now that he’s at death’s door, you want to be there for him but WHERE WERE YOU WHEN HE WAS SO DESPERATELY TRYING TO LIVE?????????? Yes, it was proven that he had HIV, probably from the time he lived on the streets and without the proper care it went on to become fully AIDS and he had numerous other issues with his health as a result of that and the drugs to the point that he could no longer breathe on his own. BUT. Had he shared his problems and told the Jensens how sick he was feeling for so long, his death could have been prevented. I know someone in real life who got HIV in his 30s and he’s now in his 60s and his life is perfectly fine. He has friends, he has family (didn’t get married), he travels, he does what he wants. Justin could have been saved if someone had NOTICED. Like HANNAH could have been saved if someone, ANYONE was paying attention. Needless to say, I fucking died during his scenes in the hospital, it was so hard to watch him waste away in that hospital bed. When they took the tube out so he could say his goodbyes to Clay, Jess and his adoptive parents ... I LEGIT haven’t cried so hard in SO long ... I still have a headache from all the crying. My poor CHILD, he was scared but he told them all how much he loved them and eventually died in his sleep, holding his brother’s, Clay’s hand. The episode was meaningless after that for me. I only watched to see how everyone’s stories would end, even though I didn’t care and knew that they’d get their happy (mostly) endings. The one character who TRULY deserved the best and happiest ending, got royally fucked and buried six feet under while everyone went about their lives like nothing had happened.

I really don’t have much to comment on the rest of the story. Clay did one final extreme act by walking in the police department, saying he had a gun. Not convinved he didn’t really want to die too after Justin but perhaps his psychologist was right and he was just trying to make people notice he was hurting. I’m happy for Toni for doing what’s best for him and deciding to accept the scholarship and go to college, same goes for Tyler, he deserved to be happy and I’m glad he ended up with Estella. Relieved that Jess and Diego tested negative for HIV but disappointed they were ready to get back together so soon after Justin. Winston decided to not use what he found out about Bryce’s death against Alex and the others and that made me respect him a little bit. (Winston and Ryan btw? hehe, I kinda saw it coming ever since I saw Ryan and Courtney at the graduation-did anyone also notice Bryce and Monty in the crowd too??lol). Liked the graduation and Hannah’s little cameo (although it was archived footage) but it left me with a sour taste because Justin wasn’t there among the rest, only as a ghost in Clay’s mind. Also that Heidi girl talking to Clay, uh, SO cheesy and unnecessary. Clay reading Justin’s college essay with Justin’s ghost in their bedroom and seeing how it was all about him and Justin calling him his brother ... IT DESTROYED ME. UTTERLY AND COMLETELY. WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME. WHY WOULD YOU KILL THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CHARACTER OF THE SHOW. THE MOST COMPLEX AND DAMAGED ONE. WHY COULDN’T HE HAVE A HAPPY ENDING LIKE THE REST OF THEM. IT’S FUCKING UNFAIR.

I’m glad the final scene was just Clay and Toni driving away, always enjoyed their friendship. Having no word exchange between them was pretty powerful because you only needed to read their expessions to feel the emotions.

All in all, a powerful season who dealt with so many important issues, well directed and full of action but disappointing for me where it mattered the most ... Right now, I don’t want to even touch another show for a long time, I need a break to recover from this, it was too much. I wish I didn’t get so attached to certain characters, but I do and it hurts me deeply when shit like that happens to them. Anyway ... Goodbye, show ... it was (mostly) good while this journey lasted ... I sure hope I see all these HUGELY talented actors and actresses in other projects in the future, especially Brandon Flynn (Justin), Dylan Minnette (Clay), Katherine Langford (Hannah) & Justin Prentice (Bryce). I also hope Brandon & Dylan get ALL the awards for their performances in S4. THEY DESERVE EVERYTHING. I’d love to hear other people’s thoughts on all this, it was such an intense experience.

#Justin Foley #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #13RW Spoilers #13 Reasons Why #Clay Jensen #Brandon Flynn #Dylan Minnette

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13 Reasons Why S4E9 Thoughts

Second to last episode ... here we go ...!

1)avksdjfvnsdkjfvnsdjfv Charlie waking up next to Alex and kissing him, I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2)Noooooooo T_T Justin looks sick ... He isn’t doing good ... BBY ;_; The Jensens love him, he should tell them he needs help ....... He doesn’t want them to spend any money on him ;_;

3)If Diego so much as TOUCHES Jess the wrong way, there will be BLOOD

4)Charlie’s suggestion to get everyone’s parents evolved by confiding in them and taking them on their side is pretty damn clever tbh!!

5)I’m so glad Clay and Justin told their parents about the shit they’ve been dealing with ... Clay with his dissociation and the vandalism and Justin with his addiction ... Their folks love them so much, they’re gonna do everything to help both of them. I love how caring the Jensens are towards their adoptive son ;_; Justin needs all the support right now.

6) Awwwwwwwwww <3 Charlie coming out to his dad as bisexual and his dad telling him he loves him and is proud of him. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL MOMENT

7)Alex introducing Charlie to his parents and brother and telling them they are in a relationship and his family welcoming that and being super cool about everything. AMAZING <33333 Warms my heart ^_^

8)LMAOOOOOOOO Charlie putting up banners to ask Alex to the prom and bringing ballons and red roses with him, WHAT A SWEETHEART

9)HANNAH’S PHOTO ;_;

10)Tyler asking Estella to prom awwwww <3 She said yes, so happy for them!!!

11)ROFLMAO Okay, Charlie chill out xD What’s with all those masks xD Alex is gonna say yes, you didn’t need to go that far!!!

12) CHARLIEEEEE WHAT ARE U DOING OMG XD How many parts of the school has he decorated just to invite Alex to prom?!?!! That classroom or whatever that room was, full of lights and candles was pretty romantic tho :P

13)And after all the cute stuff ... Justin T_T It’s killing me seeing him like that. Everyone’s going to prom to have fun and he’ll be in bed, all alone and sick. That’s not right :’((( He needs someone to be there for him .........

14)OMG, they all look freakin gorgeous in their prom outfits!!!!!!!!!!!

15)Zack wtf ......... He brought a hooker to the prom and went straight in the bathroom to do drugs??? DUDE, what are you doing ............

16)Alex, Jess and Zack talking about Bryce ... I’m glad Zack told them that yes Bryce didn’t deserve to die like that but they don’t deserve to die either and they are alive so they have to actually live their lives.

17)Toni kissing Clay’s cheek awww <3 They’re such good friends!!

18)Winston and ghost!Monty’s dance was so good ... Winston should really start living with the living.

19)Justing getting ready to go to the prom?? He doesn’t look fine ... I hope this doesn’t end bad ;_;

20)What the hell is WRONG with you Zack??????Was he really gonna sleep with a barely conscious girl even if she paid him to be his escort and they did drugs together?????? Fuck, that’s sick, dude. You’re better than that.

21)OMFG CHARLIE AND ALEX ARE KING/QUEEN AND KING/QUEEN OF PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRICELESS <333333 Their dance had me in tears, I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHHH

22)JUSTIN SHOWING UP, LOOKING LIKE THE PRINCE CHARMING TO DANCE WITH JESS, I’M SCREAMING <333333333

23)Clay sitting and not dancing with his friends but instead looking at them with an expression of content in his face, seeing how happy they all are at that moment and then asking his mom to dance with him :’)))))))) PRECIOUSSSS

24)NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JUSTIN COLLAPSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD NO, DON’T KILL MY BBY BOY, NOT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF HE DIES, I’M ERASING THIS ENTIRE SEASON FROM MY MEMORY NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, PLEASE HE’S MY FAVORITE CHARACTER

#13 Reasons Why #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #13RW Spoilers #Justin Foley #Clay Jensen #Jessica Davis #Charlie St. George #Alex Standall #Winston Williams #Tyler Down #Toni Padilla #Zack Dempsey

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13 Reasons Why S4E8 Thoughts

1)???????????? Earth 2161???????? Bryce as a robot with a conscience working WITH Clay who leads a group of the resistance???? WHAT SHOW IS THIS?? :P (it looks great tho!!! xD)

2)Wow ... Tyler is a fucking hero for putting his life at risk and becoming an informant for the police on illegal guns trade ... I thought this was the case from the beginning but ofc the characters in the show could never suspect that because of his history. This kid really turned his life around for the better.They kinda owe him an apology now.

3)JUSTIN GOT ACCEPTED INTO COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!! SO PROUD OF MY SON <333333 Clay could have said a congrats or sth ... WTF dude ...

4)WHO THE FUCK sent Winston Bryce’s tape?!?!! Jessica burned the last copy!!! And Winston thinks Justin killed Bryce ... UGH

5)”Do you want revenge for Monty or for yourself?” PREACH, ESTELLA!!! Winston just STOP.

6)DIEGO, YOU SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH ABOUT JUSTIN!!!!!!!!!

7)That Nazi piece of shit who’s fighting against Toni can fucking CHOKE.

8)NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JUSTIN IS USING AGAIN, NOOOOOOO :’( NONE of his friends were there for him NONE. I AM SO DAMN MAD. YOU LEFT HIM ALONE WHEN HE NEEDED YOU THE MOST. FUCK THIS SHIT. IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM, IDK WHAT I’LL DO

9)Shit, fuckfuckfuck Justin got the money for the pizza to go buy drugs???? NOOOOO

10)Holy shit ... Clay+Justin’s folks, and other parents from Liberty are in on a plan to watch and control their children via gps, e-mail & text tracking etc ... THAT’S FUCKED UP!!! I imagine myself in their shoes and it’s a NIGHTMARE.

11)Diego is a freakin asshole but the fact that another fucking cop TARGETTED him because he’s Dominican and not a while American teenager???? FUCK OFF, YOU WHITE SUPREMACIST PIECE OF GARBAGE you THREATENED A TEENAGE KID WITH A GUN INSIDE his SCHOOL??????? WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE IS A HUMAN BEING!!!!!

12)Clay and Jessica standing up to the headmaster about the police bullshit in the school and leading everyone out, ignoring his orders. YEAH, BABY

13)Did they REALLY bring the RIOT police to deal with CHILDREN??????? MOTHERF*********!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE

14) OH MAN!!! I’d love to be there with everyone going up against those bastards!!! They’re all in this together, I’m glad :)

15)Z-Zack ... w-what ... what is going on ... Go with Alex????

16)OH HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELL NO!!!!!!!! ONE OF THOSE COP ASSHOLES PUNCHED JESS IN THE STOMACH, IMMA RIP YOU APART

17)Clay riling up the crowd and going in to the fight FUCK YEAAAAAAH

18)EXCUSE ME??????????????? THEY THREW CLAY TO THE GROUND AND STARTED HITTING HIM AND CHARLIE WENT TO DEFEND HIM AND THEY HIT HIM IN THE HEAD CAUSING HIM TO FALL UNCONSCIOUS. IF HE’S HURT BAD, I’M GONNA BURN EVERYTHING

19)TONI GOING BACK TO HELP TYLER RISKING HIS 3RD STRIKE OMG

20)ALEX RUNNING TO CHARLIE’S SIDE AND THEN THE EXPLOSION, I CAN’T BREATHEEEEEEEE

 21)Shit ... Clay’s the one who set Bolan’s car on fire and he DOESN’T remember doing it even after his doctor showed him the video evidence ... and most importantly AND shockingly ... HE’S the one who did the graffiti AND he terrorized everyone at the camping trip using an actual AXE ...................... He needs fucking help, oh God.

#13 Reasons Why #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #13RW Spoilers #Clay Jensen #Bryce Walker #Justin Foley #Tyler Down #Winston Williams #Toni Padilla #Alex Standall #Charlie St. George #Jessica Davis

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13 Reasons Why S4E7 Thoughts

1)Crap ... Clay ended up in a psychiatric hospital .. It was bound to happen ...

2)I was gonna say poor Clay for the “accident” on the hospital bed but then it was a trick so he could escape the hospital ... WHAT IS THIS KID THINKING.......... 

3)Clay asking Ani when she’s gonna stop running people’s lives....PREACH (altho her rewriting Clay’s essay and sending his application was actually a good thing)

4)Alex, STG, if you HURT Charlie’s feelings, I’ll SLAP YOU YOUR ASS

5)Clay is ... walking and talking like there’s someone there with him ... His mental health is deteriorating fast ...

6)Oh man ... Looks like Tyler is helping the police with catching illegal gun dealers.

7)I just love Clay’s doctor, man ... He knows exactly what to tell him about what he’s going through, he’s even inspring me, no kidding.

8)Jessica referring to Hannah’s suicide and Alex’s attempted suicide in her college interview and saying how these 2 events changed everything ...... ;_;

9)OH NOOOOOOO :’( Justin found out him mom died of OD on the day of his college interview ........ Baby ;_;

10)ALEX STFU!!! Charlie wanted to know how he did in the interview and cheer him up and Alex just insulted him for no good reason. 

11)Justin’s interview, I’m crying on the floor T_T

12)Clay talking about friendship in his interview and how his friends is the most important thing in his life and that he’d do ANYTHING for them. That’s the Clay I love, man.

13)Justin thinking about Clay even when he’s mourning ... Someone hold me ;_; He lashed out on the Jensens who have done nothing wrong but I can’t blame him ... His position is so tough :( He has a family now but the woman who died was still his mother ... When he went to his bedroom and stripped his bed off the sheets and duvet and just cried silently in the dark ... FML.

14)Oh snap ... Alex took a photo of Ani and Mrs. Walker talking ... Misinterpretations are coming ...

15)I HATE DIEGO !!!!!!!!!!!!! How dare you hurt Zack, bitch?????? (btw Zack being left hurt and bloodied on the docks ... Bryce dejavu)

16)SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!!!!!!!!TONI AND CLAY TRIED TO STOP TYLER BUT THINGS AREN’T WHAT THEY THINK!!!!!! WHO GOT SHOT, FUCK!!!!!!!! :O

#13 Reasons Why #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #13RW Spoilers #Clay Jensen #Ani Achola #Justin Foley #Alex Standall #Charlie St. George #Tyler Down #Zack Dempsey #Toni Padilla

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13 Reasons Why S4E6 Thoughts

1)IS ZACK DEAD????? TELL ME IT AIN’T SO!!!!!!!!!!!!! :’OOOO Ok, NVM, HE’S ALIVE thank God, but Clay DITCHED him at the site of the crash????? WHAT?!?! HE COULD HAVE DIED, DUDE!!! Can’t blame Zack for telling Clay to stay away from him, he almost killed him.

2)Clay said he was in an appointment ... with his doctor, I guess, but his mom told the Dean of principle (I think that’s what he was called) that she didn’t know anything about that. What ...?

3) O_O What was that warning?!?! Is there actually a shooter in the school??? They said Code Red means it’s true!!! :O

4)Estella’s call to her mom ... It’s so heartbreaking ... Because shit like that happens in the US so often ... What world do we live in, man ... Going to school to learn stuff, make friends and one day somebody decides to murder innocent children and you find yourself locked in a bathroom, calling your parents to say goodbye just in case you don’t make it out alive ... Hard realism right here.

5)What’s that red stuff Winston wanted to give Zack?!

6)Diego better back off or ELSE. Leave Justin alone, shithead.

7)”Once you’re gone, all that’s left is the things you didn’t do. Or the shit that you did do and did wrong.” That’s deep, dude ...

8)FRICK!!! Tyler’s hiding too (in the girls’ bathroom?) and he’s with Estella ...!

9)Winston and Zack talking about their love for Alex ... Awkward xD

10)GUNSHOTS?????????????

11)CHARLIE YOU BEAUTIFUL ANGEL!!! He pulled Alex out of that full-blown panic attack, I’M EMO!!!

12)JUSTIN NO!!!!!!WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!!!!!!!! DON’T GO OUT THERE!!!!!!!

13)Oh shit ....... Zack is telling Winston that he beat up Bryce .............

14)Justin Prentice & Timothy Granaderos as ”ghosts” of Bryce & Monty are freakin spectacular. So talented.

15)”I can’t save everyone, I never could” Clay breaking down like that, screaming and crying under that table while shots are being fired in the hallways ... Heartbreaking :’(

16)CLAY WTF!!!! HE IMAGINED HIMSELF BEING THE SHOOTER AND GETTING SHOT BY HIS OWN SELF?!?!?!?!

17)So, it WAS a drill.... WHAT KIND OF DRILL WAS THAT???????? Are u kidding me???? Those kids are traumatized for LIFE now. I know that I would certianly be.

18)CHARLIE AND ALEX KISS!!! OMGGG, THE SWEETEST!!!!!!!!!!!!

19)The last scene ... Fuck, bro ... Clay ... totally lost it ... I mean what he said about the entire situation at school held some truth but when he grabbed the gun from that policeman ... He’s finally cracked ... That was so hard to watch :(

#13 Reasons Why #13 Reasons Why Spoilers #13RW Spoilers #Clay Jensen #Justin Foley #Tyler Down #Estella De La Cruz #Monty De La Cruz #Winston Williams #Zack Dempsey #Alex Standall #Charlie St. George

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13 Reasons Why S4E5 Thoughts

1)Oh man ... Clay going out jogging and ending up in front of Bryce’s house and the place where he was killed?? Not good ... And on top of that it seems he’s losing track of time ... How’s this all gonna go for him in the end ...

2)Is Clay taking drugs???????And trying to pin the positive test on JUSTIN????? OH HELL NAH, THAT’S ENOUGH!!!!!!! HE’S TRYING SO FUCKING HARD TO BE CLEAN AFTER REHAB, HE’S DOING WELL AT SCHOOL & SPORTS, HE WANTS TO GET IN COLLEGE AND YOU’RE JUST MESSING HIM UP, GODDAMIT!!!!!! I’m so damn GLAD that he at least has the coach to talk to, I can’t fucking believe this shit. When Justin said “I think no one believes in me”, I just started crying :’(

3)HOLD THE FUCK UP!!! Clay not only smokes weed at the party but when Justin shows up to tell him he’s there to look out for him and asks him why is he so pissed at him all the time, Clay tells him to fuck off. STOOOOOP. STOP!!! EVERYONE IS HURTING MY BABY AND I WON’T HAVE THAT SHIT!!! He’s done NOTHING wrong NOTHING and you’re all just pushing him so much that I am so fucking scared he’s gonna break. I feel HORRIBLE for what everyone is putting Justin though. He’s a recovering addict, doing the best he can to start his life over and stay clean and you’re treating him like garbage. ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!

4)OH NO, HE DIDN’T. HE FUCKING DIDN’T. Clay, I fucking HATE you right now. HOW DARE YOU??????? Yes, they are your parents but telling Justin they aren’t his parents too???????? FUCK OFF, HONESTLY. How cruel was that????? He’s NEVER felt parental love in his entire life, living with a junkie mom who never gave a shit for him, going to school filthy and hungry, getting molested as a little kid by his mom’s boyfriend. YOU ARE FUCKING HORRIBLE. GET OUT OF HERE.

5)Charlie’s mom died when he was 13 ;_: Poor bby :(

6)Alex and all the boys this season xD Alex and Charlie ...? Now that’s one cute couple right there!!!

7)Jessica to Justin:”What are you gonna do?”                                                         Justin:”I’m gonna keep trying not to die.” OH GOD. PLS, BBY. KEEP GOING. IGNORE EVERYONE ELSE, YOU DESERVE IT ;_;

8)Clay picking another fight and beating up a jock. Srsly, this is getting old. Cut it out.

9)Zack and Clay drinking and driving. STUPID. SO FREAKIN STUPID.

10)Tyler buying guns again?!!??! WHAT

11)FUCK, CLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE DROVE THEM OFF THE ROAD. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

~IMMEDIATELY CLICKS ON EPISODE 6

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13 Reasons Why S4E4 Thoughts

1)Charlie talking in the unknown person’s funeral ... Is it ... Zack?? Fuck ... Why else would he have the football shirt on?? :S

2)”Anxiety is a motherfucker. Excuse my language but ... everything that’s out there is waiting to happen to you.” IF THAT’S NOT RELATABLE IDK WHAT IS ;_;

3)So ... the calls from Monty’s phone and the dummy were all a prank on Clay and all the jocks took part in it??? FUCK THOSE ASSHOLES. And Diego can go sit on a cactus.

4)Jessica being friendly and MORE towards Diego after what he did to Clay??? Yeah, girl, you’re getting on my nerves this season, just like S1.

5)Being a person who battles with anxiety all the fucking time, the sessions between Clay and his doctor, the things the doc tells Clay to use in order to face the anxiety sound actually pretty helpful to me, just sayin.

6)Who the fuck sent that confession/e-mail to everyone ...

7)Charlie making granola cookies for the camping trip. WHAT A PRECIOUS BEAN <3

8)Alex breaking up with Winston ... Me thinks Winston is gonna get angry and resume his Monty vengeance mission.

9)I FUCKING KNEW Clay would eventually lash out on Justin who only wants to PROTECT HIM!!! FOR FUCK’S SAKE!!! STG IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO HIM, I’M BURNING DOWN EVERYTHING.

10)WHO CHANGED THE DAMN HUNTING CLUES??????

11)Oh no, Justin thinks Clay ditched him while the truth is Clay looked everywhere for him before he got jumped :S

12)WHICH ASSHOLES DROPPED CLAY IN THAT PIT????? IMMA BREAK THEM

13)ALEX????????????????????OMFG NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! HE FELL IN THE WATER AND HIT HIS HEAD AND ZACK IS FREAKIN DRUNK, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO  OK NVM, Zack pulled him out THANK GOD

14)Bryce’s “ghost” having incects coming out of his mouth??? FUCK NOOOO

15)Alex crying in his dad’s arms :(((( I’m sad

16)Okay ... hold on ... is something supernatural really happening here ...?? Is the urban legend about the killer in the woods true??!?! O.o This episode is giving serious “Friday the 13th” vibes.

17)Uh ..... was that rope down there with Clay before?! WTF. And why is that symbol from the graffiti carved on that rock O.o Did Clay do all that .....?! Diego said Clay wasn’t in the pit when they went back for him ... WHAT IS GOING ON, I’M LOSING MY MIND

18)WINSTON, LEAVE CLAY ALONE.

~On to episode 5 ... And I thought the previous seasons were dark, bruh ...

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13 Reasons Why S4E3 Thoughts

1) Is ... someone really calling Clay or is it all on his mind??

2)Jessica acting surprised when Alex refuses to go with her to the Valentine’s Day dance. I mean ... really?? She cheated on him, ditched him and ruined his allibi for the night Bryce was murdered, why would he say yes?!

3) Clay angering Zack on purpose so that he’d get punched ... This boy is gonna collapse or end up in a hospital, if he doesn’t I will be surprised.

4)Tyler telling Toni “I can’t just be there every time you need me.” Uh, hello?? Toni has ALWAYS been there for you??? If it weren’t for him, you’d either be dead or in jail??? That was rude AF, didnt’ expect that from Tyler. And then he brushed both Toni AND Clay at the mall. Wtf is up with him???

5)Charlie St. George is an actual ANGEL <3

6)Alex kissing Winston .............. I mean ... they do fit?? But I hate the fact that Winston is playing everyone and he’ll likely break Alex’s heart. If not, then cool.

7)The voice at the other end of the line with Clay ... I may be crazy but I think it IS Clay’s voice .................... Idk how, it doesn’t make sense but a lot of things don’t so far!!! And if you notice the accent, even behind the altered voice ... it fits Clay’s ...

8)”If you love someone, you’re going to lose them.” CLAY, NO ;_; He’s talking about Hannah ...... I’M CRYIN. He’s afraid to let himself love again because he doesn’t want to lose anyone ever again ...

9)Diego calling Charlie gay or bi JUST because he’s a genuinely kind & nice guy who respects men and women alike ... Fuck off, dude.

10)Coach being supportive of Justin and being at that group meeting with him, warms my heart <3

11)Okay, I AM MAD!!!!!!!!!! JUSTIN IS TRYING SO HARD THIS SEASON TO DO GOOD, TO GET BETTER AND HE’S THE LONELIEST HE’S EVER BEEN. Nobody’s giving him a fucking chance!!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH EVERYBODY

12)HUH?! Tyler and Alex’s dad??? What’s that about?? He’s working with the police?!

13)Clay in the showers ...???? He needs fucking help immediately... Seeing blood coming out of those showers and seeing himself getting soaked in that blood??? Damn ...

14) The field scene ... I think Clay can’t get past the fact that Monty is dead (maybe?) because of the false accusation ...  The “blood” in his hands, he literally can’t wipe it off, at least in his mind. I am not even sure the jocks where actually there, probably not. And holy shit ... he went back to the dance looking like a crazy person, his shirt full of paint/blood and holding a knife or whatever that was ... IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL ... I’m so damn scared for his life.

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13 Reasons Why S4E2 Thoughts

1)And the scene with the funeral continues ... It’s gonna be like that till episode 10, huh?? I’M STRESSED.

2)Man... those HORROR movie vibes?? SERIOUSLY CREEPY. Clay’s reflection smiling back at him reminded me of the movie “Truth or Dare”. *chills*

3)Is it me or has Clay lost a considerable amount of weight?? :S #worriedagain

4)”It’s not a safe place, school. There’s like danger everywhere”. How true is that nowadays ........... Le sigh

5)OH LOOK. A WHITE COP TARGETING A MEXiCAN. STUDENT HOW RELEVANT. (fuck racisim!@#$%^&)

6)Zack wants to skip the college campus trip with Alex ... Okay but ... Alex doesn’t want the trouble and Zack is so not on his right mind :( He isn’t looking good at all. I still remember how he told his mom in S2 he’s had suicidal thoughts before. It’s scaring me.

7)Ani wanting to keep what she and Clay know about Winston a secret ... YEAH, RIGHT. Cause that’s definitely gonna help!!! A+Thinking, geez. Clay, don’t listen to her garbage advice.

8)Justin considering going to university to where Clay’s father(and his actually since they’re adopting him) is a professor and doing his best to make the Jensens proud :’))) ILY

9)Jessica acting bitchy because Justin broke up with her ... STOP. He’s trying to find himself and be the best version of himself. Just stop. You’re making him doubt himself and it’s the LAST thing he needs. That’s so shitty.

10)Clay following Zack and getting wasted in ?a fraternity? house ... VERY smart boys, like it’s gonna end well ... -_-

11)Alex and ... Winston ...?

12)Clay is messed up in general and I’m afraid he’s gonna lash out on Justin and that’s not gonna be fair at all ... I wanted them to be close like they used to ... Clay seems distant :(

13)OH NO. JUSTIN WANTS TO GO TO A COLLEGE THAT IS FREE SO THAT THERE’S ENOUGH MONEY FOR CLAY TO GET IN THE BEST ONE. EVERYONE STOP BEING A DICK TO THIS PRECIOUS CHILD. IMMA TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ALL OF YOU. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

14)I ... am starting to think maybe Clay did the graffiti ... And he’s somehow blocked it from his memory ...

15)The things Clay admitted to his doctor about what happened at the fraternity house ... I’m ... shocked ... and kinda uncomfortable ...

~Heading to episode 3 ... Oh boy ... This season is a rollercoaster of emotions ;_;

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