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Having even slightly popular mutuals is so cool. The king has bestowed upon me a like. Perhaps even a reblog

#I feel like this with pretty much all of my mutuals XD

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#8U #this shirt was made for me!

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People think being self aware cancels out mental illness. That when you realise your thoughts or behaviours are irrational you just stop having/doing them

Instead what happens if you're extremely self aware and mentally ill is that you just think in a resigned kind of way "I'm being really fucking crazy right now" while being very loudly mentally ill

Sometimes you are able to tell the people around you "oh, you can ignore me rn. I'm just being extremely mentally ill rn. It will eventually pass" and then continue your erratic behaviour. But mostly it's just privately thinking: "well this is embarrassing but I can't turn it off so just gotta deal with it I guess."

It's infuriating honestly

#read the first sentence and just hahahahahaha #yeah #I despise being self-aware during an episode #it's so deeply shameful

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what's the first movie you remember seeing in theaters? don't try and be all edgy and cool and say like tetsuo: the iron man. be honest.

Go!!

#Titanic #it was at the last drive-in theater in our state and I fell asleep in my aunt's suburban so I missed most of the movie XD

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rb this and tell me what ur accent is. this has no purpose except the fact i just realized i could have like... mutuals with cockney accents or newfoundland accents or something and thats just wild

#idk what you would describe it as #deeply Wyoming? west-midwestwern?

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aside from the fact that i’m a little f*cked up and have bad anxiety, i’m lit.

#legit

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#one time I rode a horse that didnt want me on it #THAT was fun

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#it's ok I did too at first 😂

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#...........I feel called out #even the age is almost right 😂

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#my last one made my anxiety so worse #idk why she was even there like as a career choice #she would just basically stare and awkwardly ask a few small talky questions and then seemed to expect ME to lead the conversation???

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L.M. Montgomery, Anne’s House of Dreams

#fkn ME #anytime we're traveling thru the barren parts of WY I'm like WHERE ARE THE TREES

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Once again my anxiety is trying to ruin my relationship and I don't know how to make it stop 😬

#my boyfriend thinks I'm unhappy in the relationship #and i don't know how to make him understand that it's not that #bc I cry a lot and always ask for reassurance that we're good during these episodes #and he thinks it's something he's doing wrong #it breaks my heart

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My poor brother's GSD escaped their backyard last night (despite all the work he's put into the fencing and making sure she couldn't get out) and was hit and killed by a vehicle. 😭

#I haven't heard my brother cry like that probably ever #she was such a good dog and he was so proud of the training he'd done with her #it's absolutely horrible

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#yeah uh #this gave me some big feelings

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#turns out when you're paying $300 a week for groceries #$500 a month for a non shitass vehicle #and $2000 a month for the cheapest house you can find #it's kinda hard to be happy about the state of your country

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#once again my mom bought our house in 1991 for $18k #she could sell it for almost 100x that in its severely neglected condition today #you can barely even buy a decent car for 18k these days #much less a liveable house that'll house you and your kids for over 30 years (well most of us moved out years ago but y'know what I mean) #she paid it off in 12 years at $250 a month #CAN YOU BELIEVE!?!

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#no #EAT the rich