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The last character you drew/wrote about is now stuck in the last game you played. How screwed are they?

#that'd be kyvir and gort in mask of the rose... #my god. these two in alternate victorian london #that'd be chaos

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why is pride always in summer. what about the dykes that can't tolerate the heat huh. what about us. I mean them.

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One more joke hate: You may claim to be a woman but biologically you are a featherless biped and thus a man.

Finally a good argument for why I'm actually a man

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correct me if I'm wrong, but did you once make a post referencing corvids/crows/ravens being a symbol or preferred animals of bhaal, or related to him in some other way? I feel like I remember you posting something like that once, but I can't find anything of the like trying to search your blog and idk if I imagined it or if tumblr's search function just isn't working lol

Tumblr's search function is a nightmare.

I've mentioned that the original games had Bhaal manifest as a crow in one of the dream visions, which would indicate that they're one of his sacred animals.

I know of no tabletop source on Bhaal's manifestations. For some reason, Faiths and Avatars didn't list Bhaal's non-avatar-ish manifestations as it did for every other god, but both Myrkul and Bane have both been associated with corvids, and Jergal is associated with vultures - maybe carrion birds were one of Jergal's holy animals and the entire Dead Three inherited them or something.

It's actually quite annoying that we don't have that list: all Realms deities have sacred stones that they use to show pleasure and disapproval, it'd be useful to know what Bhaal's are.

#bg1 #ohohohoho... crow affinity... #i HAVE wanted an excuse for durge to turn into a crow

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Far worse, in my opinion, than the famous “he wouldn’t fucking say that” is “he WOULD fucking say that, as part of his facade, but you seem to think he would mean it genuinely”

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I may have accidentally done A Symbolism. Twice.

#bg3 #kyvir #this was not intentional but... the vibes... #making kyvir's first name blessing was a retroactively INSPIRED choice

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One for a Death, Two for a Pair // interlude i: how it goes // Durgetash Crane Wife AU

interlude i: how it goes || Durgetash || E || chapter 2/? alternate universe, inspired by Tsuru Nyouboi | The Crane Wife (Japan Folk Tale), canon-typical violence, durge-typical violence, blood and gore, inadvisable first aid efforts, wound fingering, trans male character, masturbation, domestic violence, child abuse, sexual assault, other additional tags to be added

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It is the staying that teaches him how hateful a creature he is, but had he run he would have learned anyway. Perhaps it would have been less painful, but then again―perhaps it would have been more. 

Some seeds, even dropped in the most barren of soil, cannot be prevented from growing.

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A brief aside: the story of a boy, many years ago, and how he became a monster.

Read from the beginning!

#!!! #bg3 #durgetash #fic recs

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Reblog to let your followers know that despite your current obsession your previous obsessions still exist and are simply lying dormant until they awaken and strike again

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Withers: Who flickerest there? The poor, brave soul who hath defied the Lord of Murder - the madman in king's clothing. With thy death, thou hast given life to all the Lord of Murder would see undone. Thou hast made good on the promise of thy better heart. Tell me, adventurer... hero... friend. Do the voices echo still? Kyvir: I hear nothing. I am alone. Bereft. Withers: Alone - for now. Bereft - only thou knowest. But thy story endeth not here. Thy life may be forfeit, but thy death hath only begun to unfold. What awaiteth thee is a mystery even to me. I cannot account for thee, adventurer... hero... friend. But I know thy story endeth not here. Death itself hath many byways, and thou might yet have a new and different role to play.

Thank you, Withers. Very helpful. Not like you're a god of the dead who can resurrect people with a snap of your fingers or anything like that. Not like you've proved you can resurrect Durge after they defy Bhaal. It's fine.

"Madman in king's clothing" is interesting phrasing. I can't tell if he's referred to Durge or Bhaal there, but either way it's very fun. Also Durge having the ability to say they feel bereft without Bhaal's presence (I assume that's what's being referred to re the voices, given Durge can be pretty happy about the silence) is so tasty, this is what I wanted from the redemption ending. Bhaal sucks in every way and especially as a father, but... yeah, having had his presence with them their whole life it makes sense for Durge to feel like they've lost something now that it's gone! More examination of the ways that Durge losing their father (shitty as that father was) isn't going to be as simple as "Well you're free now", please!

#bg3 #durge

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Suddenly struck with a need to explain to you how boat pronouns work (I work in the marine industry).

When you're talking about the design of the boat, you say "it".

When the boat is still being built, your say "it".

When the boat is nearing completion, you can say "it" or "she".

When the boat is floating in the water you probably say "she", unless there is still a lot of work to be done (e.g. no engine yet) then you say "it".

When the boat is officially launched and operating, you say "she". If you continue to say "it" at this point you are not incorrect but suspiciously untraditional. You are not playing the game.

If you are referring to a boat you don't really know anything about you may say "it" ("there's a big boat, it's coming this way"). But if you know its name, it's probably "she" ("there's the Waverley, she's on her way to Greenock").

If you are talking about boats in general, you say "it" ("when a boat is hit by a wave it heels over")

If you speak about a boat in complimentary terms, it's "she" ("she's a grand boat"). If you are being disparaging it may be it, but not necessarily ("it's as ugly as sin", "she's a grotty old tub").

If she has a boy's name, she's still she. "Boy James", "King Edward", "Sir David Attenborough"? The pronoun is she.

If it's a dumb barge (no engine), you say it. But if it's a rowing boat (no engine), you say she.

I hope this has cleared things up so that you may not be in danger of misgendering floating objects.

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Narrator: *Your thoughts wander from your companions and everything you endured to your own piteous fate. If only you'd defied your Father when you had the chance, and freed yourself of your dark desires... but it's too late now. Your destiny is set. Your very blood shall clot with the Urge, and that hungry desire will consume you. You may have freed the world from the control of the Netherbrain, but you are not yet free. Your Father is angry. What foul punishment awaits you now that you have rejected him?* Kyvir: This cannot be allowed to happen. One final act of resistance - kill yourself. Astarion: What do you think you're doing? Narrator: *You've butchered so many before - each death a gift to your Father. But this one, you will take from him. This one is just for you.*

I think Larian forgot the fact that Durge doesn't know that they would've survived defying Bhaal in the temple. And also has no reason to believe that doing so would've freed them from their dark desires. Player knowledge and character knowledge are not the same thing. This is like the ascended Astarion path, where the writer(s) clearly expected the player to be making decisions based on out of universe knowledge instead of roleplaying based on what their character knows; we know that defying Bhaal would end fine, but Durge sure as hell doesn't! Durge has no reason to believe defying Bhaal would end in anything but their own brutal death and endless torture! Although if you want to make it deeply tragic instead of a deeply annoying failure to consider roleplaying in a DnD game, given Larian seems to have missed that Bhaalspawn go to the Throne of Blood to be tortured forever on death and Durge can choose to kill themselves during this dialogue you can choose to read it as them actually thinking that they should've given up on fighting and died back in the temple instead of using the power of Bhaal's Chosen to defeat the brain...

Anyway, though. Even if it makes no goddamn sense lore-wise there is something very fun about Durge basically claiming their own death from Bhaal. The phrasing of "This one is just for you" is so good.

#bg3 #durge

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Narrator: *Silence. The overbearing quiet of your Father's disappointment before the rush of your tragic fall.*

The way Chosen Durge knows exactly how screwed they are the moment they defy Bhaal hurts me. For redemption Durge this is a moment of peace and complete freedom, but for a Chosen Durge who defied Bhaal at the last moment they're just... waiting for the axe to come down. They know they've doomed themselves, the narration before making the final choice to destroy or subdue the brain makes it clear they even know Bhaal will destroy their mind for this! And there's such delicious story potential in them making that choice anyway, I wish the epilogue did more with it.

#bg3 #durge

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Kyvir: In Bhaal's name.

Not gonna lie. World conqueror Kyvir... kind of hot. I might have to take over the brain with the new design just to see that version in this pose also.

#bg3 #kyvir

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The worst husbands in Faerûn. Look at them. They're so pleased with themselves and their little world domination plot. Disgusting.

#bg3 #kyvir #astarion #glad they're having fun though alskfjd

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Narrator: *You glimpse the life-long destiny promised by your Father. Enslave. Dominate. Ruin. In your Father's name, you must seize your rightful claim to the brain, not destroy it. If you do not, then he will flay and shred your mind, so it cannot even comprehend the horrors he will plague you with.* Astarion: It can be ours, my love. The whole world - we only have to take it. Kyvir: Claim the Absolute in the name of Bhaal. Kill Orpheus. Shadowheart: What are you doing? Stop! Kyvir: Don't worry - you're still part of my design. The Netherbrain: ----together- -conquer-- ---kill---- -SLAUGHTER---

Heeheehee.

Astarion continuing to not understand that This Will Not Be Good For Him is kind of funny. Astarion, did you forget that time you had to tie Kyvir up so he wouldn't murder you against his will? And how he wasn't even Bhaal's Chosen at the time? I get that ascended Astarion can be a bit shortsighted and overconfident at the best of times, but... really, my guy. Do you really think your vampiric thrall is going to overpower the sway of a god whose leash on your boyfriend was hardwired into his blood from day one? Because it's not!

Also the way that even as Durge is making this choice they're painfully aware that if they try to turn back now Bhaal will break them hurts me. Like, Larian tries to push the narrative that Chosen Durge is Pure Evil For Evil's Sake in the conversations with the companions but the narration then turns around and makes it clear that Durge is terrified of what their father will do to them if they step out of line... God I wish the game went more into that, please may we have a little acknowledgement that Durge is also part of the cycle of abuse theme. The Chosen Durge path is actually really sad; it's the path where even the second chance granted by their amnesia isn't enough for them to break free of Bhaal, and I wish the game played more into that instead of basically going "Well, clearly only people who want to play murder hobo characters will do this" and leaving it on that level.

#bg3 #durge

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Unholy Assassin Mitchia: Bodies upon bodies filled with unspilt blood. Lead us into slaughter, Chosen one. We shall do unholy service in your Father's name. Sarevok Anchev: To your end, or the world's, Chosen of Bhaal.

One would expect assassins to understand the concept of subtlety. Seriously, how are there no consequences for these extremely obvious Bhaalists hanging out and talking about how much they want to help you end the world?

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writer’s block (dry) = no desire to write, no ability to write (bearable)

writer’s block (wet) = HUGE desire to write, no ability to write (very evil)