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Things that trauma does:

gives you health issues

gives you paralyzing fear of the future and of the past

stops you from reaching for a future you might have liked to take

gives you amnesia and general memory problems

makes your sleeping time an absolute hell

makes your awake time an absolute hell

makes you consider not being alive way more than you usually would

makes certain unavoidable situations terrifying and next to impossible to handle

makes it more difficult and straining to survive

makes you feel alone in every group

makes your relationships strained and alienating

makes your socialization either a performance or something you cannot even do anymore

forces you to see yourself as weak and breakable

forces you to admit that bad things can and will happen and you can no longer live in oblivion or optimism about your prospects, they will look bad even when they are not

makes you catastrophize the future or makes you believe there is no future for you at all

brainwashes you and builds your fears up to the point where you can't imagine there being a reality that isn't traumatic somewhere

gives you severe mental health issues and issues with how you view yourself and your body

makes you long for a moment without pain and fighting

makes you believe that you will never be safe, or loved, or happy, or that you don't even deserve any of those things in the first place

makes you feel abandoned by the world and like you have no place in anyone's heart

makes you alienated from any person who hasn't been thru trauma

makes you feel like nothing will ever be okay

what trauma doesn't do:

make you stronger

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I’ve been looking for sfw agere content on youtube that is still active and I can’t find much 😫 Does anyone have any channels to recommend? Also if any of my followers have their own account I’d love to check it out!

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When you take a child who’s been abused and neglected and bullied, and all of a sudden someone pays attention to them, even if that child knows it’s in an innapropriate manner, do you really expect the child to want to get rid of that attention?

I keep telling myself that it’s my fault my CSA went on for so many years

But really? Who could blame me

It was never my fault. It was my parents for never giving me attention and it was my schools for never looking out for me and it was abusers who took advantage of that.

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WARNING!!!!! do NOT love me!!!! i am a huge disappointment!!’!!?

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I’m such a “nah I got it” and suffer in silence type of person.

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I’m such a “nah I got it” and suffer in silence type of person.

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I feel like my anxiety is out of control and my emotions are controlling me.

#bpd life #quiet bpd #living with borderline #borderline feels #borderline personality disorder #covidー19 #shelter in place #im losing my mind #im literally losing my mind #send help

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I love this 💓

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It’s okay if you thought you were over it but it hits you all over again. 

It’s okay to fall apart even after you thought you had it under control. 

You are not weak. Healing is messy. And there is no timeline for healing. 

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Yuta is literally LIMPING, Taeyong is in a neck brace, and Johnny is now getting cupping to help with pain. 3 COMEBACKS IN 7 FUCKING MONTHS!? I DONT WANNA HEAR SHIT ABOUT A 127 COMEBACK UNTIL CHRISTMAS