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I got my hair did in preparation for this ball coming up. I was going to get a manicure and a pedicure but considering how expensive just getting my hair done was and then the anxiety of trying to find a place or fit in another appointment, I think Im just going to do it myself at home. I did ask the hair dresser if I could come back and if she could style my hair for me. My anxiety totally flared asking for this but I did schedule an appointment.

Problem is is I was looking at the work schedule and I do schedule my own work days but the day of the ball looks so unmanageable and ugly without me..I think Ill have to run in and help for the first half of the day and tell them they're screwed and finish without me. I just dont understand our scheduling.

Think that weekend we are also travelling to Phoenix as my SIL graduates nursing school. Its scheduled on a terrible day and we feel bad nobody is going to be able to make it so we are going to try and show up for her. Maybe take a trip to ikea..for fun...but now I need to schedule boarding for my dog at the last minute. We also have plans to visit Santa Fe for memorial day weekend.

The past 2 weekends have been kinda cool. We visited Hueco Tanks to check out the rock climbing and bouldering. To literally check it out, it was spur of the moment, we didn't actually come prepared for climbing but we watched several teams do it and we essentially hiked around and explored the place.

Yesterday we drove to Cloudcroft and a "viral" place we saw on tiktok called The Applebarn. Supposed to have obviously apple pies and other treats. Have to admit I was expecting it to be a bit like Lanes Orchard in Georgia where they had a cafeteria of freshly cooked goods and this place..did not...it had some cool nicknacks but I was honestly expecting to walk out of there with some sort of an apple crumble and ice cream..just total nope. Cloudcroft was ok. Ive definitely been to better tourist areas. I did see some CUTE clothing items though but they were so expensive and I just didn't think it was worth it...Then we drove to Whitesands New Mexico which also had me worried. Some of these parks I'm always like "ok but what do you do when you get there?" and it was actually pretty cool. Yes, essentially as an adult you kinda go and look around but it was still neat to look at. Overall it was a decent day trip. The weather was very nice and comfortable and everywhere was dog friendly. I'm so sad we didn't bring our dog because she could have gone inside the shops in Cloudcroft even T_T

we purchased a National Park guide where you can mark off where you've been with stickers. We are "near" a few more national parks that we've never been too. We are going to try and mark off some before we leave. I'd like to make it to some of those midwest parks but I doubt thats going to happen.

#illustration #sketchbook #sketch #artblog #animalart #traveling #nationalparks #huecotanks #rockclimbing #whitesands #cloudcroft

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Back when the Barbie movie came out a couple of extremely girly hot-pink cafes opened. I didn't want to go by myself (when husband was deployed) because they seemed awfully crowded during Barbie and they're downtown and I hate trying to park in downtown areas. Anyway, my husband took me to brunch at one yesterday and it was fabulous. We had actually already heard the food was pretty blah but our iced coffes were all actually very good and glittery and cute. Everything was covered in pink and glitter. I'm glad I accidentally dressed appropriately. My one complaint about this city is nobody seems to believe in french pastries. Truly I want just want a good coffee and croissant. You can find a croissant but you can't get it at a coffee shop. If you do then the coffee isn't good.

We then visited the local Comic-con. I like to look but the second hand embarrassment always kills me. Its just not really the land of my peoples. I really wanted to catch glimpses of Patrick Warburton and Zachary Levi on camera but there were so many people, I felt anxious trying to pull out my phone. I was really hoping to find some sort of sailor moon figurine. I know I can purchase them online but I kind of wanted the real life shopping experience. One of my biggest con regrets was years ago, I went to a convention and somebody had a table of unique sailor moon merch. Everything from make-up to jewelry to action figures and just small collectors items. I really wished I had purchased some of the decorative pens and compacts. I've never been to another con like it. This convention, while we are in a large city, is not the biggest convention I've been to. I think the coolest booth I found was for Teeturtle. I did find this little simba figuring which Id never seen in real life before. There was another disney 100 one but panicked at the price of both figures together and didn't buy both.

after that my husband wanted to go to a Gun show ('merica!) and I think he was a little disappointed with it. I was just kind of fascinated because it was inside a freemason hall and I'd never been in one before and it was really weird. They didn't have that many guns. They actually had a lot of scentsy and those adhd bubble fidget toy booths haha. I also saw just as many porn books there as I did at the anime convention.

but in any case the weather was actually gorgeous for once. I just enjoyed being out of the house. We also had a post wide yard sale and we drove around a bit looking at items we dont really need. We also stopped at an alterations place to get my ball gown fitted. I procrastinate too much and the dress I was eyeing was out of stock so I just chose..one of the bajillion others I saved on pinterest and it came in the mail within 24hours but alas..I have short legs and its too long.

I have poor sense of time and didn't realize our ball is in like 2 weeks..and now I have to figure out what to do about my hair. Im going to make last minute hair and pedicure appointments..or do what I did the last time and just do everything myself and wonder what I would look like if I was professionally prettied.

also, we went to a baseball game last weekend and my horrible sunburn is starting to peel off. My entire forehead and ears are flaking in small chunks going up into my scalp. Its a lot of fun.

I did film for youtube and I feel like I have enough extra stuff for a life vlog which is everything I listed here so its probably ruined.

also our facility owner apparently hates me again for something he did that I didn't do so I'm yet again counting days of which its appropriate to have a gap in my resume before we move from here.

#illustration #sketchbook #sketch #drawing #artblog #animalart #artvlog #simbafanart #sarabi #tlk #thelionking #elpasocomiccon #comiccon #pinkcafe #cutecafe #tlkmerch

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I did some digital editing of a drawing I did the other day. I never like when I edit things and always go back to the original but we will give it a try. I'll stare at it over the next few days and decide if it was worth it.

I did a lot of stuff today. I filmed and edited for both youtube and tiktok and drew today. I guess its a form of stress relief. To be honest, even though I don't have a lot of viewers, I enjoy getting the art supplies from companies that find me. I've seen a lot of other online artists rant about other artists being so quick to accept items from companies but I enjoy it tbh. Thats the main reason I do it. I like the surprise of things in the mail. This is something that didn't happen 10 years ago on tumblr.

I actually have another artist book coming in the mail also but I got too excited and went off the rails with this one. I just wanted to open the ones I have really badly.

I'm 26 hours into FF7 rebirth. My opinions so far are me..cursing out a lot of these mini games.

otherwise happy Easter. I have no plans other than to sit at home, maybe go to the gym. Oh I did do a rock climbing competition the other weekend and I posted pictures from it on my facebook. I was definitely out of shape and out of my comfort zone but I really enjoyed it and felt kind of badass ngl.

#illustration #sketchbook #watercolors #sketch #realmedia #drawing #traditionalart #mixedmedia #artblog #animalart #Youtube

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Meant to update Tumblr and it just seemed like a hastle without a keyboard.

I even purchased a mini keyboard but my fingers keep hitting the wrong keys...

Anywho, my spouse came home from deployment. He's super excited to be home. I was really nervous about the coming home ceremony because usually they make you go find your partner on the field to "release" them and when theres hundreds of soldiers who look alike you're desperately looking for familiar body language/little unique quirks and its very stressful. This time there wasn't as many soldiers, they were also facing us and it was daylight and my soldier was the leader of the pack. So I caught him immediately. I also made a large sign which he spotted pretty quickly.

Also, his mother got the day off and while she missed the ceremony she did come this way to visit (with her sister) and they spent a long weekend with us. We did a lot of sight seeing and some shopping, eating and just in general, driving around town.

This was the first time we had guests in this house too so I was actually kind of excited to host and set up the guest bedrooms.

I have gotten to play a little bit of FF7Rebirth. Just a couple hours worth though because I didn't find it appropriate to play in front of family and then had to work. Also started the ATLA netflix show which I think was off to a decent start for the first episode.

Now its just a matter of finding a new routine. My husband doesn't like to sit at home, whereas before I had a lot of free time because I do like chilling at home. I have managed to start painting a new illustration though. Hopefully can get that done this week (probably not this weekend)

Id really like to start reading a new book but Im running out of free time.

#artvlog #artblog #militaryspouse #milso #ff7rebirth #artsupplies #illustration #selfportrait #Youtube

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I wanted to start a new sketchbook with gold acrylic paint marker for the shine. I think it looks fun in real life but I don't think it equates well online.

anyway, my husband comes home in a couple days. I have cleaned a lot. I did like a full house cleaning almost including scrubbing the toilets and washing rugs. I got new sheets for the bed. I was going to get things like new toothbrushes and soap but he said he wanted to get those on his own.

I can't really shop for food because unfortunately sometime this week they are having a surprise power outage to test emergency response. So electricity and everything is supposed to be out for 12 hours. They said try not to stock the fridge full of food and buy a bunch of bottled water. I have like no food in my fridge anyway. So my husband will just get off the plane and be hungry...

I also mowed the weeds Im growing instead of my lawn. I replanted a bunch of grass seed.

He doesnt know social media but I did get a welcome home cake and I put it in the freezer because Im not sure how long cakes last and Im not sure exactly when he'll be home and I wont have time to go pick it up later in the week. I peeked in the box and it got a little discombobulated 8( and the top layer kinda slid off. I had to prop it back on...atleast I got to taste it I guess.

Ive also been having stomach problems again but some of that might be my own fault. After I eat I feel like my stomach is pressing on my aorta or something important and it creates a pressure that goes up into my head. Then I cant tell if Im hungry or full.

anywho, going to die tomorrow at work. Im 3 nurses short and they just keep adding patients on even though Ive reported I have no staff. Its gonna be very suspect of a day.

#illustration #sketchbook #watercolors #sketch #drawing #realmedia #traditionalart #mixedmedia #artblog #animalart #militaryspouse

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I attempted a circus elephant. Didn't quite turn out like I wanted but alls good.

I had a horrible headache since Thursday evening and its finally given way this late morning. I was over it but once it wore off I was able to do a lot of stuff. The weather was great today. I walked outside in a skirt and I was actually warm. Just a couple days ago I was layering up still. I don't think the weather will last. Last year there was a snow storm around this time of year so I'm sure its false spring. I think I do get a bit of seasonal depression. I like cozy cold of Thanksgiving and Christmas but once the holidays are gone I was hot weather now.

I purchased a jean jacket which I've never had before that I can ever remember and I purchased a couple base layer summer dresses to layer with it. I hope they don't look dumb is all. I'm ready for farmers markets and brunch and sitting outside in the warm weather.

I did a lot of backyard work. I mean I guess it looks better but Im no landscaper. I think my neighbors were looking at me weird as I was mowing the lawn. All the grass is flattened and dead and its possible its not even grass but just a web of weeds. But I was using the mower as a leaf vacuum to try and pick up all the leaves rather than rake them. I did rake a good 10 bags of leaves but I don't have enough room in my dumpster. There was also a dead bird D: I had to pick it up. Probably gonna be bugs everywhere soon. I honestly think tomorrow Im just going to buy a ton of soil and grass seen and cover the entire yard. Im aware Im moving this year but I cannot let the sticker/goathead get out of control like it was when we moved in. My dog needs the back yard.

I have some weird work drama too. I always wanna talk about it but Im afraid of privacy issues. My boss bought us sub sandwiches for lunch a few days ago and I ended up being forced to take them all home. Ive been eating cold cut subs for the past 3 days (maybe thats why I have a headache). I gave some to the gate guards and my dog walkers family. Still had a bunch remaining. My dog walker is moving too btw in a couple months T_T my husband should be back by then but still. She said she has a replacement for me if I need it.

I've also posted this everywhere bragging on my spouse. He really did call me several weeks ago like "uhhh can you show me your Lion King collection I think I made a mistake" he knows I like TLK products and collect them but he's as clueless about my collection as I am if he asked me to buy him a gun. Like Idk what to buy. I guess its a little different because I own..a lot...and none of it is on display because we've moved so much the past couple years. So I had to take him into my closet and show him my breakables based on the boxes. I knew he found something online. I just wasnt sure which one it was.

Ive briefly scoured the internet for some sort of TLK 30th anniversary anything and havent found much. So this was a surprise to me. I would have found it eventually (and probably real soon) so he's lucky he got it to me. It was a very nice gift. It looks beautiful on my computer desk. I wish I had some of my other figures out but they'd just have to go in boxes again in a few months. One of these days I'll get a display case.

#illustration #sketchbook #watercolors #sketch #drawing #realmedia #traditionalart #mixedmedia #artblog #animalart #thelionking #disneymerch #thelionking30thanniversary #elephantart #disneyinspired

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I did a little bit of some shopping. I bought a new sketchbook too that I found at 5below and I was pretty sure I was not going to make a youtube video this weekend but now I'm making one about this sketchbook.

I like all the 1980s girly retro cartoon tees at target.

My week was ok at work its just again the fact that I'm kinda dumped into a management position and sometimes I think I'm on the spectrum (like for real, I'm not trying to be insulting, sometimes I wonder about myself) and I say the dumbest things. The older I get the braver I get but sometimes I just embarrass myself.

Otherwise I downloaded Xenoblade3. I wasnt going to do it but I did it. Haven't had time to play it yet tho.

I also went out in the cold and did some yard work but I'm out of dumpster space again. I think its that time of the year where I'm due for my annual attempted kidnapping. A guy (unprompted) at Target asked me to come look at some $400 tools in his car that he's selling for $100 as I was putting my groceries in my trunk. And then I got home and my back gate was wide open. Somebody had disconnected my hose and dislodged my sprinklers. I wonder if it was housing maintenance but I have not ran my sprinklers all winter. They could have atleast shut the gate.

There was also a townhall meeting giving us spouses vague information on when our service members should be returning home from overseas. My husbands luck it'll be the last flight home in late May. I have no doubt.

#cat illustration #sketchbook #watercolors #sketch #drawing #realmedia #traditionalart #mixedmedia #artblog #animalart #tiger illustration

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Ok, so Im using a doodle I drew of Cloud just to represent video games in general.

I finished Xenoblade2. It was on my list of games to entertain me while my husband was deployed. Honestly thought Id make a bigger dent in that backlog but alas, my spouse has been gone for 9 months and I only played 1.5 games. I started Zelda:totk prior to him leaving and it took me half his trip and 220 hours to finish. Been playing XB2 since finishing Zelda. Well, I lie I haven’t been counting Disney Dreamlight also which has an absurd amount of hours on it too.

Other games on my list to play are Octopath Traveler 2, Xenoblade 3 and possible Red Dead Redemption 2 (my only one for the ps4)and I had another possible for the switch also. I didn’t necessarily want to play XB2 and in fact the internet suggested to skip it but I felt guilty having played 1 and skipping to 3, so I gave it a try. For the record, my spouse returns home within the month and I’m not making it through my backlog.

So I have thoughts about XB2. In a way I don’t know if it was as bad as the internet says it was. Probably seems ok because I haven’t played 3 which is apparently one of the best modern jrpgs so my opinion will probably change. My biggest gripe was traversing the map. I enjoy a good, open world and stumbling upon hidden nooks and crannies but this game did not make it easy to get to certain locations. I was trying hard not to google information but sometimes I had to just to get to some of these tunnels. Particularly in Gormott. Nothing pissed me off than trying to get around main Gormott area and then if you weren’t just lost the game punished you by having random level 90 monsters swoop down and murder you. I guess the murder isn’t exactly new. XB1 had similar but exploring was so much easier. It may have also been a switch problem but keeping the character in auto run was a challenge itself. I almost quit this game because of it. Rex would be in a sprint and then get stuck walking stupidly slow.

That reminds me too of the controls. It took me a long time to get used to opening the correct menu. I kept accidentally opening the settings/save screen instead of the main menu or the map screen. Also on the world map I would keep accidentally opening up controller help button. This is fine except they don’t make it super easy to back out of them. You have to click through multiple screens. Again, some of this might be because I was pushing certain menu buttons for Zelda for so long it took a while to get used to backwards controls.

Other control problems were my fault. I do not want to read a manual to play. I don’t like tutorials. I feel like the buttons should always be obvious. I did not read any instructions. It took me far too long (90 hour mark) to realize if I press start, a chain attack would occur. I learned this while trying to pause during a boss fight, which I don’t even know if you can pause still. Also, around the 120 hour mark I learned that each blade had little mini quests to unlock power ups. I just assumed you used them to level them up. I never actually clicked around in the screen (which also had stupid controls) lmao. /failgamer/. This one’s kinda annoying because I had to run around the world again to excavate and open all these chests I couldn’t before because nothing was leveled lol.

All of these things were very frustrating when trying to set and perform regular quests and missions. Some of the quests were very vague and difficult to follow without a guide.

Then we have the story and characters. The giant boobs I could ignore as they usually come with jrpgs but the story and characters lost my interest almost immediately. The gameplay being more fun despite being clunky. I honestly don’t know if I could name every character. The final boss was also just meh. I don’t necessarily need a challenge but he was no more amazing than any regular fight. I felt nothing when the credits rolled.

I will say I liked the atmosphere of the game and the voice acting except for tora. Dude..shut up..the mini game tiger tiger wasn’t so bad either. Thought that was going to be painful but they were pretty lenient.

Overall I think it was maybe just under Tales of Arise. I played SEs Harvestella last year and XB1 and 2 are both far superior than it. I wasn’t expecting to get almost 140 hours in this game tho and I didn’t even complete some of the side quests. I tried to go for completionism but I just couldn’t get lost on the maps anymore.

I’m considering dropping immediately into XB3 but the new FF7 is about to come out. I don’t know if I should get invested when I’ll have to stop in the middle to play another game. I won’t be able to play ff7 until my husband comes home next month tho because he has the ps5. I also never got to play ff16 and I’m considering baldurs gate…all the cool people played it already tho and I’m behind.

But ff7. Rebirth has sparked a resurgence in an old obsession.

#illustration #sketchbook #sketch #drawing #artblog #gamergirl #girl gamers #procreate #cloud strife #fanart #ff7 rebirth #ff7fanart #xenoblade #digital doodle #doodling

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I'm behind updating tumblr again. I'm getting more invested with Threads. I feel like people there have been pretty friendly and responsive. I was thinking about trying out Bluesky website again.

Anywho, I'll have a new youtube vlog video out in the morning. I thought maybe I'd get more done this weekend than I thought. Not just artwise but chore wise. But it rained and there was actually snow/ice out on the mountains in the distance. I just kinda couch-potato'd at home. Didn't even go to the gym this weekend.

I accidentally got promoted again at work. This happens every few months. I have the most experience so I keep getting thrust into this position, I turn it down and somebody else comes in and takes it over and then quits and then I get it again. But I'm trying real hard to maintain my parttime hours. I don't want to be there 5 days a week and I don't want to take a beating from other administrators. I literally just want to be a nurse and go home. I'm counting down the months til I can quit before we move again.

Admittedly, I feel like things are a lot better at work and my girls tell me things are a lot better. I'm ok with delegating tasks to my staff members and everybody is extremely flexible and helpful to one another. My elderly age is getting immune to doctors screaming at me. I think this last girl who was hired into this management position may be on her way out but right now she's just stepped down but apparently still wants to work. I really really like her and I really really want her to stay, even as just regular staff.

My husband should be coming home within the next several weeks, I just dont know when. Theres some sort of "town hall meeting" in some odd days and I'm assuming Ill get those details then. Ofcourse, they like to do these meetings at awkward times.

Theres some places on this end of the country I'd like to see before we move because its probably unlikely we'll return to this end ever again.

Otherwise, as stated on my other social medias, I am back in my Final Fantasy 7 obsessive phase. I am super excited for the part2 remake to come out but I cant play it til my spouse gets home. I keep writing an entire thesis sized paper about the importance of this game to siblings and I but then I keep deleting it.

when my spouse gets home, I am doing a full power point presentation to catch him up (because he isnt a gamer) and I want a FF inspired meal! Also, I never played the Yuffie DLC....

#illustration #sketchbook #watercolors #sketch #drawing #realmedia #traditionalart #mixedmedia #artblog #animalart #ff7

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Well, I was anticipating a Vet visit this upcoming weekend because I needed to follow up for my dogs weird UTI. She had something funky in her bladder and I'm brain-googling the worst but the vet insisted its just a really bad uti this last time. This last round of antibiotics were killer. She didn't like the taste of it and it gave it her really bad diarrhea. Because she was having diarrhea, I didn't want to take her to the groomers. She was starting to look scraggly and I'm having to wipe her butt everyday.

The weather was really nice the other day and she threw her ball at me to play, so we went outside and on throw number 3 she snapped her dew claw half off. Started bleeding everywhere. Dog thought she was going to be limp forever. It was really sad, so I took her back to the vet to get it removed and follow up with her UTI.

Her bladder and urine apparently looked really good. Got another round of antibiotics though because of the toe.

now she looks even more scraggly because I tried to clean her paw as best I could but she doesnt want me touching it. So she has an ungroomed body, bloody foot and diarrhea butt. /sigh.

The moment she has normal poops she's going in for a professional bath. I'm like profusely apologizing to my dog walker that I'm not a lazy pet owner (I mean I'm sorta lazy).

otherwise I have no plans for this weekend other than grocery shopping. Pray for my work day today, I feel it may be awful.

#corgi #illustration #traditionalmedia #sketchbook #watercolors #drawing #realmedia #traditionalart #mixedmedia #artblog #animalart #traditional art #traditional drawing #traditional illustration #traditional sketch #traditional painting #watercolor #painting #pencil #corgiowner #lioncub

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I did a vloggy vlog. Im doing really well at drawing something every day but Im not doing well at conceptualizing and illustrating this new year.

January has been: be sick for a week, get a little better, go to work, go to sleep, go to the gym, play video games, do chores and repeat.

My husband will apparently be home from deployment maybe within the next 6 weeks or so.

I did get my W2s but I cant file taxes til the spouse gets home.

My FIL is having some major health problems and had to have a big surgery. Sounds kinda stressful on their end.

I've picked up an interest in the french language again now my brain is getting spanish and french super confused. I think next year, because this is the last year of my 5 year journal (I have 2 journals actually), Im going to pick up another journal and just do daily entries in spanish. I could technically do it this year but I literally just did the entire year of one of the 5 year journals a few days ago...and the other one I let it go about a week out and fill in the entire week at once. I can't focus on a third journal when I can barely do one in my native language.

I am over winter. I would really like to go out in skirts and shorts again. I would really like to plant a garden but I wont because it will just be something else Id have to clean up before we move.

when my husband comes back theres a few nearby places we'd like to visit but this is probably going to be a very stressful year.

#artvlog #artistvlog #illustration #milso #Youtube

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I’m feeling better but I still have a residual cough. There’s actually suddenly a plethora of staff nurses at work all of a sudden. I done did trained em all too good that now I feel like I’m less needed. I lost my importance pedestal but that also means I get to work less hours. Which is a good thing for me. I went to the gym for the first time since…after thanksgiving?

I feel super weak and icky now tho. I did have the day off today and wasted a good portion of it with a horrible headache. I woke up with it and tried to ignore it and by this afternoon I was nonfunctional. I try not to take nsaids anymore but I had to take something. This one was killing me but I feel better this evening. Was able to take the dog on a super long walk and I did the dishes and cooked me dinner. I even filmed something for YouTube (If it isn’t a hot mess, I started originally filming with the headache) and I finally hung some black out curtains in my room. I’ve been meaning to do that for a while, got some new neighbors who light up their house like a light house every night and it’s blinding.

‘Today was my spouses 40th birthday. He seems to always be away on army stuff for his birthday and then the past couple years haven’t been great with our cat and his dad dying around that time. The packages I sent him overseas are lost in the mail which kinda sucks. The good news is his job sounds less stressful also and now he’s bored. He’s hoping to come home in February or march.

I’m also still doodling once a day but I have no complete illustration that I’ve even attempted so far this month. El Paso has so far bypassed the freezing weather and it was actually warmish this afternoon. Which is good because I hate post Christmas winter. I’m ready for shorts weather again.

Oh I also got girlscout cookies and I’ve been playing xenoblade 2.

#artblog #illustration #sketch #drawing #milso

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Well I've been daily updating twitter ofcourse. I kind of at the last moment decided I was going to do a daily doodle thing. I did this years ago, where I drew something every day for a year. I'm not doing a full illustration this time just really simple, essentially a couple lines and thats it. Just to help the creative juices flowing. I probably wont stick it out for an entire year but I keep getting myself backed up into an artistic corner and I want to back back out of it and find a new corner. Instead while I've been doing that, I've also been using it as an excuse to update the status of my current ailment.

so essentially, I had already self-diagnosed myself with the flu but I did go ahead and made an urgent care appointment on Saturday (?). I will say that I normally get a flu shot, every year, I did not get one this year. Next year I will definitely be getting one. I definitely got this from my coworkers and theres was like 3x milder than mine. My immune system was not prepared.

I did not want to physically go to urgent care because I didn't feel safe driving. I was super short of breath and I felt very drunk (because its in my ears! my ears are messed up). Also, didn't want to sit in a waiting room when sitting up sounded like a lot of effort and besides, what is urgent care going to tell me that I dont already know? viruses are treated with rest and fluids and thats it. However, I assumed my boss was going to be on top of me for some sort of a work note even though I'm not a full time employee and I dont feel like I should need one but I had agreed to work on monday and if I called in she'd probably pitch a fit. I discovered, thanks to the local spouse groups, that there was a local mobile urgent care. They came to my house! I schedule an appointment and they came out about an hour later. The most convenient thing ever. They apparently didn't take my insurance so they charged me 179$ out of pocket but I wasn't going to complain. I didn't have to go anywhere. I could track the MA on gps and they sent me his photo so I didn't "have to be scared" lmao. It was all very nice.

I had already tested myself for covid and it was negative. I was tempted to start myself on prednisone (because I practically have an entire pharmacy at home) but HR was a good 115 and adding steroid to that sounded not fun. Normally my HR runs 60s if Im calm and 80s if Im stressed. 115 with steroids on board didn't sound like fun. My 02 was dropping to 93 when I was up and walking around but it would go back up to the high 90s. This poor MA came with a laptop that virutally connected to a PA and they were like "what do you want me to do for you?" like I guess I mainly just wanted to make sure that I was safe to be at home and I have evidence I saw some sort of healthcare person as proof.

I oddly enough didn't have much of a cough until about yesterday. I was feeling short of breath and when I did cough I'd cough gunk up but mainly it just hurt to cough but it wasn't frequent at all. Now I'm coughing alot. The worst part was the hot/cold flashes. I completely drenched the bed in sweat. I've never seen that much water come off of me. I literally touched the valley of my stomach and it was a puddle. I splished my hands in it. I would alternate between uncontrollable sweating to then freezing to death. I thought I'd be over it and I washed all my linens yesterday and then last night, just sweat everywhere. Which was annoying because I felt....nagged..?..guilttripped? to go into work today by my boss. Like I was faking it..I couldnt possibly be sick that long(my coworkers recovered in 2 days)..maybe I was crazy and I wasn't sick?

so I did! I WENT TO WORK TODAY. My coworkers were actually fine. They said they were actually surprised they handled things well without me. I'm simultaneously proud of them and really aggravated that I went in. Because I really did feel terrible. I realized real fast how weak I was and my brain was not functioning. I even gave myself the easiest roll I could where I was off in a corner away from people and I was struggling. I was struggling to walk and I was struggling to stand. My partner at work let me know how bad I looked too. I apparently looked like a frail old lady. Which was nice.

So I went home. My boss is like "wait where you going?". I guess in her defense she came equipped with a bunch of throat lozenges for me but I didn't have a sore throat. I have no energy and cant breath. So I'm going home. I dont work tomorrow btw.

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[dausy]

Picked up some sort of bug. I don't feel well. I feel better than I did last night when I got off work but I almost feel drunk or hungover when I'm not.

I was working a lot of extra shifts training people. I'd honestly rather train people all day then work on my own tbh. But I had told my manager last week that our surgery schedule would be impossible with the amount of nurses on staff. She agreed with me and said she'd take of it when I knew there would be no change. There wasn't..there wasn't a change. She was really banking on these new nurses she'd hired, unfortunately both of these new nurses had deaths in the family and were out. Which is really inconvenient. There was also some sort of virus going around taking out a several of my other staff members. I can tell I'm getting old because I can get into a screaming match with a doctor and not cry. I held my ground and got what I wanted. I had barebones staff, meant I had to move incredibly slowly and there was nothing I could do.

but in any case, now I've picked up that same illness that was taking out my other girls. I got off work last night and instantly felt freezing cold and could not warm up. I took some nyquil and went to bed in sweatpants and a hoodie and socks. Normally I sleep clothes-less. But I was freezing to death. Then I woke up in the middle of the night with a pounding headache, my skin hurt all over and I was sweating profusely. Had to get up and take more drugs and I slept on the couch the rest of the night.

sitting still I almost feel normal, just a bit drugged in the head. When I stand up though its like I am not with it at all.

my poor dog I can tell is mad she's missed her walk this morning and is super bored. I just don't think I'm going to make it around the block.

Feel like I should have drawn something for the beginning of the new year but alas...I have nothing and nothing to film. I'll probably go take a bath.

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[dausy]

Happy New Year! I wanted to do like a comprehensive "stuff I did in 2023" but I have a terrible memory and goodreads says I only read 4 books which is completely incorrect so I don't know what I've read.

I have oddly enough done a quite a bit of things this year.

I've been here in Texas now for a year and at my current job for a year. I can tell you my spanish has improved tremendously without having any sort of scale or way to gauge to it. Still absolutely not fluent, just better than I was before we moved here. I've found my absolute favorite local coffee shop that is not a starbucks. It has great food and great coffee. I've been to many other local cafes in other states and their coffee always tasted like dirtwater and starbucks or mcdonalds has always been better (sad right?). We discovered Chilaquiles, which I have never heard of before until we moved here. Honestly we havent been to that many mexican restaurants and primarily focused on brunch spots. I also havent been out to eat since my husband left on his overseas rotation.

now that its the new year this is a new one that I've learned. Rosca de Reyes. I have never heard of it before. I've seen and had king cake around mardi gras time (which is nasty). But never Rosca de Reyes. So thats new to me.

We took several trips this year. We started our year off at Knotts Berry Farm and Downtown Disney. We visited my husbands side of the family a lot because now we're so close (8 hour drive and all). So we saw them for Easter. My SIL had her 21st birthday so we visited Las Vegas. This was right before they opened that giant globe and I did not see it..in the distance..its turned-off-ness. I completely missed it and never saw it. They were starting to gate everything off too for the car racing thing they were doing. She got to jump out of an airplane and I was not down to watching that. Cant do it. Makes me want to vomit. But she survived and said it was the greatest experience ever.

We then went back to the Los Angeles area around June/July to visit the beach and the Mario land in Universal Studios. I'd never been to US in California before only Florida. So that was an interesting experience too. I think mario was cool but unless it grows more, its not really worth it. The jurassic park ride for sure was more superior than the one in Orlando and the park tour was interesting surprisingly.

ran into a few celebrities on accident. Visited Little Tokyo which was a highlight to me.

and ofcourse I drove to my in-laws for thanksgiving and then went back just a couple weeks ago for Disneyland and another day at knotts.

I know I missed out on a lot of local experiences just because I didn't want to go on my own. I know there were a few bands in town I would have wanted to see but yeah..by myself no. We did go see a youtuber/comedian at the local theater and that was really neat. Their theater here is nice.

goodreads is screwed up and is telling me I read 4 books but thats inaccurate. If I could manually I did around 21 but I've returned quite a few books so I'm not sure the grand total.

I think the best book I read all year was Godkiller by Hannah Kaner. I enjoyed that a lot. I think a sequel comes out in march and I plan to read it too.

Hurricane Wars was a lot of stupid fun, not because I think it was well written, but because I get a kick out of fandom fanartists/fanfic authors doing something professional. I'm like "you go girl" and I don't even know these people. I didn't particularly think the original reylo fanfic was great. But I appreciate the success a fandom can bring people.

The worst book was IronFlame but I appreciate the hype. I like fandoms. I like the enthusiasm of fandoms and how much fun they make things. I want to join in on the fun too. I did not enjoy Fourth Wing. I thought it was terribly written. If it was a fanfic I would have hit the backbutton so fast on it (and thats how I judge my books, on the "back-button" scale). But they made the hype for IronFlame look so fun. It was even worse than Fourth Wing. I don't understand what others were reading but I can't judge because I bought it due to FOMO. I do not plan to read the third book.

Little surprise success too. I stuffed my kindle and discovered AG Caggiano and read the first book of Villains and Virtues and I really liked it. I have such a hard reading not-fanfic. The writing styles for fanfic and original books are just so different and I have a hard time getting into original novels but I really enjoy these silly characters. Never heard of this book series or author before. But I finished the first book within a couple days and I'm half thru the second. Its like a silly disney movie. Bit more pg13 but I enjoyed it.

I did have some fails. I made it through half of HarryPotter 2 and Im about 50 pages from finishing Court of Thornes and Roses by SJM in SPANISH. My goal was to finish these books in SPANISH. I honestly got a little distracted by a Tangled spanish fanfic. But reading in Spanish is very humbling and difficult. I have to be able to clear my mind to get through it. Some days I can zoom through a page, other days I don't understand a single word. So I didn't quite finish anything.

Trying to think of games I finished this year. I finished God of War Ragnarok at the beginning of the year. I mean, good game but the wow factor kinda stuck with the first remake. Nothing really stood out to me that I ever need to play it ever again.

I upgraded my switchlite to a switch OLED which almost killed me because there was nothing wrong with my switchlite but I wanted to play TOTK on the big tv. TOTK was fine too but I found myself getting bored of it. Again, I think the major wow factor was with the first one, BOTW. In TOTK, it felt like I was clearing the same map all over again but then they added the underground and sky which then just made my map-clearing OCD give intense anxiety re completionism. I have to stop and flip every rock over and I was getting tired.

I also played Harvestella which I did not enjoy. I played Octopath Traveler 1 which was not bad, I heard 2 was great and I plan to play it eventually. I also played Xenoblade 1 which was not bad either. I'm playing Xenoblade 2 now and I'm struggling a bit to get enthused about it. Everybody says X3 is amazing but I felt bad for skipping 2 to get to 3. So I'm going to suck it up.

The real winner this year for me has been Disney Dreamlight Valley. It was officially released in December but Ive been playing the "beta" for well over a year now. I got pretty heavy into it with some of the large updates this year. I have more hours in it than TOTK. With all its issues and peoples complaints, its a perfect game for me. Its disney. I got simba and rapunzel. I can decorate my island in disney. I can casually play while audiobooking. Its relaxing.

What else did we do this year? hosted 4th of July. Hosted a buddy to stay at our house for a bit while he was here on assignment.

I hired a dog walker by myself. Had a dental procedure I had been dreaming about but the anxiety of asking about it was scary and it was fine.

I went outdoor rock climbing for the first time ever and never need to do that again. I did go to 2 different indoor rock gyms. Got embarrassed at both places and havent gone back. I have fallen off the wagon really badly with going to the gym here. I just can't find a place where I feel comfortable.

I also got really invested in my backyard landscaping because this place sucks for my dog.

I think some of my stomach issues have improved tremendously this year. Stomachs still not great but I havent felt the urge to go to the doctor about it due to the anxiety which is an improvement.

Seen a bunch of movies this year too. Dungeons and Dragons, Mario, Oppenheimer, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles....Wish sucked really bad...I still havent seen barbie or the new hunger games and I really wanted to.

mainly I focused on youtube videos. I got sent some cool stuff by companies. I feel like I didnt draw quite as much but youtube kept me really busy. I've learned a lot about video editing and public speaking though neither are my strengths. I do enjoy the art community on youtube as a whole. Its a lot less stressful than the rest of art social media in a different way. Portfolio social medias or places like twitter theres an urge to create constantly. Youtube I can merely talk about art and it counts as something creative. So it kind of takes a load off. Also, ofcourse with art companies sending out merch, theres a decent reward system too. I talk about art, don't need to necessarily complete anything and then get free stuff. So, so far, for me, its been worth it. Especially given my tiny following. You don't need 1mil followers to obtain a reward. So to me, its a pleasant experience. I do worry about my account growing bigger and me not being able to maintain it. Its easier to accept rude comments when its just your art. When its you on the screen, its a bit more personal.

otherwise, I have no plans for 2024 other than the same stuff. I would like to make a vegetable garden but I wont because by the end of this year we will be planning another move. The end of 2024 is going to be a massive life change and stressful doozy. My husband will be retiring and we don't know what we want to be or where we want to live when we grow up. I'm telling myself it'll be socially acceptable to quit my job in about 6 months to prep for this life change but thats not really true. We need all the money we can get lmao.

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[dausy]

My copic crate came in. My plan was to open it for christmas because I wanted the surprise of it. Little kid me would have been happy with it. I think it was fine.

otherwise, I'm procrastinating putting my Christmas stuff away. One of my decorations already fell off the wall so might as well. This time of the year is my least favorite. Winter post christmas is so drab and depressing. My husband does turn 40 in January and I feel weird saying I'm old enough to be married to a 40 year old, but here we are. My little sister just turned 30 also and thats even stranger.

The tree in my backyard finally lost all of its leaves and I dont feel like raking it all up. I'm overdue for some laundry and dishes too.

I had to take my dog back to the vet for a follow up appointment. She finished antibiotics for a UTI right before christmas and her urine was super bloody today at the doctors. It wasn't bloody the last time. They said they'd do another urinalysis and if it comes back bad we'll do a culture...I was like "just please send the culture off now". So no abx until that comes back. On the bright side this is the nicest (as in they're friendly) vet office I've been to here. However, his place is friggen expensive for them not being able to do an onsite UA and for that I miss my old vet in Georgia. I did treat Edie with a pupcup afterwards. I then had to run to the post office and send some more stuff out to my husband overseas.

He sounded like he actually had a decent Christmas himself. He did a 3 day trip to rome with a buddy and they said it was awesome. So that was really nice and a relief.

My workplace is a bit a shitshow. I spent all week training a new girl and my other girls got their ACLS so now they can do conscious sedation so I had to train them on that too. Since I'm the only person who can train people, I'm there everyday all day and I'm..tired. Theres another new girl starting on tuesday and I guess I'll train her too. I just really want some free time to go back to the gym.

I also have to pay over $1000 for our insurances renewing and now I'm looking at tax season and wondering where I put my POA so I can even file taxes and has that POA even expired yet..?

2024 is going to be wild I think. My husband is starting the retirement process when he gets back here in another 4-5 months. We'll probably be looking at moving again at the end of the year. We're going to be stressed out figuring out what to do with ourselves. Also its the lion kings 30th anniversary so I guess I'll just continue working so I can pay for merch I dont need.

just rambling...

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[dausy]

I've filmed 2 videos back to back so I'm done until the new year. Hope everybody had a good Christmas.

My husband is still overseas but he got to go to Rome with a buddy for Christmas and it looks like they've seen some cool things so thats really nice. We called each other this morning and he wanted to watch me open gifts.

He sent me a University of Tennessee giant snuggy thing and an army hoody with his units symbols on it. I've worn both today already, especially while walking the dog because its cold outside. He also got me a cool Hakuna Matata Funko Pop figure which I've never seen before and a new smart watch. My smart watch is a first generation samsung and I've considered getting a new one several times but the first gen in still alive! it wont die! and it still does cool things and works efficiently. The new watch I've been charging it and linked it to my phone but mainly I've already screwed up putting the watch bands on T_T I still need to see how customizable it is.

Somehow, despite being alone this day has gone by faster than yesterday. I spent most of my morning filming this unboxing and then fighting my desktop computer to work.

I'm trying to cook shredded turkey and gravy to smother mashed potatoes but wish me luck because I dont know how to cook. We may be having microwave pizza for dinner instead.

and then I have to work the rest of the week and I already have a bad attitude about it, everyday I tell myself to quit but then the money comes in.

I guess I need to do a year in review. I've done some cool stuff this year amongst the stress.

The worst part of the year IMO is January, February when its cold and dreary. My husbands 40th is in January and I did send him birthday presents but still. I always look forward to spring when the seasonal depression kicks in after new years.

I do need to take my dog back to the vet probably next week on my next day off to see if she still has a bladder mass or a funky UTI. Unfortunately also, I need to rake my yard because this half of the country is a couple months behind on "fall" and all the leaves have just now fallen into my yard.

but anyway! Merry Christmas, Happy New year!

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