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i'm conducting an experiment. everyone who's from an english speaking country state your country, regional area and what you call the following images. i need to see something

#fries #chips #biscuits #cookies #pop #candy #cigarettes #beanie #cotton candy #i dont respect anyone who calls any of these anything differently and i never will. #some crimes (being european or american) can never be forgiven

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sorry this might be kind of a petty ask, but the other day i spent kind of a lot on groceries more than i was intending and considering the situation there is almost no way any of them are getting eaten and will just be thrown out before we leave because i don’t want to spend long enough back in that apartment to eat them, would anyone maybe be willing to help me recoup what i spent on what will probably be wasted groceries? or just. grief support funds because my sister just committed suicide and i’m all fucked up n broke and the grief daze might make me hemorrhage even more funds that i don’t have. IDK i just everything is making me stressed and worried and i have no energy or will to reqlly do anything about it considering. the situation

thank you i love you

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It feels about time that I make one of these anew.

Your Favorite Mean Ugly Black Bitch has not risen above the money troubles. In fact, I am at a severe low at the moment.

As of January 2024:

What comes every month and hasn't been paid is rent & water, electricity, gas, car insurance, rental insurance, and medicine.

What is currently past due and has to be settled for legal purposes is the IRS robbing me and the annual registration for my car.

What I have to fight my recurring and emergency bills for is groceries, toiletries, and sometimes a movie. I'm sorry, but I'm miserable. I should be able to steal from what I would've given that bitch Uncle Sam to see American Fiction!

What I'm begging for:

Anything you have. I currently cannot meet a single bill. Thank you.

I have PayPal

I have CashApp

I have Venmo

I am NeshaTriumphs, and I am not doing well in money.

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It’s a common misconception that vampirism automatically leads to bisexuality but shocking new information from the World Health Organization says that, through sheer coincidence, everyone who’s ever been turned into a vampire was already bisexual. Scientists and statisticians all over the globe are working hard to understand this absolute statistical clusterfuck. More at 11.

#FALSE. sometimes they are lesbians

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bloodbound book pass has been a fascinating experience. so so sorry to gaiusmancers everywhere but i cannot respect you and i never will

#him and his fuck ass BOB #i haven’t read this series since book 3 wrapped up i forgor skull emoji how fucking ugly he is #and kamilah spent a billion years or whatever with that thing…….. #being so serious about this. he looks like he smells like pennies and sour milk. #maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #pixelberry #bloodbound #choices bloodbound #choices bb #gaius augustine

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Being a hot sexy bitch with a huge brain and correct opinions is so painful because I know if PB had hired me for Across the Void, I in my infinite wisdom would have been able to save the series and make it slay.

#REALEST POST ON THIS WEBSITE. I CAN FIX HER!!!

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this might singlehandedly obliterate all my cred as a person with good opinions in this fanbase but across the void is. kind of not that bad.

#sorry i hated on it with the rest back in 2018 or whatever #i even kind of like. god i can’t even say it. #i kind of like pax and eos………… #like dont get me wrong they SUCK. they are AWFUL. the sight of eos’s stupid fucking smirk makes me want to shatter his skull #but like….i have sisters. that IS how it is. like it is so easy to immediately buy into their family dynamics #it’s. god. i might throw up just saying this. god might strike me down for not being a hater. waiting on the thunderbolt rn. #it’s a well written sibling relationship. that i fucking hate them both and yet am forced to peacekeep is so unbelievably real. #and titania is hot. and kepler is hot. UGH. #hardly the best thing they’ve ever written but i see her potential…….i can make her better i can fix her…….. #maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #across the void #choices across the void #choices atv #eos elara #pax elara

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unironically this. sorry for speaking my truth it will happen again. if you’re going to write a cringe incel guyfailure villain you have to put your whole pussy into it !!!

literally the best part of this whole stupid book iwlove weird obsessed horndogs thee villain archetype of all time. he’s so silly. “we could’ve had a life together”, he says to his lesbian ex-neighbour who he’s just shot with a crossbow bolt meanwhile her girlfriend who he’s also just shot is half dead across the room. god i love it here he said me and the bad bitch im going to fumble

#too many sex scenes with channing not enough scenes with markus being a freaky little sicko #ohhhh we can do a stalker plotline in fucking red carpet diaries but GOD FORBID markus’s obsession with us be overtly sexual at any point #prior to the literal last chapter??? #he was out there in chapter 20 like ya btw i’m totally cool with permanently maiming you and holding you hostage. fingers crossed you’ll get #stockholm syndrome-y with it. #LIKE HELLO? GIRL? HELLO? GIRL? ANYONE? WHERE DID THIS COME FROM #he pulls up to the final battle talking abt “even as a monster i’d know you anywhere” and “mc is mine” #as if a mere 2 chapters ago he wasn’t exhibiting like. relatively normal behaviour for a werewolf hunter around a prospective werewolf. #sorry for putting more thought into their stories than the pb writing team does it will happen again #but does it not stand to reason that markus ought to be everything channing fears they are??? #we spend the whole book dancing around channing’s feelings bc channing is scared they’ll end up trapped by and trapping mc #they’re afraid of this casual college fling devolving into a deeply toxic and obsessive relationship that neither of them can ever escape #even though they do crave an actual proper healthy partner. someone they can share their life with on their own terms and be vulnerable with #EYE simply think that markus should be their foil. he should be driven by an explicitly psychosexual obsession with the mc. #he should be fantasizing about clawing open their ribcage and living inside of them. he needs to get WEIRD with it. #hell he is literally like this in canon! but only really in chapters 19 and 20! #just like. it’s in the contrast between markus being willing to go to any lengths to keep mc all to himself up to and including mutilating #them bc he doesn’t actually respect or care for them. they’re a body to him! and a body he’s free to abuse at that because we’re a monster! #a rabid dog! anything he does to us short of killing us is an honour we don’t deserve and killing us would be a mercy! #MEANWHILE channing is genuinely driven by respect for mc as an equal. they want to build a life with them they want to feel safe with them. #they want that soul deep completeness of the mate bond but are afraid that that same bond will rob them of their identity and freedom #SO YOU SEEEEEE CHANNING THE LOVE INTEREST AND DEUTERAGONIST IS DRIVEN BY LOVE #AND MARKUS THE PRIMARY ANTAGONIST IS DRIVEN BY A COMPLEX MIXTURE OF PURE FANATIC HATRED AND LUST #WHICH HE GENUINELY BELIEVES IS LOVE. #and DONT even get me started on how all this is helped along by what lycanthropy is a metaphor for. #werewolf as the id! werewolf as sexual predation! werewolf as masculinity—see f!channing being masculine/butch #or the choices version of butch anyway lol. since they’re too scared to make women fat or buff or hairy. #anyway. werewolf as puberty or in this case a more general aging out of adolescence and never being able to return to innocence/ignorance #i could keep going but i wont. you get it you understand…….. #tldr alpha should’ve been a horror book and markus should’ve gotten creepier faster

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sorry for speaking my truth it will happen again. i think my main issue with valax’s redemption arc is literally just that there’s never a moment where the mc gets to actually talk to her about what she did—there’s not really a cathartic conversation, so valax and mc moving past what she did to them feels less like forgiveness and redemption and more like an agreement to ignore the elephant in the room

like sure we got to talk about our trauma (in chapter 17 of 20. lol. lmao, even) to the party, but valax wasn’t present for that?? and like, sure, she says once that she is sorry “for the pain she caused [them]”, but there’s a difference Tew Me between “sorry for hurting you ig ✌️😗” and actually being like “yeah, i abducted you and forced you into a magically induced coma and stole your blood and robbed you of a full year of your life and repeatedly tried to murder you, to say nothing of the grief i caused your loved ones. i did all that shit and i’m sorry for it and deeply regret it, and i acknowledge that you don’t owe me forgiveness, but i will spend the rest of my life working to build a better world for my people instead of being my mother’s pawn”, and a difference between “my mother is unhappy with me for saving you :(” and actually like, giving the mc space to talk about the impact of her actions towards them. like girl you are not getting out of this shit with one sentence’s worth of apology and a sex scene lmfao!!!

during the first half or so of the book the focus for mc is not falling the fuck apart bc they have a friend group to tentatively piece together and they’re averse to showing fear in front of valax, so they’re repressing all their trauma—and by the time valax joins the party, the narrative has gone full Valax Cool And Good mode, and fully allows you to flirt with her and tease her and generally stops taking her seriously as an antagonist. which would be all fine and good if we had actually at any point gotten to be like, “hey, you abducting me and keeping me in a magically induced coma and stealing my blood and trying to kill me has actually caused me a lot of lasting fear and pain,” followed by some set of choices wrt forgiving or not forgiving her for all that in light of the revelation that she did all that shit bc her mom tortured and brainwashed her

like why are my friends more pissed off about the time this bitch abducted me and did evil little experiments on me than i am. free valax she did all that shit bc of her mommy issues but i should’ve gotten to call her a cunt just once. pb stop making all your mcs generals in the idgaf war challenge (IMPOSSIBLE)

#maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #pixelberry #blades of light and shadow #bolas #choices bolas #choices valax #bolas valax #blades valax #valax #princess valax #valax x mc #JENNY HOLZER VOICE INCORRECT MERCIFUL IMPULSES POSTPONE THE CLEANSING THAT PRECEDES REFORM. #YOU TASTE BLOOD AND KNOW THAT LIFE IS LOVELY FRAGILE AND YOU REMEMBER THAT THE OPPRESSED ERUPT AND MURDER. #the conflict between the shadow and light realms and the nature of the ash empire’s war is interesting. #valax using the mc’s pain as a means towards the ultimate end of a better life for her people is interesting. #but you can’t focus a whole story on revenge—you can’t give your big bad a partly-justified revenge quest—and then just not talk about #forgiveness and vengeance on an interpersonal level. nia forgives aerin no problem. mc forgives valax no problem. #can we get fucking real? and also a grip? and also a clue? do you think i come on this stupid fucking app to swallow rage the way i do irl. #aerin at least acknowledges the myriad ways that he wronged nia and nia gets to be impacted by his actions even a full year later #but EYE am barred from any meaningful discussion with valax abt her misdeeds bc she’s sad and hot? #who let the blades 2 writing team cook 🗣🗣💯💯 #bro out of recipes again 🔥🔥‼️‼️🗣🗣🗣 #bro turned the stove off he aint cookin 🔥🔥🔥🔥🗣🗣‼️‼️ #etc etc. just so many great plot points and characters and FUMBLED execution every time.

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literally the best part of this whole stupid book iwlove weird obsessed horndogs thee villain archetype of all time. he’s so silly. “we could’ve had a life together”, he says to his lesbian ex-neighbour who he’s just shot with a crossbow bolt meanwhile her girlfriend who he’s also just shot is half dead across the room. god i love it here he said me and the bad bitch im going to fumble

#WHAT A FUCKING FREAK IJBOL!!!!!! #MORE PSYCHOSEXUALLY OBSESSED WEIRDO VILLAINS PIXELBERRY I KNOW YOU HAVE IT IN U. #their villains are usually so cringe and one note at least this one is memorable #mind you this could have used more buildup. up until like chapter 19 he still had the benefit of the doubt #his ass was NOT beating the twist villain allegations but the fucking freak allegations were a whole separate beast #and he could be presumed innocent in those. like sure i guess these are just average fanatic werewolf hunter antics. #like EYE had my suspicions. him sending that frat bro to sexually harass mc was a fucking freak move #but like in general he was coming off as someone who was just a normal amount of concerned about a friend of theirs falling in w a cult #like girl why am i following my cringe fwb into the pool house to be all ‘babe this isnt u :(’ #i dont CARE i wanna go engage with the twist antagonist who at this point my mc still thinks is kind of normal/their friend!!! #but alas that’s just pb for you. we WILL NOT stick a landing ever. they make all the new writers swear to never write a villain that makes #sense or is well foreshadowed. ONLY side characters who you would never suspect bc they have like 5 lines in the whole book. #like you’ll never be duffy veilofsecrets you’ll never recapture that magic. #anyway. markus choicesalpha the fucking weirdo cringefail stalker incel loser you could have been…kermit looking out rainy window dot png #maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #pixelberry #choices alpha #channing lowe #markus barnes #side note this whole thing probably has a Much different vibe with a male mc #but as it is it’s like ijbol. channing is cringe and emotionally unavailable but how could you POSSIBLY compare to a buff werewolf bitch #he is so completely not a contender that its comedic to me. you think WE could have had a LIFE TOGETHER? #even if my mc had never ever met channing SHE IS A LESBIAN!!!! SHES GAY DUDE STOP IT LOL #and with a female mc and male channing its like yeah whatever average incel number 10 billion. wow youre going to kill me bc some other guy #is hotter than you? eyeroll. at least channing canonically gives great head.

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it goes against so much of what i stand for to share "palestinians are humans, they have hobbies, they have pets, they laugh and cry" kind of posts because i've spent so much of my life and career completely rejecting the notion that we should humanize ourselves, that we should ever be defensive, that we should entertain this racism at all

but it breaks my heart when i have to share them from people in gaza, who are using their five minutes of internet connection, their 25% of battery charge collected from a macguyvered car battery, emotionally exhausted, thirsty and hungry, sleeping in schools that have turned into refugee shelters and still making the time to say "please, i am human too, i am still alive, please fight for me" in english to appeal to the only people who have the power to help

i shared a tweet from a jjk artist in gaza i follow about a bts photocard being found in the middle of the rubble. even the love of anime and kpop and sports is no longer just a hobby, but an appeal to humanity. what was once a source of joy is now proof of life.

the worst part is that you won't find this content in arabic. palestinians don't post like this in arabic. but when they translate themselves, they recognize that they must humanize themselves first. it's an unspoken understanding of dehumanization, one that has dictated a whole region's understanding of the value of human life. in arabic they speak with dignity, with anger, with sorrow. in english, they appeal for their existence.

i share these posts not just because we have to reach everyone we can, because im being asked to and i will not refuse. but i also share them because they're evidence of how deep the racism has run. at what dehumanization leads to. of war crime after war crime. this too i will not forget.

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people talk abt riverdale all the time as an example of ridiculous television bc archie fought in world war one and then got raptured or whatever but they all really forget that once upon a time was the og. remember how runplestiltskin was also the crocodile from the captain hook story (in addition to being th beast from beauty and the beast) bc captain hook fucked his wife but they're both unjted in hatred for peter pan bc peter pan was rumplestiltskin's abusive father. And that was all established by season two

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‘I wish for death’ - Twelve-year-old Alma says. She fled bombing and shelling twice before the third place they sheltered was bombed, She was rescued from the rubble only to find out both her parents and all four of her siblings had been killed. She found her 18-month-old brother in an unimaginable state. Her little brother was beheaded from the rubble after the IOF massacred them.

Source: BBC

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03/22/24

Please help a homeless trans woman fix her car!

Charlotte and her dog are homeless, living in her car. She recently was in a hit-and-run car accident which damaged her car’s side door, so it won’t close all the way. She needs to get it fixed in order to stay safe and warm! Please help if you can.

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Palestine has hope. Say it with me. Palestine has hope. Palestine has hope. Shit like this has happened in the past, and there have always been survivors to tell the tale. Palestine has hope. Palestine has hope. It’s true.

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apologize to him