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things haven't been great but i think they will be. eventually 🌻🌼🩷

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Cardiovascular Collapse

Cardiovascular collapse is a severe drop in blood pressure (hypotension) resulting from acute dysfunction of the heart (or surrounding blood vessels). The hypotension then critically reduces blood flow to the brain. It can be a consequenece of a plethora of cardiac conditions (arrhythmia, SCA, valvular dysfunction, loss of vascular tone, pulmonary embolus...) Benign conditions such as vasovagal syncope can also cause cardiovascular collapse.

If the problem does not resolve itself or resucitation fails, cardiovascular collapse will lead to cardiac failure and eventually death.

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Video of a kitten at a vet’s office protesting loudly as it’s scooped from the floor. Another kitten turns around the corner and walks up to the camera, also protesting loudly for its friend. From here.

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my boi cries during romantic all movies, viktor DOES feel emotional but his i’m-watching-a-movie-face is a resting bitch face. also he might’ve seen this movie like 15 times already.

partly referenced from my memory of viktor’s apartment but it’s not really at all similiar and its not supposed to be..

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Yuri!!! on Ice Fanfic Recs

Since MAPPA decided to be a bitch and cancel Ice Adolescence, here are some fics to ease the pain. I made sure to include trigger warnings but all of these still have happy endings

Alternate Universe – Different Meeting

All Our Time is Borrowed by Magrathea

TW: Suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, anxiety attacks

Developing relationship, series

Dream Weaver by aeriamamaduck

Developing relationship, smut, series

Post-Canon

In Your Arms by Crowleys_Aziraphale2003

Established relationship, domestic fluff

Perspective by soupthatistoohot

Established relationship, anxiety

(Don’t) Wake me up by PrincessofU

Established relationship, anxiety attack, smut

Therapy by vitya_rabbit

TW: suicidal thoughts, self-harm

Established relationship

Domestic Bliss by BunniesofDoom

Established relationship, domestic fluff, series

The Domestic Life and Love of Yuuri and Victor by nerdlife4eva 

Established relationship, married Yuuri and Victor, domestic fluff, series

take all my loves, my love, take them all by sizhu

Established relationship, married Yuuri and Victor, domestic fluff, series

Your Touch Is My Temple by Crowleys_Aziraphale2003

Established relationship, anxiety attacks, domestic fluff, 5 + 1 things

If ice can burn, by ode2youu

Established relationship, dissociation, hurt/comfort

put your head on my shoulder by widomauk

Established relationship, domestic fluff

Sickfic/Major Injury

Homesick by ClosetedShipper

Established relationship, sick Victor

Leave It On The Ice by tothebatcave53

Established relationship, hurt Yuuri

TW: Suicidal thoughts, self-harm

Head over Toes by ClosetedShipper

Established relationship, hurt Yuuri

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I posted this with my art but I'm putting it on its own.

Things I imagine in YOI pre-canon. These are personal headcanons and interpretations.

With Viktor, I imagine his family being high achieving, and Viktor having a lot of expectations on him. And he matches then successfully. But this means his parents think he's doing well, even in moments where emotionally he isn't. They look at achievements rather than looking at him. It's not intentional neglect, they just don't have the awareness of mental wellbeing. He has a bed and food and he's doing well in school and skating, so everything must be okay. It's fine when he's fine, it's lonely when he's not. And it's the first environment that teaches him to match himself to what's expected and wanted of him, fulfilling a role rather than just being.

When he's older, he quietly creates distance. Not cutting them off, but not reaching out. They don't mind. They follow news, and they can show off his success.

When he's young, Viktor loves having fans and being known and admired. Af first he doesn't see downsides to it. And then something happens, as simple as "did you see him throwing the flower at Christophe Giacometti? He was flirting, how cute" - and Viktor realizes his fans will draw their own conclusions and won't believe him if he tries to say they're wrong.

So he starts adjusting his approach. Building a persona, and building walls. Charming smiles that get him anything he wants. Practicing the skill of giving people what they expect. Being what they expect. And then flipping it on its head and surprising them.

If you're focusing on matching and subverting expectations, you're not necessarily being yourself. Any personal exploration of identity is hidden and alone. But on the ice, when he's performing, he can be honest. He can be seen. Because they're going to take it as fake. Think of how Minako reacted to Stammi Vicino - Viktor's earnest plea for someone to stay by his side, well, he's too charming for this to tug at the heartstrings. So he can play with stories that he won't share with anyone any other way, and he knows they'll take it as pretend.

The walls he builds don't allow him to be truly close to people. He has good relationships with other skaters, but emotionally keeps them at arm's length. He doesn't notice he's isolating. Chris and he have fun joke-flirting, but when Viktor steps away from the ice Chris doesn't seem to realize he needs this, isn't close enough to know what he's struggling with. He talks like Viktor is taking away the motivation he's entitled to by choosing to coach Yuuri. His rinkmates see him on good and bad days so they know when he struggles, and Yakov is the only person close to knowing him deeply, but even he doesn't take it seriously when Viktor burns out, so that is still limited.

For Yuri, I think his mother was going through a lot to let his grandfather take care of him. He has a lot of responsibility in that setting, and it all starts when he's so young.

I think, with Viktor being present in his life consistently from such a young age, Viktor is one of the people he sees as family. He absolutely looks up to him, just like he absolutely looks up to Yuuri. And I think he resents the emotional distance Viktor maintains.

He's not very attentive to people in general, but he's the one that explains to us how Viktor feels early in the show. When Viktor left to Japan so suddenly, I think Yura felt abandoned beyond just Viktor forgetting to choreograph a program for him. If it was just the program - he did end up getting Agape, he could have just asked for that, but he tried to get Viktor to go back. I feel like he hates that Viktor went to look for a way to get his spark back somewhere else, instead of staying and finding a way out of his slump with his rinkmates. If what Viktor needs is to coach someone, why isn't Yuri good enough? He's a talented skater and he sees himself as continuing Viktor's legacy, but Viktor chose someone else for that role.

And Viktor did choose Yuuri to continue his legacy. Because Yuuri skates so beautifully, because Yuuri has so much love for Viktor's skating, because Yuuri has drive and ambition and pride and skill and he finds joy in skating, and Viktor wants to nurture all of that into the performance Yuuri deserves to show.

And along the way, he learns how to connect with people as himself. His relationships with Yuuri and Yuuri's family open doors for him to better and deeper relationships with Yuri and Chris and anyone else he wants to be close to.

About Yuuri, there's very little I can say because we know so much. So I'll just share a lighthearted headcanon a few friends and I came up with as a story idea and I just adopted.

I don't share the fanon that Phichit got him into pole dancing. In my mind, he either started himself, or it was Chris - unintentionally. I think they're friends, because of how Yuuri reacted to him in the show, like he's used to him. And I like to think Chris kept saying things that made Yuuri feel competitive. Talking about how it's great for core strength, "but it's probably not your thing." Sent pictures of himself performing difficult moves, and got pictures back because Yuuri was trying to match him or do more difficult things than him. And meanwhile Chris thinks they're showing off to each other for fun. It's how Chris knew Yuuri can keep up with him at the banquet.

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Uploaded to the Server

In technical terms, to upload a file or program to a server is the act of transfering a copy of the original to the given server. The original isn't harmed or deleted (provided there are no glitches or errors in the process) and a copy of it now exists as well in a server.

The trope of uploading one's brain or consciousness to the server takes the same principle and applies it to transefering a copy of an individual's brain, mind, consciousness, or soul in some cases, to a server. That way, should the individual die, they could technically still "live on" through their backup copy of themself.

Typically it is villainous characters who are trying to cheat death this way, but it is not a hard rule. Any character could have their own reasons to seek this potential road to immortality. Or maybe the process is started against their will or without their knowledge.

There are many ways to apply this prompt to a character's death. From death being a requirement for the process of backing up the mind, to something going wrong during the process, or simply the otherwise unrelated death which prompts the backed up consciousness to be used in the first place. Perhaps the copy of the character's mind is broken beyond repair, being nothing but a set of data no longer resembling the original person, or having its own separate motivations. As long as an uploaded consciousness plays a predominant role in the story, it falls under this prompt.

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To whomever needs to hear this:

I'm a fanfiction author who writes canon, pre- and post-canon YOI fanfics, and I will continue writing for as long as YOI brings me joy, which is probably going to be for a very long time because YOI makes me that happy and I still have so many ideas I want to write.

I will continue sharing my stories for as long as people are willing to read them and the same goes for my meta. And if people no longer want them, I will continue writing them for myself because I can't stop writing but I also can't bring myself to share something that personal with a non-existing audience.

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REMEMBER WHEN THESE DROPPED 😭😭😭

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“And I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free.”

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If anything, I feel the urge to write more Yuri On Ice fanfiction. To keep reading amazing Yuri on Ice fanfiction. To draw more Yuri on Ice art. To purchase more doujin and support work of talented people who still create Yuri on Ice content/stories.

Yuri!!!on Ice is eternal.

The fandom made it timeless. And the fandom will keep it alive, no matter what happens.

Born to Make History, forever.

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Suwabe and Tosshi's comments on ICE ADOLESCENCE cancellation.

Suwabe commented pretty fast after the official message, but I knew Tosshi would have a hard time saying anything because he's so connected to this character. He loves Yuri so much. So I was waiting for his comment, and it indeed came a whole day after.

The memories will never fade! Thank YOU both <3333

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This lovely fan-made short film has soothed my heart many a time. I hope it helps to soothe yours, too. <3

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The beginning and the ending.

This story is already full of everything I need.

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Small yuuri watching a young victor perform his routine in the movie, that's all I need 🙏

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