deadprincess1040

[deadprincess1040]

I Don’t know how to live...

I’m getting worse and I feel so lost

my head is clouded I live in a fog

my heart yearns to stay for others

but my mind has given up.

What do I do when I cant see a reason to go on?

How do I live for myself?

What makes life worth it?

How do I change how I feel once I have felt it?

My head is in a fog

My body is numb

My heart hurts

I feel like I'm suffocating 

Someone help me...

Anybody...

I’m broken and need to be fixed!

#tw depressing thoughts #help #lost #tw sui implied #thoughts

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the urge to tell everyone i’ve already eaten vs. the urge to brag about how i haven’t eaten all day

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my reasons to lose weight 🕯🕊💌

✩ to feel like i am pretty enough for my boyfriend

✩ to be comfortable when he picks me up

✩ to feel beautiful

✩ take bikini photos !!

✩ to not hate photos of myself

✩ oversized sweaters and crewnecks

✩ won’t be the fat friend

✩ to look good in jeans

✩ low waisted jeans !!

✩ confidence

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Nothings sexier than an empty stomach babes ♡

[deadprincess1040]

anyone else just starve to feel like they have their shit together

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i will look like this. no matter what. i’ll make sure of it.

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It's day 2 and I'm actually doing great not mentally 🙃 but yeah 😅 I just wanna keep track so here's a mental note to my fellow bones you know who you are

#depression #pro ana #pr0 ed #ed #eating disoder tw #tw #recovering #mentally unwell #bonespr0

[deadprincess1040]

Who's free

Nobody cries When your already dead You must know… That you haven’t yet even began

Yet it’s to late to begin Since now your just a SIN

Did you ever live Did you ever breath Did you ever feel The way life makes you feel

The pain The expectations The disappointments and greed

Did you over pass that Were you always free Free to just be

Are you alive? AM I DEAD?

Do you feel? am I just paralyzed? help me be free…

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Not breathing

As everyone is breathing I’m suffocating you see my chest rising up and down it’s not oxygen going in and out

my chest is freezing my heart is breaking my brain is tingling

I’m suffocating can’t talk can’t move

you all are just breathing up and down my chest rises up and down

I’m suffocating Not breathing…

Can’t anyone see Is it so hard to truly see What’s happening to me

Up and down Up and down Up and down

I’m suffocating

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Roses are red Violets are blue The flowers are all dead And I soon will be too :)

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I'm so shallow i literally only want one thing in life... to be skinny. Why am I like this?

#eating disoder tw #failure #diet #depressed #pr0 ed

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Why is everyday getting harder maybe I shouldn't even try to wait maybe I'll just say goodbye...

#depressed #depression #failing #tw suicude #mentally unwell

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Just a future reminder to myself this is the moment I have realized I'm in an extremely toxic and abusive relationship. Yet I'm to stupid and codependent to do anything about it.

Like screw it 🙄 just kill me...

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How do you say goodbye intentionally...

I don't wanna hurt anyone, but I also can't go on hurting myself.

I have a day in mind with a few x factors but ultimately I'm a failure so.... how will I say goodbye.

It's not me I'm worried about I'll be gone, I won't feel bad after since I won't feel anything anymore but knowing the pain I'll cause beforehand makes it so hard.

I have time to figure things out. Just hope I can cause as lil pain as possible.

#depression #sad #loved ones #deadline #endometriosis #chronic pain #suffering

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Honestly, I’m at my best when my ed is at it’s worst. My room is clean, I dress nice, I wash my face more, I whiten my teeth, I wear makeup, I do my hair. For some reason the only thing that pulls my out of my depression spiral is my ed and the only thing that pulls me out of my ed is my depression. Idk if anyone else feels like that? Idk I just always feel better when I’m losing weight and excersizing and not eating. Idk maybe it’s my body thinks I’m finally being healthy? But I’m not? So… idk, it’s just really weird.