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i miss you. i miss what we used to be. we’ve run our course. i miss you.

Checked this blog purely out of nostalgia because deh closes on the west end this week and found this from just yesterday... 🫡

#occasionally. i still revisit my unfinished fics. add a paragraph or two. because sometimes i miss it too. #shoot me a dm

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by the way. i am still writing fics. maybe one will drop soon. maybe not. who knows? not me !

#it'll be. a pirate dj jared one. or domestic runaway kleinphy.

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No, you're obsessed with villains because of seeing Loki in The Avengers. I'm obsessed with villains because of Doctor Horrible's Sing-along Blog. We are not the same.

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1. Yes I do still write fics and

2. Yes I do still take fic requests

#i know its been a while but. if you want a oneshot of anything let me know #because i wanna get some more quick fics out #dear evan hansen #deh #deh fic #dear evan hansen fanfic

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Does. Does anyone here still rp

#i am pining for a good trans connor rp #either with jared or t4t with alana #and id probably do evan too tbh #deh rp #dear evan hansen rp

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If you headcanon Connor as autistic you are so sexy and cool and fun and I am kissing you on the mouth

#i ALWAYS write my Connor as autistic its just. automatic for me #dear evan hansen #deh connor #connor murphy

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me: oh yeah i kinda grew out of my bmc phase

also me, in the shower, having a mental breakdown: IM JUST MICHAEL WHO’S A LONER SO HE MUST BE A STONER RIDES A PT CRUISER GOD HE’S SUCH A LOSER MICHAEL FLYING SOLO WHO YOU THINK THAT YOU KNOW MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM BY HIMSELF

#me when my tutor said 'sing a musical song next week' #little did she know. she had awakened an ancient being

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i’ve begun to mentally ignore the canon plot line of deh and now will acknowledge my ideas as canon for my own mental health

#what do you mean you've begun to #ive been ignoring that shit since day one babey #Connors dead? lol no hes not #everyones friends and nothing is sad :)

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are musical fandoms really this dead now? come back after years and like nobody’s here anymore 😞

#first beetlejuice closed #then broadway as a whole shut down #i thought the deh movie would revive it but like. tbh it was so bad it just killed things more

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#i know its a fairly commonly used phrase i just think its funny every time i hear it #specific shoutout to awkward always by the suicide machines and 19 by pencey prep #dear evan hansen

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Good morning homosexuals which one of your favourite coping songs do you project onto Connor Murphy

#mine is Desert Song!!! and I Know #and The light behind your eyes. and Brother. #ill drop a playlist someday #deh #dear evan hansen #connor murphy

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Am I allowed to call out the change to Jared Kleinman? Initially I was hesitant because "I should feel grateful another Asian has gotten an important role in a film," but then I realized... that role is the nerdy side character that Asians have always gotten. Something about it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I think it's mainly due to the fact that his name changed. Changing Kleinman to Kalwani was completely unnecessary. As a PoC with a very white-sounding name, I'm here to say we exist!

#everything abt the movie is just 😐😐😐 #they rly thought they could just speak to like 5 poc cast members and ignore all their suggestions then think it would be fine #say it with me kids: stereotypes are not representation!

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People holding out hope that they'll actually like the movie when they see it has the same energy as me periodically checking my ao3 bookmarks to see if Small Talk has an update

#because we're both delusional 😌

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I intend to not post about the movie at all however. The fact that they made Jared canon gay but didn't have Bi Connor is the biggest missed opportunity I can think of

#fucking COWARDS #THEY JUST CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH

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I realise I've been gone for a Hot Minute however

I have ABSOLUTELY still been writing fics

#drop a title in my askbox if you want and ill talk a little bit about it #and maybe speed up production a little #can. can you tell im a Kleinphy shipper.

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Alana herself found me in my forest cave to wake me up and tell me this and honestly how could I keep it to myself

Usually I'm like "Alana is a lesbian 100%" however there is a SINGLE exception and that's if she's t4t with Connor <3

#might make this a fic... who knows #idk what kind of fic. fluff? angst? smut? long as theyre TRANS and IN LOVE

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Usually I'm like "Alana is a lesbian 100%" however there is a SINGLE exception and that's if she's t4t with Connor <3

#im having. a lot of thoughts and a lot of self projection in this chilis tonight #alana? amab trans bi for women + nbs #Connor? bi trans nb #no his agab does NOT matter #they are valid either way #and just in case someone tries to say this is fetishising: i am trans