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Diz-brand Modern AU Galefic Number Two! :D

Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Call Girl Tav, Professor Gale, Switch Tav, Dom Gale, Sex Work, Angst, Explicit Sexual Content, Dubious Consent, Under-Negotiated Kink, Older Man/Younger Woman, Infidelity, Codependency, Bondage, Femdom, Voyeurism/Exhibitionism, Masturbation, Orgasm Denial, Past Abuse, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Implied/Referenced Past Rape/Noncon, Jealousy, Creampie, Cunnilingus, Emotional Manipulation, Face-Fucking, Unreliable Narration, Questionably Consensual But Not Safe Or Sane, Choking, Spanking, Grief/Mourning, Suspension Bondage, Free Use, Spitroasting, Danger Wanking, Collars, Face Slapping, Degradation, Foot Worship, Praise Kink, Bathtub Sex, Impact Play, Fisting, Other Additional Tags to Be Added

Summary: Gale knows nothing good happens on Zastrow Street after dark. Nothing until the hazel-eyed girl with the stormy smile who crawls into his chest and makes a nest against his heart.

It’s a terrible way to discover just how rough his own edges have become. To watch, helpless, as she drives him to the sort of madness men start wars over.

A terrible thing indeed.

Words: 69,552 Chapters: 24/? Rating: Explicit Updated: 2024-04-18

More tags to come as the fic gets up, so definitely check them every chapter if you decide to follow. It’s a darker, kinkier AU of the It’s Called Freefall universe, because occasionally I think Gale should get to lose some of his hinges sometimes. As a treat. :3

#fic update #miri is about to make worse choices than usual i think #stay tuned :V

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My life is in shambles, but I'm a fanfic writer who writes to cope with stress and there is SO MUCH of it and I also want every version of Gale carnally so the rest of you get to bear the burden of my fruits.

Anyway what I'm getting at is my AO3 notification emails are like me ringing the dinner bell yelling COME GET YOUR SUPPER SLUTS

#me laughing as the boat im standing in sinks underwater #*shitpost shitpost shitpost* someone please help me hahahahahahaha *shitpost* *porn* *porn* *porn* *shitpost*

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Tired Astarion

Tired Astarion into your feed 😪 Karlach grabbing him like a cat is my headcanon

honestly, it's been me for last three months 🥹

Shorts by Cutdry

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There's a bunch of adhd advice out there that's like "people with adhd tend to work better under deadlines due to the anxiety so here are ways to artificially induce a stress response in order to get you to get work done" and it's like well what if I don't want to be stressed out all the time in order to function

#and this is why i have nerve problems 😅

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i just saw this post & i went digging & it turns out every romantic partner has dialogue abt the encouter w/ haarlep. i assume if astarion's has been put in, everyone else has as well

i think it's interesting how the responses range from worried & upset to wary to outright dismissive.

but also halsin??? that is such a weird fucking thing to say???

also i've always been curious abt this, and origin astarion is the only character with unique responses to haarlep

karlach has one unique line of narration if she hasn't gotten her second upgrade

#THIS HONEY POT IS FULL OF BEES #Oh my gods i love this man so much ahsjsjsksk #halsin is such a blessing #also minthara's shsjsksk #“you may need it later” yes queen you're so right

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reblog for the most chaos PC we can manage

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some of y'all need to learn how to accept hospitality. stop assuming people are only offering to look after you out of twisted obligation that they don't actually want to do. when you assume that, you are often denying someone the opportunity to genuinely show a friend or stranger love. even if you don't really care about what they're offering, it's respectful of their desire to be kind to accept it anyways.

i had a bunch of girls i've never met over for a women's group. every single one of them denied my offer to make them tea (despite already making myself a mug anyways), get them water, a scone, etc.

i can tell when people refuse to let me be a good host because they "don't want to be a bother". like no!! please be a bother!!! i want to serve you and make you comfortable in my home!

not to be like "we live in a society" but really do live in a modern culture than emphasizes individualism to the point where people will reflexively deny any help or kindness from others for fear of treading on their independence. newsflash: dependence on each other is what makes a community. next time someone offers you kindness, accept it instead of making excuses for why you don't need it. otherwise you've robbed both yourself of being loved and someone else from showing love.

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Trying to figure something out about myself; please reblog this for a larger sample size.

#the same as but with greater intensity for me #this led to some confusion in my formative years thh #*tbh

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Symbiosis isn't just mutualism. Parasitism is symbiosis. It's uncomfortable to confront parasitic relationships if you want to see your human ideas of good and bad reflected in Nature.

But gazing into something huge and utterly Other, being uncomfortable means you're engaging your mind with it. "Uncomfortable" is actually a whole spectrum of emotions that become a vivid and satisfying rainbow.

There was a post a while back with some artwork of Dendrogaster, a crustacean that parasitizes starfish, and its body is like this branching fractal of fleshy lobes made to fit inside the body of the starfish mirroring its structure, and I was absolutely horrified to look at this, and this horror was the same emotion as a strangely visceral wave of sympathy for this parasite.

Creative works about parasites often invoke the horror of bodily invasion, which is visceral and strong for me, but this artwork inverted that horror, instead showing the horror of being made so perfectly for fitting within someone else that you lose everything you are and become unrecognizable.

I also think of the post about the cowbird chick. It's awful that the bird pushes its siblings out of the nest as it grows, and the mama feeds it because she instinctively must feed her chick, but the cowbird is just a baby. Was it wrong for him to hatch, to be alive, to be hungry, to be a baby and to need love?

Symbiosis is intensely beautiful, and sometimes it's beautiful because it's grotesque and terrible. Of course, the symbiosis between two organisms isn't an allegory for a relationship, it just is a relationship, but looking at the way organisms become entwined feels like you're seeing things that, if words described them, would also be human experiences.

Being invaded by a parasite is a horror of powerlessness and loss of autonomy, but being a parasite is also defined by powerlessness. In many cases, the parasite will die without the host, but the host can live without the parasite. I wonder why it is expected to sympathize with one and not the other.

Your immune system fights against internal parasites like a tapeworm...Imagine being a tapeworm. The body of your host is your universe. Do you find your world to be kind? Benevolent? Does your god love you?

Sometimes people call disabled people "parasites." When I think about my future sometimes I'm uncertain and afraid.

But when a rare non-photosynthetic orchid blooms in the forest, this is not the forest's weakness and failure, but its crowning glory.

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The secret wish is to write a fanfic that someone loves so much they make fan art of it, or to create a drawing that someone creates an entire fic based off of it.

#i love writing fic for people's art it's so fun

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"Bug Trap"

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no but thanks for asking :')

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never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

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The most popular browsers in different countries in 2012 and 2022.

by @theworldmaps_

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it is past time we jettisoned the useless false dichotomy of introversion vs. extroversion and just accepted that everybody has a minimum amount of social interaction, failing which, they get really weird. and everybody has a maximum amount of social interaction, exceeding which, they get really weird. these levels are different for everyone, for a variety of reasons, and have no moral dimension. and that is all.