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So I haven’t posted anything on her in donkeys years.

And no one reads these anyway so i guess it doesn’t matter

But I got a place at the Bristol Old Vic, somehow i got a place on their Scenic Art course, one of three students. I cried actual tears when they called me. 

I was so fucking excited to be doing something so amazing, so perfect, painting all day everyday.

But now the reality of it has set in, and its crushing me.

The cost of it, the debts I’m taking on just to attend the course, the amount of hours i’m putting in at a soul crushing minimum wage job just so I can afford to live and feed myself while i’m there. 

And then when I’m all done i’m gonna have 5 years of debts to pay off. If I don’t immediately get into work as a result of this course I’ll be a failure. It’s more pressure than I think I’m prepared for.

Is it worth it? I feel like I can’t afford to take risks and do what I love because I’ve been fucking broke my whole life. How is that fair? I don’t know what to do.

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jesus christ Broad City is fucking perfection

#broad city

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Guardians of the Assassin's Creed Galaxy... could be fun

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just spent the last few hours watching the first 8 episodes of girls

goddamnit i love this fucking show

#girls

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ergh just - how is it possible for a human being to be this attractive. I can imagine the writers having a massive crush on Cillian so they write all these little bits into the script like 'oh yh there he's soaking wet' and 'put a sack on his head so when they pull it off his hairs all ruffled' 

it's like Bryan Fuller with Hannibal - we see what you're doing there and we love it

Reasons to watch Peaky Blinders. I.e., sass, smoke, sack, sex, whiskey and more. (requested by anon)

#cillian murphy #peaky blinders

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floating building in convent garden

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oh my goodness what is this from I know I watched it as a kid I can hear the little splashing sounds in my mindddd

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*period pain kicks in*

*grabs a tablespoon and starts eating nutella straight out the jar*

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hurry up and be 9 o'clock so i can watch peaky blinders pleaseeeeeeeeeee

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tea time #carpenteryouth

#carpenteryouth

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chillin in the forest

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don't you just love sexually repressed misogynist boys that deal with their own issues my harrassing women?

SAID NO ONE EVER

seriously get the fuck out of my face you immature emotionally stunted sad little boy. 

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well shit

making ambitious exciting life plans just to have them fucked over by misinformation and contradictions kinda sucks

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penguin dolphin!

Leucistic Hourglass Dolphin (by Med Gull)

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yesyesyes

#music #spotify