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like I used to drink and smoke so much on a daily basis to cope living with my transphobic parents + also dealing with transphobia at school and it was having a huge impact on my physical and mental health. it’s taken over a year to ramp down that level of usage to where I am now, and while I still smoke and drink regularly it is at far lower levels & frequency and this feels like waaaay more progress than trying to just hard stop and never touch it again. I’m stealing this line from a friend but I have just accepted that drugs will be in my life and so managing my consumption levels from that vantage has helped me a lot more than moralising about perma-quitting. I know different strategies work for different people and my experience obviously is not universal but cold-turkey attempts have universally made me miserable and I would never have been able to gradually reduce my drug consumption to what it is now using that method

#addiction tw

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the idea of quitting anything cold turkey sucks so bad dude, like it has literally never worked for me and the idea that in order to stop any habit/harmful behaviour/whatever you have to stop doing it completely & immediately is so stupid and counterproductive and in my experience just leads to breaks downs and binge-indulging where you feel like a shit idiot failure moron who can’t do anything right. like this year I wanted to smoke & drink less so instead of quitting both of those things completely I just started noting on my wall calendar every day of the week that I smoked & drank and that helped me visualise how much I was consuming and also made me feel better when I could record days I didn’t drink or smoke. and when I had a bad week where I drank and smoked a lot I didn’t feel as bad because I could see throughout the month that I’d had lighter weeks and days where I didn’t smoke or drink as much. it has helped me a lot and made me feel a lot more in control of my own body, especially during really stressful points in my life. I think if I’d tried quitting those things completely the way doctors or my family told me to do I would have just developed far more erratic and disordered relationships to drugs that would have had a much bigger negative impact on my health and state of mind

#addiction tw

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#Palestine

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#jeff

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#cats #video

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Hello guys i have good news and bad news.

The good news that I'm finally in Egypt now with my youngest brother and the bad news is my mother and my other brother with his wife still in Rafah waiting to evacute to Egypt.

I feel so sad and depressed for leaving them i should stayed and get out together.

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if this academia thing doesn’t work out my backup plan is trophy boyfriend who cooks all day. I think I could be a good connecticut clark

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extraordinary things are happening on tumblr.com/dashboard

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‘anti-fascist’ is a horrible descriptor for a set of beliefs anyway because it doesn’t actually tell you anything about the contents of the beliefs themselves. like on what grounds is something anti-fascist, what is the objection being made to fascism, what is the definition of fascism being operated on. does it make sense to lump Indiana Jones and Zone of Interest together as both anti-fascist films

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a good test for a show or movie’s politics is if tumblr says its anti-fascist then its definitely not

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I support the call to not pay for an NYT subscription obviously but the idea of ever having paid for it in the first place is completely alien to me. we live in different worlds

#I will die of old age having never paid for a newspaper!

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maybe it's just because I've been having these conversations for too long but sometimes watching a youtube video essayist analyse something is kind of like watching a third-grader run through their times tables. it's like... yes, very good, that's all true! so... what now...

#it’s brutal out there 😭😭😭 I just want a good essay is that so much to ask for 😭😭😭

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one of the most deeply embarrassing things canadian socialists can do is have any sort of provincial pride. nationalism does not suddenly become cool if you do it federalist style

#bad replies in the notes of that post

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This is the funniest fucking thing I've ever seen. Typical french L

#least racist quebecois

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ok what’s your florence + the machine song. mine is rabbit heart (raise it up)<3

#hrm. cosmic love. which witch. shake it out