hello, just a lil fyi, i don't have a promo but i'm currently still on my cassian brainrot over at @k4ssa so u can find me there
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the feral need to change my penname to moss just bc it speaks to me on a personal level
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do u ever just look at an old carrd and are like DAMN
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Do you know what I would do when monsters came into my dreams? I’d try and scare them. I’d scream and yell until they were afraid and ran off. Then they leave you alone. You have to be worse than them.
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currently working on tweaking her story but 🤓 @enwrath
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as expected, watching true detective is making me want to write my favourite messed up she/theys detective again
i mean
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monstrilio.
dialogue prompts from monstrilio by gerardo sámano córdova.
you know how to love me the best.
i need to love someone who won't disintegrate.
why didn't you come back sooner?
extraordinary things happen everywhere, all the time.
maybe if i try hard enough, i can be everywhere and nowhere at the same time.
i know you think you're alone. that your grief is only your own.
you have no heart.
i need you to come back. i want you here.
god chooses who he cares for, and he didn't choose us.
god has too many rules, anyway. do you really want to follow so many rules?
i don't think we're ever too old for dancing.
i'll keep your secret for a week.
you have your anger, and i have mine.
i'm worried that i bore you.
i can't stay here by myself.
write yourself a new role.
i remember what loving you felt like.
i stopped missing you a while ago.
i was afraid of my loneliness.
i had two emotions: fear and anger.
it really doesn't matter if i love you or not.
what if love doesn't make you feel better?
i want to help you. like you helped me.
i would excel in a zombie apocalypse.
i hate talking to people i don't know.
just the person i wanted. it's like i summoned you.
maybe it's okay that we taste bitter to each other.
i thought this place was invincible.
let's get you some clothes.
i wanted tonight to be special.
if you love someone, you shouldn't want to change them.
it's good you're leaving. you're bigger than all of this. bigger than us.
i'll be okay? you promise?
how do you find these places?
even i am capable of getting over things.
thinking tires me out.
art has no answer, no right way to be.
what's more human than wanting to kiss someone?
isn't that what couples do, tell each other things? secrets?
why is it sometimes people don't do what they want to do?
you can tell me. i won't be mad.
i don't have the energy to be annoyed.
are you embarrassed of me?
how do you make sure people don't stop liking you?
i wish i smoked. i'd have something to do besides pace.
what is it you're so afraid to tell me?
it's hard to focus on one feeling.
i won't abandon you again.
when people don't understand you, you can say anything you want.
may i touch you?
there are no monsters in these shadows. only me.
the pills make me care less.
no more running away.
you don't have to worry anymore.
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my mentally ill ass waiting for jodie foster's true detective just to feel something 🧍🏼
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detective pardners detective pardners
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TRUE DETECTIVE SENTENCE STARTERS ;
S01xE03 - ❛ The Locked Room ❜ // 31 starters. CW: cussing. Feel free to change words and pronouns as needed!
“This world is a veil and the face you wear is not your own.”
“What do you think the average IQ of this group is, huh?”
“Can you see Texas up there on your high horse?”
“If the common good’s gotta make up fairytales, then it’s not good for anybody.”
“Your sorrows pin you to this place.”
“If the only thing keeping a person decent is the expectation of divine reward, then, brother, that person is a piece of shit, and I’d like to get as many of them out in the open as possible.”
“When you get to talking like this, you sound panicked.”
“Why would you ask that?”
“Easy. I’m not gonna hurt you.”
“People incapable of guilt usually do have a good time.”
“This is just the way things are.”
“Things don’t stay the same. Pick up what you keep, and leave the rest behind. People get better.”
“Maybe you just think you prefer it this way because it’s what you’re used to.”
“What’s our problem, you and me?”
“Where’d you get that idea, hmm?”
“That’s the extent of your concern?”
“Why is there all this space between us, _____?”
“God, you want low expectations.”
“You put a ceiling on your life, on everything, because you won’t change.”
“I think I’m all fucked up.”
“You just look them in the eyes. The whole story’s right there. Everybody wears their hunger and their haunt, you know?”
“So are you gonna go home with this guy? Huh?”
“Hey, I didn’t come here just to drink, you know.”
“Everybody is a fucking drama queen nowadays. Jesus…”
“Stop it. Go away. I don’t want this anymore.”
“You don’t have to fall in love at first sight, you know.”
“Fuck off, I’ll take my first shit through your sun-roof.”
“Hey. Think a man can love two women at once, I mean, be in love with them?”
“Do you wonder ever if you’re a bad man?”
“World needs bad men. We keep the other bad men from the door.”
“I started to believe you were going a little off your nut. I mean, you’re bonkers, just not on this.”
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i want to be here so bad and i have so much inspiration and thoughts but i don't have time.
but but i have some thoughts about the fae and their volatile personalities and the way they see humans and play things that can accidentally break, and how the forest is a lot like that and how slowly tommy becomesmore and more like it. how the world starts to become hazy around him, how people can lose their grip on reality while around him. suddenly you find a watch tower im the middle of the night, or a house in the woods, then suddenly you can't remember when it was tjat you stumbled there or if you lived there all along
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i started reading slewfoot and why is the devil giving tommy vibes plzzzzz
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starting 2024 reading ada limon talk about wanting to hear stories about kindness instead of suffering, while sitting outside on a hot summer day under the shade of a linden tree, with a kitten on ur lap is very tommy core, also very healing
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INT LINWOOD'S HOUSE DAY
It was strange being in that house, like walking the set of some half remembered movie he had seen as a kid, fragments of scenes that didn’t entirely fit together with what now lay before his eyes. Was this the couch where he would sit and play his guitar for hours? Was that his guitar? Was that his jacket? Or was it someone else’s? Strangers stared at him from picture frames, half hidden behind yellowed lace curtains. Someone’s boots by the door, a set of keys left on the corner of the table, a washed cup collecting dust on the drying rack. The sensation of trespassing in a stranger’s house was almost overwhelming, like they might step in at any moment. But then the fifth step of the stairs would creak in the exact way it should, or the familiar smell of a particular brand of cigarette would come back to him, and something would dislodge inside of him. Like nudging loose a bolt in his chest, a weakened door giving way just a crack.
The bed that was meant to be his was unmade, and as he lay there, staring at the stains on the ceiling, he got the feeling that maybe if he stayed very still, the man that was meant to live in that house might step back in, take control of it. Maybe he’d just gently usher him aside, let him know there had been a mistake. This was his life, he could go back home now, he’d take it from here.
“ You know, sometimes I look at you and it’s like when they first brought you here, ” the voice came from the opposite side of the room. In the aged vanity mirror he caught sight of a woman’s reflection, just half her face from that angle, a strong jaw, bitterly set. She was staring at him but he couldn’t see her, only the faint smell of her cigarette smoke reached him.
“ Grandma? ” he asked, uncertain as to why the word came to him, but it fell solid, another loose bolt giving in.
“ I didn’t want anything to do with you, you were just someone else’s baby. Not my blood, that’s what I told ‘em. ” she continued, not really listening to him. “ I’d already fucked up raising a little boy. ” She sounded almost… sad, bitter. Was this a memory? He felt as if he would look down at himself and find the body of some teenage kid, down to the scraped jeans and bruised knuckles. Like maybe she said these things to him, or he dreamed she did.
Upon the vanity, the picture of a woman and a little boy smiled back at him, strangers both of them. The boy’s face was frozen in the middle of some delighted squeal as his mother squeezed him lovingly, tousled blond hair and smudged cheeks, the evidence of a whole day of playing in the garden. Such a perfect little moment, so out of place in there, for him, for her. Besides them, another kid, alone in the corner of his room, surrounded by toys. Dark curls fell over his serious face, a pair of haunting dark eyes stared unsmiling.
“ You were just… such a tiny thing, like a stray pup,” a hand, softly touched the picture of the little boy. He could almost feel it, her cool hand on his forehead, brushing his curls away. He was a boy then, just for one moment. Somehow safe under that harsh woman’s protection, her begrudging love “...and just as feral. You nearly bit the hand of the social worker when she tried to zip your jacket. ” The bark of her laugh filled the room. It was deep and resonant, emerging from some hidden recess within her, a cavern at the bottom of her heart where no light could pierce through, but still her laugh made it back.
He felt like maybe he understood this woman in a way the kid from the picture couldn’t. She had lost something precious to her, and it had hollowed her out. There were no words for that kind of loss; it wasn’t just losing a child, but losing the very idea of it. The day her son never came home, the day the news started speculating that maybe he had gone and killed his wife. They took the little kid from the picture away from her. And then they dropped another on her doorstep, as though could make up for it, as though it were her penance for nurturing a monster. He always felt like some part of her must’ve hated him for it.
“ You were just so little… “ she repeated, her hands rose and she looked down at them, as if she could feel the weight of a child there, the ghost of the weight, the loss of it. “ The world took everything from you and left you all alone, just like me. ”
“ I think I lost a baby too… ” he said, and when he said it broke his heart. The words stuck in his throat as it closed up on him. For a moment, he couldn’t breathe, they stayed there, lodged in his throat, like a cold stone, a petrified piece of his heart. He had never spoken them out loud, not really, they didn't want to be said out loud. Now they were there, out of him, real and tangible, a charm that could make all his nightmares come true.
“ Well, you won’t find her here, ” the chair creaked as she leaned back to regard him. For a moment he thought he saw the corner of her smile in the mirror, slightly amused, even through the dark veins that crept around her pale skin. Near the end, she looked more corpse than person. “ There are many ghosts in this house, boy, but none like yours. Your house is a forest, and it has teeth. No ghosts can live there, it rejects humanity, it rejects love. I always warned you to never go back there. ”
He blinked and tears rolled down his cheeks, disappearing into his beard. The moment he cleared them away, the pictures were gone; there was no smoke, just the warm spring air gently blowing through the window. In the mirror's reflection, an empty wall met his gaze. He was alone. Not a memory then.
He wasn’t sure if what was the biggest loss, still not being able to recall her face, or not being sure if any of it was true.
I lost a baby too. That was true. Heartbreakingly true.
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my life for a plot where two muses who were dating when they were younger reunited back in a small town or some family party or sm. still haunted by what ifs, still pretty sure it would've never worked.
or a dirvorced couple meeting again hmm
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