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[daenerya]

i've been struggling with eating disorders for half of my life. for years, it kept getting worse - i tried everything from any kind of diets and counting each calorie, having one meal per day, making myself throw up everyday, using laxatives to dr*g abuse. i lost some weight, gained some back. the thing is, you don't get rid of your ed once you reach your ideal weight. it becomes a mindset, sometimes even a comfort zone. i don't know if fully recovering is ever possible and i do know it feels impossible to most of us. but it gets better. i remember crying everyday about my body, weighing myself 4 times a day, not allowing myself to go out, blaming on my body everything that ever went wrong in my life even when it was totally unrelated. i still hate my body some days, i still feel terrible after eating "too much", i still relapse and feel hopeless sometimes. i feel like that little voice in the back of your head making you feel guilty about eating, losing control or gaining weight never shuts down totally. still, it doesn't affect my life as much as it used to, and i feel sad for my younger self tearing herself apart. if you're struggling right now, please know it does get better and someday your first thought of the day will not be about your weight.

#eating disorders #ed recovery #tw ed

[daenerya]

— you’re correct. humans are sinful and foolish. but they aren’t quite as boring as you think.

@animangacreators challenge #14: winter 2023

BUNGOU STRAY DOGS S4 (2023) created by asagiri kafka

#bungo stray dogs

[daenerya]

dude. please expand your taste in movies and tv shows good fucking lord. its like you only watch recent boring and shitty oscar bait. live a little. watch to wong foo with love

sorry i only watch horror

[daenerya]

im sorry, i need to be honest. the uquiz you made with the movies is so bad. aside from hannibal your taste is like, really terrible. please try watching tv shows and films that are good instead

bro why do u care about my taste and why are people still pissed over a stupid quiz i made 2 years ago when i was bored

[daenerya]

All that suffering wasn’t because there’s something wrong with me,but because there’s something wrong with the people around me?

#bungo stray dogs

[daenerya]

I’m all alone, living in a world of monsters.

#bungo stray dogs

[daenerya]

indirect kiss

#chainsaw man

[daenerya]

Edogawa Ranpo ✩ S4E2

#bungo stray dogs

[daenerya]

Edogawa Ranpo ✧ Bungou Stray Dogs S4 ep. 01

#bungo stray dogs

[daenerya]

EASY REVENGE

#chainsaw man

[daenerya]

HAYAKAWA FAM 💌

#chainsaw man

[daenerya]

Episode Nine: From Kyoto  

#chainsaw man

[daenerya]

You’re the only light I’ve ever known. You’ve changed me Violet.

#american horror story

[daenerya]

— The Angel Devil. Bit of a special case: No enmity towards humans, but you'll wanna keep your distance. Physical contact means your lifespan gets drained away.

angel devil ✩ episode 11

#<3 #chainsaw man

[daenerya]

Episode Ten: Bruised & Battered

#chainsaw man

[daenerya]

chainsaw man - 11.

#chainsaw man

[daenerya]

A CORPSE IS TALKING.

#chainsaw man