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its my birthday today and all im thinking about is how many pills im going to swallow when i go home

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acting like it was the sole comment of that is all it took when that was just the final piece in the puzzle. you’ve been treating me like shit for over a year now and that was the last of it. i block you on social media and you think showing up to my house is okay? i hope you fucking rot.

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got praise by my psych for not relapsing like i wanted to as she upped my medication again. all i can do is look at my arms now and wish that i did, i did.

#hanging on by a thread and all i want is that relief again lmao

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“don’t know the last time i felt cherished” great to know 6 yrs meant nothing to u lol. bye.

#anyways. this time it is me who is blocking first.

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#q.

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two ppl now have said our relationship isnt going to last the year bc of the way u treat me. i didn’t even say anything like tht, i was just looking fr advice. i h8 the way u’ve made me cry so many times.

#h8 saying tht cos i sound like a stupid pussy but im so agitated

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I Don’t Exist // Olivia O’Brien

#typo.

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Don’t You Remember // Adele

#q.

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greens // fredo disco

#q.

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#q.

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the only thing that stopped me from killing myself tonight is the fact i had half a bottle of hpnotiq in my fridge that i’m currently drinking.

#living alone was the worst decision i've ever made in my life.

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and the ending is always the same.

#tells me the day before the flight it's not happening until the earliest being next month. okay. ok. #i knew it would happen and yet i'm still. upset. i'm still bitter. i'm still angry. i'm still sad. #whatever. what the fuck ever. okay.