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Rage Room Rewrite

"Yeah. Well, thank you rage room." Olivia laughed, glancing around the messy room filled with shattered, glass, old furniture scraps, and broken junk.

"No, thank you," Spencer corrected her, knowing that he would not have found such a positive outlet for his feelings if not thanks to her innovative thinking. He spent days upset over Coach Baker and Jordan's secret, running himself ragged trying to process his frustrations. It seemed like nothing and no one could help him overcome his dilemma without it turning into a screaming match or pointless conversation where Spencer felt he wasn't being heard.

Jordan and Billy wanted him to understand the positive side of Coach B coming to GAU. Mama Grace believed Billy should stick around Crenshaw, but could not say that the opportunity to rebuild the GAU football program shouldn't appeal to Coach Baker. And while Spencer loved the idea of Billy being his head coach once more, he didn't need Billy as much as those boys in Crenshaw. Spencer got out, and with Billy at their side, more great athletes had a chance to do so as well. That was the bigger picture, and it pissed Spencer off that no one understood where he was coming from.

Then there was Olivia. She hadn't known about Billy's opportunity to coach at GAU until Spencer disclosed the news. However, she didn't jump to back her dad as soon as she heard, nor did she act like Spencer wasn't obliged to his feelings on the matter. No, Liv didn't take sides or shut Spencer down for being angry with anyone for dancing around the truth. She listened to him and his feelings on the topic, then gave her truthful advice. Knowing his temperament, Olivia willed Spencer to try to talk to her father again. And like any other time, Spencer would follow her advice because even after their breakup, Olivia had not stirred him in the wrong direction. He missed these sincere talks they shared. He could not confide in anyone as he did with Olivia. She was his best friend before anything else. And it was in moments like this that he found himself missing her the most.

"I needed this," Spencer admitted adoringly, gazing at those beautiful brown orbs he could stare into for hours at a time. He forced himself to look away before he found himself falling into old habits that these loving gazes use to lead to before the breakup.

"I needed this too," Olivia confessed when Spencer broke their gaze, hoping to regain his focus. Her shoulders slumped as she heavily sighed, feeling the weight of her emotions building, resisting the urge to close the small amount of space between them as Spencer met her eyes once more.

Gifting Spencer a halfhearted smile, she was rewarded when he smiled back as they enter a comfortable silence. "Look at that. It's finally happening." Spencer retorted encouragingly.

"What?" Olivia inquired, believing she missed what he caught on to.

"We're finally learning how to be friends again," Spencer replied, grinning as if this were their greatest accomplishment.

"Hmm..." Olivia hummed, nodding lightly internalizing his statement, trying to process that the guy she spent the afternoon putting the moves on was friend-zoning her.

"What's up?" Spencer questioned, sensing the tension switch between him and Olivia as her body tensed and her expression faltered.

"Can I be honest with you for a second?" Liv asked, biting her bottom lip nervously, desiring to work out the problems inside her mind.

"Always," Spencer insisted, his hand grazing her outer thigh, "Hey, look at me."

Swallowing her pride, Olivia finally glanced at him, her unease conveyed in her tense state. "Alright, so full transparency, I had ulterior motives for bringing you here today?" Liv confessed, rubbing her hands at her side, nervous to see how Spencer would react to her actions. "I wanted to help you work out your frustrations, but I also hoped to get you alone for a few hours. We hardly hang out as much as we use to, and when we do there are always other people around. Plus, now you have Alicia..." Olivia's voice dragged out, unsure where to go from there without sounding like a bitter ex.

"And you have Noah, so what's going on," Spencer grumbled defensively when Olivia dropped Alicia into the picture as if there was a problem.

"Noah is just a friend. A colleague at best, since that night I shut down any potential 'thing' we might've started." Olivia immediately revealed. "There was no point in leading him on when my heart wasn't really in it." She continued bravely, refusing to tear away from Spencer's confused gaze, as he remained unable to see where this was going.

"I'm sorry that I'm rambling," Olivia mumbled, rubbing her hands through her fallen bangs. "You spent all this time saying how you hate when people aren't honest with you. So I want to be honest with you about what's on my mind."

"I'm listening," Spencer assured Olivia that she had his undivided attention. "Say what you need to say."

Reaching for his hand that provided a comforting motion on her thigh, Olivia topped his with her own.

"My light never dims around you, Spencer." Olivia started off by rebutting his claim from the night he broke up with her. "Not even a flicker." She tried to help him see, tightening her hold on his hand.

"Liv..." Spencer interjected gently, finally understanding what her babbling from moments ago was building up to.

However, Olivia found herself on a steady roll and wasn't going to let anything else stop her from disclosing her truth.

"I don't want to learn to be friends again, because we're more than that." Olivia shut down his revelation of friendship from earlier. "And it was damn hard to get there." She added, mentally recollecting all the turmoil she went through before she was able to officially call Spencer hers.

She endured putting her feelings aside to watch him date her best friend, Layla. Only for Layla to manically break up with him during her depressive episode, thinking Spencer would be there waiting when she got better. Then the world spun when Spencer took a bullet for Liv, connecting them in a way that-- still to this day-- no one will ever understand. It was no wonder why Asher never stood a chance once Spencer finally realized he'd fallen for Olivia, and that the deep love was reciprocated. Then Olivia relapsed, yet Spencer was there at her side through it all. And like everything else, they overcame it. It seemed like they were always stronger than any obstacle put in front of them, and Olivia refused to believe that bond was torn apart by a simple article and trivial miscommunications. Not when they already learned from it and were both able to do better.

Hell no. Olivia thought to herself, anxiously biting her bottom lip in deep thought. They did not beat all those past complications only to take 20 steps backward into the friend zone.

"I want you back." Olivia summed up to an indifferent Spencer as he processed everything. "I want us back."

Spencer nodded, still unsure where that left them. "You shut me out, Liv. You ghosted me for weeks. What's changed since then?"

"I know what I want now." Olivia shrugged. "I admit, I walked away too easily that night of the Christmas party. I should have told you all of this when you told me how you felt during those six weeks we spent apart. But this goes both ways, Spencer. I only distanced myself from you because I thought that you needed space to deal with the Garrett situation. When you invited me to the party, I thought you were finally ready to mend fences and come together on how to best move past things. Do you not realize how blindsided I felt when you said you wanted to break up? I mean, damn, why did you even invite me over to begin with if you were going to pull the rug right from under me." Liv cried out, finally detailing the pain she felt from the Spencer giving up on them.

"I didn't mean for it to happen that way, Liv," Spencer swore, grazing the palm of his hand over Olivia's cheek where tears rolled."I spent weeks waiting for you to reach out, then I saw you around campus happy -- without me. I figured letting you go was the best I could do for you before we really hurt each other. I didn't mean to blindside you. When you didn't fight with me over the breakup, I started to believe that I did the right thing for both of us. Then everyone kept telling me I needed to move on, so I tried to. But you were still my main thought when I woke up, during my classes, on the field, when I hung out with the guys, and before I went to sleep. You were everywhere and nowhere at the same time. It was driving me crazy, in the beginning. Then I met Alicia, and we started to chill. Suddenly the pain became bearable. I had a distraction. Then my mom's wedding happened." Spencer noted, thinking back to those interesting events.

"We reconnected," Olivia recalled. "In layman's terms anyway." She added, remembering the night of passion they shared.

"We did," Spencer confirmed. "And I found you again at the reception, hoping we'd be on our way to having this type of discussion. But you shut me out -- again." Spencer huffed at the memory of her blunt response that afternoon.

Closure my ass. Spencer remembered thinking to himself after hearing Olivia's excuse for not wanting to hash things out that day.

"I was hurting, Spencer." Olivia sighed, unwavering. "Sure, we'd shared this amazing night together, but you were seeing some other girl while I was still in the mourning stage of our breakup. How do you think I felt knowing that while I was missing you, you were already out single, and ready to mingle?" She scoffed. "I mean the #SmashTour?" She groaned, making air quotes, causing Spencer to laugh. "What is so funny about that?" Olivia moaned, shoving at his side.

"First of all, that idea was all J.J.'s doing." Spencer gagged, regaining his balance from her push.

"Oh, was the fast little hoochie you were seen with all over IG J.J's doing too?" Olivia asked, shutting Spencer up real quick. "Didn't think so."

"C'mon, Liv. I didn't do anything with ole'girl." Spencer shrugged. "I even hit you up that same night, but only got as far as your voicemail."

"Sure, did." Olivia snubbed, her residual jealousy still evident. "My point is, you've spent all of this breakup doing things you thought I wanted you to do, right? You thought I was unhappy, so you let me go. I told you to be happy so you found a new girl. You saw me with some new guy and I thought it meant I was over you and ready to be friends again. This entire breakup was about me not voicing what I really wanted from the start, Spencer. Well, I want what I want; and I want you. It's not the best timing. Not the most romantic setting either. But it's the best I've got for now." Olivia concluded, desiring her best foot forward would show how serious she was about rekindling what they lost. "I know Alicia makes you happy and she's easygoing and things with her aren't complicated." Olivia begins to list all the reasons he probably would choose to stay with his new girl.

"Liv, slow down for a second, will you?" Spencer coaxed, sensing how far off she was beginning to go. "Listen to me for a moment. "You're right, Alicia is great. She makes me smile and we have a good time together."

"Just what I wanted to hear." Olivia sneered, no longer able to hold back her disdain for witnessing another woman in Spencer's life.

"Hold on, just listen." Spencer gently demanded. "Alicia is all those things you said, and probably more." He said, giving props where props were due. "But, Liv, Alicia tried every mechanism in her artillery to get me to open up about my problems with your dad and Jordan. No matter how hard she tried to make me feel better, I wouldn't budge. And it wasn't for a lack of trying. Believe me, I've tried to let her in. To reassure her that she was doing great and that I was happy to have her help. Problem is, she knows and I know that there are dynamics that she does not understand. Things at play in life that she probably will never understand the depths of. Then you showed up at my door, and in a matter of moments, you had me talking. Same thing with today. I can talk to you in a way that I can't do with anyone else. That's never going to change. And I can try to say it's because you're a good friend who understands me well, but it's more than that." He finally admitted, sculpting her face in his hands. "You mean more to me than that."

"And Alicia?" Olivia mumbled, on the verge of tears.

"She's a good person, who I really don't want to hurt." Spencer sighed in dismay. "But she deserves better than someone whose heart isn't all in it. And that is exactly what I'm going to tell her after."

"After what?" Liv's mumbled in a whisper as her eyes danced in direction of Spencer's lips.

He hadn't answered. Only brought her lips to his mouthwatering kiss.

Cupping her right hand around Spencer's neck, Liv lures him closer. Lightly nibbling his bottom lip, she is greeted with gentle laughter from Spencer's terrain. Weaving her manicured fingers around the nape of his neck, Olivia doddles on his skin as he deepens the kiss.

Devouring his mouth sweetly, Olivia reexplores him, after months of being deprived of his intimate affection. Dancing with his desirable tongue as he played tug-a-war with hers. Spencer's inner walls are moist and welcoming. Tingles spread on her like wildfire as dangerous, sultry desires swirled within her mind, signaling to Liv that it was time to stop. Drawing their lips together one last time, Liv nuzzled her nose to his, before gently breaking away.

"After that." Spencer finally responded, earning a playful eye roll from Olivia.

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