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dsmpkinfessions · 11 days
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i like the sbi family dynamic and like seeing it make other people happy but. That just wasn’t what i remember and it feels so weird, yknow? Wil was the only one who was my son, and even then he wasn’t really even ‘mine’ in the typical sense. I could ramble but i want to keep this a bit short, maybe one of these days I’ll stop being nervous and send a canoncall to the blog for that.
-🪲 Phil 🐦‍⬛ (tag as fictive please, not kin)
(Claiming that, as i do not think we have talked here before)
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dsmpkinfessions · 11 days
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i’ll never have the same life i had then, and i’ll never see my husband or my best friends again. it honestly eats away at me worse then anything <:/
-tom 📀🧭🦋
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dsmpkinfessions · 14 days
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I miss my Phil. I feel like it’s foolish at this point but I can’t help but still hold out hope that I’ll find him again one day. I miss others too, I miss others a lot but that’s the one that still gnaws at me every time I think about this life, which is extremely often.
- 👑Tek’no🩸
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dsmpkinfessions · 14 days
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pros and cons of being a non canon chara;
pros, im awesome. cons, i miss dream beyond comprehension despite the fact he likely does not even remember i exist despite saving my life and then trapping me in a whole other fucking realm to keep me safe. but yeah pros: i don’t have beef with anyone!!!!!!!!!!
— uh, a very lonely end keeper.
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dsmpkinfessions · 14 days
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i really wish there was more stuff about how things were for me, though guess i’m canon divergent in some ways so it makes sense that there isn’t-
i don’t remember shit about wilbur phil or techno but i could tell you everything about tubbo and purpled, and FUCK DO I MISS THEM SO BAD.
my best friend and my husband, I MISS YOU I MISS YOU SO BADDDD :( i would do anything to sit in a field of flowers together again
-tom (first time submitting anything, can i take 📀🧭🦋 ??)
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dsmpkinfessions · 15 days
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every time i think about tubbo i just want to tug on his little fuckin goat ears i just wanna tug on them (lightly!!! of course) and annoy him 💥💥 the urge to annoy my husband is so strong - tommy
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dsmpkinfessions · 15 days
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cw talkin about exile //
thinkin about exile again. idk how to explain it but in the beginning it was brighter. like yeah i was pissed and upset and definitely strugglin but sometimes dream was funny and the sun was still shining.
but then it got worse. darker. i remember dark cloudy days. i remember always being cold. i remember sitting on the shore, with the water at my feet, just staring at my compass. every day i wished someone other than dream would show up, that someone would help me. i hallucinated a lot. saw tubbo come out of the portal. but he was never actually there.
i remember the smell of rain mixed with gunpowder and ashes. i remember the feeling of my tent, the bed was so uncomfortable, and the rain would still get to me through the flap. it was pretty shoddily made. i remember the really windy nights, it was annoyin cuz the tent flaps made so much noise flapping around in the wind.
the worst part is that sometimes i find myself wanting to go back, hoping to be fixed.
ok anyways! im normal and good and fine shits just crazy innit -tommy
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dsmpkinfessions · 18 days
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For Tommy’s canon. I miss Dream. He wasn't good for me at all but I still really miss him. He was like a brother to me though, before everything that had happened. He was there for me more than Wilbur and Techno ever were. After creating L’Manberg, Wil started to ignore me and I have no clue where Techno went off to. Phil left years ago after his wife/our mom “died”. She was the Goddess of Death and he couldn't even bother to tell us that much. Wilbur basically had to raise me, I guess I just never had time to be a kid and whenever I was, people would hold that against me.
On the other side, for Ranboo’s canon. I was essentially Dream’s prodigy or something like that. That's what I remember him calling me anyway. He wasn't always that nice and I really wish I left sooner then I did. I hurt the Tommy in my canon, a lot. I didn't even know what I was doing was bad because I trusted Dream. Tubbo helped snap me out of it but I still had moments where I would go back to those habits and he was always there whenever it would happen. I miss my platonic husband and Micheal. Our little man.
But for both, I just miss Dream, he was a form of comfort in those times. Even if the rest of what he did was messed up.
-Tommy/Ranboo
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dsmpkinfessions · 19 days
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I'm so lonely all the time even though I'm surrounded by people. I miss my fiances and all but I'd already emotionally separated myself from them when the nuke hit so it's not really them I'm miserable about it's George.
I loved George, I really really loved George, even if he was a dick and we fought and all he was one of my best friends. I didn't get to say a real goodbye to him and I never will. I never got to tell him how much he meant to me.
He let me (platonically) sleep in his bed one night after Dream stopped talking to us and it was the best night of my life, I think. I miss him so much it hurts.
(I'm new to the blog) Sapnap 🔥🐼
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dsmpkinfessions · 19 days
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hi chat im here to talk about my husbands and son again!!
ive always had a really hard time with words and fuckin explaining myself and shit cuz words never really fully get what i mean like. when i say i love my husbands and my son, i mean that it feels like we’re made of the same shit. like we’re fuckin intertwined or whatever. i wish i could say what they mean to me but i dont have the words to and its annoying!!!
ranboo would give us flowers sometimes. i would read michael a story before bed. tubbo made us our compasses again, he was nervous to give me mine, scared id be upset. i wasnt though. during christmas we always let michael put the star on the tree. we would all bake together, michael would be the taste tester. we’d go out into the snow and have a family snow day. when tubbo was busy, ran and i would go for walks. every morning when i woke up, with the sun on my face, tubbo and ranboo would be there.
miss waking up like that. our bed was fuckin comfy too
anyways chat i should go to bed now i stayed up too late playing deltarune -tommy
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dsmpkinfessions · 20 days
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hullo chat, i am back once again missing people ! and missing snowchester .. i dont really want to be sad right now, though, so im gonna share a nice memory of my family instead :}
there was always snow on the ground in snowchester, but during the summer it didnt really feel all that cold, yknow ? (though we still had michael wear a sweater when he wanted to play outside ofc) so tommy, tubbo, and i would set up a little fire outside near the cabin around sunset and help michael roast marshmellows for smores and watch the stars :D . it was always so nice, and usually ended in one of us having to carry michael back inside cause he would get sleepy/doze of listenin to tommy tell stories about different constellations
ranboo -🛡🥀 (kin)
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dsmpkinfessions · 20 days
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I& tend to focus on all the apologies I& myself& have never gotten, but upon reflection I&'d like to make a few myself& in no particular order.
I&'m deeply, deeply sorry to Tubbo for having lied to you about my& plans, for projecting my& own issues on you, for hypocritically involving you in my& own conflicts and drama that you never deserved to be involved in, especially considering the kinda shit you had going on.
I&'m sorry to Hannah for that time I& framed you for literally no reason and gotten you hunted for sport. I&'m also sorry for being just generally mean to you sometimes, even as a joke. That was NOT cool.
And I&'m sorry to Niki for expecting you to deal with my& problems when you already had your own, LOTS of your own on your shoulders. I&'m sorry for fucking off to nowhere without telling you, then getting mad for not looking for me& when you had no idea what was going on. It was unfair to expect of you and it was selfish that I& haven't checked in with you either.
Those are kind of the worst of my& offences, but I&'m also sorry to anyone else that I& hurt that is not mentioned here. I& wish you an easier life now than you had back then.
-Jack Manifold /🔥🔥🔥
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dsmpkinfessions · 20 days
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rolling around on the floor i miss my husbands so bad DONT TELL THEM I SAID THAT 💥💥💥 i hsjhdhsjGRAHHH 💥 i love them iii wanna soend christmas togethtr and get michael gifts ancd hold their stupid fucking hands RAHGHG!!!! tubbo and ranboo get over here NEOOWW!!!!!! - tommy
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dsmpkinfessions · 20 days
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Oh my beloved. I love you and I wish I could've been more open about myself with you. You didn't deserve to be lied to and then left with nothing. Mikey missed you so much. -R🪻
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dsmpkinfessions · 21 days
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God i miss Sam, I wish he could just come back. I don't know where he went at all, he's just gone. My delusions are awful right now, I apologize. - Dream🎭
(new poster.)
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dsmpkinfessions · 21 days
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I don't remember who I am. All I remember is L'Manburg going down in flames, the screams ringing out from... well, essentially everywhere. But it's weird, it's not Wilbur's perspective, it's someone else, someone who lived in that very city. I just can't figure out who.
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dsmpkinfessions · 21 days
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Hey. Niki, if you're reading this, I miss you. A lot. You'd have gotten along with Maya, I know you would've. I think about you braiding my hair a lot. You helped me feel comfiest with myself, thank you.
- Antiphonus/Technoblade (#🌠🎀🪜)
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