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Fat lasts longer than flavour

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this photo. it’s this photo

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hey guys 🤷

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i don’t think i’m gonna be posting many updates or much oc anymore lol i just feel like trash about myself and that’s all i’ll still be lurking a bunch tho lol so interact

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What kills me is that I don’t have to imagine what skinny feels like—I’ve felt it.

I remember what my legs used to look like in shorts and how my collarbones popped. I so desperately want to get back to that version of myself

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even though i binged one day and high restricted for a week and a half i still haven’t gone over 1500 a day and i’m not gaining, not losing either tho. need to work out and get back to my normal schedule of eating and exercising

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god so i made it thru my first fast day until the evening and i ate ~625 cals but i still feel so guilty and stupid for not fasting. and now i rlly can’t because i work the next 3 day

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didn’t even wanna fucking weigh myself this morning lol i need to restrict hard n fast more to get out of this plateau

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ugh so for some fucking reason i binged yesterday night, it was ~2,000 cals so probably won’t gain much but still ughfbbfnf so i’m gonna fast today and go to the gym

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well i’ve fasted all day so far, and i don’t generally eat in the evenings as a personal rule so i’m probably good for the day. hopefully i can continue my fast for tomorrow, it just depends if i feel ok enough to go to the gym bc i /need/ to go to the gym so that’s my priority. but fasting + gym is ideal lol.

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R E B L O G   IF  ______________

I can randomly pop in your dms 

I can go to your ask and ask random af questions 

I can vent to you 

I can potentially help you (i.e, Self Harm/Suicidal Tendencies, Personal issue at school, and weight loss.) 

I can Send you cute songs to help you smile 

I can Send funny ass memes to make you smile 

I can be your friend through the hard times and even forever 

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kinda want to go on a long fast like 3 or 4 days since i’ve been restricting higher the past couple days

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Inspo for today🥀

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i’m back from my camping trip! and i didn’t gain at least so it’s back on track from now on

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