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It’s very weird that whenever I occasionally come back to tumblr and look at my post history, there’s very little I actually find embarrassing. There are moments here and there where I was caught in the throes of passion and made or said something that I consider cringey, but for the most part my tumblr is clean. There are very few things of mine that have gone on for 2 or more years that I can say that about. I think that’s pretty cool at least.

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fyi the point of fucking up your data patterns isnt to avoid suspicion. it’s to make EVERYONE suspicious. same logic as the bloc, pals.  protect your comrades, be suspicious. ESPECIALLY if you aren’t doing anything likely to get you arrested.

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There’s always been something really interesting to me about attempting to rationalize long-running episodic media into a logical progression of a character’s (or characters’) life. One example of this, which is expanded on (albeit only a little bit) in one of my favorite video essays by Jacob Geller,  “The Best Simpsons Intro is About Losing Everything You Love”, talks about Homer Simpson’s fractured memory, and how soul-crushing it must be to live in Springfield operating under the assumptions that follow.

One particular moment from this video that sticks out to me is when Jacob talks about how characters’ memories get weird in an episodic tv show that’s been running for decades. Homer Simpson was a middle aged man in the 80s and a teenager in the 90s. If Homer were a sentient being trapped in that reality for decades on end. Never procedurally aging or progressing, only jumping around to the world’s (and his invisible audience’s) pleasure, I think that would be a cosmically horrifying scenario to be forced to live through. There is no personal progress in the world of the Simpsons. Everything resets at the end of the day and runs along tomorrow’s set of rails when you wake up.

Alternatively, of course, one could think of homer remembering being a teen in the 90s and an adult in the 80s as a result of whatever is controlling him implanting memories without a care for what continuity it breaks, but honestly I prefer the first alternative. 

In my opinion it gets a lot worse when you consider that Homer, and by extension everybody in Springfield, haven’t aged over the runtime of the show. But the world has.

Technology and lingo and whatnot update, but the people of Springfield do not. Effectively living forever in the torrential hellscape that is a life on rails, where the only things that are your own are your thoughts and your loved ones.

Another scenario that I think is even more horrifying is, what if Homer was the only one who retained his memories? What if the town of Springfield just reset to zero after every episode? Acknowledging no change, whether it be a visual overhaul of the series or Moe getting a cellphone or whatever.

But yeah this was my stolen existential crisis pill for the day, if you haven’t heard this one already, you’re welcome.

#rant #the simpsons #jacob geller #I basically stole this whole idea from the video and just tacked my own little ideas on lol #but yeah watch jacob geller if you don't already #awesome dude with interesting things to say #now back into my dead by daylight hobbit hole

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#discord conversations

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Pulled another all nighter but this one feels shitty.

My jaw muscles are super weak so eating is a chore and I feel so insanely bored but I feel like most games I could play would either make me fall asleep or stress me out, both of which are the opposite of what I want since I have a dentist appointment in an hour, all of the anime I'm watching would probably not help either. I have the predisposition that I'm going to get more bored and possible die so I probably will.

I think I just need to talk to somebody rn but there are a lot of people I don't want to talk to, y'know? I have a lot of friends who don't share most of my interests even remotely. There are specific people I want to talk to about specific things or play a game with or something but those people are usually busy or don’t check their phones and I feel like just trying to discord call them out of the blue is a little weird. I really just wanna sit in this chair until I feel better but I have shit to do.

#rant

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Fuck this one hits home.

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This is genuinely kind of well written and you’ve left me wanting more.

drool dribbling from your idiot lips, gluggering liquids ineptly from your bowl… “Sigh, milk again” you spurtle out of your lopsided sputtunker. You are small and babyish in stock, head large and rotund, feet hardly a full inch off the ground, unable to confidently walk without the quakes and shakes of your weak pathetic body hindering your forward progress. A few rattles forward, you see him: the towering figure, some 8 thousand feet tall at the very least, staring down at you sympathetically. The Milk Giver. You’re unsure whether to cry or smile at the sight of the shadowed beast, or God, whom offers you treats and occasionally grabs you. The large tendrils, five of them at the end of each limb, touches you delicately. Is this how The Giver communicates?

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#discord conversations

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#discord conversations

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My discord out of context

#discord conversations

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Sup Fuckers I’m back with a rant

I love reading authors talking about books they wrote because either they're still crazy about it or they kinda just don't give a shit about it.

More specifically, I finished reading the 2019 Edition of Battle Royale by Houshun Takami, and there was a sort of author's commentary section at the end of it. Takami seems to have a love-hate relationship with the book, at times mentioning that he thinks there are areas of the book you could barely call coherent, even though I disagree.

He has a really charming melancholy to him, and the conversational style of the commentary really hits home with me. He mentions that the book has haunted him for a decade now; I don't know if that has to do with the embarrassment of putting a book out, and the constant reminder you did so in the form of a hit book, movie and a lesser known manga, or if it just has to do with people nagging him about it and asking when he'll write another book.

The thing I love most about this commentary section, and the part that really inspires me to try writing again, is when Takami mentions how little care he put into the setting. The setting for Battle Royale is bleak and mysterious and unfathomably hopeless and that's all it needs to be. Its just the thing that gives the story a push, and the fact that Takami managed to write such a captivating story despite that notably underdeveloped aspect is really cool.

Even before I had gotten to the author's commentary, I was obsessed with how de-emphasized the setting was. From the start we're barely even in Japan (A.K.A. The Greater Republic of East Asia, if you want to get technical) before we're whisked off to a random island off the coast for the game to start. This lack of information on the setting really allows the reader to zone in on what really matters here. The characters, the choices they make, and the actions they take, and the domino effect that ensues. Everything about this book is in the moment, and the moment is all that matters in a Battle Royale.

#battle royale #houshun takami #rant #comes in #rants #refuses to elaborate further #leaves

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#discord conversations #too tired to properly tag this

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I completely forgot i said this

#JoJo's Bizzare Adventure #jojo part 2 #anime #discord conversations

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I have the funny seal of approval now

#discord conversations #funny