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You know you are doing something well when the nurses at your unit greet you with a kiss on the cheek.

I fear have already reached my peak in my internship.

#this #the best compliment ever

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Nurse giving me report on a patient: and by the way so you’re not caught off guard, he has a tattoo that says “confident fag” on his chest

Me, a confident dyke: haha nice

The nurse: what?

Me: sorry I’m also gay and think that tattoo rules

The nurse: ????????

Me:

Me remembering I don’t hear so good: what did you say the tattoo was?

The nurse: a confederate flag

Me: OH NO WAIT OOPS

#well… #lmao

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Intern: Are you okay?

Nurse: I haven’t had a second to rest all day with all of the new orders you guys have been giving me…

Intern: … you are not going to like what I have to say.

#oh damn #guilty as charged #I feel called out #massively #sigh #residency #medblr

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Doctor: What lab parameters would you ask for?

Intern 1: To the patient or to the pleural effusion?

Intern 2: The pleural effusion is part of the patient, you dumbass.

#well… #lmao

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Yeaaaay, they postponed our annual performance reviews, so now I get to stress about it for another three weeks 🥳

#whyyyyy? #(because my boss is always busy obviously) #sigh #I want to get this over with #residency #medblr #surgery

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I don't know if it was med school, residency, depression, or just the general and ever-increasing stresses of adulthood, but I feel like my potential for creativity and creation is dried up. I try to write, but I don't want to. I try to paint, but I don't want to. I went to all the trouble of hauling my old piano into the new house, yet I've touched it maybe 5 times. I was artistic once. I don't know where that part of me went. I am just so mentally exhausted all the time! All I have the cognitive bandwidth for is staring into space or sleeping.

#I feel this a lot #only this recent vacation to another continent #combined with an orchestra project #has managed to get me into creative mode once again #it’s the first time since I’ve started residency that I feel my head is actually out of the hospital #its hard #residency #medblr

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WHEN YOUR AGGRESSIVE PATIENT SUDDENLY WAKES UP FROM SEDATION

#well… #lmao

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#mood #how dare you call me out like this?

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Today I had the best time volunteering for a teaching project (which is led by our chief vascular surgeon).

That is, apart from the fact that we ran into some of our abdominal surgery attendings, who gave me a massive (verbal) side-eye for technically hanging out with the vascular surgeons in my free time. (Some of them don’t really see eye to eye, both medically and personally).

And I’m soooo sick of it, can’t I just try to figure out what I eventually want to do with my career without having to navigate a social and political minefield?

#yes I am technically an abdominal surgery resident #but since we are a general surgery department we do both thoracics and vascular as well #and both have been pursuing me to switch to their respective subspecialties #it’s putting a lot of stress on me tbh #because there are a lot of expectations #and I’m a stupid little people pleaser and I don’t want to disappoint anyone #and also I get excited by so many things #I get excited by pancreatic surgery as much as aortic surgery #though I’m at a point in my training where I do neither #which is ok btw #but how am I going to figure this out? #especially if everything I dip a toe in one department the other two get offended #and also there are some co-residents who would be very happy to have less competition in their respective fields #so there‘ll always be comments there as well #if anyone has any advice #please let me know #this is stressing me out #(and yes I do realize that this a very first world problem) #it’s still stressing me out though #and there is sooo much to finding a good mentor #I probably overthink this wayyyy to much #but yeah #After two weeks of actual vacation #(like actually being on another continent doing something completely unrelated) #my brain took the first best thing to cling to #sigh #resa rambles #residency #medblr #surgery

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“I’ve gone up and down so many stairs during these weeks, I feel like my Achilles tendon is going to snap at any moment.”

Shoutout to that one hospital where my average flights of stairs climbed per day were 35, and they got to 60 when I had a 24hr shift.

#shout out to where I did my anesthesia rotation during intern year #where the OR was one one end of the hospital on ground floor #and OB/GYN including the delivery room on the other end on the 8th floor #you did not need a workout after those emergency c-sections #I’m breaking a sweat just thinking about it

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#well… #lmao #academia

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“There’s three things an intern should never say no to: food, sleep and going home.”

Wtf is an intern?

#this #words of wisdom #residency

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Anatomically Correct Skeleton, 1/5th Size Scale - Free Crochet Pattern Includes All 206 Bones: 👉 https://buff.ly/3sxUOW6

#medical art

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This has been a reminder

#this #lmao #cancer

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#im 18 months away and I don’t see myself getting my shot together until then tbh #lmao

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#this #why am I like this?

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daily reminders

no human being is 100% happy 100% of the time

being a person is extraordinarily difficult even in the best of times

this is not the best of times

someone is grateful you exist (don't argue, it's true)

a bad day does not predict a bad existence

it's gonna be okay

#this #mental Health