desperatelytryingtoheal

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

havent been active here, takes me a lot of energy I like edtwt better its more low maintenance or sm but okay hi 

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

I WILL lose 5kg/month and be at my lw at the end of this semester

#edtumbrl #edthoughts #disordered eating tw #edrant #restricted eating #anamia #anorexia #ana #ed rant #eating disoder things #thinspiration #thinsp0 #bonesp0 #notprojustaddingtags

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

march 4th

INTAKE:

quaker cinnamon oats (125) + skimmed milk (68)

veggie sausage (120) + peas (88)

an apple (60)

1/3 of a pineapple (110)

chocolate protein shake (100)

total: 682

BURNED:

30min weighted hulphoop (200)

full body pilates (150)

net: 330

had a really hard time today cos I gained like a kg overnight (I had lax tea yesterday & was up most of the night w horrendous cramps so I hope its just waterweight and that it will be gone tmrw) I also couldn't go for a walk cos it was raining & I had lots of uni stuff to catch up on...

#edtumbrl #edthoughts #disordered eating tw #restricted eating #edrant #ed #eating disoder things #thinspiration #thinsp0 #bonesp0 #notprojustaddingtags #anamia #ana #anorexia #anorexic

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

march 3d

INTAKE:

frozen mango (66) frozen strawberry (30) & yoghurt (68) smoothie bowl

3 corn cakes (78)

1/3 of a pineapple (110)

a banana (100)

sweet potato (300)

total: 770

BURNED CALORIES:

small walk (180)

30min weighted hula hoop (200)

total: 380

net: 390

didn’t hit my stepgoal and ate a little over limit, hope I can get back on track tmrw

#edtumbrl #edthoughts #disordered eating tw #restricted eating #edrant #anorexia #anamia #ana #ed rant #eating disoder things #thinspiration #thinsp0 #bonesp0 #notprojustaddingtags

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

reblog if you aren’t in recovery and dont want to recover but you still support recovery and think people should recover

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

#edmemes #eating disoder things #disordered eating tw #anamia #anamemes #anorexia #anorexic #anorexiamemes #notprojustaddingtags

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

march 2nd 

INTAKE:

quaker cinnamon oatmeal (125) + skimmed milk (60)

sweet potato nourish bowl (400)

popsicle (20)

Total: 605

BURNED CALORIES:

walk to the post office (150)

walk to store and back (180)

short walk to get to 10k steps (80)

30min of weighted hulahooping (200)

total burned: 610 

so net = 0 lol

#anamia #anorexia #ana #edtumbrl #edthoughts #disordered eating tw #restricted eating #edrant #ed #eating disoder things #thinspiration #thinsp0 #bonesp0 #notprojustaddingtags

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

all I wish for is self control, perfection, the ability to deny myself the very thing that keeps me alive. I wish for acceptance, a sense of purpose, a way to cope with emotions & memories I don't want in my head. I want to mould a body and a world for myself in which I can't fail, I can't disappoint... I want to reduce myself & my world to nothing, because then there will be nothing to worry about

#anamia #ana #thinspiration #thinsp0 #disordered eating tw #eating disoder things #restricted eating #anorexia #notprojustaddingtags #edtumbrl #edthoughts #edrant #ed rant

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

MARCH RULES TO REACH GW 1 (48kg; 2,2kg away)

(and hopefully GW 2 as well) (45kg; 5,2kg away)

600 calorie limit on weekdays at the dorm

800 calorie limit on weekends

30min of weighted hula hoop daily (10min intervals)

10-15k steps daily

no chocolate, candy, bread, cookies, butter, Nutella, etc

#ana #anamia #edtumbrl #edthoughts #disordered eating tw #eating disoder things #restricted eating #thinsp0 #thinspiration #gw #bonesp0 #notprojustaddingtags

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

THE BEST AB WORKOUT EVER!!

I bought a weighted hula hoop and it’s AMAZING! I used it for 3 days now and literally it works the ENTIRE abdominal & back region!! I’m sore in places I didn't even know I could be sore omfg YOU GUYS HAVE TO TRY IT!

I’m doing 30min in 10min intervals w a 1min break inbetween, I'll be logging my results here :p

#anamia #anorexia #workout #eating disoder things #disordered eating tw #ana #thinspiration #thinsp0 #bonesp0 #notprojustaddingtags

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

My fav thinspo lately

#thinspiration #thinsp0 #anamia #ana #eating disoder things #notprojustaddingtags #anorexia #bonesp0

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

I just called the mental hospital to get my file lol, I want to know what nurses wrote ab me.. BUT THEY ACCIDENTALY CALLED MY MOM so now she’s kinda worried

[desperatelytryingtoheal]

Newbie

Hi! I’m new on Tumblr so I have no idea what I’m doing or if people will even see this :)) But hi I’m an anorexic uni student that should be studying rn but chose to make an entire Tumblr page....

#anamia #eating disoder things #edtumbrl #edthoughts #disordered eating tw #anorexia #thinspiration