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nothing uncovered just gained a lesbian (sub) plot

also featuring older women manipulating sapphic feelings of a younger women

so now should be the perfect time to get the main leads into a very destructive threesome

#ctlyuejie writes #nothing uncovered #the show is decent entertainment but it feels like they left the interesting stuff on the floor in favor of conventions #(with exceptions)

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nothing uncovered got a bit silly

but woojae threatening to self-distruct if his dad messes with jeongwon really is what i am here for

i knew he had the potential but always a delight

to see someone dip into the unhinged potential of his character

#ctlyuejie writes #nothing uncovered #them laughing on the beach felt very alien but when he threatened his dad like this? excellent

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HAAANK! THAT'S NOT ART BY THE OP HANK! OP REPOSTED IT WITHOUT CREDIT! HANK!

#this always and so much

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ROMANCE DAWN TRIO

#one piece #gorgeous art

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Semantic Error — Episode 7 (Viki)

#semantic error #reblog #I miss them...

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What Did You Eat Yesterday? S1 (2019) Episode 4

#reblog #wdyey #;A;

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What Did You Eat Yesterday? S1 (2019) Episode 2

#reblog #wdyey #love his gay little outfit with the handkerchief

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having only enjoyed kiseki- dear to me through gifs, nothing prepared me for how funny a lot of the plot/ style of shooting is

i am having a great time

#decided to binge this during my 2 days of online meetings

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Gong Jun Studio Weibo Update 2024/04/13.

#gong jun #treating this as targeted reblogging

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Rino Kitano (Japanese, contemporary) - Homesick, 2017

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HAECHAN ♱ SMOOTHIE (240329)

#haechan #i am awol atm but this dude is tickling my brain

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*booking an mri* what if I accidentally have a pacemaker. what if I got secret bone surgery and forgot about the pins

#forgot to wear cotton underwear last time and had the nurse abort to check if my sports underwear was fine (it was but i do recommend cotton #) not all sports underwear is mri proof #also @ prev: going feet or head in truely is a huge difference so if you made it head first feet first will be okay #just realised i had 5 mri #also had the tyoe of surgery where the pins dissolve but still freaked out about it even when the mri was to precisely check on that

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play potions with your followers, but watch out..

#strength potion coming up

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a part of adult life you never really realize as a child is the constant need for bowls in so many different sizes. you're always doing something and going "man i wish i had the right size bowl for this" no matter how many bowl sizes you have

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Drying hair as a sign of affection and caring (Part 3/?)

My Beautiful Man 2

Egoist

My Engineer

Tokyo In April Is...

Don't Say No

Minato Shouji Coin Laundry 2

Unintentional Lovestory

History 5

My Personal Weatherman

Sky In Your Heart

My favorite bl-tropes-collection.

#me as a bl protagonist: is asleep for the whole plot because people keep fondling my hair which makes me eepy

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the article literally says

"Some 4B practitioners also were turned off by the movement’s focus on cisgender women to the exclusion of trans women; many of the online communities require verification with a photo ID attesting to the applicant’s sex, and Minji said that one of the feminist communities she joined asked her to submit a video of her Adam’s apple, ostensibly to ensure she wasn’t assigned male at birth."

that does go beyond "oh...radfems might feel at home since it is a big tent feminist movement"

and besides that. b4 movement isn't big enough to be THE cause for elementary schools not having new 1st graders. yes, the drop in birth rates is very much affected by sexist gov policies and societal forces not supporting pregnant people enough in general and especially when wanting to participate in society as a professional etc beyond status of a house wife

#this webbed site and ppl not reading the article they are linking #too late to read papers on the movement (there are some...small ones)

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KoiNido ep. 5: a break-up episode done well

Over the first half I was busy being happy about how this show doesn't go the tropy route without considering the characters (Miyata confronting this newly appeared "rival" with confidence, mild annoyance towards Iwanaga's popularity and possible past hook-ups and possessiveness) so when he show ramped up to the break-up I was in denial. At that point an impending break-up felt at odds with their characters.

Until Miyata couldn't answer the question of whether he loves Iwanaga and then posed the suggestion of a break-up.

As soon as Iwanaga in return suggests to take a break with the relationship, we can see in Miyata's eyes that he doesn't really feel good about this. A break-up, a break, none of it feels like the thing he wants but it is still better than his state of not knowing what exactly he wants with all the revelations around Iwanaga's family situation unfolding.

Without the interference of Sugimoto or the sister, the topic of his family might have come up at some point (I don't think Iwanaga would be as reluctant to tell Miyata that he got kicked out if he could still consider the family issue a closed matter, sans maybe trying to hide it as long as possible lest Miyata feel guilty or bad about it) but the world around them really decided to come at them at the worst timing.

While they are dating - it is still not a full committment to each other (understandably so) since Miyata wants to date Iwanaga but still has a possible break-up etc on his mind.

And while his reasoning is that he got hurt before, the argument that he loves Miyata more than Iwanaga does him might not hold true afterall.

We got to see a bit of that in last week's episode when Iwanaga - indignantly challenged by Miyata - confessed to loving Miyata in many similar ways. This is also the reason why Miyata feels confident about these past flings: he might be jealous, but he feels secure enough to show it and actually believe that Iwanaga loves him. He might be uncertain about the depths of these feelings, but at least he isn't anticipating getting cheated on.

Slowly we get the reveal that there are several levels to them trying out their relationship. For one, they haven't seen each other in a very long time and while it is very sweet how they just fit together (them going on dates, having conversations, sexual compatibility etc) while visibly not being the same people as they were in highschool, they are taking their time to get to know each other. Iwanaga thinks he can take his time now that Miyata at least decided to date him and is convinced he can make him stay - but he is withholding a lot from Miyata.

And Miyata...realizes that moving in would be too quick for them. And that he doesn't know how to handle Iwanaga wanting privacy ("outsider") while trying to shield him from something he doesn't tell him about. He gets to learn important information about Iwanaga's life from someone that is not Iwanaga, not only making it so that his image of Iwanaga was somewhat false (there actually was a lot at stake for Iwanaga to try and run away with Miyata) but in way that he has to feel embarrassed and bad about it.

He made Iwanaga out to be this villain and player in his mind and treated him that way, but now Miyata might blame himself for being fooled. The embarrassement he felt in highschool just came back to haunt him. And it might be easy to talk about hurt feelings (he does communicate that a lot to Iwanaga after warming up to him) it is much more difficult to communicate when you haven't sorted your own feelings out.

He went from thinking that Iwanaga might actually love him despite himself being in love with Iwanaga in a way more inevitable way that felt unfair to him, to realizing that his love might not be enough for this.

His hesitation was solely focused on reasons that started and ended with them as individuals. But being in a relationship might now also entail hurting Iwanaga while being held at arms-length about his "insider" issues. How the outside will react to them being a couple. And that is a lot to put on something you are in the process of "figuring out". Miyata's reasons for not moving in are understandable, also as a gut-feeling I get it. But within the context of these changed parameters Miyata might now questions the extant for his love for Iwanaga and his ability to commit to a long-term relationship, to be family to Iwanaga in face of his inability to even move in with him.

That logic is warped, but this disturbance seems like that catalyst of uncovering where Miyata hasn't quite realized the extant to which he feels unsure in himself and inferior to Iwanaga. From highschool to know this uncertainty has stayed with him and it is coming to haunt him now. He might have to figure out how he's good for Iwanaga to come to truely trust himself in this relationship.

Which leads me to Iwanaga not letting him.

Rather than relying on Miyata he has decided to resolve the family matter on his own and in his dramatic romantic way (that is hardly every visible to Miyata, but always simmering beneath - we can see it in his eyes when Miyata isn't looking) he'd rather separate Miyata from all his issues and sacrifice himself.

And while there can be conflict in a relationship because not everyone has the same idea of privacy (e.g. withholding family issues, illnesses, debt etc.) his reluctance in sharing his pain with Miyata also seems to come from a place of self-loathing. The ease with which he flirts with Miyata (which annoys Miyata to no end and makes him questions how sincere Iwanaga is) seems to stem from fighting alone for a very long time. When in highschool it migh have come from a place of privilege induced obliviousness, him detaching himself in this way now seems like a survival strategy.

His desperation and want makes him pursue Miyata, but he does so in a seemingly unserious manner, toying with Miyata just in case this won't work out. Just like he gives the huge bouquet to Miyata: if Miyata likes it all is well, if he detests it he can make a joke out of it and still win (the bouquet strategy obviously took an estimation of Miyata's character into account, but no one can tell me that Iwanaga didn't actually want to get Miyata flowers and have him move in. Even when he is somewhat aware, he always leaves himself a way out).

To him this family issue was resolved, maybe only a question of whether he ever wanted to tell Miyata how he isn't actually a rich kid anymore (see above). So suddenly he has to actually treat something seriously (his family, his sisters wedding) and come to terms with his family issue not being resolved entirely as he thought and having to possibly burden Miyata with something. And he hasn't had the time to figure out how to do this while leaving himself an out, so when Miyata proposes a break-up he is quick to change it to taking a break in order to resolve this issue detached from Miyata but with the opportunity to get back with him.

Which resonates with how Miyata is very astute of but also consciously puts an effort into not making the same mistakes. Whereas Iwanaga has been fighting on his own for so long, he hasn't really changed that much since high school. It is now on him to learn how to actually let someone in (the degree might still be different to what Miyata wants) and feel precious about himself.

We get a similar situation to 10 years ago, both feeling unsure of themselves and devalueing themselves while the outside world does the best to interfer. And I'd chance they'd stood a better chance if this happened further into their relationship, but alas...they get thrown into a very similar situation and now it is on them to proof to themselves that these 10 years made a difference.

Obviously this is the plot device timed for the halfway point, but I enjoyed the build-up and going from "oh no" to "oh.....I get where they're coming from and how this will be a catalyst for a new beginning" because it all was set up well within their characters (Miyata not being able to say publicly that he loves Iwanaga after refusing to move in with him, Iwanaga being playful about his feelings for Miyata while having a hurt look in his eyes everytime they get to the topic of their highschool romance, Iwanaga getting kicked out does tie the lose ends together from where the show left them during their highschool days).

They are both very suddenly confronted with a barrage of struggles so it made sense to me that their weren't able to communicate what they actually wanted to say. Because Miyata doesn't know it quite yet and Iwanaga is putting himself down by making assumptions about what Miyata is thinking - sth only Miyata has learned to no solely rely on since high school.

The idea that history repeating itself wouldn't be so bad, if it didn't happen when the protagonists weren't quite ready yet, is a very entertaining thought to me. And I am interested to see how these two will muddle their way through it to challenge the repitition.

This feels like it is getting off the rails so I'll stop here

tagging @bengiyo since I promised more substance (although this got way longer than i expected)

#koi wo suru nara nidome ga joto #恋をするなら二度目が上等 #love is better the second time around #koi nido