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Ā  Ā  Ā  a Ā moment Ā of Ā solitude, Ā stillness Ā of Ā the Ā water Ā and Ā echos Ā from Ā wildlife Ā drawing Ā her Ā away Ā from Ā the Ā peculiar Ā feeling Ā swimming Ā in Ā the Ā pit Ā of Ā her Ā stomach. Ā perhaps Ā it Ā was Ā the Ā product Ā of Ā one Ā too Ā many Ā drinks, Ā perhaps Ā it Ā was Ā something Ā else Ā ā€“ā€“ Ā she Ā wasnā€™t Ā sure. Ā regardless,Ā  she Ā admired Ā the Ā picturesque Ā sight Ā ā€¦ Ā like Ā watching Ā a Ā bob Ā ross Ā painting Ā in Ā real Ā time, Ā happy Ā little Ā trees Ā every Ā which Ā way. Ā wasnā€™t Ā until Ā she Ā heard Ā the Ā creek Ā of Ā the Ā dock Ā had Ā she Ā snapped Ā back Ā to Ā reality. Ā ā€œ Ā yā€™gonna Ā push Ā me Ā in Ā ? Ā ā€ Ā she Ā greeted,Ā  delayingĀ  aĀ  glanceĀ  toĀ  favorĀ  theĀ  elementĀ  ofĀ  surpriseĀ  instead.
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aĀ  lightĀ  laughĀ  leavesĀ  eliā€™sĀ  mouthĀ  asĀ  heĀ  sinksĀ  downĀ  ontoĀ  theĀ  dockĀ  besideĀ  sundayĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  wellĀ  ,Ā  iā€™dĀ  beĀ  lyingĀ  ifĀ  iĀ  saidĀ  itĀ  didnā€™tĀ  crossĀ  myĀ  mindĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  iĀ  figuredĀ  iā€™dĀ  spareĀ  youĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  statesĀ  ,Ā  makingĀ  himselfĀ  moreĀ  comfortableĀ  asĀ  heĀ  glancesĀ  overĀ  atĀ  theĀ  girlĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  whatā€™reĀ  youĀ  doinā€™Ā  outĀ  hereĀ  byĀ  yourselfĀ  anywayĀ  ?Ā  broodingĀ  ,Ā  planningĀ  aĀ  murderĀ  ,Ā  planningĀ  outĀ  theĀ  lifeĀ  youĀ  couldĀ  liveĀ  asĀ  aĀ  mountainĀ  womanĀ  ?Ā  orĀ  maybeĀ  allĀ  threeĀ  .Ā  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  judgeĀ  ,Ā  unlessĀ  iā€™mĀ  theĀ  murderĀ  youā€™reĀ  planninā€™Ā  ,Ā  andĀ  ifĀ  soĀ  ,Ā  makeĀ  itĀ  aĀ  quickĀ  deathĀ  ,Ā  yeahĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā Ā 
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ā€œ Ā  Ā oh Ā my Ā god, Ā eli. Ā SHHH. Ā  Ā ā€ Ā  Ā voice Ā is Ā barely Ā above Ā a Ā whisper Ā as Ā she Ā turns Ā to Ā him, Ā eyes Ā narrowing Ā dangerously Ā as Ā she Ā presses Ā a Ā finger Ā against Ā her Ā lips Ā in Ā a Ā hushing Ā motion. Ā okay, Ā maybe Ā ghost Ā hunting Ā in Ā the Ā woods Ā wasnā€™t Ā the Ā best Ā idea Ā sheā€™s Ā had. Ā but Ā theyā€™re Ā here Ā now, Ā so Ā they Ā might Ā as Ā well Ā stick Ā with Ā it.Ā  Ā ā€œ Ā  Ā how Ā are Ā we Ā gonna Ā find Ā some Ā ghosts Ā if Ā you Ā donā€™t Ā stay Ā quiet Ā ? Ā  Ā ā€ Ā 
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ā€œĀ  whatĀ  doĀ  youĀ  expectĀ  fromĀ  meĀ  hereĀ  ,Ā  lunaĀ  ?Ā  iĀ  feelĀ  likeĀ  iā€™mĀ  ...Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  trailsĀ  offĀ  ,Ā  eyesĀ  dartingĀ  toĀ  theĀ  sideĀ  asĀ  heĀ  shinesĀ  hisĀ  flashlightĀ  intoĀ  theĀ  darknessĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  iā€™mĀ  soĀ  fuckinā€™Ā  scaredĀ  rightĀ  nowĀ  .Ā  itĀ  feelsĀ  likeĀ  weā€™reĀ  inĀ  theĀ  blairĀ  witchĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  iĀ  alreadyĀ  knowĀ  youā€™dĀ  leaveĀ  myĀ  assĀ  inĀ  theĀ  dustĀ  toĀ  saveĀ  yourselfĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  pointsĀ  outĀ  ,Ā  glaringĀ  atĀ  herĀ  teasinglyĀ  asĀ  heĀ  thenĀ  swingsĀ  theĀ  lightĀ  intoĀ  herĀ  faceĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  whereĀ  areĀ  weĀ  goingĀ  anywayĀ  ?Ā  areĀ  youĀ  takinā€™Ā  meĀ  outĀ  hereĀ  toĀ  murderĀ  meĀ  ?Ā  actuallyĀ  ,Ā  donā€™tĀ  answerĀ  thatĀ  ...Ā  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  wannaĀ  knowĀ  .Ā  ā€
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MADELYN: have you MET them?
MADELYN: be annoying???
MADELYN: fuck no, annoying af. fucking attacked me this morning for making a simple comment
MADELYN: i'm glad, but those are my choices
ELI: ok ok fair enough
ELI: i respect ur choices lmao
ELI: wait... attacked u for makin a comment? wtf?!
ELI: should i start beatin some ass
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MADELYN: lmao idgaf if you told. idk my family? uhm maddox is annoying..so is chloe
MADELYN: awww, you would??? thanks
MADELYN: you're safe from jason for now
ELI: damn u would sacrifice ur family?? thats cold
ELI: fr? what did maddox do to u?? lmao
ELI: & chloe is funny af like cmon u cant tell me she isnt entertaining
ELI: shes always stirrin up shit i love it
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MADELYN: anyone and everyone
MADELYN: oh wait- someone i hate for SURE. why tf would you be on that list?
ELI: thats a copout
ELI: name someone specific cmon i wont tell
ELI: idk... maybe out of convenience u would just toss me into the crossfire
ELI: or because u know i would forgive u
ELI: even in death
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ELI: if jason popped outta the lake & started swingin who are u throwin into the line of fire to save urself
ELI: & no u cant say me
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Fern had just finished getting high with her usual choice of poison, so her head was starting to spin a bit and deciding to walk outside to get some fresh air, and find a spot to roll in peace a bit. Though after she opened the door part of her wished she would have stayed in her room. She slid her sun glasses on quickly as she walked past Eli, a small scoff escaping her lipsĀ ā€œWell, look who finally decided to show up and grace us with his presence.ā€ she said a bit more sarcastic then intended. Fern looked over at him with a quick glance before she ran her hand through her hair to move it behind her shoulders and opened the mini cooler outside and grabbed a cold beverage and sighedĀ ā€œDo you want anything?ā€ she asked deciding to try and be polite since deep down she did careĀ for Eli glancing at him impatient for an answer.
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eliĀ  knewĀ  thereĀ  wasĀ  aĀ  goodĀ  chanceĀ  heĀ  wouldĀ  runĀ  intoĀ  fernĀ  atĀ  theĀ  cabinĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  thinksĀ  thatā€™sĀ  aĀ  partĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  reasonĀ  whyĀ  heĀ  showedĀ  .Ā  bothĀ  ofĀ  themĀ  endingĀ  upĀ  atĀ  oakmoreĀ  wasĀ  alreadyĀ  aĀ  workĀ  ofĀ  divineĀ  interventionĀ  inĀ  itselfĀ  ,Ā  soĀ  heĀ  feelsĀ  likeĀ  heĀ  shouldĀ  beĀ  makingĀ  theĀ  mostĀ  ofĀ  itĀ  .Ā  evenĀ  ifĀ  thatĀ  meansĀ  poisoningĀ  fernā€™sĀ  lifeĀ  withĀ  allĀ  theĀ  toxicĀ  partsĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  ownĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  awĀ  ,Ā  wereĀ  youĀ  waitingĀ  onĀ  meĀ  toĀ  showĀ  upĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  smilesĀ  asĀ  heĀ  adjustsĀ  hisĀ  hoodĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  nextĀ  timeĀ  ,Ā  justĀ  sayĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  missĀ  meĀ  ,Ā  babyĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  saysĀ  ,Ā  leaningĀ  backĀ  inĀ  theĀ  chairĀ  asĀ  heĀ  watchesĀ  fernĀ  siftĀ  aroundĀ  insideĀ  theĀ  coolerĀ  forĀ  somethingĀ  toĀ  drinkĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  doĀ  iĀ  wantĀ  anythingĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  repeatsĀ  withĀ  aĀ  quirkĀ  ofĀ  hisĀ  browĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  ohĀ  ,Ā  iĀ  wantĀ  aĀ  lotĀ  ofĀ  thingsĀ  .Ā  whatĀ  exactlyĀ  areĀ  youĀ  offeringĀ  ?Ā  toĀ  serveĀ  meĀ  aĀ  drinkĀ  ,Ā  orĀ  justĀ  whateverĀ  iĀ  wantĀ  ?Ā  youĀ  gottaĀ  beĀ  moreĀ  specificĀ  withĀ  meĀ  .Ā  ā€
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Brynn was walking outside, her bikini on and a tray of fresh fruit in hand as she made her way to the pool side. She saw Elijah sitting there and she smiled setting down the tray and looked over at himĀ ā€œListen, there are no injuries allowed this weekend. I am off dutyā€ she teased with a grin, knowing that asking that was probably a lot with this group but she was really hoping not to have to play doctor, at least not in the literal way. She played with the strap on her shoulder moving it up a bit,Ā ā€œ I will take payments in advanced thoughā€ she chuckled as she plopped herself down in the chair next to him her head tilted slightly, a playful grin spreading on her lips as her blue eyed gaze met hisĀ ā€œYou missed quiet the show last nightā€ she stated unsure if it was a good thing or a bad thing, thinking about how it ended a small frown briefly appeared on her lipsĀ ā€œNot sure playing never have I ever was a good ideaā€
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eliĀ  squintsĀ  againstĀ  theĀ  brightĀ  sunĀ  untilĀ  brynnĀ  comesĀ  intoĀ  viewĀ  withĀ  aĀ  smileĀ  evenĀ  moreĀ  radiantĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  honestlyĀ  ,Ā  heĀ  canā€™tĀ  helpĀ  butĀ  toĀ  laughĀ  lightlyĀ  alongĀ  withĀ  herĀ  .Ā  sheā€™sĀ  probablyĀ  theĀ  mostĀ  normalĀ  personĀ  heā€™sĀ  everĀ  metĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  lifeĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  sheā€™sĀ  forĀ  damnĀ  sureĀ  theĀ  nicestĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  butĀ  arenā€™tĀ  doctorsĀ  alwaysĀ  onĀ  dutyĀ  ?Ā  youĀ  shouldĀ  probablyĀ  getĀ  usedĀ  toĀ  thatĀ  nowĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  teasesĀ  backĀ  asĀ  heĀ  rollsĀ  aĀ  shoulderĀ  andĀ  pretendsĀ  toĀ  winceĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  andĀ  hereĀ  iĀ  wasĀ  hopinā€™Ā  forĀ  aĀ  specialĀ  ,Ā  offĀ  theĀ  clockĀ  massageĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  statesĀ  ,Ā  hisĀ  eyesĀ  trackingĀ  theĀ  movementĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  handĀ  ,Ā  thenĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  bodyĀ  asĀ  sheĀ  plopsĀ  downĀ  besideĀ  himĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  damnĀ  ,Ā  weā€™reĀ  stillĀ  playinā€™Ā  highĀ  schoolĀ  gamesĀ  ?Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  sayĀ  iā€™mĀ  notĀ  interestedĀ  atĀ  allĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  nowĀ  iĀ  gottaĀ  knowĀ  ...Ā  tellĀ  meĀ  everythingĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  smilesĀ  asĀ  heĀ  shieldsĀ  hisĀ  eyesĀ  withĀ  oneĀ  handĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  wellĀ  ,Ā  actuallyĀ  ,Ā  onlyĀ  tellĀ  meĀ  theĀ  goodĀ  partsĀ  .Ā  likeĀ  ...Ā  didĀ  someoneĀ  admitĀ  toĀ  murderĀ  ?Ā  didĀ  soĀ  andĀ  soĀ  sleepĀ  withĀ  someoneĀ  elseā€™sĀ  partnerĀ  ?Ā  thatĀ  kindaĀ  shitĀ  .Ā  ā€
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Caden needed to stick to smoking and smoking only. Drinking wasnā€™t something he really needed to do and heļæ½ļæ½ļæ½s had problems with it in the past when it came to his mouth. He sat outside smoking a blunt just trying to stay away from the alcohol tonight and sticking to this. Maybe his parents were right, but he wasnā€™t gonna think about that right now. ā€œYou want a hit,ā€ he asked the person next to him and handed them the blunt.
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neverĀ  oneĀ  toĀ  passĀ  upĀ  aĀ  bluntĀ  ,Ā  eliĀ  takesĀ  itĀ  offĀ  ofĀ  cadenā€™sĀ  handsĀ  withĀ  easeĀ  andĀ  slipsĀ  itĀ  betweenĀ  hisĀ  ownĀ  lipsĀ  .Ā  asĀ  heĀ  takesĀ  aĀ  longĀ  hitĀ  ,Ā  heĀ  letsĀ  theĀ  silenceĀ  washĀ  overĀ  themĀ  forĀ  aĀ  momentĀ  beforeĀ  breakingĀ  itĀ  asĀ  heĀ  speaksĀ  onĀ  anĀ  exhaleĀ  ,Ā Ā ā€œĀ  youĀ  goodĀ  ,Ā  dudeĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  asksĀ  ,Ā  passingĀ  theĀ  bluntĀ  backĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  companionĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  iĀ  honestlyĀ  canā€™tĀ  tellĀ  ifĀ  youā€™reĀ  justĀ  superĀ  relaxedĀ  rightĀ  nowĀ  ,Ā  orĀ  ifĀ  youā€™reĀ  havinā€™Ā  someĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  existentialĀ  crisisĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  youĀ  lookĀ  likeĀ  somethinā€™Ā  isĀ  upĀ  .Ā  likeĀ  ,Ā  iā€™mĀ  noĀ  therapistĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  ifĀ  yourĀ  dogĀ  diedĀ  orĀ  somethinā€™Ā  ,Ā  thenĀ  myĀ  condolencesĀ  .Ā  ā€
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why Ā had Ā madelyn Ā tried Ā to Ā be Ā productive Ā that Ā day Ā and Ā go Ā to Ā all Ā of Ā her Ā gen Ā ed Ā classes Ā ? Ā she Ā was Ā ready Ā to Ā make Ā it Ā back Ā to Ā her Ā room Ā and Ā just Ā escape Ā from Ā it Ā all Ā , Ā that Ā was Ā way Ā too Ā much Ā for Ā her. was Ā she Ā already Ā hitting Ā her Ā pen Ā once Ā she Ā made Ā it Ā outside Ā ? Ā of Ā course Ā she Ā was Ā , Ā she Ā had Ā a Ā mission Ā , Ā but Ā as Ā soon Ā as Ā she Ā heard Ā eliā€™s Ā voice Ā the Ā girl Ā was Ā brought Ā back Ā to Ā reality. ā€œ Ā stalker Ā much Ā ? Ā ā€ Ā she Ā asked Ā , Ā his Ā own Ā sarcastic Ā smile Ā causing Ā one Ā to Ā form Ā on Ā her Ā lips Ā , Ā an Ā eye Ā roll Ā following Ā suit. ā€œ Ā oh Ā , Ā does Ā it Ā ? Ā ā€ Ā she Ā asked Ā , Ā ā€œ Ā you Ā have Ā my Ā number Ā , Ā you Ā couldā€™ve Ā texted Ā me Ā and Ā all Ā this Ā wouldā€™ve Ā been Ā in Ā the Ā past. ā€ Ā continuing Ā her Ā walk Ā back Ā to Ā marsden Ā , Ā ā€œ Ā aww Ā poor Ā baby Ā , Ā ā€ Ā sarcasm Ā flowing Ā through Ā her Ā words Ā , Ā her Ā own Ā practices Ā kicking Ā her Ā ass Ā lately. ā€œ Ā iā€™ve Ā been Ā here Ā , Ā shouldā€™ve Ā found Ā me Ā earlier. ā€
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ā€œĀ  stalkerĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  repeatsĀ  asĀ  heĀ  quirksĀ  aĀ  browĀ  andĀ  throwsĀ  anĀ  armĀ  overĀ  madelynā€™sĀ  shoulderĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  youĀ  beenĀ  fantasizingĀ  aboutĀ  meĀ  beinā€™Ā  thatĀ  dweebĀ  fromĀ  thatĀ  oneĀ  showĀ  ?Ā  onlyĀ  iā€™mĀ  hotĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  iĀ  disguiseĀ  myselfĀ  withĀ  aĀ  pairĀ  ofĀ  glassesĀ  insteadĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  hatĀ  .Ā  callĀ  meĀ  funhouseĀ  clarkĀ  kentĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  statesĀ  ,Ā  hisĀ  handĀ  alreadyĀ  reachingĀ  outĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  herĀ  penĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  thinksĀ  betterĀ  ofĀ  itĀ  lastĀ  secondĀ  andĀ  pullsĀ  hisĀ  armĀ  awayĀ  .Ā  heĀ  isnā€™tĀ  tryingĀ  toĀ  loseĀ  aĀ  limbĀ  thisĀ  earlyĀ  inĀ  lifeĀ  ,Ā  afterĀ  allĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  cā€™monĀ  ,Ā  madsĀ  ...Ā  iĀ  feelĀ  likeĀ  youĀ  definitelyĀ  couldā€™veĀ  sparedĀ  aĀ  momentĀ  .Ā  youĀ  knowĀ  iā€™mĀ  notĀ  oneĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  theĀ  firstĀ  moveĀ  .Ā  iĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  beĀ  theĀ  oneĀ  wantedĀ  ,Ā  notĀ  theĀ  oneĀ  doingĀ  theĀ  wantingļæ½ļæ½ ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  explainsĀ  ,Ā  likeĀ  heā€™sĀ  somehowĀ  makingĀ  senseĀ  toĀ  anyoneĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  howĀ  aboutĀ  youĀ  inviteĀ  meĀ  toĀ  accompanyĀ  youĀ  toĀ  yoursĀ  rightĀ  nowĀ  andĀ  weĀ  makeĀ  upĀ  forĀ  lostĀ  timeĀ  ?Ā  thatĀ  wayĀ  ,Ā  everyoneĀ  isĀ  happyĀ  !Ā  plusĀ  ,Ā  iĀ  gotĀ  aĀ  newĀ  strainĀ  calledĀ  mauiĀ  wowieĀ  thatĀ  weĀ  couldĀ  tryĀ  togetherĀ  .Ā  ā€
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Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  慤Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā ā­‘ 慤 starter Ā  for 慤 ā€ŗ Ā ć…¤ š’Žš’‚š’…š’†š’š’šš’ Ā  Ā ļ¹—
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ifĀ  thereā€™sĀ  oneĀ  thingĀ  thatĀ  eliĀ  hatesĀ  aboveĀ  allĀ  elseĀ  ,Ā  itā€™sĀ  beingĀ  ignoredĀ  .Ā  actuallyĀ  ,Ā  scratchĀ  thatĀ  ,Ā  itā€™sĀ  beingĀ  completelyĀ  forgottenĀ  ,Ā  thrownĀ  asideĀ  ,Ā  replacedĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  thatā€™sĀ  exactlyĀ  howĀ  heĀ  feelsĀ  rightĀ  nowĀ  whenĀ  itĀ  comesĀ  toĀ  madelynĀ  .Ā  becauseĀ  whatĀ  theĀ  fuckĀ  ...Ā  heĀ  hasnā€™tĀ  heardĀ  fromĀ  herĀ  inĀ  agesĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  yeahĀ  ,Ā  maybeĀ  heā€™sĀ  beenĀ  busyĀ  withĀ  preparingĀ  forĀ  theĀ  hockeyĀ  seasonĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  surelyĀ  toĀ  godĀ  madelynĀ  hasnā€™tĀ  beenĀ  .Ā  sheĀ  couldĀ  atĀ  leastĀ  sendĀ  himĀ  aĀ  textĀ  heĀ  couldĀ  ignoreĀ  underĀ  theĀ  guiseĀ  ofĀ  beingĀ  busyĀ  orĀ  somethingĀ  .Ā  soĀ  ,Ā  callĀ  himĀ  crazyĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  thatĀ  factĀ  hasĀ  himĀ  strategicallyĀ  waitingĀ  outsideĀ  theĀ  buildingĀ  forĀ  herĀ  lastĀ  classĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  dayĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  whatā€™sĀ  goinā€™Ā  onĀ  ,Ā  houdiniĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  greetsĀ  asĀ  soonĀ  asĀ  heĀ  spotsĀ  madelynĀ  .Ā  heĀ  pushesĀ  himselfĀ  offĀ  theĀ  wallĀ  andĀ  shootsĀ  herĀ  aĀ  somewhatĀ  sarcasticĀ  smileĀ  asĀ  heĀ  saysĀ  ,Ā Ā ā€œĀ  feelĀ  likeĀ  youā€™veĀ  beenĀ  ghostinā€™Ā  meĀ  forĀ  weeksĀ  nowĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  thatĀ  reallyĀ  hurtsĀ  myĀ  feelingsĀ  ,Ā  yaĀ  knowĀ  ?Ā  practiceĀ  hasĀ  beenĀ  stressfulĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  yetĀ  ,Ā  myĀ  smokingĀ  buddyĀ  wasĀ  nowhereĀ  toĀ  beĀ  foundĀ  .Ā  ā€
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ricky was ANNIHILATED by chloe in the groupchat.Ā  destroy utterly; obliterate. he felt shame the most. now everyone knew. but people always know.Ā ā€œyou know what? iā€™m just fucking sick of everything.ā€ ricky said, anger and sadness colored his tone.ā€iā€™m done.ā€ he flicked his cigarette on the ground and stomped on it.Ā ā€œi just feel so fucking numb.ā€ ā€¦like no one would even care if he disappeared, he thought.Ā ā€œi donā€™t know what to do. i donā€™t know what to do.ā€ he repeated himself, growing frantic. his shaking hands tried to light another cigarette but his fingers were too sweaty to flick the lighter. he threw the lighter at the ground,Ā ā€œFUCK!ā€Ā 
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toĀ  sayĀ  thatĀ  eliĀ  isnā€™tĀ  theĀ  bestĀ  whenĀ  itĀ  comesĀ  toĀ  comfortingĀ  othersĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  theĀ  understatementĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  centuryĀ  .Ā  theĀ  bestĀ  adviceĀ  heĀ  canĀ  everĀ  giveĀ  isĀ  toĀ  justĀ  forgetĀ  aboutĀ  itĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  ifĀ  theyĀ  canā€™tĀ  doĀ  thatĀ  ,Ā  thenĀ  theyĀ  couldĀ  alwaysĀ  justĀ  getĀ  highĀ  toĀ  forgetĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  neitherĀ  ofĀ  thoseĀ  optionsĀ  exactlyĀ  seemĀ  likeĀ  theĀ  bestĀ  routeĀ  toĀ  goĀ  withĀ  rickyĀ  .Ā  especiallyĀ  nowĀ  thatĀ  hisĀ  businessĀ Ā āø»Ā  moreĀ  specificallyĀ  hisĀ  problemsĀ  withĀ  substancesĀ Ā āø»Ā  hasĀ  beenĀ  airedĀ  forĀ  everyoneĀ  toĀ  seeĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  listenĀ  ,Ā  manĀ  ,Ā  iĀ  knowĀ  thisĀ  isnā€™tĀ  gonnaĀ  beĀ  easyĀ  toĀ  hearĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  youĀ  justĀ  gottaĀ  putĀ  allĀ  thisĀ  negativeĀ  shitĀ  outĀ  ofĀ  yourĀ  mindĀ  .Ā  itĀ  sucksĀ  havingĀ  somethingĀ  youĀ  confidedĀ  inĀ  someoneĀ  aboutĀ  blastedĀ  toĀ  everyoneĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  thereĀ  areĀ  moreĀ  peopleĀ  onĀ  yourĀ  sideĀ  thanĀ  notĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  explainsĀ  asĀ  heĀ  gentlyĀ  takesĀ  theĀ  cigaretteĀ  fromĀ  rickyā€™sĀ  shakingĀ  handsĀ  andĀ  tucksĀ  itĀ  behindĀ  hisĀ  earĀ  ,Ā  withĀ  theĀ  thoughtĀ  thatĀ  rickyĀ  mostĀ  definitelyĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  needĀ  toĀ  beĀ  dealingĀ  withĀ  hisĀ  problemsĀ  throughĀ  yetĀ  anotherĀ  viceĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  theĀ  onlyĀ  thingĀ  chloeĀ  reallyĀ  didĀ  wasĀ  makeĀ  herselfĀ  outĀ  toĀ  beĀ  aĀ  shittyĀ  personĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  weā€™reĀ  allĀ  rootingĀ  forĀ  youĀ  toĀ  getĀ  betterĀ  .Ā  youĀ  obviouslyĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  goodĀ  supportĀ  systemĀ  ...Ā  nowĀ  ,Ā  allĀ  youĀ  gottaĀ  doĀ  isĀ  useĀ  itĀ  .Ā  ā€
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So I decided to finally pull out my guitar after a year and honestly with all this free time I have now I may start playing again for the hell of it. I donā€™t know, but with all this free time I can start actually picking up new hobbies that isnā€™t the gym,but letā€™s be honest Iā€™ll find myself in there still.Ā 
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ā€œĀ  broĀ  ,Ā  iā€™mĀ  notĀ  gonnaĀ  lieĀ  ...Ā  iā€™mĀ  aĀ  littleĀ  bitĀ  tooĀ  tiredĀ  toĀ  fullyĀ  graspĀ  thisĀ  conversationĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  iā€™mĀ  happyĀ  forĀ  youĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  statesĀ  asĀ  heĀ  runsĀ  aĀ  handĀ  overĀ  hisĀ  eyesĀ  andĀ  forcesĀ  himselfĀ  toĀ  holdĀ  backĀ  aĀ  yawnĀ  .Ā Ā ā€œĀ  whyā€™dĀ  youĀ  ditchĀ  theĀ  guitarĀ  forĀ  aĀ  yearĀ  anywayĀ  ?Ā  alsoĀ  ,Ā  isĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  theĀ  gymĀ  evenĀ  consideredĀ  aĀ  hobbyĀ  ?Ā  donā€™tĀ  youĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  enjoyĀ  itĀ  forĀ  itĀ  toĀ  beĀ  consideredĀ  thatĀ  ?Ā  unlessĀ  youĀ  actuallyĀ  doĀ  enjoyĀ  itĀ  ,Ā  andĀ  inĀ  thatĀ  caseĀ  ,Ā  youā€™reĀ  kindaĀ  aĀ  psychopathĀ  ,Ā  manĀ  .Ā  ā€
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ā€œshit.. shit.. shit..ā€ arlo stammers as he rounds the corner of the hall, backpack long forgotten as he shuffles to get ahead of the set of ratherĀ temperamentalĀ lacrosse players heā€™d recently fucked with. call it a friendly rivalry that begun with the destruction of one of his art projects when he was sketching in the park that led him to tampering with their supply closet with a spectacular displayĀ of broken sticks and missing equipment. heā€™d gotten far enough away that sneaking into a side door without being seeing was a successful move, his back now pressed to the door, chest heaving.Ā ā€œfuck.ā€ he mutters as he pushes his fingers through his hair before his gaze flicks up, jaw going a bit slack.Ā ā€œoh uh.. hey, whatā€™s up?ā€ he muses, eyes landing on a familiar face set in the empty classroom.ā€‹
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eliĀ  shouldnā€™tĀ  beĀ  surprisedĀ  atĀ  beingĀ  interruptedĀ  whenĀ  heā€™sĀ  inĀ  theĀ  middleĀ  ofĀ  lightingĀ  oneĀ  upĀ  āø»Ā  especiallyĀ  consideringĀ  theĀ  factĀ  thatĀ  heā€™sĀ  doingĀ  soĀ  inĀ  anĀ  emptyĀ  classroomĀ  āø»Ā  butĀ  theĀ  presenceĀ  ofĀ  anotherĀ  personĀ  stillĀ  shocksĀ  himĀ  .Ā  maybeĀ  itā€™sĀ  becauseĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  suddennessĀ  ofĀ  theirĀ  arrivalĀ  ,Ā  orĀ  maybeĀ  itā€™sĀ  becauseĀ  heĀ  hadĀ  honestlyĀ  expectedĀ  noĀ  oneĀ  toĀ  beĀ  aroundĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  eitherĀ  wayĀ  ,Ā  heĀ  breathesĀ  outĀ  aĀ  sighĀ  ofĀ  reliefĀ  whenĀ  heĀ  realizesĀ  thatĀ  itā€™sĀ  justĀ  arloĀ  .Ā  ā€œĀ  uhĀ  ...Ā  ā€Ā  eliĀ  dragsĀ  outĀ  ,Ā  eyesĀ  slowlyĀ  dartingĀ  aroundĀ  theĀ  emptyĀ  classroomĀ  likeĀ  heā€™sĀ  justĀ  nowĀ  realizingĀ  whereĀ  heā€™sĀ  atĀ  .Ā  ā€œĀ  notĀ  muchĀ  ?Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  repliesĀ  ,Ā  finallyĀ  relaxingĀ  backĀ  againstĀ  theĀ  deskĀ  againĀ  asĀ  heĀ  settlesĀ  theĀ  jointĀ  betweenĀ  hisĀ  lipsĀ  .Ā  ā€œĀ  whatā€™sĀ  upĀ  withĀ  youĀ  ,Ā  manĀ  ?Ā  youĀ  bustedĀ  inĀ  hereĀ  likeĀ  youĀ  wereĀ  tryinā€™Ā  toĀ  shakeĀ  swatĀ  ,Ā  ā€Ā  heĀ  commentsĀ  justĀ  asĀ  heĀ  finallyĀ  lightsĀ  upĀ  andĀ  allowsĀ  thatĀ  sweetĀ  ,Ā  familiarĀ  burnĀ  toĀ  overtakeĀ  himĀ  .Ā 
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(Ā  aaronĀ  liebregtsĀ  ,Ā  twentyĀ  -Ā  oneĀ  ,Ā  cisĀ  maleĀ  ,Ā  heĀ  /Ā  himĀ  ,Ā  scholarshipĀ  )Ā  welcomeĀ  toĀ  oakmoreĀ  ELIJAHĀ  JANSSENĀ  !Ā  backĀ  againĀ  forĀ  yourĀ  JUNIORĀ  yearĀ  ,Ā  iĀ  seeĀ  .Ā  wellĀ  ,Ā  whatĀ  areĀ  youĀ  waitingĀ  forĀ  ?Ā  unpackĀ  yourĀ  bagsĀ  inĀ  yourĀ  roomĀ  atĀ  paisleyĀ  houseĀ  andĀ  getĀ  settledĀ  .Ā  ohĀ  ,Ā  donā€™tĀ  listenĀ  toĀ  theĀ  rumorsĀ  ,Ā  eliĀ  ,Ā  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  thinkĀ  thatĀ  youā€™reĀ  moroseĀ  ,Ā  actuallyĀ  iĀ  thinkĀ  thatĀ  youā€™reĀ  quiteĀ  beguilingĀ  .Ā  youĀ  knowĀ  ,Ā  youĀ  actuallyĀ  remindĀ  meĀ  ofĀ  jakeĀ  connellyĀ  .Ā  okayĀ  ,Ā  wellĀ  seeĀ  yaĀ  aroundĀ  !
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āø» Ā š™²š™¾š™½ššƒš™“š™½ššƒ Ā šš†š™°ššš™½š™øš™½š™¶šš‚ Ā :Ā  drugĀ  useĀ  ,Ā  usingĀ  sexĀ  asĀ  aĀ  copingĀ  mechanismĀ  &Ā  justĀ  messinessĀ  inĀ  generalĀ  tbhĀ  .
BASIC STATISTICS
FULLĀ  NAMEĀ  :Ā  elijahĀ  brooksĀ  janssen NICKNAME(S)Ā  :Ā  eliĀ  ,Ā  janssen CURRENTĀ  AGEĀ  :Ā  twentyĀ  -Ā  one DATEĀ  OFĀ  BIRTHĀ  :Ā  octoberĀ  26thĀ  ,Ā  2000 ZODIACĀ  SIGNĀ  :Ā  scorpio BIRTHPLACEĀ  :Ā  valenciaĀ  ,Ā  spain GENDERĀ  IDENTITYĀ  :Ā  cisgenderĀ  male SEXUALĀ  ORIENTATIONĀ  :Ā  bisexual RELIGIONĀ  PREFERENCEĀ  :Ā  agnostic OCCUPATIONĀ  :Ā  juniorĀ  atĀ  oakmoreĀ  college
PHYSICAL FEATURES
HAIRĀ  COLORĀ  :Ā  lightĀ  brown EYEĀ  COLORĀ  :Ā  lightĀ  blue HEIGHTĀ  /Ā  WEIGHTĀ  :Ā  6ā€²2ā€³Ā  ,Ā  180Ā  lbs BUILDĀ  TYPEĀ  :Ā  athletic TATTOOSĀ  :Ā  wayĀ  tooĀ  manyĀ  toĀ  actuallyĀ  listĀ  ! PIERCINGSĀ  :Ā  doubleĀ  helixĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  leftĀ  earĀ  &Ā  aĀ  noseĀ  ringĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  wearĀ  often FACECLAIMĀ  :Ā  aaronĀ  liebregts
PERSONALITY OVERVIEW
LABELĀ  :Ā  theĀ  cataclysmic POSITIVEĀ  TRAITSĀ  :Ā  adroitĀ  ,Ā  valiantĀ  ,Ā  ferventĀ  ,Ā  ambitiousĀ  &Ā  confident NEGATIVEĀ  TRAITSĀ  :Ā  moroseĀ  ,Ā  impulsiveĀ  ,Ā  restlessĀ  ,Ā  deceitfulĀ  &Ā  bellicose LIKESĀ  :Ā  playingĀ  hockeyĀ  ,Ā  goingĀ  onĀ  jogsĀ  toĀ  clearĀ  hisĀ  headĀ  ,Ā  listeningĀ  toĀ  musicĀ  ,Ā  boxingĀ  ,Ā  buyingĀ  thingsĀ  heĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  needĀ  /Ā  canā€™tĀ  affordĀ  ,Ā  wearingĀ  sweatsĀ  wheneverĀ  heĀ  canĀ  getĀ  awayĀ  withĀ  itĀ  ,Ā  physicalĀ  challengesĀ  ,Ā  paintingĀ  ,Ā  strawberriesĀ  &Ā  beingĀ  inĀ  chargeĀ  . DISLIKESĀ  :Ā  loudĀ  chewersĀ  ,Ā  peopleĀ  whoĀ  spitĀ  ,Ā  peanutĀ  butterĀ  ,Ā  notĀ  doingĀ  anythingĀ  forĀ  extendedĀ  periodsĀ  ofĀ  timeĀ  ,Ā  gettingĀ  delayedĀ  ,Ā  notĀ  beingĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  findĀ  hisĀ  phoneĀ  chargerĀ  ,Ā  sandĀ  ,Ā  lettingĀ  laundryĀ  getĀ  piledĀ  upĀ  ,Ā  disorganizationĀ  &Ā  coffeeĀ  .Ā 
FAMILY HISTORY
PARENTSĀ  :Ā  josephĀ  &Ā  adaĀ  janssen SIBLING(S)Ā  :Ā  none CHILDRENĀ  :Ā  none FINANCIALĀ  STATUSĀ  :Ā  lowerĀ  middleĀ  class CURRENTĀ  RESIDENCEĀ  :Ā  paisleyĀ  houseĀ  inĀ  southernĀ  california
BACKGROUND AND HEADCANONS
eliĀ  wasĀ  nearlyĀ  bornĀ  onĀ  halloweenĀ  ,Ā  whichĀ  honestlyĀ  shouldĀ  haveĀ  beenĀ  hisĀ  parentsā€™Ā  firstĀ  indicationĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  aĀ  problemĀ  !Ā  notĀ  toĀ  stereotypeĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  noĀ  wayĀ  couldĀ  thatĀ  beĀ  aĀ  goodĀ  signĀ  !Ā  aĀ  halloweenĀ  babyĀ  equalsĀ  satanā€™sĀ  spawnĀ  &Ā  youĀ  canĀ  quoteĀ  meĀ  onĀ  thatĀ  !Ā  evenĀ  thoughĀ  eliĀ  wasnā€™tĀ  actuallyĀ  bornĀ  onĀ  theĀ  dayĀ  thoughĀ  ,Ā  heĀ  definitelyĀ  cameĀ  intoĀ  theĀ  worldĀ  screamingĀ  bloodyĀ  murderĀ  !Ā  hisĀ  poorĀ  motherĀ  couldnā€™tĀ  catchĀ  aĀ  breakĀ  &Ā  wasĀ  barelyĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  getĀ  anyĀ  sleepĀ  afterĀ  beingĀ  upĀ  allĀ  dayĀ  &Ā  nightĀ  withĀ  eliĀ  .
itĀ  seemedĀ  asĀ  thoughĀ  hisĀ  troublesomeĀ  natureĀ  onlyĀ  seemedĀ  toĀ  getĀ  worseĀ  asĀ  timeĀ  passedĀ  asĀ  wellĀ  &Ā  whenĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  fourĀ  ,Ā  hisĀ  motherĀ  actuallyĀ  hadĀ  toĀ  endĀ  upĀ  quittingĀ  herĀ  waitressingĀ  jobĀ  toĀ  stayĀ  homeĀ  withĀ  eliĀ  .Ā  thisĀ  leftĀ  onlyĀ  hisĀ  fatherĀ  workingĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  hisĀ  salaryĀ  asĀ  aĀ  teacherĀ  /Ā  coachĀ  atĀ  theĀ  localĀ  elementaryĀ  schoolĀ  wasĀ  justĀ  barelyĀ  payingĀ  theĀ  billsĀ  .Ā  notĀ  toĀ  mentionĀ  theĀ  factĀ  thatĀ  hisĀ  motherā€™sĀ  mentalĀ  healthĀ  wasĀ  rapidlyĀ  decliningĀ  rightĀ  alongĀ  withĀ  hisĀ  fatherā€™sĀ  patienceĀ  .Ā  thisĀ  ledĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  parentsĀ  fightingĀ  aĀ  lotĀ  &Ā  theĀ  fightingĀ  ledĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  motherĀ  eventuallyĀ  leavingĀ  withoutĀ  soĀ  muchĀ  asĀ  aĀ  goodbyeĀ  .
notĀ  oneĀ  toĀ  dwellĀ  ,Ā  hisĀ  fatherĀ  immediatelyĀ  uprootedĀ  theirĀ  livesĀ  &Ā  decidedĀ  toĀ  moveĀ  asĀ  farĀ  awayĀ  asĀ  heĀ  couldĀ  .Ā  thatā€™sĀ  howĀ  theyĀ  endedĀ  upĀ  inĀ  southernĀ  californiaĀ  ofĀ  allĀ  placesĀ  .Ā  hisĀ  fatherĀ  wasĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  getĀ  aĀ  similarĀ  jobĀ  toĀ  theĀ  oneĀ  heĀ  hadĀ  inĀ  spainĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  theĀ  moneyĀ  wasĀ  reallyĀ  noĀ  betterĀ  .Ā  thatĀ  didnā€™tĀ  stopĀ  hisĀ  fatherĀ  fromĀ  puttingĀ  eliĀ  intoĀ  everyĀ  sportĀ  heĀ  possiblyĀ  couldĀ  ,Ā  thoughĀ  ,Ā  untilĀ  heĀ  finallyĀ  decidedĀ  thatĀ  hisĀ  sonĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  theĀ  nextĀ  bigĀ  hockeyĀ  starĀ  !
fromĀ  theĀ  timeĀ  eliĀ  wasĀ  justĀ  sixĀ  yearsĀ  oldĀ  ,Ā  hisĀ  fatherĀ  beganĀ  pushingĀ  himĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  limitsĀ  &Ā  beganĀ  caringĀ  onlyĀ  aboutĀ  eliĀ  doingĀ  wellĀ  inĀ  hockeyĀ  .Ā  theyĀ  basicallyĀ  hadĀ  aĀ  nonexistentĀ  relationshipĀ  outsideĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  coachĀ  /Ā  playerĀ  dynamicĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  eliĀ  didnā€™tĀ  mindĀ  thatĀ  muchĀ  .Ā  heĀ  filledĀ  upĀ  hisĀ  timeĀ  withĀ  otherĀ  thingsĀ  &Ā  beganĀ  toĀ  fillĀ  theĀ  voidĀ  withĀ  differentĀ  vicesĀ  .
heĀ  pickedĀ  upĀ  smokingĀ  atĀ  justĀ  thirteenĀ  &Ā  experimentedĀ  withĀ  allĀ  kindsĀ  ofĀ  drugsĀ  afterwardsĀ  ,Ā  withĀ  cocaineĀ  beingĀ  hisĀ  drugĀ  ofĀ  choiceĀ  .Ā  heĀ  alsoĀ  turnedĀ  toĀ  sexĀ  aĀ  lotĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  timeĀ  inĀ  orderĀ  toĀ  feelĀ  wantedĀ  &Ā  lovedĀ  inĀ  someĀ  wayĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  couldĀ  neverĀ  forceĀ  himselfĀ  toĀ  stickĀ  aroundĀ  anyĀ  longerĀ  thanĀ  thatĀ  .
ifĀ  anythingĀ  ,Ā  hisĀ  hardĀ  workĀ  &Ā  oneĀ  -Ā  trackĀ  mindĀ  whenļæ½ļæ½ itĀ  cameĀ  toĀ  hockeyĀ  didĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  workĀ  outĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  favorĀ  inĀ  theĀ  endĀ  ,Ā  becauseĀ  heĀ  gotĀ  anĀ  athleticĀ  scholarshipĀ  toĀ  attendĀ  oakmoreĀ  .
overallĀ  ,Ā  eliĀ  isnā€™tĀ  exactlyĀ  anĀ  awfulĀ  guyĀ  orĀ  anythingĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  definitelyĀ  isĀ  anĀ  assholeĀ  aĀ  lotĀ  ofĀ  theĀ  timeĀ  &Ā  canĀ  beĀ  extremelyĀ  selfishĀ  ,Ā  tooĀ  !
funnilyĀ  enoughĀ  ,Ā  evenĀ  thoughĀ  eliĀ  isĀ  twentyĀ  -Ā  oneĀ  ,Ā  heā€™sĀ  neverĀ  botheredĀ  toĀ  getĀ  hisĀ  driverā€™sĀ  licenseĀ  ,Ā  soĀ  heā€™sĀ  alwaysĀ  bummingĀ  ridesĀ  offĀ  ofĀ  anyoneĀ  &Ā  everyoneĀ  .
eliĀ  isĀ  aĀ  bitĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  controlĀ  freakĀ  &Ā  likesĀ  toĀ  haveĀ  completeĀ  orderĀ  inĀ  hisĀ  lifeĀ Ā ā€”Ā  whenĀ  heā€™sĀ  soberĀ  ,Ā  thatĀ  isĀ  .Ā  heĀ  canā€™tĀ  liveĀ  inĀ  anyĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  messĀ  &Ā  heā€™sĀ  cleanĀ  toĀ  theĀ  pointĀ  ofĀ  slightĀ  obsessivenessĀ  .Ā  hisĀ  therapistĀ  claimsĀ  itĀ  hasĀ  toĀ  doĀ  withĀ  hisĀ  messyĀ  upbringingĀ  &Ā  neverĀ  beingĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  hisĀ  fatherĀ  trulyĀ  proudĀ  ofĀ  himĀ  ,Ā  soĀ  nowĀ  eliĀ  doesĀ  thingsĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  knowsĀ  willĀ  haveĀ  theĀ  outcomeĀ  thatĀ  heā€™sĀ  afterĀ  .
heā€™sĀ  beenĀ  claimingĀ  thatĀ  heā€™llĀ  stopĀ  smokingĀ  sinceĀ  heĀ  wasĀ  ,Ā  likeĀ  ,Ā  sixteenĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heā€™sĀ  neverĀ  evenĀ  actuallyĀ  triedĀ  .Ā  inĀ  factĀ  ,Ā  heā€™sĀ  probablyĀ  onlyĀ  gottenĀ  worseĀ  whenĀ  itĀ  comesĀ  toĀ  hisĀ  badĀ  habitsĀ  .
eliĀ  hasĀ  aĀ  bitĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  tattooĀ  obsessionĀ  &Ā  prettyĀ  muchĀ  hasĀ  hisĀ  wholeĀ  upperĀ  bodyĀ  coveredĀ  atĀ  thisĀ  pointĀ  withĀ  noĀ  intentionsĀ  ofĀ  stoppingĀ  .
heā€™sĀ  alwaysĀ  beenĀ  aĀ  bitĀ  aggressiveĀ  &Ā  wasĀ  knownĀ  forĀ  solvingĀ  hisĀ  problemsĀ  withĀ  hisĀ  fistsĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  whenĀ  heĀ  startedĀ  takingĀ  hockeyĀ  moreĀ  seriouslyĀ  ,Ā  heĀ  insteadĀ  focusedĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  thatĀ  energyĀ  intoĀ  theĀ  sportĀ  .Ā  itĀ  didĀ  giveĀ  himĀ  aĀ  bitĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  badĀ  reputationĀ  inĀ  theĀ  sportsĀ  worldĀ  &Ā  inĀ  generalĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  heĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  reallyĀ  careĀ  .
āø»Ā  THATā€™SĀ  ALLĀ  MYĀ  PUNEYĀ  LITTLEĀ  BRAINĀ  canĀ  thinkĀ  ofĀ  atmĀ  ,Ā  butĀ  pleaseĀ  gimmeĀ  aĀ  chanceĀ  lmaoĀ  !Ā  ifĀ  youĀ  wannaĀ  plotĀ  ,Ā  thenĀ  justĀ  giveĀ  thisĀ  aĀ  likeĀ  &Ā  iā€™llĀ  shootĀ  youĀ  aĀ  messageĀ  onĀ  discordĀ  orĀ  sumnĀ  ?Ā  orĀ  feelĀ  freeĀ  toĀ  contactĀ  meĀ  ,Ā  becauseĀ  believeĀ  meĀ  whenĀ  iĀ  sayĀ  thatĀ  iā€™mĀ  willingĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  upĀ  prettyĀ  muchĀ  anyĀ  connectionĀ  &Ā  thatĀ  iĀ  liveĀ  forĀ  messĀ  !Ā  iĀ  wonā€™tĀ  evenĀ  pretendĀ  toĀ  beĀ  coyĀ  orĀ  nothingĀ  ,Ā  becauseĀ  thisĀ  bitchĀ  lovesĀ  romancesĀ  ,Ā  hateĀ  shipsĀ  ,Ā  rivalsĀ  ,Ā  enemiesĀ  ,Ā  impulsiveĀ  bestĀ  friendsĀ  &Ā  anythingĀ  elseĀ  thatā€™sĀ  messyĀ  asĀ  hellĀ  .Ā  iā€™llĀ  takeĀ  itĀ  allĀ  ,Ā  thankĀ  youĀ  !
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guilty pleasure this guilty pleasure that, I don't feel guilty abt pleasure, I'm not catholic
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iā€™m literally so self aware of when iā€™m making bad decisions that youā€™d think itā€™d be enough to stop me but no, itā€™s not.
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