daughterofhecata

[daughterofhecata]

#comic #adhd #pfft

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motherfucker said PROFESSIONAL

#tumblr things #language #hehe

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getting to know my mutuals and followers: if you had to sing karaoke on the spot RIGHT NOW what would your go to song be reply in the tags

#bring me to life or eye of the tiger #had lots of practice doing those on rockband back in school

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supernatural really was like okay so dean and cas grieve each other like widowers and repeatedly come back from the dead for each other and feel each other’s losses like a missing limb and choose to defy god for each other and coparent two children together and get divorced and go through marriage counseling and reconcile and never get other serious love interests because no one else could ever approach what they mean to each other and cas openly states that he’s in love with dean BUT as long as dean doesn’t say it back out loud in english they’re technically not a couple

#supernatural #destiel

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I think the “can trans men say tranny” discourse is so funny because like what am I mean to say to transphobes who call me tranny. Am I meant to go “erm actually I’m a trans man! Not a trans women - and only trans women get called tranny. Please call me faggot instead.”

#queer #slurs #this

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Bin jetzt mit Spur der Toten fertig.

Mein Lieblingssatz war vermutlich: "Der Franklin ist nicht bis zur nächsten Straßenecke zu trauen." Peters Misstrauen hat mir echt viel gegeben, weil ich die ganze Zeit seiner Meinung war.

Also die negativity unterm Cut.

Für mich ergibt ehrlich gesagt immer noch keinen Sinn, warum zum Fick Clarissa dieses Ding mit den Tonbändern inszeniert hat. Wenn sie einfach die Klappe gehalten hätte, wäre sie ohne Probleme mit ihrem Plan durchgekommen, niemand hätte es hinterfragt. Und Cliffwater so dringend ins Gefängnis bringen wollen, dass sie dafür das Risiko in Kauf nimmt, dass die Jungs (wie schon DREI MAL in der Vergangenheit!) ihre Pläne durchkreuzen??? Naja.

Außerdem, ganz abgesehen davon, dass ich den "geheime Zwillingsschwester" Plot Twist immer noch langweilig finde, die Frauen sind um die Fünfzig und haben vollkommen unterschiedliche Leben gelebt. Eineiige Zwillinge hin oder her, ich würde darauf wetten, dass es trotzdem Unterscheidungsmerkmale geben müsste, die Cliffwater hätten auffallen können. Anfangen schon möglicherweise bei der Frisur. Oder ist Clarissa erstmal noch zum Friseur gerannt, bevor sie Bumblebee angerufen hat??? (Auch, dass Cliffwater einmal tatsächlich Cassandra vor sich gehabt haben soll, die Clarissas Plan gedeckt hat und sich wiederum für sie ausgegeben hat???) Ansonsten Tätowierungen, Narben, etc, auf die Cliffwater vielleicht nicht im ersten Moment geachtet hätte, aber die möglicherweise eine Rolle hätten spielen können, sobald Zweifel an Clarissas Tod aufgetreten sind. Außerdem sagt Justus, Cassandra wäre "von ihrem Krebsleiden schwer gezeichnet", sodass Cliffwater sich zumindest mal hätte wundern können, wie Clarissas körperlicher Zustand sich innerhalb eines Tages so stark verschlechtert, dann gebessert und dann wieder verschlechtert hat.

Und diese ganze "Ich bin deine Mutter, Bob"-Nummer am Ende hat ja zum Glück zu nichts geführt, war aber auch irgendwie... meh. Ganz abgesehen von "Eine wahre Mutter wäre niemals in der Lage, an ihren eigenen Sohn solchen Terror auszuüben". I have some news for you about what people are capable of doing to their own children.

#...was mich auch ein bisschen abfuckt ist dass im hörspiel den vornamen der schwester geändert haben #warum minninger??? ist ja nicht so als wärst du nicht für buch *und* skript verantwortlich gewesen. why the sudden change??? #spur der toten #kaj rambles #drei fragezeichen #wank #naja jetzt isses abgehakt

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trying to describe black sails to people is my personal sisyphean task. “it’s a pirate show” bad. “it’s functionally a prequel to treasure island but also it’s not at all” bad again, and also confusing. “it’s about pirates trying to destroy western civilization” mostly only true of the second half of the show and also doesn’t fully capture what i love about it. “it’s a pirate show about the power of stories, how civilization uses shame to keep people in line and turns them into monsters, and the power of queer rage. it’s got some of the best acting, writing, everything of any show i’ve ever seen.” the most accurate, but way too long and makes me sound pretentious and insane. send help i just want to talk about my favorite show.

#black sails #fucking black sails

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With their insistence on forcing Justus on another stupid diet every book without ever making him lose weight the Crimebuster era actually has illustrated perfectly how dieting works.

It doesn't.

#die drei fragezeichen #die drei ??? #justus jonas #crimebusters #diet culture #fatphobia #they just mock him and make him miserable and for what? nothing. #don't take this the wrong way i think it's very important for him to stay fat and those diets never should have been a topic but #it's ironically realistic in a way that was most likely not intended #kaj rambles

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They say you die three times, first when the body dies, second, when your body enters the grave, and third, when your name is spoken for the last time. You were a normal person in life, but hundreds of years later, you still haven’t had your “third” death. You decide to find out why.

#ea nasir #hehe #rainy day content

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Schön, wie Minninger seit, was, zwanzig Jahren? für DDF schreibt und offenbar trotzdem keine Ahnung hat, wie genau es sich mit den Zugängen zur Zentrale verhält. Hab mich am Anfang schon gewundert, warum Bob durchs Kalte Tor geht und dahinter auf allen Vieren weiterrutscht, aber jetzt sagt Bob gerade "[...] Sie beobachteten dort, wie ich mit der Pappschachtel geradewegs durch die Kühlschranktür in unsere Zentrale verschwand. Als ich diese später ohne Karton wieder verließ, nahm ich aber die Wohnwagentür, die ich hinter mir abschloss."

Das Kalte Tor führt zur Wohnwagentür! Tunnel II muss durchkrochen werden und endet in der Bodenluke, aber der hat seinen Eingang in der Freiluftwerkstatt! Himmelherrgott, Minninger.

#drei fragezeichen #kaj rambles #andré minninger #die zentrale ist schon seit hundert folgen wieder versteckt! #und das kalte tor ging seitdem immer zur wohnwagentür! #🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️ #to delete later #es ist immer noch spur der toten but i'm not tagging it on purpose

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#average was like 80 books the last couple years #have a feeling it might be more this year #so far i've finished almost 10 books per month #(because like 5 of them were ddf every month xD) #but also i just have sooomany amazing stuff on my list that i'm dying to get to #currently forcing myself through spur der toten for the cotta content and so i can start bullet train afterwards #polls

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I made something

#writing #mood

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As an enjoyer of bad things happening in fiction as Bad Things I sometimes find myself in the really odd position of thinking. Well I don't SHIP it but I can see where you're getting that idea from. That would be fucked up and narratively interesting. It would fit the themes. What do you mean domestic fluff with these two

#tropes #yes #if i want healthy i eat a carrot

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trying your best does not mean putting an unbearable amount of strain on yourself.

#words to remember

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#transphobia #radfem rhetoric #this

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Something that literally changed my life was working with a friend on a coding thing. He was helping me create an auto rig script and was trying to explain something to me but his words were just turning into static in my brain. I was tired and confused and there was so many new concepts happening.

I could feel myself working toward a crying meltdown and was getting preemptively ashamed of what was about to happen when he said, “Hey, are you someone who benefits from breaks?”

It broke me.

Did I benefit from breaks? I didn’t know. I’d never taken them.

When a problem frustrated or upset me I just gritted my teeth and plowed through the emotional distress because eventually if you batter and flail at something long enough you figure it out. So what if you get bruised on the way.

I viscerally remembered in that moment being forced to sit at the table late into the night with my dad screaming at me, trying to understand math. I remembered taking that with me into adulthood and having breakdowns every week trying to understand coding. I could have taken a break? Would it help? I didn’t know! I’d never taken one!

“Yes,” I told him. We paused our call. I ate lunch. I focused on other stuff for half an hour. I came back in a significantly better state of mind, and the thing he’d been trying to explain had been gently cooking in the back of my head and seemed easier to understand.

Now when I find myself gritting my teeth at problems I can hear his gentle voice asking if I benefit from breaks. Yes, dear god, yes why did I never get taught breaks? Why was the only way I knew to keep suffering until something worked?

I was relating to this same friend recently my roadtrip to the redwoods with my wife. “We stopped every hour or so to get out and stretch our legs and switch drivers. It was really nice. When I was a kid we’d just drive twelve hours straight and not stop for anything, just gas. We’d eat in the car and power through.”

He gave a wry smile, immediately connecting the mindset of my parents on a road trip to what they’d instilled in me about brute forcing through discomfort. “Do you benefit from breaks?” he echoed, drawing my attention to it, making me smile with the same sad acknowledgement.

Take breaks. You’re allowed. You don’t have to slam into problems over and over and over, let yourself rest. It will get easier. Take. Breaks.

#self care #life advice #words to remember

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smthing i can just never believe when ppl (mostly twitter users) complain about a girl character being made to look 'mannish' or 'masculine' and talk about the death of femininity and every time i get excited and think 'oh okay cool did we get a butch character or-' and its literally jusg a regular fucking woman like you would see at the grocery store. like jusyt a normal woman

#sexism #gender roles #yeah