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"You gotta look on the sunny side." - Evan Peters as Jimmy Darling in American Horror Story: Freak Show (2014)

#ahs: freak show #jimmy darling #evan peters

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#cottagecore #chickens #flowercore #easter #eastercore #cottage aesthetic

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Cherry blossom.

Thanks to the follower Who gave me this idea of drawing them celebrating the #spring.

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Parallel universes

Prints

#eruri #snk eruri #eruri fanart

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Just a little rest.

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Like this sometimes)

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Always and forever, our Wings of Freedom.

#shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan

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Humanity's first defeat will come only when we stop fighting. As long as we keep fighting, we haven't lost.

#mike zacharius #mike zakarias #miche zakarias

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Thank you, and goodbye to the brave veterans of the Survey Corps

#snk vets #aot vets #og levi squad #levi ackerman #hange zoe #shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #erwin smith #petra #oluo bozado #mike zacharias #nanaba #moblit berner

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Warriors of freedom

My old illustration from 2021

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Sept. 8, 2023

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Cherry Blossom

I wrote this during NaNoWriMo, just didn't have a chance to edit and post it.

Just a short story/drabble really set after the end of the Manga/Show. Levi is feeling reflective as he watches cherry blossom fall, he thinks back to happy memories of his and Hanji's birthdays, he things about how he marks the anniversary of Hanji and Erwin's deaths. Then he thinks about what he wants from the future.

No warning really - Just a bit sad . Word Count - 1,428

Levi studied the falling cherry blossom ahead of him, soft petals fell like dancers in the air. The scent of Spring and damp earth brought forth a renewed hope even when hope wasn’t something he clung to anymore. Not because he’d lost it, but because he didn’t need to.

The hope he, Erwin, Hanji and so many others had believed in for most of their lives had not been in vain, he and the life he now lived, was proof of that. But what Levi just wished he had was someone to share it with.

He meandered along letting the blossom fall around him, birds in the trees sung their merry tune and the late afternoon sun warmed his pale skin. He was contemplating what to do with his life now, whether he should travel despite the protests of Mikasa, Armin and the others who didn’t want to lose another of their comrades.

On the anniversary of Hanji’s birthday, he sat by the river and silently toasted them. The younger generation made much more of a fuss over it, loudly clinking their glasses and reminiscing over their old Commander and friend. But Levi needed time alone to contemplate, Hanji had been their saviour without whom he’d likely be dead, without whom he wasn’t sure they would have even succeeded.

He watched children as they ran by playing, some riding bicycles and chasing one another. Even though the deaths of the others hurt, it was worth it to see this. He recalled one year on Hanji’s birthday where they declared that it was also the birthday of one of the titan’s – Sonny, Levi seemed to recall. Of course, it was nonsense, but it meant something to Hanji and made her smile. Hanji baked him a birthday cake which he didn’t want and before Moblit could retrieve it so at least the Vets could enjoy it, Sonny smashed it up, splattering of buttercream and icing flew across the wall, him and Hanji. Hanji being in a silly mood licked some off his cheek causing Moblit to blush a tremendous shade of red. Levi chuckled quietly at this memory, life wasn’t easy then and there was a lot of fear and uncertainty around, but there had been happy moments like this.

As Levi begun to think of Erwin he simply lost track of time, or of how chilly it was feeling now it was late dusk. His hands were placed across his lap, fingers pale, how he longed for Erwin’s hands on his. He could move soon, go home and make a nice cup of tea, after-all tea makes everything better doesn’t it? It did when Erwin was around, his heart felt heavy as he longed for the other.

Every anniversary of Erwin’s death that went by, Levi would have time alone to reflect. Life wasn’t easy without him. Grief would appear from nowhere some days, uninvited but not unwelcome. Grief was the highest price you could pay in life, but the bargaining chip was love and to have known that love, the grief he now felt he would happily live every day until he died.

A memory came to Levi and although he’d never say it aloud when he walked along this path, he often imagined Erwin was walking beside him. Sometimes he was sure he could see his ghost, Erwin was always smiling, Levi in return would find it hard to smile but he tried just in case Erwin really could see him. There was one time when he reached his hand out believing just for a second that Erwin was still alive and next to him.

There had been no feeling lonelier than that when Erwin didn’t hold his hand in return, when Levi remembered he was alone. He remembered the first time they kissed, a moment stolen away from their comrades and friends underneath an oak tree in Autumn. The colours of the season always reminded Levi of Erwin, it was the colour of his hair, his smile, that first kiss, his aura. Everything had been golden with Erwin. Life had made sense.

His spine tingled and travelled up to his head as if someone were running their fingers through his hair softly. He let out a sigh as he sat on a bench and allowed himself to truly remember. One hand traced the others, he remembered how much bigger Erwin’s hands had been than his, how when they kissed Erwin would often pick him up so he could wrap his legs around his waist, yes, those were the sweetest kisses.

The first time they went to bed together it had been nothing like he was expecting, Erwin was soft and gentle, there was no room for concern or doubt within the walls of that room. Erwin, his golden god. He had swept Levi off his feet, quite literally and they’d tumbled in the sheets together.

As for Hanji, Levi chuckled thinking that if his past self knew how much he missed them now, he never could have believed it. Hanji had become the friend and confidant that had saved his life and given him purpose again. He missed them, even the younger Hanji their science experiments and over enthusiasm about everything. He longed for Hanji to be chattering away in his ear and for their cooking, which in the end wasn’t so bad.

He wished he could be sat on a picnic blanket with all of them, with Oluo, Gunther, Eld, Petra…with Mike, Nanaba, Hanji, Moblit…. with Erwin. He wished they were laughing and drinking tea or wine. It wasn’t fair they had never experienced most of the things others took for granted. Those happy and carefree memories were so far and few between, the thought of it made him sad, but worse was the guilt that he had survived when they hadn’t.

“I don’t know how to go on without you my love,” he whispered.

A tear formed and fell softly down his cheek, perhaps it was this place. It was too close to his former life, there was too much pain here.

“I don’t know where I belong.” He continued, it always helped to speak to Erwin.

He waited for an answer, but none came. He looked towards the glowing lights in windows, perhaps if he went to see those who remained, those who carried the same scars as him and therefore with whom he’d formed an irrevocable bond, he might find comfort.

In a nearby Tavern, which was frequented by his friends, he found them as he was sure he would. And it was there he explained his plan to Mikasa, Armin, Conny, Jean and Annie. It was there where he realised just how the thought of him moving away clearly troubled the others.

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“You won’t be losing me,” Levi tried to comfort them.

“When would you be back?” Jean asked.

Levi sighed, they were so much older and had seen such darkness, such violence, and yet there were moments where they behaved so much like children. But then they were all those who had their childhood’s stolen from them, unable to live a safe and happy life.

“I couldn’t say.” Levi answered honestly, before they had a chance to respond he continued, “But you don’t need me, you think you do because of everything we have been through together, but you will be okay all of you. You have your life ahead of you to live it how you choose, to experience all the things you never even knew existed and I, I also have my life that I need to live.”

Armin spoke solemnly, “So you’re decided, you’re leaving us.”

Levi had to laugh at this over-reaction, what would Erwin say if he was here? A chuckle escaped his lips, “No, I am learning to let go and move on. It doesn’t mean you’ll be forgotten or that I won’t be back, I will in time.” He paused thoughtfully, “Perhaps by then some of you too will have moved on yourselves.”

The others cast glances around the group, uncertain of what the future held. “It will come to you all in time. Trust me, learning to hold on when you need to, but equally learning to let go when the time is right, that is one of the most important lessons I will leave you with.”

Levi knew before the conversation with the others had even begun, his mind was made up, he would travel and see more of the world and someday perhaps he would find happiness once more.

#Levi Ackerman #Hanji Zoe #Erwin Smith #After the war #my writing #drabbles #levi x erwin

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Merry Christmas, Yuletide felicitations, ¡Feliz Navidad!, Joyeux Noël! Buon Natale! to all my wonderful followers. I hope for all those who celebrate you have a wonderful, magical and peaceful time over the next few days. To those who don't celebrate I wish you all love and that you are safe and full of joy all the same.

I wrote the following during NaNoWriMo, I wanted it posted yesterday or a few days ago, but Christmas eve is better than not at all. 🎄

How the Vets prepare for Christmas

Erwin

A lot of reading, he especially enjoys reading by the fireplace with a hot mug of spiced cider or mulled wine. He can sit uninterrupted for hours on end, quite content with the words of a book helping him to escape into another world for a short while.

Erwin gets his Christmas cards out early, he loves writing them whilst listening to Christmas music. He will include a round robin letter informing everyone of what he’s been up to after the past year, he also uses it as a chance to make amends and try to build bridges with others.

Simple and tasteful, traditional decorations. Will weave his own wreath and make a beautiful centrepiece for the table with foraged holly, ivy and pinecones.

The wreath goes up on his front door early, he likes his home to appear welcoming to anyone visiting.

Levi

The home has to smell wonderful 24/7, he has stove top potpuri which he redoes every few days and heats over the fireplace in the lounge.

Plenty of scented candles too, he loves the smell of spiced apple and orange.

Gets his Christmas shopping done in one trip, he detests it but would rather have one, long difficult and stressful day than many, this way he can forget about it.

Wraps his presents with meticulous care and love. They all have holly or other plant based decorations tied into the ribbon.

Levi’s advent candle would be a simple one with pictures behind each window. The morning routine in December is to wake up, make a nice tea, ideally something winter and seasonal, and then sit down at the kitchen table and open the day’s door whilst sipping tea.

Hanji

Chaotic Christmas shopper, everything is done in bits across multiple days and she ends up with more presents than she needs for everyone.

Has a very traditional Christmas tree, but some of the other decorations around her home are a little more out there, she likes to try out modern trends as well as making some quirky decorations of her own.

Christmas cards are delivered a few days before Christmas, many of them are from the years previous.

Loves a pantomime and Christmas parties, any excuse to let their hair down for once, to dress up and laugh or dance, Hanji will fully embrace the season and let herself go.

Mike

Christmas Shopping is a careful operation that he’s been planning for since early November. Typically if he sees items throughout the last few months of the year he will buy them and so come December he isn’t overwhelmed with so much to buy. Additionally he finds it stops him from buying under pressure and ending up with items he isn’t even sure the individuals will like. Instead the presents are purchased with love and plenty of though.

Similar to Erwin, traditional and tasteful decorations in his home. He prefers a real Christmas tree and isn’t particular about a colour theme. He’ll try to buy a new decoration every year to mark the year that has passed. He can recall where each and every one came from and the stories behind them. If he can purchase them whilst away in a different country all the better.

Mike likes to be the one to cook Christmas dinner, he has a Christmas chef’s apron and hat. He knows that Erwin also enjoys cooking but Erwin works harder than all of them throughout the year so Mike just wants to give him a break on the big day.

Organises or takes part in charity present drives and wants to do as much to help others as possible. Afterall it is the season. He is especially

Loves a Christmas jumper.

Moblit

Shopping is done throughout December on a few trips, all of them planned and less chaotic than the ones Hanji goes on.

Enjoys more silver, white, blue Christmas deorations and goes for that ‘Winter Wonderland’ sparkle and ice theme in his home. But somehow he still makes it cosy.

Is a fan of hot chocolate with lots of marshmallows and also some spiced rum or whiskey.

Loves Christmas music and can be found by the Christmas tree singing along as he wraps presents with great big bows. Is a big fan of bows on everything, even his Christmas jumper has a bow on it.

Winter walks are very much one of his things, he loves being outside especially on sunny but crisp days where frost gently covers all the grass and plants. He loves going on these walks with his friends, but is also happy to spend some time alone thinking about the year which is nearly over, being reflective and thinking on what he’d love from the following year. He will also gather some fir branches, holly and other plants to display in his home.

Nanaba

Christmas is a time to get cosy and be relaxed, she doesn’t want to be stressing about last minute Christmas presents or the food. So she has a Christmas organiser and everything is incredibly well planned.

She loves Red and Gold, everything to be traditional and warm. Has one of the houses with a smoking chimney, the incense cones she uses are the myrrh and frankincense ones.

Loves lighting candles, all red and green, if they’re spiced all the better.

Big fan of Christmas Hallmark movies and just wants to get under a blanket and watch them with a mulled wine or hot chocolate whilst wearing big animal slipper socks.

Loves Ice skating and will succeed in encouraging the others to join her even if they’re a little nervous, Nanaba knows how to help her friends relax and feel at ease.

#aot vets #snk vets #erwin smith #levi ackerman #hanji zoe #hange zoe #mike zacharius #mike zakarias #moblit berner #nanaba #headcanons #christmas #yule #Festive

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Look at them

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Attack on Titan XMas

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Welcome home, Levi

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I wanted to make them young and still hopeful, freshly promoted, before Levi, before politics, before everything.

Just golden besties.

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