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I don’t have the words. So I’ll share an Emotion.

#chadwick boseman #black panther #spider-man into the spider-verse #rest in power

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A comic about, uh...everything right now.

#my art #comics #personal #anxiety #depression #despair

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I have a thought about voting. It’s an unrefined thought, but I hope I can communicate my worries.

I’m mentally ill. I have a number of problems that on their own are manageable, but combined make just being in the world more difficult than it should be. A hodge-podge of genetics and trauma left me like this. As they do. You probably know.

To treat my illness, I use medication and therapy. It took me years to find medication that worked for me. They’re not perfect, and someday they won’t be compatible with my body chemistry, but for now, they’re some of the best tools I have against what’s going on in my head.

Lately, I’m finding myself in a familiar situation. There’s an election coming up, and people are not satisfied with the candidates we’ve wound up with. Fair. But, you know, they’re what we have to work with. Except, a troubling amount of people seem to think this is reason enough not to participate in the election, or to cast their vote where it can’t do any tangible good. The thing is, we tried this. We’re kind of living with the fallout of this decision.

In times like this, it’s always my medication that comes to mind. It can’t make my problems go away, but they difference between what I’m like on and off it is vast. And I created a hypothetical scenario in my head; what if everyone else got to choose my medication? What if there were two groups; one wanted to do everything in their power to make sure I never received treatment, and the other thinks that by taking imperfect drugs, I’m complicit in the broken healthcare system, and the only ethical thing to do is to go without medicine all together until a perfect one, that’s accessible to everyone, is developed?

Say I’ve decided the former group is beyond reason. So I make my case to the latter. I want what they want. It sounds like a dream come true. But they can’t guarantee their plan will work, and it comes at the cost of my personal suffering to support it. I might get lectured about the greater good. I might be reminded that there are people out there suffering far worse than me, and I have no right to speak for them. I’d like to say I argue further, but unfortunately, I’m a much more emotionally vulnerable person than I planned to be. I give up pretty fast. I question myself. I don’t want to sell everyone else out, but I’m still a living person, who has to exist in the world, and I want quality of life. Is that selfish? I think it is. I think asking this much of me is selfish. Both can be true. Maybe normal people have more conviction than I do. Sometimes, things can only move forward with a leap of faith.

But sometimes, I wish people would stop and think about who they’re asking to jump with them.

#thoughts #voting #2020 election #biden/harris #mental illness #politics

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The Two Things I Took Away From Finally Watching ‘Hamilton’

1. Oh my God, this is actually as good as everyone said it was.

2. How the hell is there not a single AMV of Horde Prime singing “You’ll Be Back”?

#she ra #spop #horde prime

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SHADOW WEAVER: Don’t let Catra touch my important crystal!

HORDAK: Imma let her touch your important crystal.

SHADOW WEAVER: NNOOOO!!!! *SMASHBOOMPOP*

HORDAK: Huh. Wonder what that was about.

THREE SEASONS LATER

HORDAK: Ohh, now I get it.

#she ra #spop #shadow weaver #hordak #catra

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ME A WEEK AGO: Welp, it’s a long quarantine, maybe I’ll take a crack at writing that Beast Island Clean-Up Squad fanfic! Shenanigans ahoy!

ME NOW: King Micah spent years on an island where acknowledging his darkest thoughts meant certain death, and now he doesn’t know how to stop shutting them out, this man is the biggest backed-up sink of trauma on the show, in this shocking chapter I will-

#she ra #spop #king micah #fanfic #beast island #the creative process #beast island is a real downer guys

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When I was a teenager, I used to take voice lessons. I would go to my teacher’s house and she would undergo the Herculean task of making my singing voice passable. And as she accompanied my systematic butchering of the Stephen Schwartz oeuvre, she would have a conversation with her husband, which went like this:

TEACHER: Joooohhhnn? Will you make me a grilled cheese sandwich?

HUSBAND: *Through the wall* NO.

TEACHER: Pleeeeaaase?

HUSBAND: NO. MAKE YOUR OWN DAMN SANDWICH.

Which would be followed by him appearing ten minutes later, placing a cheese sandwich on the piano, and kissing my teacher on the head before he disappeared back into the house.

Anyway that’s what I think Entrapta and Hordak’s domestic life will be like.

#entrapdak #entrapta #hordak #she ra #spop

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The Beast Island Clean-Up Squad finally gets some downtime. Unfortunately, Scorpia is an inextinguishable flame of energy...and she brought board games.

(BTW, the titles of the games, from top to bottom, are Farsight, Exploding Hordaks, Mer-Mystery!, Duel-Venture, and Mantisaur)

#she ra #spop #scorpia #catra #double trouble #entrapta #hordak #wrong hordak #emily #melog #imp #beast island #board games #I actually made another one #this is my life now #she ra fanart #fanart #spop fanart

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So, this week I finally showed my mom She-Ra. When we got to this scene, she didn’t understand what was going on, and thought that Hordak was having his own “future vision” of having a daughter.

I gotta admit, I found that extremely adorable.

#she ra #spop #she ra spoilers #spop spoilers #hordak #adora #moms

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Day One of Wrong Hordak’s Clone De-Radicalization Seminar gets off to a rocky start.

#she-ra #spop #monty python #life of brian #wrong hordak #horde clones #hivemind #she ra

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NOELLE STEVENSON: *Makes a pithy comment about Hordak needing to do community service on Beast Island*

ME: *Falls down a rabbit hole that leads to an entire week spent rendering the first real digital art piece I’ve done in almost a decade, all to portray a ridiculously complicated Beast Island Clean-Up Squad scene*

#she ra #spop #the horde #hordak #entrapta #catra #scorpia #lonnie #kyle #rogelio #melog #horde clones #emily #double trouble #wrong hordak #imp #king micah #elemental #cobalt #grizzlor #goat lady #lizard lady #beast island #pookas #fanart #she ra fanart #i did it...i actually did it... #oh my god i'm tired

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(via https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6a9PrEDrCYMLr8azo9NfXZ?si=wD8CdQRaS4ShdxJxY1mtvw)

I, uh...I did the playlist thing.

#she ra #spop #entrapdak #entrapta #hordak #spotify #spotify playlist

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EPILOGUE: HORDAK REUNITES WITH IMP

Hordak: WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN FEEDING HIM??

Kyle: ...mostly cake.

Hordak: Why??

*FLASHBACK*

Kyle: No Imp, you can’t have dessert until you eat your ration bars!

Imp: *Opens his mouth* SCORPIA! DON’T TELL ANYONE, BUT I HAVE A CRUSH ON RO-

Kyle: Who wants cake?? *Crams cake into Imp’s mouth*

#she ra #spop #she ra season 5 #she ra spoilers #spop spoilers #she ra season 5 spoilers #hordak #imp #kyle #rogelio

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I gotta admit, out of all the things I anticipated from Horde Prime, uncomfortable nudity was not one I saw coming.

#she ra #spop #she ra season 5 #she ra spoilers #spop spoilers #she ra season 5 spoilers #spop season 5 spoilers #horde prime #hordak

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Me Watching She-Ra Season 5:

#she ra #spop #she ra season 5 #she ra season 5 spoilers #spop spoilers #spop season 5 spoilers

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My favorite part of the new clip is the little green bottle on the table who’s seen some shit and knows where this is going.

#She Ra #spop #she ra season 5 #she ra spoilers #spop spoilers #glimmer #catra #horde prime

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She-Ra Season 5 Predictions and Wishlist (pooossssible spoilers? Maaaybeee?)

Everyone loves to guess and so do I. I COULD wait for the Season 5 trailer to drop, but imagine how satisfying it would be if I was right about anything WITHOUT that much help? Or I won’t get a single thing right. Whichever. Here are my predictions/wishlist for She-Ra Season 5

PREDICTIONS: -We’re finally going to find out what went wrong with the first Princess Alliance, and it’s probably going to turn out to be the Rebellion’s fault. Entrapta, being older than most of the princesses, will back this claim up, shedding light on her more lax attitude towards the Horde

-Adora’s character arc is going to go full-blown ‘Steven Universe Future’ and Catra’s going to save HER

-Hordak has been deliberately tampering with his memories to hide things from Horde Prime. And on that note...

-The show is going to explain why Hordak is so strangely indifferent to Adora (it’s weird, right? They’re the respective Hero and Villain of the show and they’ve spoken ONCE, remember when Double Trouble tried to get a rise out of him by turning into what should be his arch-nemesis and he didn’t even FLINCH, it keeps me up at nigh-)

-Piggy-backing off of that, Shadow Weaver’s memory-wiping powers, which she HAS, are going to come back up again

-Catradora

-Angella’s alive

-Double Trouble will meet Horde Prime and there will be flirting

-Horde Prime moves between bodies, and at some point will transfer his consciousness into that giant mecha thing from the original show

-Horde Prime will be beaten by being trapped in Despondos. Someone will make the heroic sacrifice to trap him (and possibly his army) there. I’m calling Hordak

-Catra is going to scratch one of Horde Prime’s stupid eyes out

-Adora’s home planet is gone. There is no Eternia and He-Man is DEEEAAAD

THINGS I WANT (AND PROBABLY WON’T GET)

-Entrapdak

-Glimbow (or Glow? I know, I’m that buzzkill who likes hetero pairings. Sorry)

-Double Trouble pretends to be Hordak and gets caught. They break character without changing back for several seconds

-We’re going to actually address the fact that Scorpia can speak fluent Robot

-Hordak makes it out alive

-Hordak bonding with ANY other princesses. Like, maybe Perfuma teaches him to control his hyper-ventilating problem, or Scorpia is horrified to discover that he has no idea what a hug is

-Hordak has an incredibly satisfying final confrontation with Prime, including a scene where Prime tries the hair-cable thing again and Hordak not only resists, but uses his signature “GET...OUT!!” line before tearing the cables out and putting Prime in a sweet camel clutch while Entrapta turns her hair into fists and just WAILS on the fucker while Imp flies in a circle chanting “ENTRAPTA! ENTRAPTA!” and Rick Derringer’s “I Am a Real American” thunders through the loudspeakers...*This fantasy sequence continues into the night*

-Okay, just a liiiiittle bit of He-Man stuff. At least a passing reference to Skeletor? Maybe an Alan Oppenheimer cameo?

#She Ra #SPOP #she ra season 5 #she ra spoilers #spop spoilers #maybe #adora #catra #hordak #horde prime #entrapta #scorpia #catradora #entrapdak #glimbow #predictions #shera season 5 predictions #double trouble #perfuma #angella #he-man