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eating disorders are not quick easy ways to lose weight. theyre a debilitating mental disease that directly kills more people than any other mental health illness. this has ruined my life in so many ways and it’s also destroyed my body to the point that even if I did recover I will have life long health problem.

today I reached a new lowest weight.

today I also laid on the floor of my bathroom wrapped in a towel because I was too weak to get dressed after just having thrown up absolutely nothing but stomach acid due to a low blood sugar episode.

today I wallowed in the guilt of having to skip work because I couldn’t move.

today I made my mother cry because she doesn’t know how to help me.

and today, after all that, I still can’t bring myself to eat.

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it’s strange, how every time you hit a new goal weight it’s so exciting and then that excitement just fades . . .

doesn’t matter how low the number on the scale goes it’s never low enough.

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ummm I genuinely can’t really remember if I ate today, like no joke. I remember having coffee but I literally just had to sit here for five minutes going through my day trying to remember whether or not I’ve had actual food. I haven’t ever really had brain fog this bad before and it’s a little scary…

sorry for treating this blog like my personal diary but that is why I made it 🤷‍♀️

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anyone else go through periods of like... normalness and then suddenly things get dramatically worse for a few weeks and then go back to normal-ish? it makes me feel rlly invalidated and like im faking this whole thing smh

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does anyone have those songs that arent explicitly about anorexia but you relate them to your eating disorder? maybe it's a few lines or even one quote that relates to your eating disorder, i find these songs provide a lot of comfort.

here are mine:

♡ folk-y

mama's broke - wrecking need

lumineers - gloria

lumineers - donna

ramshackle glory - i'm not a good person

rainbow kitten surprise - its called: freefall

the uncluded - earthquake

kimya dawson - my mom

♡ hot grl music (idk the name for this genre)

marina - seventeen

mommy long legs - weird girl

doja cat - 4 morant

ladytron - seventeen

♡ indie/indie rock

car seat headrest - happy news for sadness

bon iver - blindsided

sufjan stevens - fourth of july

turnover - cutting my fingers off

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🌊 Sora Choi thinspo part 2 🌊

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My ED is staying up late at night contemplating on whether to finally eat and starve the next day or just save it for tomorrow

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I hope that one day I’m so skinny I just fade away from existence and thats it and I dont have to feel anymore or hurt anymore or do anything anymore

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ever since I got to the point were I was maintaining under 120, people have been so much more triggering. People have commented on my size essentially my entire life, but now it’s almost every day and it’s addictively toxic on so many levels

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happy hellsgiving everyone, may your sanity stay with you and calories stay away 🤡

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Skinny girls in black outfits

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- Whole recipe in 5 quarts pot (large pot)= 356 calories

- 2 cups per serving = 36 calories

- if you want more protein just add 2 boiled boneless/skinless chicken breast (shredded) in the end and the whole pot will be 576 calories and servings size would be about 60 calories per 2 cups

Here’s an easy super low-calorie recipe that you can eat as much as you want of and still lose weight. As you see the whole pot is less than 500 calories so you can eat 1 whole pot a day and still loose 10 pounds a week and its delicious.

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My doctor after testing my A1c levels - “this indicates that your blood sugar has been low for at least three months”

Me:

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brah sometimes I swear I’m faking my ED bc there are days where I have zero fear foods and zero inhibitions about eating but not in a binge way necessarily, and then other days if I even look at food I feel sick and I cant stand the idea of ever putting anything in my mouth again. why is ana such a fucking bipolar bitch?

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why am I obsessed with taking up as little space as possible?

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when you struggle with yourself internally because you’re not skinny enough to die yet but also you ARE slowly dying and if you don’t eat something you might die at your current weight? just me?

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I’m so sad and lonely and I just want help but I don’t know how to ask for it and even when it’s offered I dont know how to take it …

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