crustychameleon

[crustychameleon]

there is something so freeing about having a boyish figure as a woman. nonexistent boobs and a short haircut and hardly any curves, or curves that are at the very least concealable under a baggy sweater and jeans. i go unnoticed by men unless i dress up and want them to notice me.

and i think its so sad that i have to go as far away from being a woman as i possibly can to be taken seriously and thought of as a person rather than a sex object. and its even sadder to me that some women don’t even have this option - like if you have the long hair or the curves or the boobs, men are just always always going to perceive you that way and that sucks. i have such immense privilege being able to fly under the radar, and i can’t imagine the burden i would have to carry if i wasn’t able to look like this every time i left the house.

and i love that some women are able to own this and stomach the harassment and it is a testament to how strong we are - but simultaneously we shouldn’t have to put up with it. i keep seeing posts about “subway shirts” or outfit cover ups that people are wearing so that they don’t get catcalled in transit to their destinations and that makes me sad, too.

men make me sad. patriarchy makes me sad. i’m so sorry for everyone who has to put up with this shit.

#feminism #ibtc #catcalling #subway shirts #patriarchy

[crustychameleon]

why is it the human condition to hurt? i feel like every waking moment i have been on this earth is consumed by pain. and there’s little moments here and there every so often that give you hope that maybe it won’t be so painful anymore but then it’s gone as quickly as it came. for every fulfilling feeling there’s a million horrible ones. when is it too much? why can’t i be a cat laying in a sunbeam forever? why can’t someone come and rescue me from this? i am so weary.

[crustychameleon]

TW// brief mention of suicide

i’m going to get so much hate for this LMAO i’m not even going to read any replies so don’t even bother - but it is so funny to me how many quality friends i’ve gained after i stopped being obsessed with kpop - i think it highlights the toxicity of the people who are exclusively into it and the isolation from normalcy as well.

it’s quite telling of the problems within the community when two idols in the past 6 years have committed suicide and there has been a refusal to look inwards on the behaviour of fans or even an acknowledgment that you could be the problem??

like the sexualisation of idols, the obsession over watching their every post and breakdown of everything they say, the need to be up to date with 25 different bands each with seven members each, the scrutinisation and death threats to people who you don’t like… it’s genuinely concerning. and its so normalised when you’re inside it because everyone does it - but it’s so far from how normal people actually act? it’s such chronically online behaviour.

it wouldn’t be such a problem if it didn’t quite obviously affect the people who they idolise. i think a lot of them forget that they are actual people.

not to even mention that it’s such a perpetuation of capitalist ideals, including toxic diet culture and heteronormativity.

i hope all kpop stans learn how to become normal people eventually o7

#ex kpop #ex stan #kpop #kpop community #kpop stan

[crustychameleon]

“Once when I visited Buddy I found Mrs Willard braiding a rug out of strips of wool from Mr Wilard's old suits. She'd spent weeks on that rug, and I had admired the tweedy browns and greens and blues patterning the braid, but after Mrs Willard was through, instead of hanging the rug on the wall the way I would have done, she put it down in place of her kitchen mat, and in a few days it was soiled and dull and indistinguishable from any mat you could buy for under a dollar in the Five and Ten.

And I knew that in spite of all the roses and kisses and restaurant dinners a man showered on a woman before he married her, what he secretly wanted when the wedding service ended was for her to flatten out underneath his feet like Mrs Willard's kitchen mat.”

sylvia plath - the bell jar

#writing #feminism #feminist prose #plath #sylvia plath #the bell jar

[crustychameleon]

every time i’ve gotten in a relationship with someone i get so klepto as in i keep all the receipts and scorecards and little notes that they give me and then i make a little scrapbook out of it plus like (with this new guy at least) poems i’ve written or songs that remind me of him etc. and i give it to them on their birthday and i recommend doing this because its such a cute thoughtful little gift and it really is such an easy way to show them that you care.

#relationship #gifts

[crustychameleon]

i added ‘its not living if its not with you’ to the playlist i made for my bf and he said its now his favourite the 1975 song and when we saw them the other day he held my hand the whole song but i don’t think he knows that i do literally sit around and do nothing but think about him when he’s at work or uni or something

[crustychameleon]

if jesus christ listened to weezer would he be jeezer or weezus?

#weezer

[crustychameleon]

i’ve been binge watching the walking dead (so far so good) and one of my favourite little details that i’ve noticed a few times is how daryl blouses his pants by tying shoelaces around his ankles to stop ticks and other creepy crawlies from getting up his pants. like of course he would know to do that bc he’s an outdoorsman.

like its never ever addressed but its just such a cool little detail. i hope the costume people know i am appreciative of this.

#the walking dead #twd #twd daryl #daryl dixon #costume #costuming #the walking dead costumes

[crustychameleon]

i forget people i know actually follow me on here :/

[crustychameleon]

Im gonna say it fall out boy hasnt had a single bad album and if you disagree your wrong

[crustychameleon]

Bond girls are out. Blanc girls (underprivileged women who screw over rich assholes with the help of this silly detective) are in.

[crustychameleon]

[crustychameleon]

heard porn bots might be following you guys again. sorry about that. but in some good news i have been gaining many new followers who are real stunningly beautiful women. welcome ladies :)

[crustychameleon]

the sexy girlbots are returning. nature is healing

[crustychameleon]

hello to the legion of porn bots that have followed me within the past week

[crustychameleon]

men who are dog people are such a red flag to me - like especially if they vehemently hate cats. like the ones who are like “cats don’t hang out with you” “cats aren’t as affectionate as dogs” “you can’t pet a cat all the time like you can dogs”. and i only just realised that this is a red flag because they don’t understand boundaries or how to take no for an answer.

#dog people #cat people #boundaries #red flags

[crustychameleon]

if setting boundaries and sticking up for myself is “being a bitch” then i guess i’m going to keep being a bitch