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Sun will rise and we will try again.

#top #twenty øne piløts #inspiration #quote

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18/05/20

Seven Binge free days! The plan is working and everybody is happy that I am eating. Lol if they knew. Now my weight just has to drop. I am going to weigh myself on Thursday.

#ana #anorexia #not pro

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14/05/20

New Plan, New Me.

I was restricting and bingeing all the time. No way to break the cycle. I always told myself: I shouldn’t have restricted too hard at my lowest weight. But now I am trying to live off 200 calories a day? That isn’t quite logic.

So I decided to implement sport and more caories a day. I aim for 800 calories a day. That’s still quite low. Low enough to loose weight. And I work out every day. That’s the plan.

We’ll see how it goes. 3 binge free days so far. I think that’s the best way even if i loose weight slower it’s still better than stay the same weight over months.

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03/05/20

I have a new plan for the next few weeks to rapidly loose weight. I will only drink meal replacement shakes. They are the same I drank in the clinic, with one difference. I had to drink several a day and now I will only drink one, which is 300 calories. I think that will make weight loss fast and easier. It also gives you all nutrients your body needs and its better than eating only cucumber. I will keep you updated if it works. My next weigh in will be in one week when my period is over.

#ana #anorexia #bad role model #not pro

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21/05/20

My new scale is amazing. It connects to an app and shows so many different thinks, like muscle mass and water in your body. I just love it and cannot wait for Tuesday when I weigh myself again. The brand is FITINDEX.

#ana #anorexia #weight #not pro #scale

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14/04/20

I bought a new scale today on amazon because my current scale is bullshit. I stepped on it a few times in a few minutes and it was a totally different outcome each time. I hope the new one will be better. I need to know what I weigh exactly.

#ana #anorexia #not pro

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Nostalgia

Listening to songs you haven't heard for years and wishing you could help your messed up younger self

#nostalgia #music #messed up

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08/04/20

I want to be under 50kg by my birthday, which is next week. That would be the best gift to me. Is it normal that losing weight is my biggest wish?  I would give all my presents to reach my goal weight soon.

#ana #anorexia #not pro #fucked up

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Reblog if you cannot post a body check because someone could notice your tattoos.

#ana #anorexia #body check #bodycheck

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When you reach one of your goal weights and then kinda binge. Like WHY????? But nonetheless I will be thinner next week at my weigh in because I wont accept any faults and keep on going...

#ana #anorexia #not pro #not a good role model

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It’s a weird feeling when your actual weight is lower than somebodies goal weight. A good weird feeling.

#ana #anorexia #not pro #not a good role model

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17/03/20

I AM OFFICIALLY UNDERWEIGHT!!!! I AM SO PROUD!!! Pls stay safe but I will celebrate this milestone and gonna get a septum as a reward. I am so fucking happy

#ana #anorexia #not pro #underweight

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12/03/20

I lost 5kg!!! I am on track again. I almost have an underweight BMI. I am so proud of myself. I don’t even binge anymore. That’s good news. I feel so relieved and will go on with my plan. Eating only soup and veggies is my thing.

#ana #anorexia #not promoting

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Me: *Eats something actually nutritious for once*

My Stomach:

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23/02/20

I was very absent here, because I was really struggling with myself. Since February I finally started losing weight. Before I just maintained. So now I am back again and next week I am gonna weigh myself again after all those weeks that i have been too afraid to weigh myself. But that time is over. I am 44 hours into my fast and gonna break it tomorrow. I feel good. I feel like I lost more weight since last time. I already lost 3kg at the beginning of February and I hope to continue this journey. I will keep this blog updated. hopefully...

#ana #anorexia #not pro

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06/09/19

Not eating is now so easy as it was before. I am really proud of myself. I got my shit together and going to lose weight again. Like I did before. I was a master in this discipline and I am going to be a master again. I can’t wait to be thinspo again. I calculated that I am going to be at 40kg by the end of this year again and I am doing my best for it to happen

#ana #anorexia #bad role model #not pro